Saturday, September 20

Stellar Mediocrity

If it is a condition, it is not a lifestyle.
If it is a lifestyle, it is not a condition.

If it is not a disease
You can't diagnose someone as having it.

I didn't know.

Just stick whatever you want in there,
Because that is what I feel.

Hide behind rules and labels.

It feels it is smarter than us.
It feels it should make decisions, not us.

I guess initial conditions are important.
I was mad at M for being mean to C.
I have never felt it was a big deal.
I guess it was.

I asked God to take it away from me
And I have never felt the same since.

If they are going to make a lasting decision,
It needs to come from congress

I feel embarrassed and stupid

You totally missed it.
it was about why people say "you know" all the time.

 I have earned my ignorance.

They call you delusional
Say you are hallucinating 
Then get mad saying you stole something
It's my head

I need a place where it's ok for me to be celebrate

I apologize for stealing the song

I stopped calling her,
I told the doctor I had schizophrenia
I don't know what else I could have done

I guess they wanted me to have a violent outburst
It is a little difficult to do that when you know it


I was bicycling in that crap

It is all about the chemicals

Megalomania is wishful thinking at this point
I hope I am just out of my head

I have tricked my physiology into thinking I have reproduced

No one ever sees the schizophrenic as a victim.

If it has black spots in it watch out.

The medicine takes you beyond the envelop in a way that is not good.

Quitting the game cold turkey was the hardest thing I ever did,
And I didn't get a trophy for it either.

I feel like doing the right thing was the wrong thing to do.

It is a legitimate grouping and I am not letting go of it.

There is no math to done
It's like saying numbers are even or odd
Except it not numbers its frames
They are hoping it's easy enough someone else will come up with it.

If it is not mine,
Why do I know how to use it?

Strange groupings are at the center of why we are schizophrenics
That does not mean the groupings are delusional.
 
If you don't understand why this would happen
You don't understand my flavor of schizophrenia

Who's reality am I supposed to be in denial about?

HB
I wish I had given more consideration into what we already had.






Monday, July 21

The Last Paradigm

I haven't led her on
She is here because she wants to be here

Set, grouping, whatever we call it, nature is going to decide what it is

They think, if they make a game out of it, it will last longer.

Channeling doesn't lend itself to challenging yourself.

If I could make a real peice of music I would.

This sleek polished stuff is exactly what I am afraid of.

I feel people want me to be exactly what I am trying not to be.

Human relations is scary 
They are not going to rest until they have 120 percent of everybody.
Dissent will be pathological.

Half of them are trying to corner you
And the other half are pissed you are getting away with it.

I consider evolution may have mitochondrial assistance.

nothing exists if you don't believe in it.

they don't want you to know the voices can be pushed out.

I wouldn't get angry if I didn't value your opinion.
One day I am going to wake up and it's going to be too late.
I feel helpless.

Make them spend a lot of time on you.

If I lose control
Then the ball is not in play anymore.

Apparently it is "Eagle Nest" not "Eagle's Nest"
I hate handshakes.
People get hurt.

People think they know what the rules are.
Then people start playing dodgeball
And the whole thing goes nuts.

Don't get addicted to it
Unless you are creating something.

If it's not a positive force in your life,
you are better coping without it.

I feel they want to say addictive and predatory behavior is desirable
And it's not

I am in control.
I have control and you don't like it.
I am the epitome of everything you hate.
And there is not a damn thing
Either of us can do about it.

The sad part?
I wanted you to love me.
That is the sad part.

What is a Turing wash?

I was talking about computer addiction,
But it could apply to that too


What is a code wash?

Being insensitive doesn't require a great deal of effort.

Funny things happen when it matters

You want to know more about these things,
Come gather and consult.

I am a heretic who stumbled upon word verification.

The only thing stellar about mediocrity is the length of it.


Saturday, April 26

Nonsense microwaves

I wouldn't have the title if no one was reading it.

What is digital glow?

The same people who will accept they are only one person
and cannot change anything,
get upset if you tell them they don't matter.

It is a legitimate grouping.
I cannot force you to accept that.

