I’m worried about the bloodbath that’s going to happen if he does get elected again.

I’ve been though this before 

We may find a comfortable place in purgatory 

But if we don’t come to God it ain’t gonna last

Let him have it if he wants it that bad, it isn’t going to last.

I would think people would be grateful there was someone like me,

But I guess not

I’m supposed to draw things out and come up with the answer before things hit the fan.

I think he sees it as I’m sitting on power and that drives some people crazy

I can’t stop this one

God help us

I spent decades telling people wwiii was between US and England and everyone thought I was nuts.

Now what do you think?

That it’s even feasible is a revolution.

He thinks I’m sitting on power

Power is not my job

He is riding the dragon

I went through my physics guru stage

Yzax was a real discovery though

But I’m not another Einstein 

60% of people won’t work with a schizophrenic 

And the other 40%, once they have worked with one, won’t do it either 

Back in the 80’s

Back in the 80’s

I tried to get help

But Dr. Curry and my parents didn’t tell me the truth about it,

Cause they thought I wouldn’t try.

Omg Kimberly is dead

I always took solace in the fact that she was happy

And decided it would be creepy to intrude in her new life

I’m sorry she is gone

I told her happy birthday back in 2012 but never heard anything. 

Last I heard she was in charge of her class reunion and everything was going fine.

Everyone else was chasing tail or whatever

And I’m dreaming about hurting myself 

having fantasies about doing in in the woods

I was really messed up

With 

You can’t change what you fantasize about 

If you have the bends you have the bends

It’s like conversion therapy 

It doesn’t work

I’ve come across this reverse speech thing firsthand 

I believe the Bible is like a firewall protects you from it

I thought the three of us would reconcile and go to Disney world one day 

I thought it was wonderful, but apparently it wasn’t good enough.

If I had to go back in time I wouldn’t try to have a relationship with ginger or Kim. 

Things were better when they thought I was gay

I get mixed up between the 14th and the 17th

I have read some of what Lincoln wrote on the subject,

And it seems, at least early on,  he was more concerned about preserving the union,

And the future of democracy than he was about the abolishment of slavery.

Maryland’s slaves weren’t declared free until may of 1864

If it was all about slavery why didn’t Lincoln wait to act on slavery in the border states 

The civil war abolished slavery

But I don’t think Lincoln went to war to abolish slavery

Lincoln went to war to preserve the union and save democracy 

It would have been a hard sell if he had said it was about slavery at the beginning 

The people of the north weren’t clamoring to have a war to free the slaves.

I don’t think the civil war was a grand crusade to free the slaves

But it’s silly to say slavery had nothing to do with it.

And the only thing reparations are going to do is cause astronomical inflation 

It will be like the Bible says

A loaf of bread will cost a days wage

I don’t like Trump

I am not going to vote republican.

But I don’t know if there is a place for me in the Democratic Party 

I’ve got to look out for me

What is going to happen to me if that happens 

Politicians and the media tell you what you want to hear.

Ain’t nothing in it me telling you this stuff

It wasn’t a dream was it

Time, times, and half a time is about Donald Trump

Time is his first term in office

Times is his facing off against Biden twice

Half a time is how long his second term will be

Make no mistake 

You are voting for an Antichrist 

If you don’t recognize it by now

You are in denial about it

Migration has been happening for hundreds of thousands of years 

You are not going to stop it

They tropics become unlivable and people migrate

You know if he loses the nomination he is not going to accept it

And the Republican Party might split

Pure Operational Space

I wish my life had been defined by something I could have gotten credit for.

Something dazzling, something earth shattering and dynamic.

Something worth being stupid about.

The sad thing would be if it got completely ignored.

Probably happens all the time.

It’s my relationship to my genitalia.

Hard to believe my Grandmother started all of this.

I wish I had had the conversation with my mother

It just never came up.

People need to talk about this,

People shouldn’t be treated like pets that aren’t eating.

Even if they are men.

He knows it’s my show

And he isn’t in the lead role.

I have blemishes, I am sorry,  this isn’t a job I applied for.

Once you fall through one, you keep falling through.

Nothing can hold you anymore.

I don’t know the physics behind it and he keeps wanting me to prove it to him.

I can’t say

If grandma was going to do that I should have been raised Jewish.

Just another floor to fall through 

I can’t say, this persona wasn’t there.

I think it goes back to what they had an argument about to begin with

Please forgive me, this is how I go through therapy 

I didn’t mean to cause anyone distress, I’m sorry.

Everything else has been tried.

This is how it works for me.

It was more of a self abuse thing with me.

I know it’s difficult to follow 

You are getting like half a conversation 

I love my father

Being gay is the last thing in the world I would ever do to him

I thought I had a choice

I didn’t know the whole world was going to force me to be gay.

In the end I have done worse

Mostly because of stuff that happened long before I was even born,

That didn’t have anything to do with it to begin with.

Can you imagine believing the Bible was written for you?

That Jesus dies for you?

And not just once

But over and over again 

I try not to think about it

Do you think Hitler’s sexuality had anything to do with the holocaust?

