Tonal Impressionism

They tell me I am causing it,
then tell me I am delusional for thinking I am causing it.

you don't sit on a wall
you hang on a wall

It is not about electromagnetism.
It is about whether it matters or not.

Are human events Quantum events?
How are human events different  from Quantum events?
Why are they different?

They ask these things I am sure.
It sounds like snake oil so they stay away from it.

I don't know what will fix the economy,
but superstition aint going to fix it.
We need to put cycles into the economy.

What happens to physiology when time stops?
Just another evolutionary hurdle.

Time is saturated, time is regular
one hiccup and time freezes

Gold is pink

I told you Anton
it is a chronomally
they are real
like rouge waves

At least they got rid of the tube
it doesn't due to wear it on your head either

If there is no reality
Then who cares about the dinosaurs
Its like trash in the DNA

why are you asking for the consent of a child?

It doesn't matter
It is a brick
A take it or leave it brick.

I have my understanding
Get yours

it is only me in this chair
and I dont care that you cant see I am blindsighted

The Purpose Particle

if I don't come across as legit
no body else is going to

being a chronomally doesn't make me a superhero.

Fear and intimidation is not respect.
If I have spoken out of turn, let Christ speak.

It does not matter what you think,
it is the significance you give it that makes it delusional

just because you are in front,
does not mean you have learned anything

when things matter, they collide.
cats are from andromeda

Your world is not big enough for me.

It was over before it started.
I need to admit it to myself.

I don't fit into the world they believe in,
so they are trying to force it

I have had something world changing happen to me
and synchronicity is freaking me out.

It is the bitter end of a huge knot.

I couldn't get you out of my head,
but I wasn't going to jail over you

Why should I go out of my way to make him disappointed with me?

I have had information burn
I no longer think the same as everyone else
If God has a problem with lies
there are plenty of instances of word verification he can throw at me

Crowning achievements don't last very long.

I guess it qualifies as being less than momentous.

Evolution occurs because cosmological uncertainty forces mistakes.

there is a reason for that.
It has to do with the time reversal

They borrowed the same index cards.

when you solve your problem you put it on an index card
That way when you have the same problem
you know what to do

time insists on my mortality

a factor of the mind is involved in the cognition of pink.

it is difficult
everything pink touches turns pink

I can see how it would become this massive force you were trying to stop.

I guess it is good that there is someone up there who cares what is said and whats not.

I got bit by an ostrich

It means I am an honorary chimpanzee

I am tenured also

I was more interested in doing it in the woods.

First Church Paradox

Without purpose,
Life is an irrational dead end.

Procreation provides the illusion we are going somewhere.

Have your babies and get it over with.
At least you won't win the Darwin award.

 I appreciate when there are few demands on my time.

Maybe I could belong somewhere if I could keep my mouth shut.

Someone else may need to discover it one day

this type of paradox is called A First Church Paradox
for one it is the first
for the other the second

Draw something plausible,
Present it as fact.
UFOlogy does it all the time
and they make millions

The door is wide open.
If you could comprehend how wide open it was,
you might understand.

I believe in the event field
it motivates me

It was there at the beginning
It will be there at the end
anyone who doesn't get out before the end of it all
sorry

She is in it for the transmitters
She is 456
if you are making mistakes, it is working.
that is what it does.

as little as possible
trying to live a normal life

America was formatted.
Russia wasn't
China wasn't

Even in it's righteous form,
people still see a box.

We live in the world of bits and pieces.
Often we fail to appreciate the enormity of it all .

Be gone from me
Frustrate the dust

Well how does it work?
And when was it working?

They are ripping up the track to build their own roller coaster

as things chill
the useful bandwidth will become wider and wider
saturation will get stronger
until things are fully saturated
even if it does take a dive at the beginning.

somewhere in the apple
is a seed that can produce a whole new tree

I don't think he was to deny us anything,
just most are wise to leave that tree alone.

Leave something for everybody else.
It is distressing to feel it has all been written before.

If nothing is real, energy should be free.

The definition of real must involve energy.

If we are abused,
we live lives that are ineffective and redundant

It stands for Gray White and Red.

May I love you.

I thought she could help me relocate

It is a small city.
We will meet somewhere else.