I don't know.
It has some therapeutic value.

What is heat psychology?

Superstition is what happens when the floor drops out.

Until you have been at the center of the whirlwind,
I don't think you can fully understand.

There is a difference between going viral
and bleeding out.

whenever I do get an idea of why it is dangerous
it does not stay in my head very long

I thought I was doing something bold and heroic.

The crime rate went down because we stopped using leaded gasoline.

If I thought I could write a novel I would.




Thursday, December 19

I understand what they are trying to say

but I have to learn things the way everyone else does

the difference is in what i decided to learn

It is not that I want to be in control.
I just don't like being out of control.

Nothing ever goes as planned
and the blame is endless

it is not an office building
the whole wall has to be replaced

if we cant get together
what hope is there for anyone else?

I am sorry for ruining your night
I thought i could sit way in the back and watch
something is wrong with me
I may stop all this

what is fractal relativity?

I thought we were tight.
I felt we were special.
I felt like I lost my family

It means nobody likes me

Saturday, September 14

the hydrogen option

I dont think my life would have had a positive outcome
if it wasn't for my father

what is the best way to combat internet addiction

because the winner is the one who gets stuck with it

there has been a lot of tricksters
that is how they play

it was congress who created these hyper republican districts

its not just a nuclear option
it is a hydrogen option
and I think they are prepared to use it

Washington DC IS Area 51

I wanted a home run so bad I lost the game over it.

I think it is the districts too
but it is racist to say anything about it

there are no rules
it doesn't make sense
and it isn't fair

Two super massive black holes?
Three?

Saturday, June 22

it means "barking dog"

self defense doesn't make you judge jury and executioner

the rights of life liberty and pursuit of happiness trumps everything else.

If he didn't deserve it, it was a violation of his civil rights

they are trying to make a right side wrong side issue out of this

if there is nothing left to calculate
if you are fully known
you minus well be dead

2 is to 5 as 4 is to 24

the worst thing you can do to a loved one is disappear

it is an act of violence to disappear on someone

if we would only live 5 years without them,
is it our civilization or theirs?

The beginnings get lost and no one can ever identify them.

there are some things known only to God.
and even that knowledge will attempt to pluralize itself

nations were baptized by fire one by one
some took longer than others

51 37 25 18 21 27

it is just an identifier don't worry about it

I haven't played a full game in a long time
I have been getting around to it

are you gasible?
is your family gasible?
who decides who is gasible and who is not?

the lack of moral outrage does not bode well for humanity

people were more upset about KAL

maybe they could use pycrete

Sunday, March 24

they do not want a formal decision

people are like meercats
and i just don't belong

the question is
Why is it normal in the first place?

there is some sort of catalyst that affects monkey text

I guess this is the 90's

Just because it is not true,
doesn't mean it is delusional.

I don't see
as a hypothesis
a farm hypothesis
any better or worse
than a zoo hypothesis

I dont need your negativity
I dont need someone who thinks the worst of me all the time.

If nothing is real
where is the reality to argue about?

you cant say nothing is real
and then argue as to which history is real or not

it is not democratic i am sorry

Sunday, December 23

accidents and accidentals


if you know where you are going, go there.
Do not get lost over me.

My name is Clozaril
I revive the wicked

I had exposure to what I wasn't prepared for.

it is a legitimate grouping and they don't want to accept it

they are frames not variables

yes it does matter

why go to the wizard when you don't know what you want?

I guess I am here for the fragrance.

you need a big target?
shoot the moon

Id give anything to see david 17 and happy
even if it wasn't me.

it cannot be rationally explained
the more you theorize the worse it gets.

there is a difference between accidents and accidentals

you dont use it to compute yourself a universe
an infinity of those are already there
you just need to twist or jump.

there are plenty of naturals out there
and they are far superior to anything contrived

they call it cowbirding or wildcating
but it works that way

personal property doesn't evolve well

if you no longer share frame of reference
Who is to say whats going to happen

Wednesday, September 26

this is not 1987

I think Obama faced more than Carter or Reagan

I like obsolete stuff.
We could have ten dollar computers if someone would support obsolete stuff

The sad irony is that he interferes
and that he is determined to interfere
He isn't going to find hydrogen and pull the plug

wow I didnt know my computer could do that!