Are we forcing people to be Gay because of Hitler and the holocaust?

How many people get into psychology because they want to understand why the holocaust happened?

Do they think they are stopping another one?

Do they think they are stopping people from dying?

How do you entertain these people?

Only because that’s the knot that was tied.

That was the floor to be fallen through.

The knot could have been about something else

Would you fuck yourself over it?

I like the science fiction shows on appletv+

But if these strikes aren’t settled

I’m not paying $5 a month for no new shows

Let the average American talk long enough,

They are going to contradict themselves.

They would do worse than that.

I thought I heard my mom call me Adolf Mallory, so now I have a complex about it.

I am sorry.

If I had to put my money on it,

His situation and mine are probably similar.

He probably had a G but she was Jewish.

My sexuality might be screwed up,

But I could never hate that bad.

I would hate to lose my patience now.

He lets me know.

If you want your life to be a disaster see a psychiatrist.

Go to church before seeing a psychiatrist.

I could see an independent drawing 25 or 30% 

SoundClick must not be doing too bad.

It’s jammed every night at 12 o’clock 

A Statistic on a Good Saturday

It’s hard to believe Star Wars 

Is coming on 50 years old

When I was a kid

50 years was the 20’s

Ancient history 

Polls suggest 60% of people would not want to work with a schizophrenic.

In practice it’s probably more like 80%

It’s not that I can’t work, or don’t want to work.

People don’t want to work with me.

If I did work it would be a few months here a few months there.

Eventually nobody would hire me.

I don’t like being on social security.

It makes me feel guilty, but I need stability in my life.

I make music, I volunteer, I’m doing what I can.

If Trump wins those two years will be hell.

This is not the way to do the government budget.

It’s like going on strike or something.

20 hours of volunteering seems to be enough already

Please people are going to get hurt

I don’t feel angry, but at some level I must be.

I have seen a lot of stuff on tv over the years.

Some stuff you see once than never again.

People think you are nuts when you talk about it.

I guess I could

But I’d have to have a habit of looking at the numbers every day.

I can make an endless four bars of the same thing

But it’s hard to make a bridge with GarageBand 

Men are that way because that’s the way women want men to be,

If women didn’t want men to be that way anymore, they wouldn’t 

I’m asexual, I’m happy with it, that’s the way I am.

No amount of reeducation is going to change that.

Stop trying.

I’m trying not to be creepy, but I can’t fucking stop this shit.

I am convinced she fucking loves me and there is some solution to the shit.

Things aren’t the way they are supposed to be.

There is no sense in struggling for an empirical truth.

I should just accept it.

Maybe I need to stay on the good shit

For some people the idea that people are actually born in hell is too much for them,

They can’t take it.

Meaning doesn’t mean anything anymore,

It’s all who said it and when

If you don’t have that you have nothing 

If I don’t have no separation, no differentiation, 

than I’m just a statistic on a good Saturday

They want people to be ain’t nobody 

It’s to their benefit 

They don’t want to waste technology, teraflops, on you.

The hard drive means they got to sweat a little bit

If it comes down to what I said or didn’t say thirty years ago that’s a waste

They would have to very anal

It’s not that the people can’t tell what’s real and what’s not,

It’s that the computers can’t tell what’s real and what’s not,

And the people are using the computers to tell what is real and what is not.

And they don’t really give a shit one way or the other,

The farmers don’t want to waste good seed.

They want the weather to be predictable 

It would be too many teraflops if one person could do that with a 486

I make horrible music

I make music so bad it tells me how bad it is

But fuck it I enjoy it.

If stuff really does go backwards 

And you could tell yourself what the winning numbers were

you would have to be in the habit of playing and watching all the time

And if you won your life would be a superstitious nightmare.

You would have let that dynamic into your life. 

Things would never be the same.

Apparently I had the same dream that hobby lobby guy had

You can find a comfortable place in purgatory but don’t expect it to last long

Well we had talked about the lottery thing earlier 

It’s not good for people to think I got Yzax by luck 

Well read the Bible maybe the lord will bring you something

Sometimes, when you tell someone to get lost, that’s what they do.

I wish, just one time, she would just scream at me to fuck off

Why is the syndrome dangerous to the pact?

I guess they can’t verify the origin of the information 

I’m sorry I didn’t go see the psychedelic furs

It’s a phobia thing like stage fright

I just can’t deal with it anymore 

Life is not much to be a failure at.

I guess I wanted to be successful at being a failure.

People live vicariously through trump

It’s good entertainment,

But it’s just climbing a ladder, climbing a ladder, climbing a ladder.

There is no top.

Find a comfortable place in purgatory,

And pray for the best.

I hear you.

Just fuck somebody for h sake

Windows Log

If your one drive files are showing up with an X mark

That means the files are not synced

Check that one drive is in your system tray

If not go to the start menu and run one drive 

Replace the Purge Control Valve George

Stop it you crazy bitch, you are hurting me.  What are you trying to prove?

It’s either here or on social media.

I can’t stop.

Really, she did without affectionate touch for five years?

