Average Inner Blog

I am a jerk and a screwup I have the wrong attitude about it. It is more than just an effect. There is real magic in the bottleneck. As a mathematical term, it means having your own base. I know it is sacrilegious, but I think atheists and agnostics need to understand that. She is too much for me. I can't handle that much. She delights in driving me crazy. I am crazy enough. I don't need any help being crazy. You were a siren the whole friggen time. Is that the way you want to be remembered? It was already there. It was intentionally left undone. I am never saying goodbye again. Going to Florida is a sad memory for me. I wish we could go to Disneyworld. It has consumed my whole life. I would of rather died on the beaches of Normandy, or Vietnam. You get a good view of that from the psych ward. If you want to break tradition, If you want to go in a new direction, It is really hard. I have been on this path for a long time, and it is not as easy as it looks. You don't know ho...

Name the shit and move on. That is my motto. It is all in what you are going after it is both saturation. Going after the April Fool's Day thing, is going after saturation. They are the same thing. The universe doesn't care if someone came up with it first. You get what you are asking for. You want it, but you can't have it. It is over. It is done. There is no undoing it. Blame Freud. From their perspective, I changed history, and they are not happy about it. I went after saturation and got an information burn. That is all there is to it. There is nothing I can do about it. If I didn't care, why would I say anything? Old worlds have massive hangups about this shit. We need old growth. The Universe is dying. It is just bravado, just ignore it. Cause Freud is a fucking idiot. He shouldn't have said that shit. This is what the word prove does to people, and he knew it. I have no love loss for him. They thought at some point we would nail down everything, and start over...

Somebody needs to do something. Writing is going to die. Reading the Bible qualifies you as well read these days. I molded the darn thing. You are supposed to keep 12 and throw 12 away. Nobody can tell you how to do it. It doesn't work if you know what you are doing. I don't know if doing it wrong qualifies you as having your own base. I wouldn't mind, but that would mean one of us would have to leave. I feel sure he wouldn't want to treat me as an adversary, but I understand why he might need to. I know miracles happen. I don't have to be convinced about it. I am not just a Hitler who cant paint portraits, there was a reason things ended up this way. It is amazing I produced anything with that attitude. They make lemons. We make lemonade. It has been like that for years. Strawberries are rocking the boat. They knew this was coming. I guess an OK computer just doesn't add up. It is a little too tricular. I enjoy gadgets just like everyone else, but sometimes you...

I understand downtime. It is a powerful motivator. There are scores out there who would like to sleep like I do. I just lay there for days and I love it. Especially when I wake up and someone has given me a hug. I do appreciate. Thank you. I apologize if it is turning out the same old same old. What can I say? He doesn't like being turned down. That is the worst thing you can do. I don't know. It is all a big nightmare to me. I got caught up in the brinkmanship. Somebody did get hurt, and his name is David Mallory. If my clock runs slower than yours, in a given amount of time, am I in a separate universe? Is there a limit to how many minutes behind you can be? This math shit is real, and it is happening to me. I am not saying that there is not delusional aspects of my personality, but this shit is not delusional, this shit is real. You can't do the April Fools Day thing and read. You have to do it without reading anything, or at least not a lot. I don't know. I just wan...

tell me to shut up already People need truth. Mother Nature doesn't listen. Father Time doesn't care. I am trying to get a rouse out of her. I didn't read it cause it was Mad Dog 20/20, I found the real thing. I know what it is like to live in the vacuum of lies. You made me feel good about myself. You made me feel happy. I wish someone would give me anesthesia three times a day. It would shake the foundation of the world we think we live in. You need to take the offensive fast and early, or they are going to milk you to death, and leave you with a dead cow. These nations don't care about us. We are just a roadside attraction to them. A holiday camp. This is a commie loving pinko fag telling you this. I hate to say it, but I think Japan is the only one that truly cares about us. It is the damn inside outside shit. I don't know why they insist on doing that shit. It is just another way to divvy us up. Like I said, I have been in wards where we don't even exist. O...

They play cruel jokes on each other. They call it lulls. We cant be trusted with the power of creation, until we start treating each other right. If we would do that to the son of God, what would we do to each other? If you won't hear it from Jesus, who will you hear it from? It is right there for you to read it. I know, I didn't want to read it either. If he was willing to go to the cross for you, you should listen to him. He knew what was going to happen, and he didn't back down. He did it anyway. He did it for you. Would you rather hear it from Muhammad or Buddha? Who do you want to hear it from? I know you have problems with it. I am asking you if you would rather hear it from someone else. Even Satan would choose Jesus over those other two. Face it If you don't accept Jesus, you are stupid. Jesus didn't do it for the lulls. Who would you trust with your eternal soul? This is a commie loving pinko fag telling you this. I am telling it like it is. I am not going ...