If you know your way, go there.
Don't lose your way over me.

The Blue Collision

this is what happens when you fight it.
It ends up on the other side of yourself

I can't say who she is.
I can't say where she comes from.
She minus well be an angel.

You cannot win a war with your subconscious.
Because in the end you will lose.
If you do win, You are your subconscious.
If you are winning all of the time,
You are not real.
Only losers are real.
Winners are imagined.

It is called Win Theory
or
The Blue Collision.

If we keep going with this Win Theory
the little people are going to be fighting wars for us in cyberspace.

When you have everything you want,
the real you has nothing.

The silly games we play have a strong impact on what we consider real.

Reality was open to be defined

If you pick a fight with your subconscious,
expect to be beat up.

I didn't realize how trivial it was.

They were grooming for y2k and I over reacted

It was nothing.
It was a chest x ray.
It was no big deal.
I don't know why I overreacted.

life is too short to be entertained all the time.

Thank you, I appreciate that.

I have loved my whole life and had nothing but hurt
yet it seems I have done the same thing to somebody else.

It is all part of the
we can do it to anyone why not you commission

Just another insensitive jerk

People have an idea of who they want their david to be
and I am not it.

They refuse to walk down a dark road of foolishness and superstition

Does Christ wish us to lance over a word?
If the word is alive, let it live.

gang theory

if i put enough of myself in here,
they may be able to bring me up inside a computer one day

I said that a long time ago

Some people are too caught up in gang theory to understand that

You put yourself into it.
That is what the damn thing is for.
Am I doing the wrong thing?

It is not meant to be read as poetry.
It is written for a computer to compile my personality.

It is construct.
and it is very good construct.

emotional detours

If I do not protect and defend,
I am a poor caretaker and none will be given to me

Men fight.
Men choose violence.
Women choose magic.
What do informed Gentlemen respond with?

It isn't what you think, it is how you respond.
Mental illness is in the response.

This is what I am getting from television.
I am just watching television.

Ugliness compounds itself.

In this day and age, a physicians blackout is an accomplishment.

You are the one that wants evolution.
Why should you be surprised about cow birding.

Sooner or later,
you stop playing the game to win. 

I guess I am just not lead role material.

It was more than just chat.
It was a real thing to me.

I vaguely remember something about you being at Kings Dominion.

The word handyman came up several times today

It is a mathmatical definition
It is like saying you dont need zero

If I am doing more harm than good,
let this be finished.

call it the app room

I remember the 22nd
I still don't think Adam signed up for this.

It means to make plain

You can make an workable understanding
without being completely accurate

electric poverty

perform random acts of kindness
share beautiful things

I didn't come back from where I left

Isn't it enough that somewhere there is a family
whose loved one never returned?

They want me to make time.
They think time is going to end.

There is no significance
The question has been answered already

There are benefits to loosing that are not richly understood.

My mind went through a traumatic experience,
so it created YZAX

find someone who has one
and pummel them to death

If it aint safe for do nothings
it aint safe for anybody

We need to keep this excercise alive.
What will happen if we need to start all over.

You look like Anton Levay.
The trick is getting Sunday to do it.

time exists cause something was thrown away

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How would you recognize the beginning?
and what would happen if it didn't happen?

They think they decide and they don't.
They are forever giving us second chances
and don't even know it.

It would keep coming back and you would never know it.

I aint going for the endless second chance.

those are the effects of probability
It doesn't have to be that way
I have already been instructed in that arena.

the truth makes people delusional

Psychiatry is not about truth.
Psychiatry is about law and order

Anything good can wait

I know it can't be had.
I will settle for being a chronomaly

If I can't have it for myself,
maybe I can have it for somebody else.

The choice is already mine and I need to give it to somebody.

If there isn't a heaven, I will make one.

It is called consolidation of choice.
The universe would not work if choice had free reign.

People lead structured dependent lives.
You are really bucking the system if you don't want to live that way.

It makes me mad  that they know everything I am going to do for the next 15 years.
That is why I fool around with uncertainty.

I would rather go out that way,
Than to give in to them knowing everything.

They want to write everyone's book so they can move on.
They don't care about us.

Because it is ridiculous.
I wasn't raised that way.

I am pissed and I am just trying to confuse everybody.

