The Head to end all Heads

I was fine until I lost touch with reality.
Now I am trying to make reality and I can't.

I think God appreciates what I do.
It is not a welcome job.
Holding the South is not easy.
You have to know when you have gone far enough.

Far enough to find the bottleneck,
but not so far you need to put numbers on everybody.

If I have to sacrifice for other's freedom
It is ok.

I agree with you,
that is crazy.
We need to find out what is going on about that.

I guess taking responsibility helps you move on.

I am worried about the millions who refuse to be baptized.
They are still people.

You are living with lemons people.
Accept responsibility and move on.

Don't play the blame game.
It doesn't lead anywhere.

You can't have strawberries cause you aren't ready for strawberries.
If God gave you strawberries what would you do with them?

Richmond is a place that revels in its smallness.

As long as you keep playing the blame game,
You will never receive strawberries.

I was responsible for it.
Please forgive me.

The veracity of it doesn't matter.
I accept responsibility for it.

It is my fault.
I accept responsibility for it.
Please God forgive me.

He doesn't have to ask me what I want forgiveness for..
I accept responsibility for it.

That is what I have learned.
The blame game doesn't work.
It leads nowhere.
Write a blank check and be done with it.

Don't you trust God?
Don't you love God?
Write a blank check and be done with it.

Things needed to be put in perspective.

Cause I had no reason to believe God was right,
or even real.

Please do not blame each other to death.

God is working in my life.
I don't think there is any doubt.

I am stupid for Ginger.

What do you do with a case of the stupids?

I don't think anything good can start with a desecration.
It either belongs or it doesn't.

I did what was necessary,
and I would do it again if I had to.

I care about my flock.
No one can say I don't care about them.

I did it cause I cared about the damn flock.
There is that good enough for you?

I believed in a false fairy tale.

I am tired of criticism about that.
I have more than explained myself.
If that is what you want to gig me on so be it.
I accept responsibility for it.

I brought it on myself.
I don't know why.

I have learned the blame game doesn't work.
I know now the next time judgment comes around,
that I have to live up to what I have done,
and that playing the blame game
defeats the purpose of judgment.

It is like sleep.
It comes and we need it.

You live up to it, and you say what you have learned.
Don't fight it.
It is like sleep people.

I don't know.
I thought spider woman was going to terraform the planet.

I have learned not to mix religions.

I was told to do it because I mixed religions.

Things go south and time marches on.

I know he gets frustrated with me.
I just hope he appreciates what I do.

I would rather people believe me,
than believe Zecharia Sitchin.

I just want to share.
This is what is going on in my head and I want to share.
I think it is important.
Maybe it will help somebody.

It is an as if.
I think everyone understands it is an as if.

Heads like mine are expensive.
The average person doesn't have an in to heads like mine.
I am making it available to everybody.

Sometimes I do.
And I am able to be in character and role play,
but in the end it is just an as if.

An as if is very real.
and it is not easy.
I believe they buy and sell heads like mine,
but I don't know how or why.

You almost have to be in denial about it.

Maybe if I do my job well enough they won't have to do that anymore.

I am lazy.
I don't want to do it the right way.
What is right anyway?

It looks easy.
It sounds easy.
but it is not.

Maybe I can be the head to end all heads.

Moveology

I just don't want my world to revolve around the shit,
but I guess it does anyway.

Kudos to my fellow black balled friend.
He did a great job.

Getting black balled is serious people.
Watch out who you piss off.

They are probably right.
I am probably some actor who woke up in this shit.

I found Hydrogen and pulled the plug.

Except I didn't do it right and caused the Big Bang.

This has turned into some kind of net opera.

I am as real as anybody else anymore.

Where did America come from?
That it happened precisely at the right time is astounding.

America has been blessed people.

God found us and blessed us.

It doesn't matter what I said.
I caused the Big Bang for Christ's sake.

You said this or you said that doesn't matter anymore.
That game is over with.

Don't fool me.
You want that as much as I do.

Stop the brinkmanship.
Someone could have got seriously hurt.

And watch what you make movies about.
I would hate for anyone to wake up as Darth Vader.

They have it in for me.
They need to go find hydrogen.

I feel for them but there is nothing I can do.
They want to live in a dream world.
They don't want to find hydrogen.
I can't help these people.

Anybody can find hydrogen.
There is plenty hydrogen for everybody.
Don't blame me if you want to live in a dream world.

