Sunday, March 24

they do not want a formal decision

people are like meercats
and i just don't belong

the question is
Why is it normal in the first place?

there is some sort of catalyst that affects monkey text

I guess this is the 90's

Just because it is not true,
doesn't mean it is delusional.

I don't see
as a hypothesis
a farm hypothesis
any better or worse
than a zoo hypothesis

I dont need your negativity
I dont need someone who thinks the worst of me all the time.

If nothing is real
where is the reality to argue about?

you cant say nothing is real
and then argue as to which history is real or not

it is not democratic i am sorry

Sunday, December 23

accidents and accidentals


if you know where you are going, go there.
Do not get lost over me.

My name is Clozaril
I revive the wicked

I had exposure to what I wasn't prepared for.

it is a legitimate grouping and they don't want to accept it

they are frames not variables

yes it does matter

why go to the wizard when you don't know what you want?

I guess I am here for the fragrance.

you need a big target?
shoot the moon

Id give anything to see david 17 and happy
even if it wasn't me.

it cannot be rationally explained
the more you theorize the worse it gets.

there is a difference between accidents and accidentals

you dont use it to compute yourself a universe
an infinity of those are already there
you just need to twist or jump.

there are plenty of naturals out there
and they are far superior to anything contrived

they call it cowbirding or wildcating
but it works that way

personal property doesn't evolve well

if you no longer share frame of reference
Who is to say whats going to happen

Wednesday, September 26

this is not 1987

I think Obama faced more than Carter or Reagan

I like obsolete stuff.
We could have ten dollar computers if someone would support obsolete stuff

The sad irony is that he interferes
and that he is determined to interfere
He isn't going to find hydrogen and pull the plug

wow I didnt know my computer could do that!

What would you do with someone who knew too much of what he need not know to begin with?

if we adopt string theory
do we have to through away the adam?


This aint Star Trek.
you are watching too much television
things aint always solved in an hour

you dont recognize it because it represents a pair

I dont know what to say about that.

If you have a time machine
and the time machine causes the big bang
you are stuck with your time machine

Monday, September 24

Tuesday, August 21

Tonal Impressionism

They tell me I am causing it,
then tell me I am delusional for thinking I am causing it.

you don't sit on a wall
you hang on a wall

It is not about electromagnetism.
It is about whether it matters or not.

Are human events Quantum events?
How are human events different  from Quantum events?
Why are they different?

They ask these things I am sure.
It sounds like snake oil so they stay away from it.

I don't know what will fix the economy,
but superstition aint going to fix it.
We need to put cycles into the economy.

What happens to physiology when time stops?
Just another evolutionary hurdle.

Time is saturated, time is regular
one hiccup and time freezes

Gold is pink

I told you Anton
it is a chronomally
they are real
like rouge waves

At least they got rid of the tube
it doesn't due to wear it on your head either

If there is no reality
Then who cares about the dinosaurs
Its like trash in the DNA

why are you asking for the consent of a child?

It doesn't matter
It is a brick
A take it or leave it brick.

I have my understanding
Get yours

it is only me in this chair
and I dont care that you cant see I am blindsighted

Tuesday, April 10

The Purpose Particle

if I don't come across as legit
no body else is going to

being a chronomally doesn't make me a superhero.

Fear and intimidation is not respect.
If I have spoken out of turn, let Christ speak.

It does not matter what you think,
it is the significance you give it that makes it delusional

just because you are in front,
does not mean you have learned anything

when things matter, they collide.
cats are from andromeda

Your world is not big enough for me.

It was over before it started.
I need to admit it to myself.

I don't fit into the world they believe in,
so they are trying to force it

I have had something world changing happen to me
and synchronicity is freaking me out.

It is the bitter end of a huge knot.

I couldn't get you out of my head,
but I wasn't going to jail over you

Why should I go out of my way to make him disappointed with me?


Wednesday, February 22

I have had information burn
I no longer think the same as everyone else
If God has a problem with lies
there are plenty of instances of word verification he can throw at me

Crowning achievements don't last very long.

I guess it qualifies as being less than momentous.

