they are insulted

they are insulted I call them a figment of my imagination
but what else should I call them?

figment of my imagination

I know "figment of my imagination" is insulting
but I couldn't see them in a million years
I couldn't see them if I tried

there is no forsaken

they are lost

I can't see them

I am never going to see them
they are fooling around with Davids that do not exist

mother nature does not need to listen

and father time doesn't care if he is imaginary or not

christianity

Christianity has the ability to shut you out and move on

they need to settle their arguement

we have the ability to shut them out and move on

intractable

You don't ask autistic people to grow up
either I am sick or I am not

time

time doesn't care if it is imaginary or not

this is not once a century

this is rogue

you wont let it out

you wont let it out cause it makes things difficult
you cant tell the real people from the demons anymore

How can anybody be happy?

I am serious.
I do not understand.
How can anybody be happy?

you are making it difficult

just like you think I am

what if...

What if you pull this string and the whole thing unravels?

do they?

is it?
how do you know?

what is wrong with things being important

nature is going to go south
nature is not going to listen or obey

nature will ignore

you can make lists of what can be done and what cant
draw lines in the sand
but nature is going to do what nature does
nature is going to ignore

I guess

I guess we feel too self important to let go.

they want me to be the first....

they want me to be the first schizo to do something or another
I just wish they would leave me alone

it is like this guy said

its time reversal
it is no way this guys fault
he is just keeping his head above water

dark figure

I am a dark figure in American history
nobody seems to understand me

my shit

drives out demons
and gives people headaches

music isnt dog dna

lateral reptitions

prince says there is joy in repetition

It is sad

I am going to purgatory
cause I will never trust God again

i do give

What I give nobody seems to want
if I got a dime every now and then I might be more professional about it

dedicated

dedicated to the fruitless efforts of fruitless minds
the dead end of all dead ends

karmic dead end

you back me into a karmic dead end
and then bitch I aint giving enough
it would take Michael Jackson Madonna and Elvis for this shit

sitting on bottlenecks

this is not fun and its not funny
don't try this anymore

I just wanted to go out

I didnt mean to fall so hard

what I did wasnt nice

What is to be done with me?

Do I have any redeeming qualities at all?

we are not on tour

it has always been this way

tragic and sad

I am tragic and sad
this is tragic and sad
welcome to the garden of tragic and sad

it is like silly putty

it is conducive to being stretched

chicken salad

it is just me treading water
it is just me staying afloat

it is about what can be factored in and what cant

you have to look at it as a piece of software
and treat it as its already running

getting across

is there another schizo that even tries?
probably not cause they see me and know it doesn't do any good

be prepared

I am a harbinger of things to come

the spirit world...

the spirit world turns all of our values inside out

some people

oh no God has lost!
oh no God is Dead!
no people
he didn't have an adversary to begin with

lose the game

save the people

we couldn't have used time travel....

we couldn't have used time travel to fix y2k
if there wasn't a legitimate solution already there

I am like Titor to them

our event histories are opposed
I don't know how it is going to work out

for anyone who may not know already

some have serious issues with whether I am real or not
they think I am an actor, or a computer, or a robot

why do you want to believe that?

why do you want to believe I am a robot?
that I am running a program
can you tell a robot in his dreams he is a robot?
why won't you accept me?

this means something to somebody

somebody is not going to let this go

how do you put information in the past?

information will work

but it needs to be in the past

can we peacefully build a divide?

becaue if it were events

you would have to have wars between worlds just to have peace

some type of divide that isnt physical

spiritual mental

you couldnt live in a world where it had to be an event

is information enough?

information itself is not enough

it is the event that matters

that is my job

the garbage in between

information division is the proper way

else everybody would be arguing over who had the right to do it

and thats what I do elegantly

it is not garbage in garbage out

it is garbage between

it is such an information divide

you can say it all started when

creation

creation is information division

it is an information divide

He sets it up that way
He knows you are going to need something big and old one day

creation is type 1

you get it?

yall are the scientists and mathmaticians

I am a sad tragic accident

why does it work?

because it does something unallowed

911

you dont need to crash the twin towers
just put a loaf of bread in the microwave

believe me

waking up in purgatory is better than that ufology bull crap
and it is never too late to put some math under your ass

if you are bold enough not to believe in God
you are bold enough to believe in Him