It is a God forsaken mess
Always someone to apologize to.
Always someone who has done you wrong.
Just find hydrogen people.

I can't unfind hydrogen.
This is the way it is now.
This is the only way it is ever going to be.

It is a permanent split.
It doesn't wear off.

Cause it is a God Damn lemon.
It doesn't fucking work.
God Damn asshole.

Finding Hydrogen fucking works.
God Damn idiot.

I do respect you.
You don't understand anything else.

I know what she is fighting for.
I found hydrogen.
It is over with.
I can't unfind hydrogen.

God Damn it
It doesn't matter how I know.
You know hydrogen when you see it.

America is permanent,
and they are upset about it.

It is just a game the unbaptized people want us to play people.

It is just a game they want us to play.
That is all there is to it.

What am I supposed to do?
Let them milk us to death and leave us with a dead cow?

They are the ones that precipitated this.
I am not forcing baptism on anyone.

It has been there for over ten years.
They had plenty of time to find it.

There is a cultural war going on
between those that have been baptized,
and those who haven't.

God that sounds crazy.
I didn't know the world was like that.

I am not going to win alone.
It boils down to whether I like my cards or not.
I am willing to stay here if my job is not done.
I will watch over the south.

Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
We will try to keep it from getting any worse.

You use mythology to move on.
It doesn't matter if it is true or not.

It is called "moveology"

Some are going to understand moveology
and some are not.
It is wrong to stress the veracity of what you come up with.
Just enough to explain it to yourself.

The bottom line is,
life doesn't want us in the clouds.
Life want's us to find hydrogen.

I don't know.
He drops off in the North,
and picks up in the South.
It seems backwards to me,
but that is the way he does it.

He understands me very very well.
He understands what I come up with and how to use it.
If you want to follow me you need to follow him.

He knows I am lazy.
He knows I do things backwards.
and I trust him to know when I am doing it backwards
and when I am not.

That doesn't mean we don't get in arguments about it.

I have selective amnesia which drives him nuts.

I understand he gets mad and I forgive him for it.

If thats what you want to call me,
but I don't feel that way.

God I feel horrible.
I don't want to be someone's adversary.
Know me and use me.

Obviously I must of told her something about it,
but I don't remember.
I know dealing with me must be a frustrating mess.

I would rather be judged harshly,
than you being in my head
or me being in yours.

I know I am trusting you to know when I am right or wrong,
but I have serious problems with it.
We are not supposed to be up in the clouds.
We are supposed to be looking for hydrogen.

I know it seems odd to me too.

Just call me r2d2
it doesn't bother me.

I am like some robot from another friggen galaxy.

They are disappointed.
They are let down and hanging around.

They want me to make deals.
They want me to make promises.
They think I am the one that can't be beat,
and that I know it.
They want me to challenge God.
They think that is what needs to happen.

They are determined to put me through hell until that happens.

We are not supposed to be up in the clouds,
we are supposed to be looking for hydrogen.

They think I want to die
They think I am spirit, immortal.
They are foolish and stupid.
They need to look for hydrogen.
They need to get real.

I feel sick.

I have been battered by both sides.
I am tired people.
Just look for hydrogen.

This is not about people's freedom.
It just doesn't end well.

Queen of The South

I have a little bit of poetic license.
He knows I am trying to reach the atheists and agnostics.

I guess I have made a new definition of airhead.

Now there is going to be a race to find helium.

Why is this so radical?
If you are anthropic nothing happened till the sixth day anyway.

I agree it is myopic.
I don't think you understand Christianity,
until you feel personally responsible.

It would be easier if I was a bad person,
but the bottom line is I can't stay here.

It is like Lark says,
"You hate somebody when loving them hurts too much."

I wish I could unplug from this world and move on.
I don't know how I wanted it.
I never thought that far ahead.
Is this going to lead to anything, or am I wasting my time.

I told you.
I live in the moment.
My planning central is screwed up.

I don't know what is worse
sugar sweet 80's pop or death metal.

I am the reluctant antichrist that caused the big bang.
I don't know what is going to happen to me.

I could fuel my art with jumps,
but I don't want to force people to read this shit.

Well it definitely turns up the madness level.

I could make a heavy incentive to read this shit.

This is what I get for giving a crap.
I am supposed to want to be with her and give up this shit.
Can you believe that?
Jesus Christ

Take a lesson.
This is what happens to people who give a fuck.

