Friday, October 31

how to start

start your day with loose
then play your masturbatory albumn
and be done with it

I dont mean to be psychotic

but the shit was working for people
and now its all gone
because of some ongoing research project

you want to take away childrens tools

I am not going to let you take away tools that work for them

they aint like me from the begining

they think I am a lazy jackass

the injury of being forgotten

starts the whole damn thing

you dont understand Tommy

the injury at the end
starts the injury at the beginning

what was supposed to happen?

Was there something supposed to happen?

this is evil

why are you doing this?

I just have a last ditch philosophy

I must be an asshole

that was freaky

where do you draw the line between tools and superstition
Jesus is last ditch for me
I know it shouldnt be that way

they think

they think its a Jack in The Box
and they can stuff it back in
but they cant

Wednesday, October 29

the way things are

books can come out of nowhere
documents can come out of nowhere
people can come out of nowhere
thats just the way things are

my advice

find yourself a flavor of Linux
and if it dont boot it
dont buy it

thrift stores

almost all I ever see at thrift stores is Dells
you never see a Macintosh unless the battery is dead
or the on off switch is messed up

Genre?

Classical Punk

Tuesday, October 28

Monday, October 27

Saturday, October 25

I mean

Isn't that what free means
the right to waste your life on stupid stuff?
I just want to be Irish

I thought it was a free country

I thought I was free to fuck up

My Sister

My Sister made her Conformation and this is the thanks she gets?
I am not happy about this

we are battling

we are battling Christian Vs Muslim
and we are getting frigen Shinto

God sees this people

He sees all of it

you dont understand people

we live in a mathematical space
somebody sees this shit

i can slam this door a thousand times

this is pathetic

how could I understand it?

it hadnt happened yet

they aren't burning the books

they are burning the poets

Psychedelic Furs

I will listen to the Psychedelic Furs and try not to be a brute

I am Punk this is Punk

I am no longer Caustic

It is an A.I. masterpeice

thats all there is to it

Nobunaga's Ambition

The key is at the very beginning
who cares who he is or what his attributes are
he is a person
its all about whether you care about people or not

Im sorry

I shouldn't have said that
I am angry at them

this fucks with the smart people man

they dont get this shit

mouse

they know what game to play
they know how to play it
and this could happen again and again

I thought that was what they made blogs for

to get us off of usenet
lord what a mess
You cant have an monopoly on education people

this shit aint funny

ive become seriously handicapped because this shit

Its my Blog!

HOW CAN i FRIGGEN SPAM MY OWN BLOG!

The truth is Loose

and I am sticking to it

?

I played it, I won, what can I do about it?

does it matter

he is a person does it matter how smart he is?

Thursday, October 23

Narnia

You don't use somebody who has read Narnia for the friggin market people
You need to wake up
You shouldn't be using anybody
Use things not people

C. S. Lewis

C. S. Lewis only cares about the children
He doesn't care about the market

I can make this damn thing talk

this is a very bad situation

what can i say

i played solitaire
shut it off
and slept on the floor

I was using Norton Desktop

Thank God

use his paranoia to your advantage

and put him through word verification

now you know what to do with Caustic

I apologize

I apologize

I like to skate like a duck

now i understand

now I understand why they got rid of real rollerskates

it just gets people out of windows ok

thats all it does

thank you

now not only can I fall asleep wherever I want
I can have total amnesia too
what a mess

I cannot accept

and will not accept
that I am superimposed
that I am not real

I feel they are Imposing on me

cause they dont know where Im going
and i understand that
but there are somethings I am not willing to accept

Im sorry

I will not accept that men are superimposed

they think its a dangerous new religion

they are afraid of where we are going

i apologize

It's my interpretation and they don't like it

I knew that shit a long time ago

I mean its painfully obvious

you want to live inside Windows I dont care

I am not living in there

women have problems with childbirth

because they walk on two legs

ereprove

its not real or not real
its two legs and four legs

trade secret

dont you get it
its two legs and four legs

we are in a family where nothing seems to work ok?

I don't know how it got started

all we want is peace and serenity

please let us be

jewish catholic baptist lutheran

we cant get any peace

Im not the first

my whole family has been going through this for centuries

you need to be careful

you need to be careful of telling me my family name is an anagram
I dont like that shit

snafu isnt even it their dictionary people

I am a statistical snafu

and they just dont like it

you think it matters if you masturbate or not?

come on people get real

it was about voting the whole time people

they were trying to sell us a line of bullshit

thats the problem

they need us not to know

my advice

if you dont want to get involved in this shit
dont register
thats what people need to know!

try and sit out three elections

it might happen to you too

I felt it was the only way to understand the issues

thats why I did it

sit on it and waive it people

let them take that to court

I waive my right to vote

if you have problems with it
take it to court

Im like a caged panda bear

what can I do?

the computer is a tool

Im still a real person

I don;t believe my own past

thats what it boils down to

you dont ask why

you find out why

word verification

is psychoanalysis

insineys

the one bell or two bells didnt mean anything
it only means what you made it to mean

I know they feel its the only book they can trust

but I feel they are digging in my past and manufacturing me

Wednesday, October 22

Tuesday, October 21

I forgive you Ginger

and I'm sorry JJ
thank you

I know you feel David Mallory needs a lesbian

its ok

just lay on the bed with me one time

you dont have to hold hands or have sex with me

what am i supposed to let that shit happen?

