whatever it was...

whatever it was
it started on October 1 2008
and ended February 15 2009
something happened on the 15th.

I wish I could wear the uniform again.
I would go to Iraq in a heartbeat.

The only proof I have is what I am capable of.
I don't think this is going to be resolved without conflict.

Moving around in four dimensions does something.
Its an actualization.

I know you think there is no such thing as the real world.
I know you think men that do this are angry at women.
but it has moved beyond that now.
The only proof I have is what I am capable of.
Can brinkmanship cease for a moment?

Maybe I am angry at women
but that doesn't change anything.
I have still done something unallowed.
I praise her.
She could of got me kicked out the program,
but she didn't.
I probably wouldn't have graduated without them.

A program crashes when it does something unallowed.
I am free to do all sorts of unallowed stuff.

It is not just Dave's little world.
Dave has done something unallowed.

Ok I admit it
I have anger and resentment towards women.
I don't know how this shit started.
I just feel like everyone is lying to me.

I have performed an illegal operation.
I need to shut down.
Thou shall not suffer a witch to live.

I don't blame my mother.
I blame the dish detergent and the Clorox.
They have a good 2009
and they don't want me to shut down.

God forbid it be the dish detergent and the Clorox.
Somebody is getting something out of this.
I have performed an illegal operation.
I need to shut down.

They are Newtonian.
They don't understand what I am trying to tell them.
Cause and effect can get mixed up on this medicine,
but they won't listen to me.

What can I do?
I know what it is doing to me,
but they are forcing me to take it.
and I am never going to successfully sue Google.
All I have is this damn blog.
Future generations are going to know who was responsible for this.

Now they want to blame Actifed.

I am sorry.
Cause and effect has gotten screwed up with me.

I have had a fatal error.

I just don't recall anything,
God damn it!

I had all sorts of girl friends.
Then I met her and everything went to hell.

I don't have to do it anymore if I don't want to,
and I like it that way.

I don't know where I got this attitude about sex.
I don't know what I am supposed to do about it.

Other singularities don't go bang.
What made the big bang singularity go bang?

A singularity went bang somewhere people.
There are billions of them and nobody knows why one went bang.
I know people specialize and can't know everything,
but I talk to them about the big bang,
and they are like "Is that a good explosion or a bad explosion."
They have gotten a little ahead of themselves.

They think the world exists inside a woman's heart.
They think sex holds the world together.
They think men created the stars to entertain themselves.
They think men are superimposed.
I am telling you, they are nuts.

They think men that do this are angry at women.
They are going to see me that way forever,
whether I am right or wrong.
There is nothing I can say or do to change their mind.

If you understood better what it is supposed to be used for
you might have a different opinion.

I have freed my mind.
I was backwards.
I am on the other side of that mess now.
If that is being angry at women so be it.

My life has split into before and after.

She was only the third girl I ever asked out.
I knew that summer
if she got away from me it would be a disaster.

I didn't know it was a mountain.

I don't mean to hurt women.
I don't mean to make them cry.
I just don't buy into the same shit everyone else does.

I keep losing them forever and it hurts.

Satan is real

Satan is real
and the medicine is not fair play.

You think some piece of paper
is going to get you off the hook of civil disobedience,
you are wrong.

Because they think some piece of paper is going to solve it,
and the problem is bigger than that.
Satan does that shit.

I took it upon myself
to explain to people who are atheist or agnostic
what God and Creation are about.
God is there because game theory doesn't belong,
and Creation is a world that comes out of information theory.

Satan wants to make this about me,
but it isn't about me.
This is Grace.
This was a natural reaction to time reversal.

They laughed at me for wanting to be Ghandi.
There is serious pressure to leave your values around here.

Our generation is screwy.
We came up at a time where everything was known,
Where everything had been done.
There was no frontier.
You got laughed at if you turned the other cheek.
Everybody wanted to have a good time.
Nobody wanted to tackle
anything more serious than presidential kneecaps.
It is sad.

