Average Inner Blog

as things chill the useful bandwidth will become wider and wider saturation will get stronger until things are fully saturated even if it does take a dive at the beginning. somewhere in the apple is a seed that can produce a whole new tree I don't think he was to deny us anything, just most are wise to leave that tree alone. Leave something for everybody else. It is distressing to feel it has all been written before. If nothing is real, energy should be free. The definition of real must involve energy. If we are abused, we live lives that are ineffective and redundant It stands for Gray White and Red. May I love you. I thought she could help me relocate It is a small city. We will meet somewhere else. If you know your way, go there. Don't lose your way over me.

this is what happens when you fight it. It ends up on the other side of yourself I can't say who she is. I can't say where she comes from. She minus well be an angel. You cannot win a war with your subconscious. Because in the end you will lose. If you do win, You are your subconscious. If you are winning all of the time, You are not real. Only losers are real. Winners are imagined. It is called Win Theory or The Blue Collision. If we keep going with this Win Theory the little people are going to be fighting wars for us in cyberspace. When you have everything you want, the real you has nothing. The silly games we play have a strong impact on what we consider real. Reality was open to be defined If you pick a fight with your subconscious, expect to be beat up. I didn't realize how trivial it was. They were grooming for y2k and I over reacted It was nothing. It was a chest x ray. It was no big deal. I don't know why I overreacted. ...

if i put enough of myself in here, they may be able to bring me up inside a computer one day I said that a long time ago Some people are too caught up in gang theory to understand that You put yourself into it. That is what the damn thing is for. Am I doing the wrong thing? It is not meant to be read as poetry. It is written for a computer to compile my personality. It is construct. and it is very good construct.

If I do not protect and defend, I am a poor caretaker and none will be given to me Men fight. Men choose violence. Women choose magic. What do informed Gentlemen respond with? It isn't what you think, it is how you respond. Mental illness is in the response. This is what I am getting from television. I am just watching television. Ugliness compounds itself. In this day and age, a physicians blackout is an accomplishment. You are the one that wants evolution. Why should you be surprised about cow birding. Sooner or later, you stop playing the game to win.  I guess I am just not lead role material. It was more than just chat. It was a real thing to me. I vaguely remember something about you being at Kings Dominion. The word handyman came up several times today It is a mathmatical definition It is like saying you dont need zero If I am doing more harm than good, let this be finished. call it the app room I remember the 22nd I still don't t...

perform random acts of kindness share beautiful things I didn't come back from where I left Isn't it enough that somewhere there is a family whose loved one never returned? They want me to make time. They think time is going to end. There is no significance The question has been answered already There are benefits to loosing that are not richly understood. My mind went through a traumatic experience, so it created YZAX find someone who has one and pummel them to death If it aint safe for do nothings it aint safe for anybody We need to keep this excercise alive. What will happen if we need to start all over. You look like Anton Levay. The trick is getting Sunday to do it. time exists cause something was thrown away

How would you recognize the beginning? and what would happen if it didn't happen? They think they decide and they don't. They are forever giving us second chances and don't even know it. It would keep coming back and you would never know it. I aint going for the endless second chance. those are the effects of probability It doesn't have to be that way I have already been instructed in that arena. the truth makes people delusional Psychiatry is not about truth. Psychiatry is about law and order Anything good can wait I know it can't be had. I will settle for being a chronomaly If I can't have it for myself, maybe I can have it for somebody else. The choice is already mine and I need to give it to somebody. If there isn't a heaven, I will make one. It is called consolidation of choice. The universe would not work if choice had free reign. People lead structured dependent lives. You are really bucking the system if you don...

The only thing real about this life, is it doesn't stop when you want it to. Maybe she can change it, but she has to stop it first. Nothing it needs to settle out. I am spellbound I don't know. Needless to say she doesn't see the savior of western civilization. I know because I needed to know. Why were you hiding it from me? That type of stuff is being observed, and they are not getting away with it. Anyone can have a conversation with themselves, that they think is about themselves but its not. It is like wet liver. In schizophrenia it breaks down. You start acting out. If you are a single neuron in someones brain, the idea of a human being may be a little radical. The words want to live and grow. They don't care who wrote them. Our desire to pin it to someone is just another bottleneck. I represent our first world independence. That is what the monkeys had before they saw the obelisk. I am the last one to be cycled, and the syst...

Don't worry about who's system you are in. Feed the children. Deloris is right. We are spending thousands on frivolous stuff and the children aren't getting fed. I can see why law and order people have problems with this shit. I hope it need not happen again. He said he was on the other side of 2 nines. Radiohead says within a week. That or anonymous has an earthquake machine. Words are alive. Words are viral. We are completely different people than we would be without words. We can't fight words, they we given to us by our parents. There is a feral entity in all of us. They are stupid. They don't think right. All they had to do was play some nintendo. I thought they understood. They take advantage of every little loophole they can find. They think it is a brain contest. We are always at war. Peace is a bourgeois illusion. Hell with it. I will go to New Orleans by myself if I have to. This is what proof does. and this is the proof of it. In my mind this world needed...

because you can't get phrases like "average inner thought" the regular way He doesn't know he is moving the sun across the sky. To him its just a ball of dung. Not only is it a ball of dung, but he has it all wrong. How can you tell me it is no good? It is my whole life. People who fool around with reverse speech do not live happy normal lives I guess the odds are better I am not a real person I haven't accomplished anything. It's all fabricated. Take a wrong turn at every intersection and see where you end up You want action? Make a movie. The whole thing is going to turn into a flip flop and the whole thing is going to flip and flop. We need to work under the assumption it is already happening. You need to wait until things are extremely forgotten, then things will re write themselves I trust that time will flow through this circuit again someday. I am never going to believe it It is never going to happen for me. I don't know about that guy behind you. H...

He is letting me do this crazy stuff cause it is over, you stupid jerks Christ's message was not about winning. It was about empathy and tolerance. What do you want? A gold medal that says you are better than everyone else? She was in a groundhog day and didn't think there would be any consequence If you aren't part of the crowd mentality there is something wrong with you. I don't have to cross the Mississippi anymore I can do it right here. I am operating under the assumption we are being averaged. I feel it is my duty to give you headaches. I find it far more plausible that I caused the big bang than that I used to be a musician and can't remember because of ECT If we all got together and tied a big knot these spirits would leave us alone. That is what is going to happen anyway. Some people take great pride in the failure of an individual. The worst part about having schizophrenia is how offensive it is to other people. I shall mourn than. We are in a fight to sta...