I apologize

I apologize for cursing Islam

that is what is wrong with ufology

a lot of them are dreamers fooling around with shit that is going to burn them

I dont know why

I mix shit together and burn myself
it is nobody's fault
it was bound to happen

I know

I know I am not one of you
and I am never going to be one of you

but I have it
and it aint going away

I know

dreamers need to stay away

I was told not to do this shit

that I would burn
but I did not listen

now I am telling you

use it as an sos

a distress call

still dont want to listen

loaf of bread in the microwave

if you believe

you don't need something old
but if you don't
it helps

God knows why

it is a thankless job at times

thank lark's family

this could have been disastrous

I took you on as my responsibility

I adopted the atheists and agnostics

I am here for you

take shelter now

find something big and old
and read it

it is not a philosophy anymore

it is a shelter

you need to grab on to something old people

before it is too late
foristay

I am not asking you to follow it

I am asking you to read it

dont be sorry ten years from now

if we have that long

I did not want to read it either

but it is the best option

dont read the ufology stuff

it is not good for you
big head game that ended with the flood

to all of you

you have to have some math underneath your ass right now
read something big and old

it is about old stuff too

just like I said

it is not just me

it is like I said 10 years ago
there is a big shell game going on

I apologize

I dont know why I have these chicken salad breakdowns

thanks for 16 cents

I wish I could get more of that

it is not about being in front

it is about having something underneath

I am not a wizard like you...

you gotta put some math under your self woman

you need a floor...

just read the bible
it will put math underneath your self

I just dont see what yall see

I guess

just keep ignoring me

I am not the one that makes those decisions

this is an oasis

in the world of crazy and worthless

just help some undeserving slob and be done with it

I know it is crazy and worthless out here

but these people need me
they aint got nobody else

I know you want the real one

and I am messing you over
cause I don't like you anymore

nobody said it was easy

and I am not here to have fun

its just like I said

it is a bitter friggen argument that never friggen ends
you want one of them
choose one

I have gone into lockdown mode

cause you are playing around with me

you want me to feel

but I am not going to waste my emotions on somebody that doesn't love me

you dont care if she actually loves me or not

I do

I felt the competition

my selflessness was genuine

I am the phony

I never really was in competition with the others

justin told me

for general goodwill

deal solitaire 9 times

I understand now

I dont get ahead of them

I shut them out

how to use info set

clear browser history
refresh
click on links until you reach a page where all links are visited

what is happening

is some kind of natural reaction to time reversal

big words

to use a big word in the wrong way means you are talking to somebody

they rejected me

and we got doubled

they took something I said the wrong way

I am the second one

he did not curse the church
but that is ok

I was actually on the road

I was on the road the whole time

I was saved by Japan

that doesn't mean I didn't walk here

thats a transliteration

its not actually true

I have walked 25 years into the future

and I don't feel it for you anymore

I was feeling so good

I was feeling so much better
I had gotten to the point where I didnt think of her for days

either I am abnormal or I am not

you would not do this to someone autistic
or with alzheimers
why are you doing it to me?

there is emotional ability sweetheart

just like everything else

how would you like it if I forced you to take calculus

I am just not good at it

the cat is fine

it is the people outside who are screwed

the medication

I feel the medication is taking me places I could not otherwise go
but thats something else I am never going to be able to win

it was just too much

any halfway schizo would have went crazy

we have all made strides

it is not about the cat

it is whether we need the box or not

there may be other david mallory's

but the question is whether it is naturally like that or not

damn thing

it is all about whether God exists in the end

why does it matter

please stop running that movie in my head
I am going to get new developments to the cows come home

you wanted proof

you got it
he is going to make you quit
else this

oh my God

they aint gonna quit

christ already told them basically the sme thing

we are dumber than roaches

at least they don't pay for their own traps

I love you

I am sorry

you just take the job

you don't know why

I know how to do it

I don't know why

things naturally go wrong

I am trying to hold things from getting worse

I am trying to secure the south

things naturally go wrong

to make things go right you need to cooperate

then east and west...

then east and west have to work together to go north

I told you ten years ago

you have to go south before you go north

nature goes south

its the go south philosophy

it drives everybody nuts

somebody got pissed

we were finding the light every time
and somebody did not like it

somehow I know

somehow I know its more than his retirement

i am going to keep talking....

just ignore me

people had tools

they knew how to use them

me and dad

I dont know where
it was a lot different

thats why I keep telling you

I cant tell you how to use stuff

just enought to make it work

I know you dont like it

but its part nature

it was the idea of a solution that caused it

it had nothing to do with my sex life

it was not an easy street

his kingdom is here

jehovah's witness is right

God is not going to allow it

ours works

theirs doesn't
why should we shut off something that works
even if it could be shut off

I fought for you to have a future

this is ice water

satan...

satan dont want you to know this history people
he wants you to live in the bad old days

it never really happened

dont worry about it

its tragic

but I can't unlearn it

what do you think now?