I decided to tackle something serious.

I have two good friends and both of them are atheist or agnostic.
They were laughing and joking about Christians disappearing.
They were like "I have never seen a miracle have you?"
I remember just a few years ago,
one was talking seriously about civil war in the United States.
I care about these people,
but there may come a time where I have to leave them behind.

That is the thing
it aint got nothing to do with QED or Relativity
its all information theory.

Uncertainty is here to stay.

We have had a rouge wave.
The economy is never going to be the same again.

It is silly to even try.
We need to emulate the bible.
We need to set a forgiveness date and move on.

The rich cant keep getting rich forever.
It doesn't work that way.
Obviously.

As the interest rates vary with the forgiveness date,
it would encourage a predictable cycle of saving and spending.

The way things have been,
people double their equity in ten years anyway.

This king of the mountain shit is for the birds.
We don't need to be king of the mountain.
There already is one.

Set a forgiveness date
jack the interest to 11 or 12%
and be done with it.

Uncertainty is here to stay.
We need to modify the economy.
We need predictable patterns.

If we don't move to a cyclic economy,
the only thing that will get us out of this
is war, pestilence or famine.

If socialism or communism can nationalize whole industries,
we can move to a cyclic economy.

everybody's darling

smoke and stare at the flag
smoke and stare at the president
smoke and stare at aunt jemima

Love your President.
Wish good to him.

If I could do the math,
I'd be big.

I am a clown.
Nobody takes me serious.

I know it sounds crazy,
but that is how I got original developments.

If she wanted me to be warm,
I wish she would just knit some socks.

Women can move on and forget about people.
I wish I could do that.

Its better.
I couldn't have jumped 9 cars if I were still backward.

We are not in my matrix.
I use it, along with other things, to point the arrow of time.

I don't like regular people.
I think they are sex obsessed, materialistic, and shallow.

There is so much pressure
to give up what you believe in around here.

You can't jump 9 cars backwards,
that would be a feat.

It was over when we went to Williamsburg.

We were under time reversal,
and everyone was dumb to it but me and Pookie.

This has been the longest 6 months of my entire life.

I am never going to be anything.
They are not going to let me.
They think I have enough.
They think I am the Antichrist.

That's why I encourage piracy.
It is the only way I am ever going to get out there.

I remember when it took 30 minutes
to download a dirty picture.

We don't have to go all the way back anymore.
It stops with me.

I am a loose cannon.
Nobody knows what I am going to do if things get bad.

Usually
someone gets in this position
they are responsible to somebody.

Thats why I need to be in some kind of order or something.

Its what happened to my sister that is pissing me off.
I aint doing nothing for Satan.
My whole life revolves around that shit,
and I was never meant to know about it.

I was always thinking about the past.
I wasn't thinking ahead.
That is why I looked like a automaton.

It just gets me.
I am not happy about it.
I can't believe i was supposed to make music,
and I would have never known about what happened to her.

I could do a 15 and I don't think Jesus would care.
He is not happy.
He said what is tolerated on earth will be tolerated in heaven.

I told the JW's to go dimensional
and it helped thousands of people.

I want something real.
I want something tangible.
Songs on the radio aint going to work anymore.

I am not special.
I just know how to use a computer.

I guess a headache is tangible enough.

I wish you would make me something.
I feel like I have wasted my whole life.

I know you don't.
I got that message already.
Its something I did or started.

People are angry
they are jumping cars
they are having jump parties

It can be like that.
Nobody knows who started it.
I called it that because of Radiohead.
I don't know where they got it from.

That is just it.
Sometimes nobody knows where the idea came from.

That shit happens on the bang.
I don't know how much more we are in for.

I don't know how else to explain it.
Causality does weird shit sometimes.

Satan tried to murder me.
He got me all turned backwards,
and put me through that Turing shit.
I was lucky to do a 6.

I seemed like an automaton,
because I was friggen backwards.
I am lucky to be alive.

