I may be not quite born with it

but I cant go back and live in a world of lies

they dont think i am deserving

they dont think I am one of them

real christians are walking twilight zones

thats just the way thing are

yes

the word verification gave me that shit

gated

nobody else asked you friggen morons

God came to our aid

cause I asked him too assholes

I dont care where I came from

its a real friggen government with real friggen people!

I dont want to work...

how would you like to live in a world of lies
you dont know what it feels like

why is it so important?

cause I was the only one to reach over and ask them you friggen morons
thats what its so important

why God?

game theory doesn't belong

it could have been over before it even started

some people just have a "game" mentality
you cant help these people

dont shoot the piano player

I knew they were playing around with sand
I knew the shit was coming
and I did the best I could

why?

cause I know what atheists do to each other thats why

we may not agree on everything

but I am not going to allow people to fall into an atheist sand pit

whether you like it or not

this is too important for you to do
willy nilly whatever you want with me

you would do better...

you would do better to ask for something like that

I am sorry Carolina

you stepped into an atheist sinkpit
they do that shit to each other

theres a lot of people...

they think God doesn't see
but he does see
he sees everything

is this ok?

now is the time to ask

God doesn't speak to me

and it is not my decision

I am sorry

I know there is some good people out there
I feel like they are druging me up and turning me into someone I am not
or have false expectations about me
If this happens again in 2012
its not going to be pretty

you manufactured my ass people!

all of you!
its your fault!
God I hope this turns out ok

why?

cause I had been through enough already
and they put me through even more
I mean damn I was on clozaril
thats last line of defense people
now im on clozaril and geodon and a whole handfull
when are they going to let me go?
I asked them to leave me alone!

this is page one

the main reason for arguments and hatred is people aren't on the same page

if I am here to do an extraction

I minus well do an extraction

the mechanics

"to he who has is given more..."

it is too late to forgive John Lennon

a Shinto rebellion has already started

ive had a serious break

i have had a serious break with reality

its hard

its hard to save the game and the people
sometimes its the game or the people

I know better now

I know that its better to pop than snort now
that doesn't mean I am going to stop snorting tomorrow
I dont know how to pop

what do I think?

I think its been done like this in a lot of places
coming in from the future
they don't realize who's way it is

the more I feel bothered

the deeper and deeper I go

just because

they are deep philosophical questions for me

why cant I feel good?

why can't I feel good about myself?
I can't answer these questions

I feel I am stealing from the ether
I don't feel I am communicating, controlled by spirits
or running a program

I am not calling anybody

its bad enough that I am in everybody's dreams
and that i am talking to the radio

oink oink

it just aint my thing
I never did really like it
I started out with the bends

ive had enough

you have already given me a major episode
I have had enough for now
I can sandwich my posts at any time

I know

I know what is superimposed
and what is not
and so do a lot of other people

keep it up

you keep up this word verification
and i am going to keep sandwiching my posts
you dont want to know what i think

me and henry...

me and henry we arent like other people
we get lost on purpose
I am lost out in goochland somewhere

love wants me...

love wants me to plan and think about the future

?

what does love want me to do?

they were self deluded

they were self deluded and totally wrong about me
if thats my fault I accept responsibility

I told you

I told you not to hurt my father again
but you did it anyway didnt you?
more than twice didnt you?

you know I am an evergreen
you know what evergreens are

dont play stupid with me

dont they already have one?

they are idiots

the whole thing is going to end up as a big head game where the rules dont apply and thats where they want to go
i dont want to go there
its better to pop than snort

I know you think it is witchcraft

but its not
it is an extraction
and its never gonna die
please use it
for else this

please forgive my father

I don't want him to "die" because of me
I don't understand
I thought people sinned sinned sinned and sinned until they died
I don't know why I seem to be confused about something
everybody else knows

its your decision

either it was my idea
or I stole it from the ether

one thing I do know

its better to pop than to snort

I steal things from the ether

that's the way it is with me

it was my idea

I did not learn the lesson I was supposed too
paths and gardens were my idea
I take responsibility for it

ok so now we are back

now we are not only hung up on divine
now we are hung up on sacred

naming the path

this is the path to the garden of Joy and Gladness

I am in the wrong

I am doing things backwards
I need to leave
but I don't know how

no future

apparently that is the assigned punishment for people who use sorcery or magic
but now its so ubiquitous innocent people are getting hurt

apparently

If not me

if it hadn't been me
somebody else would have had to read it in
lots of people all they got
and they believe in it
whether the translation has serious problems or not

who is she?