We will never know unless it is us.
And why shouldn't it be us?

I know it is hard to stay rational.
I know it is beneficial to stay rational.

From another point of view, it may happen all the time.
The odds may be astronomical that we are here and it hasn't happened yet.

If it is me, it is three things interacting with each other.
I don't think you will ever pin it down.

The genome wouldn't forgive me if I didn't try.

wet liver

The only thing real about this life,
is it doesn't stop when you want it to.

Maybe she can change it,
but she has to stop it first.

Nothing it needs to settle out.

I am spellbound
I don't know.

Needless to say
she doesn't see the savior of western civilization.

I know because I needed to know.
Why were you hiding it from me?

That type of stuff is being observed,
and they are not getting away with it.

Anyone can have a conversation with themselves,
that they think is about themselves but its not.
It is like wet liver.

In schizophrenia it breaks down.
You start acting out.

If you are a single neuron in someones brain,
the idea of a human being may be a little radical.

The words want to live and grow.
They don't care who wrote them.

Our desire to pin it to someone is just another bottleneck.

I represent our first world independence.
That is what the monkeys had
before they saw the obelisk.

I am the last one to be cycled,
and the system is hanging up, it won't work.

I grabbed the causal and shook it.

She is mean.
I tunneled underneath of her.

What can I be if she doesn't believe in me?

Nature tunnels?

He is the one that needs batteries.

I wish you had believed in me.
Heartache is the only thing I feel anymore.

Just because your actions were justified,
doesn't mean people forgive you.

Why should I be concerned over what I said?
Nobody made anything about it then.
In fact it was a big joke.

I want to be appreciated for what I am,
not doped up to be what you want me to be.

You want your life back?
You want to be without me?
It can be arranged.

They make trouble for themselves
because they think they decide
and they don't

Don't worry about who's system you are in.
Feed the children.

Deloris is right.
We are spending thousands on frivolous stuff
and the children aren't getting fed.

I can see why law and order people have problems with this shit.
I hope it need not happen again.

He said he was on the other side of 2 nines.

Radiohead says within a week.

That or anonymous has an earthquake machine.

Words are alive.
Words are viral.
We are completely different people than we would be without words.
We can't fight words,
they we given to us by our parents.
There is a feral entity in all of us.

They are stupid.
They don't think right.
All they had to do was play some nintendo.
I thought they understood.

They take advantage of every little loophole they can find.
They think it is a brain contest.

We are always at war.
Peace is a bourgeois illusion.

Hell with it.
I will go to New Orleans by myself if I have to.

This is what proof does.
and this is the proof of it.

In my mind
this world needed to be born
and you caused it by ignoring me.

Words are cruel masters.
You may well visit this again someday.

I used to believe in something.
I don't know what to believe in anymore.

Lies are even worse.

I don't know why they won't tell me the truth.
I wouldn't stop crying so they gave me a lobotomy.

Well I wouldn't be surprised.
They call everything schizophrenia.
They want to get paid without causing a scandal.

Have you ever met someone
that you knew it you hitched up with them
you were going to go somewhere?
That's how I felt about her.
I have no reason to feel that way anymore.

Why are they backing me up against a wall
of what is possible and what is not anyway?

If I responded to a fortune cookie
I would be unstable.

Twice they responded because I didn't respond.

Mistakes can be forced.
Survival has taught me to forget.
A good poet sees both sides.
A bad poet gets himself caught in the middle of it.

I don't remember it
thats why it is what it is
because it is forgotten.

Liverature

because you can't get phrases like
"average inner thought" the regular way

He doesn't know he is moving the sun across the sky.
To him its just a ball of dung.

Not only is it a ball of dung,
but he has it all wrong.

How can you tell me it is no good?
It is my whole life.

People who fool around with reverse speech
do not live happy normal lives

I guess the odds are better I am not a real person
I haven't accomplished anything.
It's all fabricated.

Take a wrong turn at every intersection
and see where you end up

You want action?
Make a movie.

The whole thing is going to turn into a flip flop
and the whole thing is going to flip and flop.

We need to work under the assumption it is already happening.

You need to wait until things are extremely forgotten,
then things will re write themselves

I trust that time will flow through this circuit again someday.