Evolution occurs because cosmological uncertainty forces mistakes.

there is a reason for that.
It has to do with the time reversal

They borrowed the same index cards.

when you solve your problem you put it on an index card
That way when you have the same problem
you know what to do

time insists on my mortality

a factor of the mind is involved in the cognition of pink.

it is difficult
everything pink touches turns pink

I can see how it would become this massive force you were trying to stop.

I guess it is good that there is someone up there who cares what is said and whats not.

I got bit by an ostrich

It means I am an honorary chimpanzee

I am tenured also

I was more interested in doing it in the woods.

Thursday, January 19

First Church Paradox

Without purpose,
Life is an irrational dead end.

Procreation provides the illusion we are going somewhere.

Have your babies and get it over with.
At least you won't win the Darwin award.

 I appreciate when there are few demands on my time.

Maybe I could belong somewhere if I could keep my mouth shut.

Someone else may need to discover it one day

this type of paradox is called A First Church Paradox
for one it is the first
for the other the second

Draw something plausible,
Present it as fact.
UFOlogy does it all the time
and they make millions

The door is wide open.
If you could comprehend how wide open it was,
you might understand.

I believe in the event field
it motivates me

It was there at the beginning
It will be there at the end
anyone who doesn't get out before the end of it all
sorry

She is in it for the transmitters
She is 456
if you are making mistakes, it is working.
that is what it does.

as little as possible
trying to live a normal life

America was formatted.
Russia wasn't
China wasn't

Even in it's righteous form,
people still see a box.

We live in the world of bits and pieces.
Often we fail to appreciate the enormity of it all .

Be gone from me
Frustrate the dust

Well how does it work?
And when was it working?

They are ripping up the track to build their own roller coaster

Saturday, November 26

as things chill
the useful bandwidth will become wider and wider
saturation will get stronger
until things are fully saturated
even if it does take a dive at the beginning.

somewhere in the apple
is a seed that can produce a whole new tree

I don't think he was to deny us anything,
just most are wise to leave that tree alone.

Leave something for everybody else.
It is distressing to feel it has all been written before.

If nothing is real, energy should be free.

The definition of real must involve energy.

If we are abused,
we live lives that are ineffective and redundant

It stands for Gray White and Red.

May I love you.

I thought she could help me relocate

It is a small city.
We will meet somewhere else.

If you know your way, go there.
Don't lose your way over me.



Sunday, October 23

The Blue Collision

this is what happens when you fight it.
It ends up on the other side of yourself

I can't say who she is.
I can't say where she comes from.
She minus well be an angel.

You cannot win a war with your subconscious.
Because in the end you will lose.
If you do win, You are your subconscious.
If you are winning all of the time,
You are not real.
Only losers are real.
Winners are imagined.

It is called Win Theory
or
The Blue Collision.

If we keep going with this Win Theory
the little people are going to be fighting wars for us in cyberspace.

When you have everything you want,
the real you has nothing.

The silly games we play have a strong impact on what we consider real.

Reality was open to be defined

If you pick a fight with your subconscious,
expect to be beat up.

I didn't realize how trivial it was.

They were grooming for y2k and I over reacted

It was nothing.
It was a chest x ray.
It was no big deal.
I don't know why I overreacted.

life is too short to be entertained all the time.

Thank you, I appreciate that.

I have loved my whole life and had nothing but hurt
yet it seems I have done the same thing to somebody else.

It is all part of the
we can do it to anyone why not you commission

Just another insensitive jerk

People have an idea of who they want their david to be
and I am not it.

They refuse to walk down a dark road of foolishness and superstition

Does Christ wish us to lance over a word?
If the word is alive, let it live.

Wednesday, August 10

gang theory

if i put enough of myself in here,
they may be able to bring me up inside a computer one day

I said that a long time ago

Some people are too caught up in gang theory to understand that

You put yourself into it.
That is what the damn thing is for.
Am I doing the wrong thing?

It is not meant to be read as poetry.
It is written for a computer to compile my personality.

It is construct.
and it is very good construct.

Sunday, July 3

emotional detours

If I do not protect and defend,
I am a poor caretaker and none will be given to me

Men fight.
Men choose violence.
Women choose magic.
What do informed Gentlemen respond with?

