I dont care where I came from

its a real friggen government with real friggen people!

I dont want to work...

how would you like to live in a world of lies
you dont know what it feels like

why is it so important?

cause I was the only one to reach over and ask them you friggen morons
thats what its so important

why God?

game theory doesn't belong

it could have been over before it even started

some people just have a "game" mentality
you cant help these people

dont shoot the piano player

I knew they were playing around with sand
I knew the shit was coming
and I did the best I could

why?

cause I know what atheists do to each other thats why

we may not agree on everything

but I am not going to allow people to fall into an atheist sand pit

whether you like it or not

this is too important for you to do
willy nilly whatever you want with me

you would do better...

you would do better to ask for something like that

I am sorry Carolina

you stepped into an atheist sinkpit
they do that shit to each other

theres a lot of people...

they think God doesn't see
but he does see
he sees everything

is this ok?

now is the time to ask

God doesn't speak to me

and it is not my decision

I am sorry

I know there is some good people out there
I feel like they are druging me up and turning me into someone I am not
or have false expectations about me
If this happens again in 2012
its not going to be pretty

you manufactured my ass people!

all of you!
its your fault!
God I hope this turns out ok

why?

cause I had been through enough already
and they put me through even more
I mean damn I was on clozaril
thats last line of defense people
now im on clozaril and geodon and a whole handfull
when are they going to let me go?
I asked them to leave me alone!

this is page one

the main reason for arguments and hatred is people aren't on the same page

if I am here to do an extraction

I minus well do an extraction

the mechanics

"to he who has is given more..."

it is too late to forgive John Lennon

a Shinto rebellion has already started

ive had a serious break

i have had a serious break with reality

its hard

its hard to save the game and the people
sometimes its the game or the people

I know better now

I know that its better to pop than snort now
that doesn't mean I am going to stop snorting tomorrow
I dont know how to pop

what do I think?

I think its been done like this in a lot of places
coming in from the future
they don't realize who's way it is

the more I feel bothered

the deeper and deeper I go

just because

they are deep philosophical questions for me

why cant I feel good?

why can't I feel good about myself?
I can't answer these questions

I feel I am stealing from the ether
I don't feel I am communicating, controlled by spirits
or running a program

I am not calling anybody

its bad enough that I am in everybody's dreams
and that i am talking to the radio

oink oink

it just aint my thing
I never did really like it
I started out with the bends

ive had enough

you have already given me a major episode
I have had enough for now
I can sandwich my posts at any time

I know

I know what is superimposed
and what is not
and so do a lot of other people

keep it up

you keep up this word verification
and i am going to keep sandwiching my posts
you dont want to know what i think

me and henry...

me and henry we arent like other people
we get lost on purpose
I am lost out in goochland somewhere

love wants me...

love wants me to plan and think about the future

?

what does love want me to do?

they were self deluded

they were self deluded and totally wrong about me
if thats my fault I accept responsibility

I told you

I told you not to hurt my father again
but you did it anyway didnt you?
more than twice didnt you?

you know I am an evergreen
you know what evergreens are

dont play stupid with me

dont they already have one?

they are idiots

the whole thing is going to end up as a big head game where the rules dont apply and thats where they want to go
i dont want to go there
its better to pop than snort

I know you think it is witchcraft

but its not
it is an extraction
and its never gonna die
please use it
for else this

please forgive my father

I don't want him to "die" because of me
I don't understand
I thought people sinned sinned sinned and sinned until they died
I don't know why I seem to be confused about something
everybody else knows

its your decision

either it was my idea
or I stole it from the ether

one thing I do know

its better to pop than to snort

I steal things from the ether

that's the way it is with me

it was my idea

I did not learn the lesson I was supposed too
paths and gardens were my idea
I take responsibility for it