Cardinal Fatigue

Why do I have insight and restraint when other psychos don't?

What is Cardinal Fatigue?

The things that are important can deteriorate.

The brick at the bottom has more stress on it than the brick at the top.

But they are still bricks.

God did not tell Adam and Eve they were going to live happily ever after.

What is a device or media with an obscene amount of information?

The girls just want to dash me on the rocks.

Fine don't believe in reverse speech and magic squares.

I will use them and I will have an advantage you won't use.

Belief in God may start because something is biased and partial about the universe.

Let's be clear.

The phrase "average inner thought" came from reverse speech analysis of something I wrote.

I don't know why other people can't get the results I do.

I think it is something that doesn't easily lend itself to scientific study.

That doesn't mean it should be called pseudo science.

Just because you can't get your parrot to talk,

Doesn't mean parrot's don't talk.

 

Call it parrot talk, I don't mind.

I am going to win out

The parrots don't like trademarks and such.

Toys don't stay at the North Pole forever

I know you don't like me,

But do you have to erase me from history?

I am a real person

I have a real history

I am not trying to break anyone apart

This is who I am

I tried to make this an adult blog, but it did not take.

I was trying to not be the antichrist.

Method for gridlock

Drew Bledsoe was a key player

VCU is a good school

They deserve to be successful 

I want VCU to be successful

I could easily get addicted to basketball 

Maybe the parrots don't feel the need to talk.

It cannot be accepted by some that it is so simple

And that I am more than a normal guy.

He did more for VCU and Richmond than anyone in recent memory

I am sorry to see him leave

The 12th Planet

Dark time is easy.

Dark time is events that haven't happened

If object permanence is a skill

Then reality is something you must learn.

Reality is a skill I am lacking in.

Why was that so easy to find now?

It wasn't like that before

Anything that sets you apart is a psychiatric condition.

If everything is about sex then why are we here?

We minus well be fruit flies or something.

What a relief.

I thought it was membranes colliding in my head.

I have never seen a more crazy ending in my life!

I didn't do anything immoral or illegal.
I simply expressed my desire for my team to win
In a bizarre superstitious way

Today is national give somebody a truck day.

The biggest symptom of time travel is confusion.

Malcolm XLIX

It is just a way to remember Malcolm Butler's name

I want to make a comment about the "cheating"

But I can't

I have never been officially exonerated

But I did graduate basic

If bad was thought of me

That wouldn't have happened.

😱

It is pac man

It follows me everywhere

Well he won his first

That seems to be a key to future success

What is the one yard line if you can't get stuck on it.

I never wanted my team to win before,

I only wanted them not to lose.

Because people are going to want to know how I know, and saying somebody told me isn't going to be enough.

Riding in a Huey is scary

The one time I was in one I felt for sure I was going to fall out.

I don't consider people care what schizophrenics think.

It is the compulsion to do something that gets them in trouble.

I predicted these buggers

They are playing right into the hand of big brother

They are going to make it impossible to do anything meaningful on the net

The people who crash websites when their darlings don't win.

Reality is the challenge.

Anyone can live in a fantasy world.

They wait until African American history month to play "Birth of a Nation"?

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i envy the ability to move on.

I feel like I am stuck.

I feel like I don't have that ability.

I mean how am I supposed to move on.

I guess singlemindedness is good with some things.

For other things it is a disaster

1 + 8 = 9

8 + 16 = 24

24 + 8 = 32

24 + 25 = 49

Math is a good way to jam.

It's not a perfect sequence.

It beats around the bush.

I want to play railroad tycoon with my iPad

Also present, as in Tutankhamun's tomb, were decorative designs featuring the representation of the twelve monkeys, symbolizing the night hours on one of the burial chamber walls. Totally unique to any royal tomb are beautiful bird hunting scenes. The tomb was discovered by Belzoni in 1816.

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Please forgive me about what is going on with jasmine

I am not strong enough to confront her and stop her

I do not agree with what she posts

http://www.svabhinava.org/reviews/12monkeys/default-FAQ.php

They represent dark time

I felt she did not want me in her life

And it was up to her

I felt something spooky was going on

And I felt she knew something

I don't want to get well

I have had enough

Nobody wants to work with me anyhow

You can't rely on what a person remembers and what they don't

It doesn't work

Hey at least I knew what the Big Bang was.

My doctor asked me if it was a good explosion or a bad one.

We are talking universal lethality,

I shouldn't even be here.

Playing around like that is not a good idea.

I don't know why I feel I have to reinvent the wheel.

Well I do but it's a long story.

I just sometimes feel the powers that be don't name things well.

It's the spelling

And the character development

And the dialog

And the adjectives

And do people on the net really want to read paragraphs anyway?

I wouldn't want to play Tom Brady when he is pissed.

I wonder if they count the counties and skip the cities thinking they are in the county.