It isn't what you think, it is how you respond.
Mental illness is in the response.

This is what I am getting from television.
I am just watching television.

Ugliness compounds itself.

In this day and age, a physicians blackout is an accomplishment.

You are the one that wants evolution.
Why should you be surprised about cow birding.

Sooner or later,
you stop playing the game to win. 

I guess I am just not lead role material.

It was more than just chat.
It was a real thing to me.

I vaguely remember something about you being at Kings Dominion.

The word handyman came up several times today

It is a mathmatical definition
It is like saying you dont need zero

If I am doing more harm than good,
let this be finished.

call it the app room

I remember the 22nd
I still don't think Adam signed up for this.

It means to make plain

You can make an workable understanding
without being completely accurate

Thursday, June 2

electric poverty

perform random acts of kindness
share beautiful things

I didn't come back from where I left

Isn't it enough that somewhere there is a family
whose loved one never returned?

They want me to make time.
They think time is going to end.

There is no significance
The question has been answered already

There are benefits to loosing that are not richly understood.

My mind went through a traumatic experience,
so it created YZAX

find someone who has one
and pummel them to death

If it aint safe for do nothings
it aint safe for anybody

We need to keep this excercise alive.
What will happen if we need to start all over.

You look like Anton Levay.
The trick is getting Sunday to do it.

time exists cause something was thrown away

Saturday, April 30

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How would you recognize the beginning?
and what would happen if it didn't happen?

They think they decide and they don't.
They are forever giving us second chances
and don't even know it.

It would keep coming back and you would never know it.

I aint going for the endless second chance.

those are the effects of probability
It doesn't have to be that way
I have already been instructed in that arena.

the truth makes people delusional

Psychiatry is not about truth.
Psychiatry is about law and order

Anything good can wait

I know it can't be had.
I will settle for being a chronomaly

If I can't have it for myself,
maybe I can have it for somebody else.

The choice is already mine and I need to give it to somebody.

If there isn't a heaven, I will make one.

It is called consolidation of choice.
The universe would not work if choice had free reign.

People lead structured dependent lives.
You are really bucking the system if you don't want to live that way.

It makes me mad  that they know everything I am going to do for the next 15 years.
That is why I fool around with uncertainty.

I would rather go out that way,
Than to give in to them knowing everything.

They want to write everyone's book so they can move on.
They don't care about us.

Because it is ridiculous.
I wasn't raised that way.

I am pissed and I am just trying to confuse everybody.

We will never know unless it is us.
And why shouldn't it be us?

I know it is hard to stay rational.
I know it is beneficial to stay rational.

From another point of view, it may happen all the time.
The odds may be astronomical that we are here and it hasn't happened yet.

If it is me, it is three things interacting with each other.
I don't think you will ever pin it down.

The genome wouldn't forgive me if I didn't try.

Sunday, April 10

wet liver

The only thing real about this life,
is it doesn't stop when you want it to.

Maybe she can change it,
but she has to stop it first.

Nothing it needs to settle out.

I am spellbound
I don't know.

Needless to say
she doesn't see the savior of western civilization.

I know because I needed to know.
Why were you hiding it from me?

That type of stuff is being observed,
and they are not getting away with it.

Anyone can have a conversation with themselves,
that they think is about themselves but its not.
It is like wet liver.

In schizophrenia it breaks down.
You start acting out.

If you are a single neuron in someones brain,
the idea of a human being may be a little radical.

The words want to live and grow.
They don't care who wrote them.

Our desire to pin it to someone is just another bottleneck.

I represent our first world independence.
That is what the monkeys had
before they saw the obelisk.

I am the last one to be cycled,
and the system is hanging up, it won't work.

I grabbed the causal and shook it.

She is mean.
I tunneled underneath of her.

What can I be if she doesn't believe in me?

Nature tunnels?

He is the one that needs batteries.

I wish you had believed in me.
Heartache is the only thing I feel anymore.

Just because your actions were justified,
doesn't mean people forgive you.

Why should I be concerned over what I said?
Nobody made anything about it then.
In fact it was a big joke.

