Wednesday, January 27

Safe Chickens

I think she did it on purpose.
I think she doesn't like you.

You are going to have to let me go.
You are going to have to make peace with her.

You are going to have to wait your turn
and hope you get it right next time.

I tried to tell you but you wouldn't stop.
It didn't happen until you dug it up.

God doesn't dig.
Don't you think God already knows?
Satan does that crap.

You are screwing up.
You have left me no choice but to avoid you.

Don't you think it is a little weird
that almost every adult in my life
is screwing me over?
Satan is doing this crap.

I don't want to do this.
The one that is going to be completely lost
hasn't done anything.

I am not going to stay in her life
if she doesn't want me there.

I don't want to be like this anymore.

Why did you become involved?
All I get from you is hurt.

Somewhere in there
there is a 17 year old
who is mortified by all of this.
I think that would kill me if I tried it again.

DO RAY ME FA SO LA TEE DO
FA SO LA TEE DO RAY ME

It is a voyage of self discovery
and I am sorry if it is racist and homophobic

This is going to sound crazy
but if I were an economist
I would model a built in cyclic economy
based on solar activity or something natural.

I think we are going to be forced into a built in cycle
and we are going to have to choose
from something arbitrary
or something natural

We need to use things, not people.

If you are going to own a cat,
it shouldn't be beneath you to be the cat.

How many rodents does it take to fill a basketball?

How are you going to fit 42 rodents in a light bulb?
Even a basketball is strecthing it.

Just what we need,
a safe chicken.

I don't think wattage has anything to do with it.

I loat my glasses,
let out some horrible farts,
then found them never realizing I lost the damn things.

These women, they don't see a young child being scalded.
They saw another Mark David Chapman, and they turned on me.

The truth is, there IS nothing beyond your own experience.

There is an individual,
and there is nothing outside that individuals experience.

Tuesday, January 5

Everything is hard.
Don't give up on your dreams because it is hard.

I crossed into this netherworld because you ignored me.

I made the mistake of thinking things were easy.

If I knew everything was hard,
I might have taken a different path.

A discipline is a discipline,
and they are all hard.

Don't go into something thinking you can skate.
It never works out that way.

Not only do people resent the fact you are skating,
but you can't control what God throws at you.

When people are struggling for a "C",
and you are settling for zeroes,
they can get pretty mad at you.

Skating isn't allowed.
If you are skating,
God is going to throw something at you.

I wish there was something I could say
to bring you back into my life.
I don't understand how you can deny me.

I will survive without you.
I will remember this denial.

I have already left my mark.
It is not something I worry about.

This drive that I am supposed to have and I don't,
is because it has already happened.

I am going to remember this.

I am willing to forgive because you didn't know.
Well now you know.

I have a life in God that is indelible.
If there needs to be a permanent separation,
I am prepared.

There never was a war sweetheart.
Just fools playing around with sand.

I saw it coming.
I have been fighting that sand shit since 1995.

They paved the way to hell
and sent it to every wal mart in america.

That is what happens when you box somebody in.
They are not subject to the same limitations
of everybody else.

You boxed me in and I took full advantage of it.

I am a self replicating blob.

I guess the good news is I know it.

Lord why are they doing this to me?

The situation is grave please stop.

I didn't write 20 lines of code to screw with your life.
I am sorry.
I am never going to orbit you.

You were right the whole time.
I have anger issues with women.
It was a lose lose situation for me.
Physics is in our lives now
and it is never going to change.

It really gets me that my shit isnt any good without her
and I try and it never gets me anywhere

I was scalded and generally sissified by my grandmother.
You can know me completely.
Are you satisfied now?

I love my grandmother
and I hate to say that about her.
I still don't understand
how that turns me into a self replicating blob.

I have come too far to have it all forgotten.

I guess families have traditions.

I wish I could go on with my life and forget about her,
but she has infected me with this damn radio.
I wish I never went to that damn station.

The women in my life are having a war over me.

I am tired of fooling around with her.
She got what she wanted.
I am prepared to move on and leave her behind.

I don't want to hurt her,
where will she go?

Who cares if men disappear?
If nobody loves them let them go.

I know I need to get out,
but how is that supposed to happen?

I was scalded.
What am I supposed to do about it?
I don't need this crap.
My life is hard enough as it is.

I have to be psychotic to feel anything,
and I cant stay there.

Grandma is right.
Any woman can do what you do.
You are taking advantage of me.

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