Am I in everybody's way?
Have I not accomplished anything?
I am the only reason we are here when nobody wants to be here.

Mother Nature is Queen of the South.
You don't look for the North in the South.
It has nothing to do with what I want.
This is precisely as it should be.

The South is a mythical place where everything went wrong.

Call it the dark side if you must,
but it is not an evil place.
Everything just went wrong there,
as things naturally do.
It is the wrong place to look for miracles.

I like the South.
In it I find my private personal space.

Mother Nature and Father Time sleep in the same bed.

I didn't ship them over here on purpose.
It was a sorrowful mishap.

I don't like to be divisive.
I want to bridge the gaps between people.

They play ping pong with me.
Sometimes I fall north.
Sometimes I fall south.
Virginia isn't happy.

I know I can be very divisive,
but I hate doing that.
I just want my private personal space.
I am just trying to bridge the gaps between people.
By telling it like it is.

How would you like it if the Beatles were in your business.
I just want personal private space.

Sometimes they walk east.
Sometimes they walk west.
I know it is a frustrating mess.
But that is what the South is.

I was playing in the dirt people.
It was my personal private space.
I didn't know it was hurting people.

I don't know.
The Big Bang is not a good thing.
There is something wrong about it.

It is cowbirding.

It is a lazy way of doing shit.

I am not surprised I would find a lazy way of doing shit.

I laid my egg in someone else's nest.

Holy Father please forgive me.

I know it isn't easy.
I know you are right.
I know you are good.

I understand there is something I don't understand about it.

A Half Baked Mess

I crossed the wrong woman.
Now the league of women voters is after my ass.

I am a foolish upstart,
and there is a power struggle going on.

I am changing the game,
and they don't like it.

I am just a mutant.
All mutants go through this shit.
The bottleneck won't be with me forever.
Why should I be concerned about my genetic material?
I got bigger fish to fry.

The oldest game in the book is going down,
and there is nothing they can do about it.

If it is unlawful to know it is unlawful,
just how did you intend to enforce it?

They never intended to enforce it.
They just put it in there to make them feel better.

I wish I had gone to the hospital and left the radio station.

Dr. Curry wouldn't do it.
He said I wouldn't try.

People are flirting and dating and I...
She always thinks the worst.
I wish she had just given me a chance.
All I really wanted was to be with her.

I am just a lonely boy trying to survive.

She didn't have rose tinted glasses that's for sure.

I wish we would of had this a long time ago.

Mars and Venus are supposed to let people who don't vote alone.

As it is they are fighting over me,
and it is Venus that won't quit.

I wish we could settle it now,
but 2012 looks to be a humdinger.
Virginia is almost West Virginia,
And West Virginia is almost Heaven.

I don't give a damn anymore.
I just want the shit to be over with.
Which it should be, but Venus won't quit.

Yes, I am pointing the finger squarely at Venus.

It will be the most important election since The Civil War,
and I could care less,
because for me they both do the same thing.
They are only interested in polarizing us.

Because we wanted to be a border state
but Lincoln wouldn't let us,
So we have set it up to go east and west next time that shit happens.

and I am famous for predicting shit that almost comes true.

They have gotten inside my head and they are making a big joke.

This is what happens when you get a conversation going in your head.

I don't know why
they are sadistic.

It isn't the veracity of the material that makes it delusional.

I have got this sadistic split going on.

I wouldn't be surprised if someone was getting screwed.
That is what makes me psychiatric.

It is hydrogen.

let there be hydrogen.

It was a half baked mess until he came along.

You want the truth?
That is the truth.

I belong in a museum.

I am not God for Christ's sake.
I told you I can't do what he does.

He made the fully baked version.

It is probably fairly common to find hydrogen.

Find Hydrogen and pull the plug.
It is more networthy cause it is happening to a writer.

Cause I asked for a simple painless way to end it all.

They think he is a homicidal maniac.
They think I need to stand up to him.

I didn't pull the plug right,
and I caused a massive matter - antimatter collision.

It is easier for people to believe it was all a mystical accident.

To Satan I am a mule.
To God I am a coward.
and that's the way it should be.

This is a hard job.
I am dealing with some heavy hitters.
I could get in serious trouble.

I understand people are livid.
It is a God forsaken mess.

They won't go with me.
They think I am a charlatan.

They knew it was hydrogen.
They should know to find hydrogen and pull the plug.