What would you do with someone who knew too much of what he need not know to begin with?

if we adopt string theory
do we have to through away the adam?


This aint Star Trek.
you are watching too much television
things aint always solved in an hour

you dont recognize it because it represents a pair

I dont know what to say about that.

If you have a time machine
and the time machine causes the big bang
you are stuck with your time machine

Monday, September 24

Tuesday, August 21

Tonal Impressionism

They tell me I am causing it,
then tell me I am delusional for thinking I am causing it.

you don't sit on a wall
you hang on a wall

It is not about electromagnetism.
It is about whether it matters or not.

Are human events Quantum events?
How are human events different  from Quantum events?
Why are they different?

They ask these things I am sure.
It sounds like snake oil so they stay away from it.

I don't know what will fix the economy,
but superstition aint going to fix it.
We need to put cycles into the economy.

What happens to physiology when time stops?
Just another evolutionary hurdle.

Time is saturated, time is regular
one hiccup and time freezes

Gold is pink

I told you Anton
it is a chronomally
they are real
like rouge waves

At least they got rid of the tube
it doesn't due to wear it on your head either

If there is no reality
Then who cares about the dinosaurs
Its like trash in the DNA

why are you asking for the consent of a child?

It doesn't matter
It is a brick
A take it or leave it brick.

I have my understanding
Get yours

it is only me in this chair
and I dont care that you cant see I am blindsighted

Tuesday, April 10

The Purpose Particle

if I don't come across as legit
no body else is going to

being a chronomally doesn't make me a superhero.

Fear and intimidation is not respect.
If I have spoken out of turn, let Christ speak.

It does not matter what you think,
it is the significance you give it that makes it delusional

just because you are in front,
does not mean you have learned anything

when things matter, they collide.
cats are from andromeda

Your world is not big enough for me.

It was over before it started.
I need to admit it to myself.

I don't fit into the world they believe in,
so they are trying to force it

I have had something world changing happen to me
and synchronicity is freaking me out.

It is the bitter end of a huge knot.

I couldn't get you out of my head,
but I wasn't going to jail over you

Why should I go out of my way to make him disappointed with me?


Wednesday, February 22

I have had information burn
I no longer think the same as everyone else
If God has a problem with lies
there are plenty of instances of word verification he can throw at me

Crowning achievements don't last very long.

I guess it qualifies as being less than momentous.

Evolution occurs because cosmological uncertainty forces mistakes.

there is a reason for that.
It has to do with the time reversal

They borrowed the same index cards.

when you solve your problem you put it on an index card
That way when you have the same problem
you know what to do

time insists on my mortality

a factor of the mind is involved in the cognition of pink.

it is difficult
everything pink touches turns pink

I can see how it would become this massive force you were trying to stop.

I guess it is good that there is someone up there who cares what is said and whats not.

I got bit by an ostrich

It means I am an honorary chimpanzee

I am tenured also

I was more interested in doing it in the woods.

Thursday, January 19

First Church Paradox

Without purpose,
Life is an irrational dead end.

Procreation provides the illusion we are going somewhere.

Have your babies and get it over with.
At least you won't win the Darwin award.

 I appreciate when there are few demands on my time.

Maybe I could belong somewhere if I could keep my mouth shut.

Someone else may need to discover it one day

this type of paradox is called A First Church Paradox
for one it is the first
for the other the second

Draw something plausible,
Present it as fact.
UFOlogy does it all the time
and they make millions

The door is wide open.
If you could comprehend how wide open it was,
you might understand.

I believe in the event field
it motivates me

It was there at the beginning
It will be there at the end
anyone who doesn't get out before the end of it all
sorry

She is in it for the transmitters
She is 456
if you are making mistakes, it is working.
that is what it does.

as little as possible
trying to live a normal life

America was formatted.
Russia wasn't
China wasn't

Even in it's righteous form,
people still see a box.