I want to be appreciated for what I am,
not doped up to be what you want me to be.

You want your life back?
You want to be without me?
It can be arranged.

They make trouble for themselves
because they think they decide
and they don't

Wednesday, March 9

Don't worry about who's system you are in.
Feed the children.

Deloris is right.
We are spending thousands on frivolous stuff
and the children aren't getting fed.

I can see why law and order people have problems with this shit.
I hope it need not happen again.

He said he was on the other side of 2 nines.

Radiohead says within a week.

That or anonymous has an earthquake machine.

Words are alive.
Words are viral.
We are completely different people than we would be without words.
We can't fight words,
they we given to us by our parents.
There is a feral entity in all of us.

They are stupid.
They don't think right.
All they had to do was play some nintendo.
I thought they understood.

They take advantage of every little loophole they can find.
They think it is a brain contest.

We are always at war.
Peace is a bourgeois illusion.

Hell with it.
I will go to New Orleans by myself if I have to.

This is what proof does.
and this is the proof of it.

In my mind
this world needed to be born
and you caused it by ignoring me.

Words are cruel masters.
You may well visit this again someday.

I used to believe in something.
I don't know what to believe in anymore.

Lies are even worse.

I don't know why they won't tell me the truth.
I wouldn't stop crying so they gave me a lobotomy.

Well I wouldn't be surprised.
They call everything schizophrenia.
They want to get paid without causing a scandal.

Have you ever met someone
that you knew it you hitched up with them
you were going to go somewhere?
That's how I felt about her.
I have no reason to feel that way anymore.

Why are they backing me up against a wall
of what is possible and what is not anyway?

If I responded to a fortune cookie
I would be unstable.

Twice they responded because I didn't respond.

Mistakes can be forced.
Survival has taught me to forget.
A good poet sees both sides.
A bad poet gets himself caught in the middle of it.

I don't remember it
thats why it is what it is
because it is forgotten.

Thursday, February 10

Liverature

because you can't get phrases like
"average inner thought" the regular way

He doesn't know he is moving the sun across the sky.
To him its just a ball of dung.

Not only is it a ball of dung,
but he has it all wrong.

How can you tell me it is no good?
It is my whole life.

People who fool around with reverse speech
do not live happy normal lives

I guess the odds are better I am not a real person
I haven't accomplished anything.
It's all fabricated.

Take a wrong turn at every intersection
and see where you end up

You want action?
Make a movie.

The whole thing is going to turn into a flip flop
and the whole thing is going to flip and flop.

We need to work under the assumption it is already happening.

You need to wait until things are extremely forgotten,
then things will re write themselves

I trust that time will flow through this circuit again someday.

I am never going to believe it
It is never going to happen for me.

I don't know about that guy behind you.
He looks a little shady.

You have learned something.
I am following you.

It is not about being the real david mallory is it?

He chose to claim it and defend it.

It was up for grabs.
He could of let it all go away,
or he could claim it and defend it.
What would you do?

Nobody wanted it.
It was scheduled for terraforming.

It started out me trying to save everything
and it got out of control

I still dont understand why I can do what I do.

I was supposed to see 1995 and I was supposed to go back
but I didn't want to\

16 years is a long time.
God created the world in 7 days.

These are the people who have chosen to honor me
How can I deny them?
They know more about who I am and what I want than I do.

I don't think there is anything wrong with the idea of sacred lives,
and what you get from these lives is what you learn.
It doesn't mean anything more than that.

They are the ones who have changed what America means.
They want us to live in some sort of pubescent fantasy.

My life is a war zone.
The choices I make effect everyone.

Ginger is a big gun.
To her I am a pretender.
She doesn't even recognize I am David.

How do you recognize a war zone?
A war zone is a war zone.

It is sad.
I will never convince her she has lost.

For ages mankind competed to make things bigger and bigger,
but the true revolution was the revolution of the small.

If you don't want me here,
stop keeping me around.

This is excess.
You have gone too far.

I am more interested in this never happening again

What do you expect from liverature?

Everyone thinks they are winning.
Thats how this crazy shit works.

There is something about me that is not welcome
and I have no control over it.