Calling you paranoid

Is a bigger fly swatter

Fig leaves are one thing,

Lipstick is a whole different thing

Bubble Wrap

We shouldn't have "wiped our assess with it"

I won't do that again.

I apologize

What is a second?

How do you pictograph time?

The universe expands because time is slowing down?

How would we know?

How can there be a universe without universal time?

It's not dark matter

It's universal time?

Recently I have wondered why Relativity doesn't shatter everything.

I guess you don't need it if you don't have problems with it.

Call it dark time

Would it still perform the same function?

Things are not as fragile as it seems they should be.

It's like the universe has bubble wrap.

If this is lucky, I would hate to see what cursed is like.

I think they should call it The Obama Bowl.

I don't mean to treat the language poorly.

I write this way because of a vision I had.

I guess if I got away with it,

everyone would start doing it,

and there would be a domino effect,

and the language itself would suffer.

1 + 8 = 9

9 + 16 = 25

25 + 24 = 49

49 + 32 = 81

What is a magic ladder?

3 is an explosion,

4 is an implosion.

I can't have an answer for everything.

Sooner or later I had to face up to something.

1 square

Surrounded by 8 squares

Is a total of 9 squares

A Selfish Catalyst

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you are right
the original was wrong
i consider it developed mistakes

lucid absurdity

Nobody  asks if Oklahoma City is small.

I think they do it to piss me off.

I am not sure what I am trying to be right about.

If there is a 12 by 2, and a 3 by 8, there should be a 4 by 6.

I have always said I am not here to be happy,

But if you don't love the world

Everything goes to shit

I know it's a Hail Mary but it ain't on me.

I consider they generally degenerate if not maintained.

Like I said, if you don't love the world it goes to shit.

It may seem simple to you, but it's not to me,

And that doesn't make me a bad person

A train wreck is coming and I can't stop it

They are going to go all in.

They think it would be stupid not to.

I am worried it is going to turn into a financial thing

And that it's going to evaporate.

Why do you know so much?

I want to know what you know.

It's a thrown away Bible for thrown away people.

Psychiatry likes to shotgun.

I care whether it's living or not.

Being authorized means less to me

There is something to this no information

thing, but I think it's the shutout that matters.

I was slow.

If I did my homework I did not have time for anything else.

Giving a shit is pathological.

Everybody needs a narrative.

What makes one narrative better than any other.

People believe a lot of warped shit because they need a narrative.

People know what they need.

I don't have to lead them to it.

They let me publicize the gasoline.

That was a big deal.

Maybe they will mellow out too.

I never had dreams about you and her.

I told you what you wanted to hear.

I believe leaded gasoline caused a mass psychosis.

Just because someone beat you to the punch

Doesn't mean you didn't make the connection yourself

I got lead poisoning from playing in the dirt all the time.

http://www.schizophrenia.com/New/04/2.25.lead.htm

In the presence of this lead issue,

I don't know what to believe and what not.

If you are doing drugs,

you need to consider what you are using them with

A radio antenna might not be the best idea

Blame the individual

Blame the parents

There are no environmental concerns at all

Lead sensitivity has more behind it than childhood immunizations causing autism.

Lead causes a problem wth calcium?

They use lithium instead of calcium because it would be too obvious?

Even if they wanted to say something,

They would lose their position,

And be thrown out of medicine.

Stellar Mediocrity

If it is a condition, it is not a lifestyle.

If it is a lifestyle, it is not a condition.

If it is not a disease

You can't diagnose someone as having it.

I didn't know.

Just stick whatever you want in there,

Because that is what I feel.

Hide behind rules and labels.

It feels it is smarter than us.

It feels it should make decisions, not us.

I guess initial conditions are important.
I was mad at M for being mean to C.
I have never felt it was a big deal.
I guess it was.

I asked God to take it away from me

And I have never felt the same since.

If they are going to make a lasting decision,

It needs to come from congress

I feel embarrassed and stupid

You totally missed it.
it was about why people say "you know" all the time.

 I have earned my ignorance.

They call you delusional

Say you are hallucinating 

Then get mad saying you stole something

It's my head

I need a place where it's ok for me to be celebrate

I apologize for stealing the song

I stopped calling her,
I told the doctor I had schizophrenia
I don't know what else I could have done

I guess they wanted me to have a violent outburst
It is a little difficult to do that when you know it

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tetraethyllead

I was bicycling in that crap

It is all about the chemicals

Megalomania is wishful thinking at this point

I hope I am just out of my head

I have tricked my physiology into thinking I have reproduced

No one ever sees the schizophrenic as a victim.

If it has black spots in it watch out.

The medicine takes you beyond the envelop in a way that is not good.

Quitting the game cold turkey was the hardest thing I ever did,

And I didn't get a trophy for it either.