We live in the world of bits and pieces.
Often we fail to appreciate the enormity of it all .

Be gone from me
Frustrate the dust

Well how does it work?
And when was it working?

They are ripping up the track to build their own roller coaster

Saturday, November 26

as things chill
the useful bandwidth will become wider and wider
saturation will get stronger
until things are fully saturated
even if it does take a dive at the beginning.

somewhere in the apple
is a seed that can produce a whole new tree

I don't think he was to deny us anything,
just most are wise to leave that tree alone.

Leave something for everybody else.
It is distressing to feel it has all been written before.

If nothing is real, energy should be free.

The definition of real must involve energy.

If we are abused,
we live lives that are ineffective and redundant

It stands for Gray White and Red.

May I love you.

I thought she could help me relocate

It is a small city.
We will meet somewhere else.

If you know your way, go there.
Don't lose your way over me.



Sunday, October 23

The Blue Collision

this is what happens when you fight it.
It ends up on the other side of yourself

I can't say who she is.
I can't say where she comes from.
She minus well be an angel.

You cannot win a war with your subconscious.
Because in the end you will lose.
If you do win, You are your subconscious.
If you are winning all of the time,
You are not real.
Only losers are real.
Winners are imagined.

It is called Win Theory
or
The Blue Collision.

If we keep going with this Win Theory
the little people are going to be fighting wars for us in cyberspace.

When you have everything you want,
the real you has nothing.

The silly games we play have a strong impact on what we consider real.

Reality was open to be defined

If you pick a fight with your subconscious,
expect to be beat up.

I didn't realize how trivial it was.

They were grooming for y2k and I over reacted

It was nothing.
It was a chest x ray.
It was no big deal.
I don't know why I overreacted.

life is too short to be entertained all the time.

Thank you, I appreciate that.

I have loved my whole life and had nothing but hurt
yet it seems I have done the same thing to somebody else.

It is all part of the
we can do it to anyone why not you commission

Just another insensitive jerk

People have an idea of who they want their david to be
and I am not it.

They refuse to walk down a dark road of foolishness and superstition

Does Christ wish us to lance over a word?
If the word is alive, let it live.

Wednesday, August 10

gang theory

if i put enough of myself in here,
they may be able to bring me up inside a computer one day

I said that a long time ago

Some people are too caught up in gang theory to understand that

You put yourself into it.
That is what the damn thing is for.
Am I doing the wrong thing?

It is not meant to be read as poetry.
It is written for a computer to compile my personality.

It is construct.
and it is very good construct.

Sunday, July 3

emotional detours

If I do not protect and defend,
I am a poor caretaker and none will be given to me

Men fight.
Men choose violence.
Women choose magic.
What do informed Gentlemen respond with?

It isn't what you think, it is how you respond.
Mental illness is in the response.

This is what I am getting from television.
I am just watching television.

Ugliness compounds itself.

In this day and age, a physicians blackout is an accomplishment.

You are the one that wants evolution.
Why should you be surprised about cow birding.

Sooner or later,
you stop playing the game to win. 

I guess I am just not lead role material.

It was more than just chat.
It was a real thing to me.

I vaguely remember something about you being at Kings Dominion.

The word handyman came up several times today

It is a mathmatical definition
It is like saying you dont need zero

If I am doing more harm than good,
let this be finished.

call it the app room

I remember the 22nd
I still don't think Adam signed up for this.

It means to make plain

You can make an workable understanding
without being completely accurate

Thursday, June 2

electric poverty

perform random acts of kindness
share beautiful things

I didn't come back from where I left

Isn't it enough that somewhere there is a family
whose loved one never returned?

They want me to make time.
They think time is going to end.

There is no significance
The question has been answered already

There are benefits to loosing that are not richly understood.

My mind went through a traumatic experience,
so it created YZAX

find someone who has one
and pummel them to death

If it aint safe for do nothings
it aint safe for anybody

We need to keep this excercise alive.
What will happen if we need to start all over.

You look like Anton Levay.
The trick is getting Sunday to do it.

time exists cause something was thrown away

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