I was supposed to learn nuclear war was unwinable
I was supposed to learn nuclear war was unavoidable
what do you think now?

study your history

darwin and marx started world war two
God didnt

it only took about three weeks

and its done me good

an understanding

people struggle for an understanding
and if they just turned to God they would have one

I have shit...

I have shit people struggle their whole life for

she must be seeing all sorts of shit...

she must be seeing all sorts of shit that aint real
I dont know how to help

everybody does it to me

why should I single them out

I may be weak

but I am not worthless

I could not be a jarhead

not in a million years

he could be a jarhead if he wanted to

if he thought he needed to be

animals love my father

you try to be a good person
you try to do the right thing
and people have it in for you

I am not the person my father is...

but I am not a sociopath

my kitty is well adjusted

I have done my best not to traumatize him

satan...

satan is filling her head with a bunch of bullshit crap

she thinks...

she thinks she is the mother of humanity or something

yes

its like adam and eve were in splitsville

I wouldn't know how to do it if I tried

she has some sort of complex

I don't think I am here to have fun
I don't think I am here to be happy

why is it dangerous...

why is it dangerous when men can say no?
something is messed up with that
how can Adam be blamed if he cant say no

why would i do that?

I could have done that 10 15 25 years ago
this all would be for naught

you think i came here for nothing...

you think I came here 25 years into the future for nothing
I am not letting this go

I said no

now I know what they do to people who believe

we are having a knockdown drag out brawl

gasible

you have a christian with an attitude problem on you hands

I see things coming

and I will wait until the last moment

they want me to get mad and blame God

but I know better

thats an awesome responsibility
who can do that?
let it all end
could you do it?

I take responsibility...

I take responsibility for the twilight zone phenomenon
but I just couldn't let it all end
I just couldn't do it

I know you want me to grow up

but we ARE children people

Christ already told them

what are you getting angry with me for?

we are in a twilight zone people

just face the facts
I dont know when it is going to end

I am trying to

somebody is trying to stop me

then an 80 dollar check

then a 90 dollar check
and so on

its who you want to write it for

thats the deal
writing it for General Motors aint going to work

and it is not just money either

you can make money by giving money people

just like that

go ahead

write it down
"I wish I had the ability to write a 70$ check"

why should I want money

my life is screwed
I cant buy back a life

how can you prove in court...

time reversal
on that scale
it is ages away

how can I do that?

i am never going to get a check from google
the physics aint there yet
it aint happening

all I have asked for

is the ability to write a 70$ check

lark knows

somebody is going to get money from somewhere

its worthless to even try

thats why im getting off with it

he told me to sue google

but of course that is never going to be allowed

he understands karma too

way better than I do

he understands emotions

far better than I do

he told me

you hate people when it hurts too much to love them

victor is smart

he knows

I am behind Lark

he has Native American heritage
and I am behind him

I know my attitude is wrong

but it is not a perfect world
and this is to the point of abuse

lark knows where this is

thank him

I am sorry

but some people know where this shit is at

that is why we are here

so you know what happens when things go wrong and cant be fixed
its ice water people
please

do you know what the bargain is?

do you know who gets shit when things go wrong and cant be fixed?

you wanted someone angry

you wanted someone on your level
would you rather it be someone else?
do you want me or not?
this is ice water people
you dont know what you are being given

dont you understand the role human emotions play

jesus you cant take them away people

you want to be superimposed

keep on following that atheistic garbage

we know what is superimposed and whats not

keep on believing it

I mean this is basic fundamental shit people

what is freedom?

if people aint allowed to have their own opinions about shit like this

we know it aint a perfect world

so we do a trade off

you think pussy is pussy

and it aint

its a bitter arguement

and it never ends

thats just it

thats why it will never work
I don't think I am here to be happy

she can make it that I never go to the station

ever
so you need to ask her

we play a whole different game

I am telling it like it is

I am not holding back any punches

I want to live a life that is important

I want to live a life that means something
it never means anything with her

I just want a life

it aint a life with her

I give her a life

she gives me a life
thats the way it works with me

I have a major attitude problem

but I am telling you the truth
it is never going to work with her

I think I can be an important person

I think I know everything
its never going to work with her
I am not going to listen to her

i think myself too self important
it is never going to work

satan was lying to us

it could have fell like a string of dominoes
I don't know where it would have ended

the internet lets you stand naked

it is a powerful tool

as a man

I give you points
you are trying to understand

It doesn't need to be walked out anymore

I am giving you my permission to call it validated

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im just looking for some validation

this thing could have ended in 1995
it really could have

frove

this aint spam
its chicken salad rejects

it is your dice world

not his

you labeled it a spam blog

what is it not good enough spam for you?