I could buy that argument,
If it wasn't for what happened to my sister.

Cause that started the whole thing rolling,
long before I even met them.

I can't get help for my family cause I don't have a key.
It is sick and I am not happy about it.

A third of heaven fell over this shit.
They say I shouldn't blame Satan
for every little thing that goes wrong in people's lives.
What do you think?

I get messed up with the wrong women.
I mean I appreciate it,
but it aint what I had in mind.

I was stupid.
I had it good and I had to go fuck it up.
I wish 84 had never friggen happened.

All the girls loved me.
I was everybody's darling.
and that wasn't enough for me.

I wanted a love everyone would be envious of.
I don't know I was sick in the head.

we are on the other side...

We are on the other side of two 9's.
We shouldn't have to worry about anything for a while.

It was an interpretation error.
I thought I belonged to the order of Melchisedec.
We got a little taste of heaven.

I am just going to worry about the floor.
That burning shit is yall's business.
I am cold, and I am going to stay cold.

I fall for the floor.
I believe in the floor.

There is another Bible here for somebody.

It is the phrasing of the Good News Bible.
I took it personally.

I fought the voices who told me I was Jesus,
but when the Bible said that I just accepted it.

I don't know I can't find it.
the Bible said
"You are a priest of the order Melchisedec,
and I am not taking no for an answer."

I wasn't thrilled.
I am not bragging.
I didn't even know what it was.
I just took it personally.

You would think if you wanted to change the Bible,
You would have to go back to where it was written.
But God can change anyone's Bible at anytime.
And Yours doesn't have to agree with mine.

I wouldn't be Jesus.
I wouldn't be a Saint.
I wouldn't be divine.
I didn't have any problems with being a priest.

He has that kind of power people.
I know you don't believe it, but he does.

You should love God.
Melchisedec is not something to aspire to.

The worse thing that can happen to you is responsibility.

I would be in serious trouble if I were lying to you.

Relax
Watch television.

Radio does this shit to me.
I feel like I have to talk to it.

I am not going to lie to you.
It is scary.

It is when Jesus comes to you
and says as far as he is concerned you are him.

You will know Jesus
He is unlike any spirit you might ever meet
He is like a drill sergeant from Beta Zed.

He will give you a complement,
then while you feel proud of yourself,
He will lay it on you.

He scares me to death.
I don't say peep.
You can tell his presence is real.

What is going on with me is emblematic of a lot of people.
I don't think he is too happy with psychiatry.

I am doing it for the other schizophrenics,
who can't articulate or find their say in all of this.

I would settle for a mix tape

If you are giving people trouble,
sleep on the floor.

If you have jumped 9 cars,
you need to sleep on the floor.

On the ground or as close as you can get to it.

I can't talk this shit to the psychiatrist.
She just totally writes this shit off.
All I can tell her is I am being risky and impulsive.
She doesn't understand this jumping cars business.

They call it OCD.
They give it no validity at all.

People are slamming doors and screaming
and I don't know what to do.
All I can do is sleep on the floor.

They don't know what to do with someone whose magic works.

Weird shit happens on the sofa.

They are living in worlds out of psychology,
and they don't work.
They are lemons.

I am supposed to make a leap of faith to California.
Isn't that sick?

It is sad and pathetic.
I am not going to California.

I know where my bread is buttered.

It means I am rediscovering Shinto.

It is as if I were with a team of virgins
reverse engineering Shinto.

Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

Ami is a bios that was reverse engineered from IBM's bios.

It is a little chip in the computer that makes it boot.

I don't think they mind.
Together we plant a forest every day.

They for give us.
We for give them.

Radiohead for gives me.
I for give Radiohead.

It means you make something for somebody,
and they make something for you.

Damn I mean, I'd settle for a mix tape at the moment.

I don't understand why there are so many wars over this.

I got it all in one wallop
dangerous spirits preyed on me.

Dangerous spirits named Satan and Anu preyed on me.
They get off on that shit.
I don't.
I am not supposed to.