Omg it’s a crisis.

Car trouble record

Filled up with gas on 23rd not usual for me

Noticed I left car window down on 27th

Stopped at 711 on 27th car wouldn’t start

Accepted a jump

Went to leave volunteer job on 29th car wouldn’t start

Car wouldn’t jump

Left cables attached for a few minutes and tried again

Car started

Went to advance auto parts to replace battery

Technician tested battery fine

Friend put load tester on battery with car off

Light very bright

Removed fuse to the radio/door locks/security 

Light got much dimmer

Discovered radio/door locks/security has different power modes for key fob

Put fuse back in

Left message at first mechanic 

Talked to bing suggested EVAP purge control valve

Car sat for three days

Monday morning went to take car to first mechanic 

Would not start

Jumped after some difficulty

Took to first mechanic

Battery tested bad

No other codes

Battery and air filter replaced 

Assured me problem was fixed

Drove home and almost didn’t make it

Surging and stalling cut off while driving

Took to second mechanic 

Still no error code

Told mechanic to replace purge valve

So far so good

Could have been just a fluke thing

Worth my peace of mind to replace valve

Plus it was a safety issue 

This sort of stuff happens to me all of the time.

The laws of physics go haywire around me.

AI is great grand and wonderful,

But the information you get from it comes from some real life person.

If we depend on it too much and don’t tell it anything,

It’s going to get stupid.

We won’t be able to use it anymore.

I told Bing I had recently filled the fuel tank,

And that it seemed to start fine cold.

If it was that valve it should have given me problems 

Immediately or soon after filling the tank,

Or it should have thrown a code.

Dad had a lot of problems with that car,

But he always kept his tank full.

Idk I can’t let go of it.

Maybe the tank is overfilling.

Maybe the computer is messed up.

I guess it could have been a fluke thing,

And I could have kept driving it.

What would you have done?

I didn’t go to bing with the intention of fixing my car,

I just did an internet search and ai happened to be there.

If I keep having problems, I am not keeping the car.

I am glad I don’t have a job to be at.

The Kings Highway

The kings highway doesn’t go east and west.

It happened in my minds eye and I really can’t say

But I think these “aliens” are visiting from hell.

I can’t say, “I am a medium, this is what happened.” it’s in admissible.

And it’s dangerous, then the entities that were in my head are out in the public.

I think they are “time travelers” and think they can “fix” us.

I understand people feel like they need some answer about this.

Is time a flat dimension, or does it have height width and depth of its own?

The problem is “time travel” is the problem.

Like 12 monkeys.

I got the feeling something miraculous is going to happen tonight or tomorrow or Wednesday.

There’s a reason it’s All Saints’ Day 

Or All Souls’ Day

From my perspective. The are effing with the efffer that invented the thing.

Yzax was involved, it’s like the chessboard.

I think I was a character and God made me a real person.

I liked it at WSR, but they had me doing the whole post press 

then complained when I made a mistake.

You can’t win.  

It’s like climb a mountain, climb a mountain, climb a mountain 

and there is no top.

I’m sure something will happen by Wednesday 

If not this year another one.

Something happens 

Maybe someone sent a ticket to the church like I did.

This effers are never going to leave me alone till there is a miracle.

If people want the story they will have to wear these shorts.

If they won’t take it from me.

I can’t articulate everything convincingly on a blog.

Because Satan is going to say you said this or you said that

This is not a notarized legal document 

I am trying to help people understand.

If they won’t take it from me 

Or take it from the Bible 

I can’t help them.

You can’t win,

It’s just climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain

And there is no top

Lord help me stop

Jesus help me stop 

Lord Jesus help me stop

Please God help me.

I have been swimming with sharks my whole life.

I can’t handle much more of this, I am trying to make everyone happy, 

I am going to have to give Pam McCauley poa

I am going to try not posting for a while.

I am going to post to notes.

I might put them up someday.

I am sorry.

I can’t drink the ocean forever 

I am having an Apple nightmare. It’s getting in my way.

The music app is not designed to play stuff you have made with GarageBand.

I don’t want to quit using the music app, but I may have to.

It just doesn’t play with GarageBand very well.

You need to check your ballot two or three times before you stick it in the machine.

Drinking just one can of diet soda per day 

has been associated with a 2567% increased risk of type 2 diabetes, 

compared to drinking no diet soda at all .

Apple needs to come up with something better than iTunes 

I would get an iOS assistant but they are both Chinese.

I need something that works better with GarageBand.

I guess I’ll just run this old pc into the ground 

Nobody buys music anyway 

They get subscription services and stream what they want.

I think I am going with cesium 

The cloud players are clunky.

They aren’t ready yet.

Migrating iTunes is a headache.

And I don’t think cesium does anything the music app doesn’t do.

I can see why people use the cloud.

If there were a player that used iCloud I might use it.

It’s too late for Trump 2.0

Every time I do a link on opaque burger I have to get it evaluated 

Sorry I guess I can’t do opaque burger no more.

They might put it off for a while,

But people are going to make their own tea.