I can't make my arguement

for anyone to understand
and its just a big mess
and it never gets any better
it just gets worse
please dont force me to go back

I gave it my own chance

thats why we are screwed

everybody else...

I have already given it a chance
that is why I think everyone is lying to me

women are selfish

don't you understand what i am saying to you
it was some kind of fantasy
it never happened
and trying to make it happen
aint going to do any good
satan is lying to you

because

if family is taken care of
there is no guarantee I am going to be at the station

cause its not just me

and family comes first

there was no going back

and fixing the David Ginger thing
even if it was real
satan is lying to you

I am scared

if I had not been an original development
what would have happened to me?

it sounded like a good job

it gave me an identity

that is what its like

when there are no answers
and everyone is lying to you

they are doing sick shit

and it needs to stop
I am sorry I mixed religions
but I had the thunder in my head
I was seriously confused as to who I was

when I chose them as my observers

I did not know they were going to do shit like that

I fought

try to give people a future
and they said piss on it

666

I can have original developments

from now till the cows come home

I cancel any arrangement I ever had with the hopi

dont sell your soul to the index cards people

it is not a wise path to follow

I dont like that shit

especially when they get my father involved
poor man
he thought the world was fair until this shit started

they look at their index cards

and say gee what did we do last time?

its sad

but it is going to take more than I can do to wake these people up

yes even after this

it is just an original development to them

they are atheists

they dont believe in God
they dont see a need for God
its all psychology to them
as far as they are concerned
bible thumpers have anger issues

thats is what they call you

they think you have anger issues

I apologize

I couldn't rest until I knew what was wrong with her

I must be pent up hostile

its a lot easier to get angry with a blog

why do they put all their eggs in my basket

cause they trust me

unboth

they tried to x-file the x generation
filling our heads with crap

and suddenly there was a battle for North America

and nobody knew why

what was I waiting for..

you should know now

they wanted someone they could identify with

they wanted someone to get angry

if satan did that to your sister

you would say fuck the music too

give liberty the gift you gave to me

you must know

Liberty is going to make me sick
and I am going to come back here

I wish something could be done

but I guess
even though people can be held responsible
you have to play the cards you are dealt

1984

I really though you loved me
I was walking on air
it was the best Christmas I ever had
I don't want to judge the perpetrator that way
but Liberty is making me sick

it should be enough the perpatrator is dead

but its not

I could never make music for satan

knowing what he did
and even if the truth was kept from me
I would find out eventually
and we would be right back here

how can I agree to it

when I am seeing what I am seeing

we are past the pont of no return

I have passed my blessing on to someone else

Do you want the line of Aaron to take care of this?

I didn't think so

it can happen

believe me

what if....

what if Moses came down from the mountain
and found you playing cruel games with one another?

thank God I am not president

hytorn

you want to walk around in circles
walk around in circles
i dont give a fuck

want to improve humanity

my ass!

thank God

Nobunaga is the solution to that friggen knot

PROVE IT!

FUCKING ASSHOLES!

USE THINGS NOT PEOPLE!

FUCKING ASSHOLES!

one PERSON can hold North Amerca assholes

top secret

you want to know why the middle east is so important

I am in the kitchen

leave me alone

stop thinking about yourself bitch

this shit is too fucking important

you want a hand off?

you can have a friggen hand off
I am second string assholes

can you remember that?

wait in the wings
be ready to sit in the kitchen

why?

cause I said he was going to set up an oscillation and he did it anyway

it had to be done

there was no way out

family is family

if you need to judge him in advance then just do it

people try to be good people

and satan directly messes with their family
and he is doing it to everybody
and it needs to stop

satan is trying to set up an oscillation

cant you see that?

gently

if something is not done
its just going to oscillate back and forth

that is what this whole shit is about

satan messing with peoples family
and its gonna stop
or the music is gonna stop

whatever we were

or were meant to be
it aint happening
I am coming here
until this shit is fixed
he cant get to me
so he is messing with my family
and I am not going to tolerate that

its a big knot

and satan tied it
its a lie thinking we can fix it and go back
whatever we were
its never gonna happen

three bibles isnt somebodys neighbor

I hold satan himself responsible for this
let him fix it

I had to mutilate three bibles

this does not bode well

higher education is screwed

What are they going to do with kids that were busting games in the third grade?