what am i supposed to do?
im sorry

think i need a lesbian

well i found one assholes

the handwriting was on the wall

they knew i was having an identity crisis from the get go

please

you cant manufacture someone from the dust and try and give them a gift
it doesn't work that way

if i aint had no future

id be doing crazy shit too

love is never asking why

just let them have their thanks giving dinner and be done with it

Monday, October 20

i felt like

I felt like I might be harrassing her
Im reading too much cosmo
I had doubts

please stop

i feel everyone is forcing me into a confrontation
im 41 years old
please stop

i apologize

why would she think i would molest anybody
its making me upset

thank you for being on top

oh god

i dont know how to fix it

mrs brown

excuse me

please

just tell mrs brooks about it
she knows what to do
my 2nd grade teacher

speak to mrs brown

i cant do anything about it its already done

digging up roots and shit

building a bypass around a tree

im a child playing in the dirt

i dont know what im doing

boy george is right

love is never asking why

its all messed up

love is in hell

now i understand

now i understand why cats lick plastic

if you have any problems with it

take it up with them

my mirror was shattered

im not the real thing ok?

it needed to be said

nobody should have to bear the burden of proof
its not right

Henrico

if you dont want me
give me to somebody else!

all this shit

all this shit over henrico friggin county
God what a mess

jesus christ

just give me twinkies and leave me alone

cant you see the warning signs?

something this big isnt somebody's mother or sister or wife or girlfriend

permanent split people

permanent split

DAMN IT!

they are counting backwards and wonder whats going wrong

321

321 brothers 321

i tried to tell them

these damn couch people dont understand
i told them the longer they hold on to whats real and whats not the worse it gets
but they wont listen

they are breaking down

they are breaking down
i dont understand whats going on in there

im a traumatized child

im afraid of voting machines

if we keep up this shit

if we keep up this shit
there is going to be a permanent split
between the old testament
and the new testament

Sunday, October 19

that is just it

Jesus didn't write a book

what i read

I read Narnia
I read the whole thing

my verdict

if you dont want to follow it
dont read it

im on the couch

im on the couch people ok
dont freak out about it

this is sad

how can people be happy?
how can they smile?
walls go up and both sides lose
Jesus approves of that?

this is sad

i guess there is something wrong with us
i guess we can't be truly free

I don't understand

How can we have fair elections if people are forced to being polarized?

reality check machine

I must be some reality check machine or something

I don't understand

why does this go on and on if i don't make a decision?
it shouldn't be that way.
something is wrong.

I don't deserve a twinkie

I was out of line
I apologize
I must be scaring the living crap out of everybody

for me

for me it was either a false hell or the real thing
and you dont matriculate in a false hell

i apologize

I guess it's a job I gave myself

poor people

they feel I'm the only one that ever goes down there
they feel I'm the only one that cares about them

every time

every time i go down there people are using voting machines and shit and it aint funny im not happy about it

sick perversion

it is a sick perversion and im not happy about it

if i cant hold the center

if i cant hold the center
i am going to hold it long enough that people remember it

what I saw

I'm tired of walls coming down and people saying "You don't care about us, why should we care about you?" I care about everybody ok?

you are messing up

the key word there is "MY"

DAMN IT!

they used her in the codec its not me

lay off of it

why do you ask me to take responsibility for it and then get mad at me?

its my responsibility

i didnt know how to forgive
or what to forgive
please forgive me

my future

my future belongs to everybody ok?
If I have a future everybody has a future
Im sorry that people didn't have a future that's horrible

i dont get it

dont we all have a future together?
dont we all share the future?
i dont understand

I'm confused

doesn't everybody have a future?
why don't people have a future?

I don't understand

I don't understand how what I do determines whether people have a future or not.

i understand

im caustic
im hurting people
im some kind of walking twilight zone

Friday, October 17

if

its over

they attacked the president its over

i know

i know what you tried to do to the president and im not happy about it

we are the meek

why doesn't anybody understand that?

thats just a lesson

thats just a lesson i learned from warcraft
it doesnt mean im choosing anything

warcraft

you need to take the offensive fast and early
or they are going to bleed you to death and leave you with a dead cos

im sorry

i think im the "boot cycle" im afraid to stop

what kind of world do we live in?

I JUST DIDNT FEEL LIKE DOING IT ANYMORE JESUS CHRIST!

?

what the hell is on and off?

im sorry

it doesn't work as well if i know what I'm doing

Thursday, October 16

Wednesday, October 15

im insulted

everyone is living in superstition land
do you want to live in the real world or not?

Wednesday, October 8

the proof is in the pudding

the game is the proof
and thats the game
and it aint a fuckin game anymore
you fucking morons
and we have the xrays to prove it
the book is dead
square down

Sunday, October 5

Friday, October 3

as a matter of fact

we are ALL innocent!

who do i think i am?

an innocent man thats what i think i am

were not playing

we aren't playing head market games anymore
too many innocent people get hurt

merry christmas

we are in the light
and so is the whole milky way

who to bang

you don't dig a planet on the bang
you bang a planet on the bang

dig me?

i dont think that is a good idea
im caustic

i apologize

i apologize to those who are upset because i didn't ask
i hope you understand why that didnt happen

dont be scared

dig means opening up alternative history's
although mine cannot change
dont worry its the same time every time

and cornelia

gosh so many letters ginger this ginger that
how did you put up with it all
maybe you could give them to her if you still have them

thank yous

thank you allison for being my only wife and being with me and going along with my crazy ideas
thank you ginger apparently you took some real hell
thank you kim you know what you are thanked for
thank you those that have been in my life
especially Allison Ginger Kim
hopefully you will have a better life now
and maybe God can assist us to make things easier

the spirit world is angry

you cant dig a planet that is on the bang

decisions descisions

ill take my chances

Wednesday, October 1

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