I am never going to believe it
It is never going to happen for me.

I don't know about that guy behind you.
He looks a little shady.

You have learned something.
I am following you.

It is not about being the real david mallory is it?

He chose to claim it and defend it.

It was up for grabs.
He could of let it all go away,
or he could claim it and defend it.
What would you do?

Nobody wanted it.
It was scheduled for terraforming.

It started out me trying to save everything
and it got out of control

I still dont understand why I can do what I do.

I was supposed to see 1995 and I was supposed to go back
but I didn't want to\

16 years is a long time.
God created the world in 7 days.

These are the people who have chosen to honor me
How can I deny them?
They know more about who I am and what I want than I do.

I don't think there is anything wrong with the idea of sacred lives,
and what you get from these lives is what you learn.
It doesn't mean anything more than that.

They are the ones who have changed what America means.
They want us to live in some sort of pubescent fantasy.

My life is a war zone.
The choices I make effect everyone.

Ginger is a big gun.
To her I am a pretender.
She doesn't even recognize I am David.

How do you recognize a war zone?
A war zone is a war zone.

It is sad.
I will never convince her she has lost.

For ages mankind competed to make things bigger and bigger,
but the true revolution was the revolution of the small.

If you don't want me here,
stop keeping me around.

This is excess.
You have gone too far.

I am more interested in this never happening again

What do you expect from liverature?

Everyone thinks they are winning.
Thats how this crazy shit works.

There is something about me that is not welcome
and I have no control over it.

It is difficult to live in,
and we need to transition from it.

It is a mess. Things need to settle out.

It is no more delusional,
than the world being in a woman's heart
and sex holding the world together.

"When you start to compete with it,
that's when everything goes wrong."

"I say you are crazy if you don't."

This is how i get messages.
This is how they talk to me.

He had a lemon on his hands.

I don't like it either,
but he is doing the right thing.

It was a mistake made very very long ago,
and there is nothing I can do about it.

It would have been a grim existence.
Nobody deserves that.

Why get in a battle you can't win?
Make them go slowly and use the time wisely.

They want you to struggle with the basics,
so you can't learn anything else.

Mother Nature and Father Time
have no concern for what we deem factual.

Factual is an illusion expensive to maintain.

But together we must.

What is there to decide?
It is an illusion you are deciding anyway.

lymphatic barbarism

He is letting me do this crazy stuff cause it is over,
you stupid jerks

Christ's message was not about winning.
It was about empathy and tolerance.

What do you want?
A gold medal that says
you are better than everyone else?

She was in a groundhog day
and didn't think there would be any consequence

If you aren't part of the crowd mentality
there is something wrong with you.

I don't have to cross the Mississippi anymore
I can do it right here.

I am operating under the assumption we are being averaged.
I feel it is my duty to give you headaches.

I find it far more plausible that I caused the big bang
than that I used to be a musician
and can't remember because of ECT

If we all got together and tied a big knot
these spirits would leave us alone.
That is what is going to happen anyway.

Some people take great pride
in the failure of an individual.

The worst part about having schizophrenia
is how offensive it is to other people.

I shall mourn than.

We are in a fight to stay dry now.
This is the dry war.

Are we going to delude ourselves until doomsday?
I would rather face it.

They are fighting over the umbrella.

They tried to x file the x generation
and they wonder what is wrong with us.

I guess I am fairly ugly.
I don't want to jump.

Maybe trying is what got me here in the first place.

The consternation some people have about it is peculiar.

I am trying for something I have wasted.
I am trying for something I can never have.

I don't want to be instructed.
I don't want to learn.
I want it to be painful.
I want it to pour out of me.

I don't care if it is lymphatic barbarism

in the nexus of a convergence

I will let it be your choice generous.

I must not feel happy.
This is not the place for me to be happy.
Why do you demand this of me?

In the absence of divine authority,
we have imprisoned ourselves.

Only the damned show mercy.

Forgetting is the key to the whole damn thing.

You need to be now for it to work,
and it isn't easy being now.

I am giving the old tests to everybody.
They think they are better
because they understand and you don't.
I would never want to be accused of hiding anything.

They are not interested in the human condition.
They think they are the karma police.

You think you have a monopoly on that sort of thing?
I submit that I had already taken a more stringent test and passed.