Because it fucks up my math damnit.

I don't do math for that crap.
That is your business.

Creator was there too.
but I don't think he did this.

Creator was just concerned we were making fun of creation.

I can't do what I need to do and feel that way.
It isn't good.

I would be just another dangerous spirit preying on people.

Ok I took it personally.
I thought God was speaking to me.

The adult world is messed up.
You try to be an honest good person,
and this is what happens to you?
I was ready willing and able.

Yall are messed up
friggen couch people.

You use the tools at your disposal
to solve the problems you need to solve.
I don't care if it is Japanese.

I know
Even me and Henry get in arguments about this shit.
God took it from me cause I asked him to.
I don't really want it back.
Yalls world is messed up.

Henry thinks
it is the most awful evil thing
that could ever happen to somebody.
I don't.
I feel blessed.
We get in arguments about it all the time.

The adult world is messed up.
They think sex holds the world together.
They think the world is in a woman's heart.
They think men created the stars to entertain themselves.
For Christ's sake sleep on the floor.

Floor people and couch people do not get along.

They cause trouble for us.
We cause trouble for them.
I don't know when it is going to stop.

You couch people are going to end up marked by Satan.

I am sorry about the neighbors.
They have been pressuring me for years
to show what this thing can do.

It is better to emulate Shinto and jump cars
than to be marked by Satan.

People may get caught in an emergency and not know what to do.

Disgruntled Democrat

What am I Adolf Mallory?
I guess I should have gone into the church.

Blame psychiatry.
I couldn't do this shit without the medicine.

You don't know.
You weren't there.
In my experience it isn't a good thing.

I was preyed on by dangerous spirits who get off on the shit.

Don't you want me?
There are nations on this earth
that would give their left nut for someone like me.

Is the glass half empty?
Or is the glass half full?

I know.
It is like blaming the father for child birth.

I know.
You want to go through it quickly and painlessly.

Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

This shit was set in motion in 1781 people.

Eventually someone was going to end up in control who wasn't elected.
The whole thing was set up that way.
Blame them.

It was set up to be the best Government on earth
until the Kingdom of Heaven came.

I am trying to be non political.
but yall need a history lesson.

How did Washington put it?
"The best Government we could have
until angels come to rule among men."
Something like that.

Do you want me to be Republican?
I took it on myself
because I was worried someone else might do it.

I don't know.
They could deal with it if I were partisan.
They can't deal with this unelected crap.
I can't really deal with it either,
but I saw it coming,
and I took it on myself.

I know it is difficult.
I don't answer to anybody.
I don't like it either.

I am a bully.
I am fucking up foreign policy.

If you saw that would you leave it to somebody else?
What can I say?
The Democrats aint on board with this.

I want to be a Democrat but I believe in God,
I believe in my country.

Yes
I am a disgruntled Democrat.

I just cant bring myself to vote Republican.
I am heart broken.

I mean I loved Carter.
The whole world tried to drive us into World War Three,
and he didn't let it happen.

You can't run the government
with a business card and a box of index cards anymore.

You think this shit is because I started jerking off too soon?
Jesus Christ don't you have any values?

I could take joy for myself,
and I may miss that opportunity.

The Geodon is making me do evil shit
Just like the Zyprexa did.

God forbid there be something wrong with psychiatry.

What can I say?
My brain wants to turn things around.
I held it off as long as I could.

I just naturally fight time reversal.
And the Geodon is like steroids to me.

I can hold back on clozaril.
I can't hold back on geodon.
Jesus I built a ramp and jumped 9 cars twice.

If she wanted to come back into my life,
I would listen to her.

David Lee Roth doesn't struggle with it

It is all dark.
Some people struggle with it,
and others don't.

Nirvana struggles with it,
Metallica doesn't.
John struggles with it,
Paul not as much.
You know when you hear it.

The Who struggles with it,
Led Zepplin and Pink Floyd don't.