They won't listen to Native Americans.
They talk about the paint
which was supposed to protect warriors from gunshots,
or the ghost dance.
But people who know are scared to death to go in a kiva.

Is there anyone who is not upset with me?

I am not a rank and file individual.
I think my bloodline left me here on purpose.

I don't know.
I guess I was an even bigger asshole.

That is what you do when you find yourself in an atheist sand pit.
You find hydrogen and pull the plug.

Jesus adopted John into the family,
and it is John's blood they talk about.

There is serious debate and confusion
about whether I actually am or not.

Some say I am a fictional character somebody made up,
and I am an actor who woke up in the role.
Either way
finding hydrogen and pulling the plug works.

I am one of them,
I am not one of them,
They can't make up their friggen mind.
All I care about is lemons and atheist sand pits.

Fine I am not one of them
This was never about that anyway.

What can I say?
People like madness.
They can't get enough of it.
I wouldn't want to disappoint anybody.

It is a natural thing to find hydrogen and pull the plug.
Anybody can do it.

Otherwise known as baptism.

Amoebic Dysentery

You have left me alone too long.
I needed your intervention.

You have one shot at it.
If things go south go south.

It means if the predicament gets bad,
go for the worse.

They don't care about us.
All they want is the water.

Why can't we?
Because they know I have the right philosophy,
and they want me to change it.
You are playing along right with them.

Because they wish they had done it that's why.

Because there is magic in the bottleneck for Pete's sake.

I tell you, all they care about is the water,
and they can't have it till they deal with me.

It is death, taxes, and bottlenecks people.
If you haven't learned that you haven't learned a thing.

God you people are so fucking stupid.
Can't you see that?
You want to put it in context,
lets put it in context.

Cause I want to do away with it,
but they won't let me.
So go ahead
put it in context.

She likes it when I get mad.

You are the only one I ever had a serious interest in,
but you don't want it like I want it.

I don't want it that way.

If she just told me to fuck off it would be a blessing.
I guess I don't know how to fuck off.
I understand that I am a fuck up though.

She is trouble.
I need to leave her alone.

no no no no no no no

If that is what they have given you,
use it.

I can handle no.
It is this "I can't tell you I don't want to go out with you" crap
that is driving me nuts.

She tells other people no.
I have seen her tell other people no.

Nobody appreciates what I am trying to do.
I am wasting my talents.
I am a self important fool.

All this is going to be a grand memory.
Given to me by a dying civilization.

People are too caught up in their piggy little lives to give a crap.

I am like Enoch.
I am going to be taken and it is long overdue.

I am going to a place where yall grow in a petri dish.

This is just another staphylococcus.

I am in charge of the fucking projector you assholes.

It means I decide what I friggen watch.

I may not want to watch staphylococcus anymore.

I am tired of watching staphylococcus.
I want to watch amoebic dysentery.

I know it when I see it.
Fucking bastards.

It is a common thread.
It happens all the time.

You don't know what it is like.
Eventually I just give up on everybody.

I give up and watch something else.
It is really sad.

Everybody else says its genetic and gets away with it,
why can't I?

Everybody else says their sexual perversion is genetic
and gets away with it.
Why can't I?

Everyone else does it for christ's sake
why is it such an issue?

What I want is not an issue.
It never was.

I want Blue Lagoon.
I want the River.
I listen to the River and cry.
Damn fool has everything.

It is so simple.
You would think I could have that,
but I can't.

That rock and roll shit was never MY fantasy.
You should know that by now.

Because you decided I couldn't have it damnit.

I want it in a way you could never fulfill.
So just leave me alone.

I am not winning any hugs with this one.

I am y2k for goodness sake.
Why would you put me in a situation to choose about that?
You think our relationship
is worth watching the world go through the shit hole?

It doesn't matter if you believe it or not.
Somewhere in my mind,
you are forcing me to choose between the two.

Yes, I feel the world is going to hell in a hand basket without me.

Don't you care about people living with lemons?
I am in a position to do something about it.
At least Adam is thinking about somebody else.

Because that is how you paint me.
Now I am painting you that way.

We are like Adam and Eve,
and we are in splitsville over y2k.

Am I going to be with Eve?
and comfort Eve?
or am I going to save the world?

She wants to be the center of my world,
and I understand that,
but damnit I have something to do.

Kim cares.
Kim is not selfish.
Kim knows I have something to do.

Suicides aint funny Ginger.