What basis in reality does that test even have?

Even if it did happen,
and I can't confirm for myself that it did.

That was Martin Luther's ghost
scaring the shit out of you.

There was a nest that was created,
but someone came along and cowbirded the nest.

The past was uncertain.
That is why the nest was built in the first place.

They don't start at the same place,
they don't end at the same place,
but they share the same road for a while.

As far as schizophrenics go
I am a skeptic

Psychiatry is for trouble makers.

Hardly anything happens
that doesn't contribute to the servitude of humanity anymore.

Am I delusional for thinking that was her?
I think I did well.
What would you have done?

It is easier for you to sit back and say I am delusional,
but it wouldn't be so easy if you were me.

I am pretentious.
I have no regard for anything but myself.

What are you going to do
when you get in the middle of it
and realize you can't?

I remain unconvinced that God can do anything in this matter.

Thanks for sticking your neck out.

Dave needs pictures.
Everybody should make pictures for Dave.

I don't want to write that way.
I like the way I write.

The world line has taken on a new dimension.
Things converge and diverge.
It is called perception.

Many people find themselves in the nexus of a convergence.
I am not sure medication is the best thing for these people.

What is going to happen?
They loose Clozoril?
They don't need it anymore anyway.

Clozaril has kept me in a game
I would be more than willing to lose.

we don't see the world as it is
we see it as our mind allows us to

This world is precious.
It would be selfish of me to do that.

There are 5 people in this world and I am one of them.
We love David.
We keep giving him gifts and he wont use them.
We told him it is not polite but he won't listen.

Let us blur the line so we can tell a story.

This is not about the consequence.
David is the consequence.

David is an answer.
David is a reflection of ourselves.

He has said it before.
We are the ones who need a solution, not him.

Because I don't understand paragraphs,
They seem so arbitrary.

If I didn't have to use people,
I would have done it already.

I am just an obstacle to her.
Someone to be gotten rid of.

She hired pest control to bring me down.

He was a bad shepherd.
It was divine providence.

I thought you wanted a Camaro.

Handshakes and bottlenecks do not mix.

let the actors handle it

There must be something more
if they were willing to let this happen

Why should I?
You are not the most approachable person on earth,

I don't entertain myself with psychiatry.

I don't care that this has never happened before,
this shouldn't happen to anybody.

If I had what I was worth things wouldn't be this way.

Configuration is not enough.
Things need to be made whole.
Things need to be understandable.

The proof paradox

you have to wait for it to find you
you can not force it

What should we do about a government
masquarading as a religion?

They see freedom of religion as a weakness
and they want to expolit it.

If we let them do that,
we will have to admit
something is wrong with the constitution.

I haven't been voting
because I am afraid time will follow me.

It is an insult,
and they know it is an insult,
they are trying to sway opinion.
they know what this shit is for.

if you can't do it if you try,
then don't try just do it.

It can come to you.
It can fall in your lap.

Truth happens because people need it.

demons have no purpose but to make us hungry and afraid.

I know what happened.
but I don't know if that frog is going to sing for anyone else.

I have little concern for rank and privledge.
It is the people I am worried about.

I think she died of a heartache in her sleep.

There is nothing better
than a girl who would run away with you.

I am warning you.
Handshakes are going to break down.

What kind of universe would you live in
if you could prove something like that?

That is what happens when you hang proof around someone's neck.
It causes paradox.

Before the Mud

fall into a book

Arrogance is the closest you can get to infinity.

I had a bad experience
so I romanticized everything.

The universe loves broken hearts.

Will someone please lead me out of this place?

I can't help you are on Narnia's shit list.
Maybe they are the ones who won't leave you alone.

that I don't remember is one explanation.
That it hasn't happened yet is another.
This is what happens
when you attempt to corner the market on misery.

If you can't tell the difference
between what you don't remember
and what hasn't happened yet,
truth is misery.

All these people are dead.
I am trying to teach them how to float,
and they think I am the lifeless one.

I can't help it
if people liked the world better when it was flat.

Reality is not a vacumm.
There are tides and rivers.

There is a lot of mud,
and I don't know if there is a place before the mud.