It is difficult to live in,
and we need to transition from it.

It is a mess. Things need to settle out.

It is no more delusional,
than the world being in a woman's heart
and sex holding the world together.

"When you start to compete with it,
that's when everything goes wrong."

"I say you are crazy if you don't."

This is how i get messages.
This is how they talk to me.

He had a lemon on his hands.

I don't like it either,
but he is doing the right thing.

It was a mistake made very very long ago,
and there is nothing I can do about it.

It would have been a grim existence.
Nobody deserves that.

Why get in a battle you can't win?
Make them go slowly and use the time wisely.

They want you to struggle with the basics,
so you can't learn anything else.

Mother Nature and Father Time
have no concern for what we deem factual.

Factual is an illusion expensive to maintain.

But together we must.

What is there to decide?
It is an illusion you are deciding anyway.

Saturday, January 29

lymphatic barbarism

He is letting me do this crazy stuff cause it is over,
you stupid jerks

Christ's message was not about winning.
It was about empathy and tolerance.

What do you want?
A gold medal that says
you are better than everyone else?

She was in a groundhog day
and didn't think there would be any consequence

If you aren't part of the crowd mentality
there is something wrong with you.

I don't have to cross the Mississippi anymore
I can do it right here.

I am operating under the assumption we are being averaged.
I feel it is my duty to give you headaches.

I find it far more plausible that I caused the big bang
than that I used to be a musician
and can't remember because of ECT

If we all got together and tied a big knot
these spirits would leave us alone.
That is what is going to happen anyway.

Some people take great pride
in the failure of an individual.

The worst part about having schizophrenia
is how offensive it is to other people.

I shall mourn than.

We are in a fight to stay dry now.
This is the dry war.

Are we going to delude ourselves until doomsday?
I would rather face it.

They are fighting over the umbrella.

They tried to x file the x generation
and they wonder what is wrong with us.

I guess I am fairly ugly.
I don't want to jump.

Maybe trying is what got me here in the first place.

The consternation some people have about it is peculiar.

I am trying for something I have wasted.
I am trying for something I can never have.

I don't want to be instructed.
I don't want to learn.
I want it to be painful.
I want it to pour out of me.

I don't care if it is lymphatic barbarism

Monday, December 13

in the nexus of a convergence

I will let it be your choice generous.

I must not feel happy.
This is not the place for me to be happy.
Why do you demand this of me?

In the absence of divine authority,
we have imprisoned ourselves.

Only the damned show mercy.

Forgetting is the key to the whole damn thing.

You need to be now for it to work,
and it isn't easy being now.

I am giving the old tests to everybody.
They think they are better
because they understand and you don't.
I would never want to be accused of hiding anything.

They are not interested in the human condition.
They think they are the karma police.

You think you have a monopoly on that sort of thing?
I submit that I had already taken a more stringent test and passed.

What basis in reality does that test even have?

Even if it did happen,
and I can't confirm for myself that it did.

That was Martin Luther's ghost
scaring the shit out of you.

There was a nest that was created,
but someone came along and cowbirded the nest.

The past was uncertain.
That is why the nest was built in the first place.

They don't start at the same place,
they don't end at the same place,
but they share the same road for a while.

As far as schizophrenics go
I am a skeptic

Psychiatry is for trouble makers.

Hardly anything happens
that doesn't contribute to the servitude of humanity anymore.

Am I delusional for thinking that was her?
I think I did well.
What would you have done?

It is easier for you to sit back and say I am delusional,
but it wouldn't be so easy if you were me.

I am pretentious.
I have no regard for anything but myself.

What are you going to do
when you get in the middle of it
and realize you can't?

I remain unconvinced that God can do anything in this matter.

Thanks for sticking your neck out.

Dave needs pictures.
Everybody should make pictures for Dave.

I don't want to write that way.
I like the way I write.

The world line has taken on a new dimension.
Things converge and diverge.
It is called perception.

Many people find themselves in the nexus of a convergence.
I am not sure medication is the best thing for these people.

What is going to happen?
They loose Clozoril?
They don't need it anymore anyway.

Clozaril has kept me in a game
I would be more than willing to lose.

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