the kids are alright

they will be watched over and taken care of

I can not believe yall didnt see this coming

I have been trying to tell you for years

they are busting game theory by tying knots

yall are the ones who aint real

you get one good game

and you know how to use it
that is all you need
and once you have one
you start getting more
and not only do you get that
but you get information too
yall need to decide if its a good thing or not
hopefully I have Virginia secure

yes

they are using their games to tie knots

it is some kind of natural instinct

when faced with time reversal

they are tying knots

small kids even

I am one of the oldest you can find aren't I

I don't know how I can help you

point taken

I don't know everything

there is a lot of people like me
and you don't know what's going on do you?

apparently the cruel jokes started at stonhenge

I don't know

why is everybody arguing?

cause England went through an eternity of hell
and they are never going to forgive anybody for it

I just care about people

I let others worry about time and God

it is not a game

we are real nations
with real people
and real religions
and Christ is with us
so please stop arguing

I did something with the pull the plug scenario

that was never anticipated OK?
just leave it at that please!

please forgive them

I can understand why they did not ask you
this somehow has become too important

they called me delusional and schizoprenic

so i just went with it
what am I supposed to do
get all upset over the music I thought was about me
and end up in the hospital
In my case
I feel no information and saturation became the same thing

this is crazy

This shit IS bananas
I can't believe that shit actually happened
please tell me that shit didn't happen
in my delusional state
MIT and the Catholic Church wiped me clean

I don't think they are ever going to trust me...

but if what happened inside my delusional mind really happened
I can understand why
I feel I have been wiped clean
I feel its been over with for a decade

I feel they dont like it...

I feel they don't like it when I make announcements as fact
which I have no way of knowing from their perspective I guess

I feel there is a massive dark side...

I feel there is a massive dark side that has already been taken care of from my perspective

I guess they keep the dark side at bay

they must have took it as their job
I don't believe they are wicked and evil

the whole world could be under this umbrella

but they wont accept it because they don't know where it came from

that is why christ gets so much grief

its not that there is no outside

its that if there is one
nobody knows where it is
and some get freaked out about that

I wish these people no bad will

but I have problems with their
safety in numbers, one man can't do anything attitude

its hard to spam with a dictionary

how about prevalent
you know what I was trying to say

endemic

common to
systemic

why?

cause they were trying to bankrupt the church
over something that was endemic to american society

it used to be like that

it used to be sin sin sin until you die
its not like that anymore

you wanted to say it was endemic to the church

and it wasn't
all of American society was messed up

you having problems people

go sit in the kitchen

there is no guarantee

there is no guarantee we are going to meet again
I am sorry

you want some relief?

then ask for it!

why?

cause they thought they were living in some kind of fantasy land
where they could do whatever they wanted
those times are over people
you want to hold people responsible
we can hold people responsible

I know how to use the kitchen now assholes

so fuck off!

that is one of the things I can do

gather information and lay bombs on people
so be careful

I was molested....

I was molested by 4 or 5 people
and none of them were priests
or regular Catholics
so back off!

you want to hold people responsible

we can hold people responsible

if something has happened to you...

you need to tell someone
no one can help you if you don't tell

the church can do things

please don't mess with the church

I have somewhat of an undertanding...

I have somewhat of an understanding what you have planned
but that must be taken care of first

something horrible happened in my family

and I am not happy about it

God bless the church

let nothing befall the church

I am like Pete to these kids

they are going to bring it back to me too

why...

why is another thing that will drive you crazy
you don't ask why
you find out why

proof is a game

you can free yourself from that kind of thinking

I dont want to play a proof game with them

but I dont feel its genetic

drive them crazy

rest until you lose

they wanted somebody angry

they wanted somebody on their level
well they got it

you wanted somebody angry

so you got somebody angry

prelite

I am serious
I am not kidding around
I am not the one that started this word verification business

tenth

is there safety in numbers?
can one man do anything?
what is your opinion now?

this shit was over before it started ginger

satan is lying to you
this shit aint about you anymore
it never was

from now on

her name is liberty assholes

I know what happened

they want me to offer it as proof and it is sick

I may be not quite born with it

but I cant go back and live in a world of lies

they dont think i am deserving

they dont think I am one of them

real christians are walking twilight zones

thats just the way thing are

yes

the word verification gave me that shit

gated

nobody else asked you friggen morons

God came to our aid

cause I asked him too assholes

I dont care where I came from

its a real friggen government with real friggen people!