The Psychedelic Furs struggle with it,
The Sex Pistols don't.

David Lee Roth doesn't struggle with it.

Eric Clapton struggles with it.
Ted Nugent Doesn't.

You either struggle with it or you don't,
and it pretty much stays that way.

It is hard to name an actor who struggles with it.

Playwrights and poets struggle with it,
but I can't think of a single actor who struggles with it.
It just isn't their job.

It is hard to make the act more than it is.

NASA debated for years on who they should send into space,
before they settled on test pilots.

I can jump 9 cars anytime I want to.
If that's not real, I don't know what is.

I know it causes trouble,
but it is a good thing.
It means we are going forward instead of backwards.

It is better to be fictional and forward,
then real and backwards.

It is like playing piano backwards.
It ends up in a loop no matter what you try to do with it.

If you do a 6 and you are having nightmares something is wrong.
It is a natural reaction to time reversal.

The Dow doesn't like it apparently.

I tell you we are dumber than roaches.

This was supposed to be a decade or two off,
but you know how that goes.

I told Art Bell this shit was going to happen.
It laid there dormant for ten years.
It took me that long to figure out what to do with it.

No wonder people didn't have a future.
Everybody was living backwards.

Was it a nuclear umbrella?
Was it meant to stabilize the financial market?
Were aliens up to it?
We will probably never know.

God is going to take people if it happens again.

Once he can write off.
He aint going to write it off twice.

Let me put it another way.
People are going to get left behind next time.

You want this world to be about forgiveness?
It can be about forgiveness right now.

Madonna loves me.
She watches over me like an angel.

I am out of the arena now.
I am just going to point the arrow of time.
Yall decide what to do with it.

You don't want me.
You want David Lee Roth.
I am never going to be David Lee Roth.

I was never supposed to know.
That is what gets me.

You want it backwards again?
I can turn it backwards.

I care about people.
I am pointing towards the future.
I didn't mean to be in anybody's way.

I want to have a blog.
I don't want to stop.
I have been bullied my whole life,
and I am angry and frustrated.

many world dilemma

I have been through 25 years of absolute hell.
I am ok now.
I have turned around.

You have to turn around.
You have to forget about it.

In the end you have done it to yourself.
You have to let go of the past.
It does no good to ruminate.

I guess I needed a major thing to happen in my life.

Wow, I didn't know the world could be like this.

I don't know.
It is just different.
Something major has happened.

I was stuck in my own mind.

People are having terrible nightmares.
They need to know how to turn around.

It is a math prescription.
It was a natural reaction to time reversal.

I am having a think explosion.

It works on the principle of the "many world dilemma".

People need not be David Mallory anymore.

Strawberries should be a math prescription controlled by the FDA.

It is going to take decades
before this type of medicine is fully appreciated.
be responsible with it.

If you have to do an extraction, do an extraction.
It makes no sense to just take care of one or two things.

I don't know.
He must have had a manual on giving people hangups.
The deck was stacked against me from the start.

I might have followed Satan had he not done this to me.
I don't know why he does this to me.
He thinks it is going to break somewhere.
They all do.

He knew what he was doing.
That shit don't just come to somebody.

I am creating borders for myself which are impossible to cross.

I don't want to collapse the record industry,
but damn this shit needs to stop.

One strawberry can rule the world right now.
Satan is waiting for me to break,
and I am waiting for him to break.
It is a Mexican standoff.

I am going to do a 15 if he doesn't friggen quit it.

God taught me how to do this shit.
I am not kidding around.

You got me all twisted backwards and did word verification on my ass.
I am not stupid.
That shit aint going to work no more.

We have no love loss for each other.

Somebody needs to stop this antediluvian crap.
It is over with.

I know what that antediluvian shit is about.
I have seen it.
It is not good.

You get caught in a paradox
and you repeat over and over until something breaks.
It is not a good thing.

Bruce is one of the good guys.
You can just tell.

The good people struggle with it.
The bad ones don't.