I feel like doing the right thing was the wrong thing to do.

It is a legitimate grouping and I am not letting go of it.

There is no math to done

It's like saying numbers are even or odd

Except it not numbers its frames

They are hoping it's easy enough someone else will come up with it.

If it is not mine,

Why do I know how to use it?

Strange groupings are at the center of why we are schizophrenics

That does not mean the groupings are delusional.

 

If you don't understand why this would happen

You don't understand my flavor of schizophrenia

Who's reality am I supposed to be in denial about?

HB

I wish I had given more consideration into what we already had.

The Last Paradigm

I haven't led her on
She is here because she wants to be here

Set, grouping, whatever we call it, nature is going to decide what it is

They think, if they make a game out of it, it will last longer.

Channeling doesn't lend itself to challenging yourself.

If I could make a real peice of music I would.

This sleek polished stuff is exactly what I am afraid of.

I feel people want me to be exactly what I am trying not to be.

Human relations is scary 

They are not going to rest until they have 120 percent of everybody.

Dissent will be pathological.

Half of them are trying to corner you

And the other half are pissed you are getting away with it.

I consider evolution may have mitochondrial assistance.

nothing exists if you don't believe in it.

they don't want you to know the voices can be pushed out.

I wouldn't get angry if I didn't value your opinion.

One day I am going to wake up and it's going to be too late.

I feel helpless.

Make them spend a lot of time on you.

If I lose control

Then the ball is not in play anymore.

Apparently it is "Eagle Nest" not "Eagle's Nest"

I hate handshakes.

People get hurt.

People think they know what the rules are.

Then people start playing dodgeball

And the whole thing goes nuts.

Don't get addicted to it

Unless you are creating something.

If it's not a positive force in your life,

you are better coping without it.

I feel they want to say addictive and predatory behavior is desirable

And it's not

I am in control.

I have control and you don't like it.

I am the epitome of everything you hate.

And there is not a damn thing

Either of us can do about it.

The sad part?

I wanted you to love me.

That is the sad part.

What is a Turing wash?

I was talking about computer addiction,

But it could apply to that too

What is a code wash?

Being insensitive doesn't require a great deal of effort.

Funny things happen when it matters

You want to know more about these things,

Come gather and consult.

I am a heretic who stumbled upon word verification.

The only thing stellar about mediocrity is the length of it.

Nonsense microwaves

I wouldn't have the title if no one was reading it.

What is digital glow?

The same people who will accept they are only one person
and cannot change anything,
get upset if you tell them they don't matter.

It is a legitimate grouping.
I cannot force you to accept that.

I don't know.
It has some therapeutic value.

What is heat psychology?

Superstition is what happens when the floor drops out.

Until you have been at the center of the whirlwind,
I don't think you can fully understand.

There is a difference between going viral
and bleeding out.

whenever I do get an idea of why it is dangerous
it does not stay in my head very long

I thought I was doing something bold and heroic.

The crime rate went down because we stopped using leaded gasoline.

If I thought I could write a novel I would.

I understand what they are trying to say

but I have to learn things the way everyone else does

the difference is in what i decided to learn

It is not that I want to be in control.
I just don't like being out of control.

Nothing ever goes as planned
and the blame is endless

it is not an office building
the whole wall has to be replaced

if we cant get together
what hope is there for anyone else?

I am sorry for ruining your night
I thought i could sit way in the back and watch
something is wrong with me
I may stop all this

what is fractal relativity?

I thought we were tight.
I felt we were special.
I felt like I lost my family

It means nobody likes me

the hydrogen option

I dont think my life would have had a positive outcome
if it wasn't for my father

what is the best way to combat internet addiction

because the winner is the one who gets stuck with it

there has been a lot of tricksters
that is how they play

it was congress who created these hyper republican districts

its not just a nuclear option
it is a hydrogen option
and I think they are prepared to use it

Washington DC IS Area 51

I wanted a home run so bad I lost the game over it.

I think it is the districts too
but it is racist to say anything about it

there are no rules
it doesn't make sense
and it isn't fair

Two super massive black holes?
Three?

it means "barking dog"

self defense doesn't make you judge jury and executioner

the rights of life liberty and pursuit of happiness trumps everything else.

If he didn't deserve it, it was a violation of his civil rights

they are trying to make a right side wrong side issue out of this

if there is nothing left to calculate
if you are fully known
you minus well be dead

2 is to 5 as 4 is to 24

the worst thing you can do to a loved one is disappear

it is an act of violence to disappear on someone

if we would only live 5 years without them,
is it our civilization or theirs?