I dont want to work...

how would you like to live in a world of lies
you dont know what it feels like

why is it so important?

cause I was the only one to reach over and ask them you friggen morons
thats what its so important

why God?

game theory doesn't belong

it could have been over before it even started

some people just have a "game" mentality
you cant help these people

dont shoot the piano player

I knew they were playing around with sand
I knew the shit was coming
and I did the best I could

why?

cause I know what atheists do to each other thats why

we may not agree on everything

but I am not going to allow people to fall into an atheist sand pit

whether you like it or not

this is too important for you to do
willy nilly whatever you want with me

you would do better...

you would do better to ask for something like that

I am sorry Carolina

you stepped into an atheist sinkpit
they do that shit to each other

theres a lot of people...

they think God doesn't see
but he does see
he sees everything

is this ok?

now is the time to ask

God doesn't speak to me

and it is not my decision

I am sorry

I know there is some good people out there
I feel like they are druging me up and turning me into someone I am not
or have false expectations about me
If this happens again in 2012
its not going to be pretty

you manufactured my ass people!

all of you!
its your fault!
God I hope this turns out ok

why?

cause I had been through enough already
and they put me through even more
I mean damn I was on clozaril
thats last line of defense people
now im on clozaril and geodon and a whole handfull
when are they going to let me go?
I asked them to leave me alone!

this is page one

the main reason for arguments and hatred is people aren't on the same page

if I am here to do an extraction

I minus well do an extraction

the mechanics

"to he who has is given more..."

it is too late to forgive John Lennon

a Shinto rebellion has already started

ive had a serious break

i have had a serious break with reality

its hard

its hard to save the game and the people
sometimes its the game or the people

I know better now

I know that its better to pop than snort now
that doesn't mean I am going to stop snorting tomorrow
I dont know how to pop

what do I think?

I think its been done like this in a lot of places
coming in from the future
they don't realize who's way it is

the more I feel bothered

the deeper and deeper I go

just because

they are deep philosophical questions for me

why cant I feel good?

why can't I feel good about myself?
I can't answer these questions

I feel I am stealing from the ether
I don't feel I am communicating, controlled by spirits
or running a program

I am not calling anybody

its bad enough that I am in everybody's dreams
and that i am talking to the radio

oink oink

it just aint my thing
I never did really like it
I started out with the bends

ive had enough

you have already given me a major episode
I have had enough for now
I can sandwich my posts at any time

I know

I know what is superimposed
and what is not
and so do a lot of other people

keep it up

you keep up this word verification
and i am going to keep sandwiching my posts
you dont want to know what i think

me and henry...

me and henry we arent like other people
we get lost on purpose
I am lost out in goochland somewhere

love wants me...

love wants me to plan and think about the future

?

what does love want me to do?

they were self deluded

they were self deluded and totally wrong about me
if thats my fault I accept responsibility

I told you

I told you not to hurt my father again
but you did it anyway didnt you?
more than twice didnt you?

you know I am an evergreen
you know what evergreens are

dont play stupid with me

dont they already have one?

they are idiots

the whole thing is going to end up as a big head game where the rules dont apply and thats where they want to go
i dont want to go there
its better to pop than snort

I know you think it is witchcraft

but its not
it is an extraction
and its never gonna die
please use it
for else this

please forgive my father

I don't want him to "die" because of me
I don't understand
I thought people sinned sinned sinned and sinned until they died
I don't know why I seem to be confused about something
everybody else knows

its your decision

either it was my idea
or I stole it from the ether

one thing I do know

its better to pop than to snort

I steal things from the ether

that's the way it is with me

it was my idea

I did not learn the lesson I was supposed too
paths and gardens were my idea
I take responsibility for it

ok so now we are back

now we are not only hung up on divine
now we are hung up on sacred

naming the path

this is the path to the garden of Joy and Gladness

I am in the wrong

I am doing things backwards
I need to leave
but I don't know how

no future

apparently that is the assigned punishment for people who use sorcery or magic
but now its so ubiquitous innocent people are getting hurt

apparently

If not me

if it hadn't been me
somebody else would have had to read it in
lots of people all they got
and they believe in it
whether the translation has serious problems or not

who is she?

who is she to make me jump her hoops
to heck with her
I mean its gotten so pathetic and sad
it just doesnt happen anymore
and the deal is
it didnt need to happen from the begining