who is she to make me jump her hoops
to heck with her
I mean its gotten so pathetic and sad
it just doesnt happen anymore
and the deal is
it didnt need to happen from the begining

info set?

So what is this "info set"
sometimes people are a little superstitious
about the way they shut stuff down
or start stuff up
that is what it is for

I cant tell you

I cant tell you how to use it
It wont work as well if I tell you

thats why

I dont care

for me

the machine aint working if there aint ghosts in it

steal

steal
the floor

I don't understand

what are the mechanics of that?
how does that happen?
How is that possible?

I know it

God is going to put me in charge of something

validity of The Good News Bible

its better than zecharia sitchin
and its therapeutic to plow through it

I am all loved out

I aint got nothin no more

"my" world

they keep it
and they fight over it

its a whole new ballgame

when someone never punches in

you are being selfish

people need me
they think they got it all figured out
and they dont

dont you want to be there for other people?

dont you care?
wouldnt you help them if you could?
how could you walk away from them when they needed you?

its punk

thats the way punk is
dont you understand punk?
being a stubborn asshole
about trying to be abstract

the future?

If nothing changes
I am eventually live long enough to forget her
and then everything is going to repeat itself

what they do

they send you on a big ego trip
then erase your ass
dont say I didnt warn you

I have been in wards

I have been in wards where they have never heard of Jamestown
or the United States
so shape up before it happens to US

dragons

they use you in warp drives
put you in prison ships and shit

I can't

you can't ride the dragon if you have questions about it
and it is never going to change
so get over it

we have deep philosophical differences

I am dark side to her
I am not real to her
she thinks I am running a program

not this thanksgiving

I will wait ten years
(I have been doing that my whole life)
Why should I stop now?

please forgive me

we did not have a fully welcome encounter
I apologize

this is very important

please choose The Good News Bible

im not concerned about the music right now

I have destroyed Revelations in three Bibles so far
and the only Bibles I had on hand that I didn't touch
were basically new testament only versions
so I think maybe I am looking for the right book
I don't know why
so I went to the thrift store a few times
and now I have one new testament only Good News
and two Good News Bibles
and I am reading one now

dont worry

I see holes everywhere
its not just you

you dont see holes?

we are talking about a Bible called
the King James version
and you are worried about the translation?

you should know

if you are the one trying to fix everything
you should know by now
if God wants to take it away
let him take it away

I am sick of it

this has been going on for over 20 years
if I can see and hear who is she to take it away from me

post 471

I did a horrible thing
more than once
and I know
God could strike me dead right now
so I am assured
he has a purpose for me

how did I get away with it?

I guess I am the dumb ass that threw him off three times

lesson 468

check out the last page
if it says "The End"
you can suck it
its Halloween candy

lesson 467

Im doing the only thing I can do
I am reading

lesson 466

you do not want to get caught in a bad situation with a chidren's bible

its a mess

I think we have a big kudos for Good News
but even admins from the same party can differ

so damned determined

so damned determined to find something
they hit a damn water main

the L thing

that came from the knot they tried to tie ten years ago

I apologize

I know in the past few weeks I have said some stuff that wasnt nice
but people cant read my mind you know
everything was going fine till it came the last day to register
then the "voices" started fighting over me
I don't know why they do that
I apologize
I felt it my duty to fight them
so they wont do it to somebody else

damn

yall must have understood it
I was sure I was gonna get flamed for that

well...

I am a moron
and nobody needs me either!

what else he said

he said he was a moron and nobody needed him anymore

maybe

maybe he says that about a lot of people