the medication

I feel the medication is taking me places I could not otherwise go
but thats something else I am never going to be able to win

it was just too much

any halfway schizo would have went crazy

we have all made strides

it is not about the cat

it is whether we need the box or not

there may be other david mallory's

but the question is whether it is naturally like that or not

damn thing

it is all about whether God exists in the end

why does it matter

please stop running that movie in my head
I am going to get new developments to the cows come home

you wanted proof

you got it
he is going to make you quit
else this

oh my God

they aint gonna quit

christ already told them basically the sme thing

we are dumber than roaches

at least they don't pay for their own traps

I love you

I am sorry

you just take the job

you don't know why

I know how to do it

I don't know why

things naturally go wrong

I am trying to hold things from getting worse

I am trying to secure the south

things naturally go wrong

to make things go right you need to cooperate

then east and west...

then east and west have to work together to go north

I told you ten years ago

you have to go south before you go north

nature goes south

its the go south philosophy

it drives everybody nuts

somebody got pissed

we were finding the light every time
and somebody did not like it

somehow I know

somehow I know its more than his retirement

i am going to keep talking....

just ignore me

people had tools

they knew how to use them

me and dad

I dont know where
it was a lot different

thats why I keep telling you

I cant tell you how to use stuff

just enought to make it work

I know you dont like it

but its part nature

it was the idea of a solution that caused it

it had nothing to do with my sex life

it was not an easy street

his kingdom is here

jehovah's witness is right

God is not going to allow it

ours works

theirs doesn't
why should we shut off something that works
even if it could be shut off

I fought for you to have a future

this is ice water

satan...

satan dont want you to know this history people
he wants you to live in the bad old days

it never really happened

dont worry about it

its tragic

but I can't unlearn it

what do you think now?

I was supposed to learn nuclear war was unwinable
I was supposed to learn nuclear war was unavoidable
what do you think now?

study your history

darwin and marx started world war two
God didnt

it only took about three weeks

and its done me good

an understanding

people struggle for an understanding
and if they just turned to God they would have one

I have shit...

I have shit people struggle their whole life for

she must be seeing all sorts of shit...

she must be seeing all sorts of shit that aint real
I dont know how to help

everybody does it to me

why should I single them out

I may be weak

but I am not worthless

I could not be a jarhead

not in a million years

he could be a jarhead if he wanted to

if he thought he needed to be

animals love my father

you try to be a good person
you try to do the right thing
and people have it in for you

I am not the person my father is...

but I am not a sociopath

my kitty is well adjusted

I have done my best not to traumatize him

satan...

satan is filling her head with a bunch of bullshit crap

she thinks...

she thinks she is the mother of humanity or something

yes

its like adam and eve were in splitsville

I wouldn't know how to do it if I tried

she has some sort of complex

I don't think I am here to have fun
I don't think I am here to be happy

why is it dangerous...

why is it dangerous when men can say no?
something is messed up with that
how can Adam be blamed if he cant say no

why would i do that?

I could have done that 10 15 25 years ago
this all would be for naught

you think i came here for nothing...

you think I came here 25 years into the future for nothing
I am not letting this go

I said no

now I know what they do to people who believe

we are having a knockdown drag out brawl

gasible

you have a christian with an attitude problem on you hands

I see things coming

and I will wait until the last moment

they want me to get mad and blame God

but I know better

thats an awesome responsibility
who can do that?
let it all end
could you do it?

I take responsibility...

I take responsibility for the twilight zone phenomenon
but I just couldn't let it all end
I just couldn't do it

I know you want me to grow up

but we ARE children people

Christ already told them

what are you getting angry with me for?

we are in a twilight zone people

just face the facts
I dont know when it is going to end

I am trying to

somebody is trying to stop me

then an 80 dollar check

then a 90 dollar check
and so on

its who you want to write it for

thats the deal
writing it for General Motors aint going to work

and it is not just money either

you can make money by giving money people

just like that

go ahead

write it down
"I wish I had the ability to write a 70$ check"

why should I want money

my life is screwed
I cant buy back a life

how can you prove in court...

time reversal
on that scale
it is ages away

how can I do that?

i am never going to get a check from google
the physics aint there yet
it aint happening

all I have asked for

is the ability to write a 70$ check

lark knows

somebody is going to get money from somewhere

its worthless to even try

thats why im getting off with it

he told me to sue google

but of course that is never going to be allowed

he understands karma too

way better than I do

he understands emotions

far better than I do

he told me

you hate people when it hurts too much to love them

victor is smart

he knows

I am behind Lark

he has Native American heritage
and I am behind him

I know my attitude is wrong

but it is not a perfect world
and this is to the point of abuse

lark knows where this is

thank him

I am sorry

but some people know where this shit is at

that is why we are here

so you know what happens when things go wrong and cant be fixed
its ice water people
please

do you know what the bargain is?

do you know who gets shit when things go wrong and cant be fixed?

you wanted someone angry

you wanted someone on your level
would you rather it be someone else?
do you want me or not?
this is ice water people
you dont know what you are being given

dont you understand the role human emotions play

jesus you cant take them away people

you want to be superimposed

keep on following that atheistic garbage

we know what is superimposed and whats not

keep on believing it

I mean this is basic fundamental shit people

what is freedom?

if people aint allowed to have their own opinions about shit like this

we know it aint a perfect world

so we do a trade off

you think pussy is pussy

and it aint