The Me Diploma

you can't give up on a correlation
it is with you till the end

I don't mean to be any trouble,
but I can't pack my bags
and say I don't want to correlate anymore

It is just going to hang up on somebody else.
It hangs up, deal with it.

The story is making a story
at the same time a story is being told.

There is great consternation that I get away with it.
It is like being mad at Huckleberry Finn,
cause he is in the book and you are not.

I can't do anything cause I trust God.
If I trust God then I should let him take care of it.

I didn't trust God, and I took it into my own hands.
That is exactly what the devil wants you to do.
He knows he can defeat you.

He gave them a magic equation they could all make money on,
and somebody busted it.
I have done enough already.

If we took that kind of know how
and put it into hard science,
we would be on pluto by now.

You don't need a God?
Then be smart enough to manage yourselves

I can cause chaos
but I cant take any directed action

Causing the big bang?
well that is something that is going to be said one day

I reeled it out and reeled it in
and that is what is going to happen.

My game function is screwed up.
They don't consider me one of them.
They want me to live a normal life.

I am some kind of fluke
who didn't come by it deservedly.

I can't do it in real time.
I need to lay there and think about it.

Nowadays its when you don't get press
is when you know something is wrong.

It is where this thing is ending up

this shit is either dangerous
or i am seriously pissing someone off

It doesn't exist except for me.

I am troubled by your philosophy.
I cannot serve two masters.
If this is the way it is then so be it.

Sometimes you end up in hell
because you had to make tough decisions

You read it,
You put it down,
and you don't come back to it until you have forgotten everything

maybe I am acting like I am not Adam.

Maybe they can't sit back and watch
as we waste our potential.

What would you do
if you found the big bang on a planet like this?

Hang in there Generous

It was a brief window,
but it isn't going to stay like that.

Stingy delights in driving me crazy,
she thinks I am stupid.

I find myself with delusions of grandeur for being myself.

I am having problems in this world
because I am not Adam.
I don't know how or why.

Our whole civilization depends on Adam being Adam.

I think they don't know the truth,
but they know what is is like for people to lose it.

Fall out of love with the world,
and it disintegrates into anarchy.

It is about probability.
If you are not born again you are in a transitional state.

we got into an argument
about what was going to happen 25 years out
and she was saying I needed to get help
cause I was going to end up a child molester
and I was like no I am not
and she was like yes you will
you don't know what you will be like 25 years from now
and I was like neither do you
I don't remember it vividly
It is funny something like that can effect your whole life.
They set the whole thing up for me to have a nervous breakdown
that they figured was going to happen anyway
and it caused the big bang

Can I at least be remembered
as the person where psychiatry and physics
ran into each other?

Why wouldn't we be at the center of everything?
Are we not good enough?

people don't remember
the hard drive made microsoft

what is going to happen?
Is time going to stop when we get flung out?

It hasn't happened yet
and they don't know they are us.

HD is a tv
be careful using escalators with those newfangled shoes

I know it is confusing.
I didn't return from where I left at
that doesn't mean I am not real.

We had an intervention didnt we?
Leave me alone, don't bother me.
I am a walking twilight zone
and you are worried about
Just don't talk to me
leave me alone

I apologize
I trust you were attempting to do the right thing
I was having disintegration
I didn't know it could be so literal.

You are going to take this too far
and the door is going to shut on you.
I know where I stand.

This isnt about kids
It is about burning in the event field

Satan doesn't give a crap if you burn in the event field

I had decided to be crazy.
It was an act.
I thought it was cool.
I didn't really think I was Tommy Walker.
I mean I did, but I was detached from it.
I was going to be Chapman or anything.
I knew I had a sensical limit.

I don't love the world.
I don't love myself.
and that is not ok anymore.
It is considered violence.

We are going in reverse without knowing it.
We remain isolated from our greater intellect.

If knowledge portends death,
life is ignorance.

We know our place in the universe.
Human character is denial.

You don't want me to be real.
It makes it easier to shun me.

The whole thing was a marketing gimmick
for the one that owned the machine.

It is called
Rare Obsessional Coherence

Running yzax will make the higgs more observable?

Why not the teenagers are doing it

It isnt the fact they are aliens that concern me
It is balance that concerns me

It is like everything else,
they think if they do it slowly they can get away with it.