The beginnings get lost and no one can ever identify them.

there are some things known only to God.
and even that knowledge will attempt to pluralize itself

nations were baptized by fire one by one
some took longer than others

51 37 25 18 21 27

it is just an identifier don't worry about it

I haven't played a full game in a long time
I have been getting around to it

are you gasible?
is your family gasible?
who decides who is gasible and who is not?

the lack of moral outrage does not bode well for humanity

people were more upset about KAL

maybe they could use pycrete

they do not want a formal decision

people are like meercats
and i just don't belong

the question is
Why is it normal in the first place?

there is some sort of catalyst that affects monkey text

I guess this is the 90's

Just because it is not true,
doesn't mean it is delusional.

I don't see
as a hypothesis
a farm hypothesis
any better or worse
than a zoo hypothesis

I dont need your negativity
I dont need someone who thinks the worst of me all the time.

If nothing is real
where is the reality to argue about?

you cant say nothing is real
and then argue as to which history is real or not

it is not democratic i am sorry

accidents and accidentals

if you know where you are going, go there.
Do not get lost over me.

My name is Clozaril
I revive the wicked

I had exposure to what I wasn't prepared for.

it is a legitimate grouping and they don't want to accept it

they are frames not variables

yes it does matter

why go to the wizard when you don't know what you want?

I guess I am here for the fragrance.

you need a big target?
shoot the moon

Id give anything to see david 17 and happy
even if it wasn't me.

it cannot be rationally explained
the more you theorize the worse it gets.

there is a difference between accidents and accidentals

you dont use it to compute yourself a universe
an infinity of those are already there
you just need to twist or jump.

there are plenty of naturals out there
and they are far superior to anything contrived

they call it cowbirding or wildcating
but it works that way

personal property doesn't evolve well

if you no longer share frame of reference
Who is to say whats going to happen

this is not 1987

I think Obama faced more than Carter or Reagan

I like obsolete stuff.
We could have ten dollar computers if someone would support obsolete stuff

The sad irony is that he interferes
and that he is determined to interfere
He isn't going to find hydrogen and pull the plug

wow I didnt know my computer could do that!

What would you do with someone who knew too much of what he need not know to begin with?

if we adopt string theory
do we have to through away the adam?


This aint Star Trek.
you are watching too much television
things aint always solved in an hour

you dont recognize it because it represents a pair

I dont know what to say about that.

If you have a time machine
and the time machine causes the big bang
you are stuck with your time machine

the praying one is Jesus
He is trying to get John to pray

I could never push a wave this big
aND i CANT STOP IT EITHER

Tonal Impressionism

They tell me I am causing it,
then tell me I am delusional for thinking I am causing it.

you don't sit on a wall
you hang on a wall

It is not about electromagnetism.
It is about whether it matters or not.

Are human events Quantum events?
How are human events different  from Quantum events?
Why are they different?

They ask these things I am sure.
It sounds like snake oil so they stay away from it.

I don't know what will fix the economy,
but superstition aint going to fix it.
We need to put cycles into the economy.

What happens to physiology when time stops?
Just another evolutionary hurdle.

Time is saturated, time is regular
one hiccup and time freezes

Gold is pink

I told you Anton
it is a chronomally
they are real
like rouge waves

At least they got rid of the tube
it doesn't due to wear it on your head either

If there is no reality
Then who cares about the dinosaurs
Its like trash in the DNA

why are you asking for the consent of a child?

It doesn't matter
It is a brick
A take it or leave it brick.

I have my understanding
Get yours

it is only me in this chair
and I dont care that you cant see I am blindsighted

The Purpose Particle

if I don't come across as legit
no body else is going to

being a chronomally doesn't make me a superhero.

Fear and intimidation is not respect.
If I have spoken out of turn, let Christ speak.

It does not matter what you think,
it is the significance you give it that makes it delusional

just because you are in front,
does not mean you have learned anything

when things matter, they collide.
cats are from andromeda

Your world is not big enough for me.

It was over before it started.
I need to admit it to myself.

I don't fit into the world they believe in,
so they are trying to force it

I have had something world changing happen to me
and synchronicity is freaking me out.

It is the bitter end of a huge knot.

I couldn't get you out of my head,
but I wasn't going to jail over you

Why should I go out of my way to make him disappointed with me?

I have had information burn
I no longer think the same as everyone else
If God has a problem with lies
there are plenty of instances of word verification he can throw at me

Crowning achievements don't last very long.

I guess it qualifies as being less than momentous.

Evolution occurs because cosmological uncertainty forces mistakes.

there is a reason for that.
It has to do with the time reversal

They borrowed the same index cards.

when you solve your problem you put it on an index card
That way when you have the same problem
you know what to do

time insists on my mortality

a factor of the mind is involved in the cognition of pink.

it is difficult
everything pink touches turns pink

I can see how it would become this massive force you were trying to stop.

I guess it is good that there is someone up there who cares what is said and whats not.

I got bit by an ostrich

It means I am an honorary chimpanzee

I am tenured also

I was more interested in doing it in the woods.