Average Inner Blog

I wouldn't have the title if no one was reading it. What is digital glow? The same people who will accept they are only one person and cannot change anything, get upset if you tell them they don't matter. It is a legitimate grouping. I cannot force you to accept that. I don't know. It has some therapeutic value. What is heat psychology? Superstition is what happens when the floor drops out. Until you have been at the center of the whirlwind, I don't think you can fully understand. There is a difference between going viral and bleeding out. whenever I do get an idea of why it is dangerous it does not stay in my head very long I thought I was doing something bold and heroic. The crime rate went down because we stopped using leaded gasoline. If I thought I could write a novel I would.

I understand what they are trying to say but I have to learn things the way everyone else does the difference is in what i decided to learn It is not that I want to be in control. I just don't like being out of control. Nothing ever goes as planned and the blame is endless it is not an office building the whole wall has to be replaced if we cant get together what hope is there for anyone else? I am sorry for ruining your night I thought i could sit way in the back and watch something is wrong with me I may stop all this what is fractal relativity? I thought we were tight. I felt we were special. I felt like I lost my family It means nobody likes me

I dont think my life would have had a positive outcome if it wasn't for my father what is the best way to combat internet addiction because the winner is the one who gets stuck with it there has been a lot of tricksters that is how they play it was congress who created these hyper republican districts its not just a nuclear option it is a hydrogen option and I think they are prepared to use it Washington DC IS Area 51 I wanted a home run so bad I lost the game over it. I think it is the districts too but it is racist to say anything about it there are no rules it doesn't make sense and it isn't fair Two super massive black holes? Three?

it means "barking dog" self defense doesn't make you judge jury and executioner the rights of life liberty and pursuit of happiness trumps everything else. If he didn't deserve it, it was a violation of his civil rights they are trying to make a right side wrong side issue out of this if there is nothing left to calculate if you are fully known you minus well be dead 2 is to 5 as 4 is to 24 the worst thing you can do to a loved one is disappear it is an act of violence to disappear on someone if we would only live 5 years without them, is it our civilization or theirs? The beginnings get lost and no one can ever identify them. there are some things known only to God. and even that knowledge will attempt to pluralize itself nations were baptized by fire one by one some took longer than others 51 37 25 18 21 27 it is just an identifier don't worry about it I haven't played a full game in a long time I have been getting around...

they do not want a formal decision people are like meercats and i just don't belong the question is Why is it normal in the first place? there is some sort of catalyst that affects monkey text I guess this is the 90's Just because it is not true, doesn't mean it is delusional. I don't see as a hypothesis a farm hypothesis any better or worse than a zoo hypothesis I dont need your negativity I dont need someone who thinks the worst of me all the time. If nothing is real where is the reality to argue about? you cant say nothing is real and then argue as to which history is real or not it is not democratic i am sorry

if you know where you are going, go there. Do not get lost over me. My name is Clozaril I revive the wicked I had exposure to what I wasn't prepared for. it is a legitimate grouping and they don't want to accept it they are frames not variables yes it does matter why go to the wizard when you don't know what you want? I guess I am here for the fragrance. you need a big target? shoot the moon Id give anything to see david 17 and happy even if it wasn't me. it cannot be rationally explained the more you theorize the worse it gets. there is a difference between accidents and accidentals you dont use it to compute yourself a universe an infinity of those are already there you just need to twist or jump. there are plenty of naturals out there and they are far superior to anything contrived they call it cowbirding or wildcating but it works that way personal property doesn't evolve well if you no longer share frame of reference ...

I think Obama faced more than Carter or Reagan I like obsolete stuff. We could have ten dollar computers if someone would support obsolete stuff The sad irony is that he interferes and that he is determined to interfere He isn't going to find hydrogen and pull the plug wow I didnt know my computer could do that! What would you do with someone who knew too much of what he need not know to begin with? if we adopt string theory do we have to through away the adam? This aint Star Trek. you are watching too much television things aint always solved in an hour you dont recognize it because it represents a pair I dont know what to say about that. If you have a time machine and the time machine causes the big bang you are stuck with your time machine

the praying one is Jesus He is trying to get John to pray

I could never push a wave this big aND i CANT STOP IT EITHER

They tell me I am causing it, then tell me I am delusional for thinking I am causing it. you don't sit on a wall you hang on a wall It is not about electromagnetism. It is about whether it matters or not. Are human events Quantum events? How are human events different  from Quantum events? Why are they different? They ask these things I am sure. It sounds like snake oil so they stay away from it. I don't know what will fix the economy, but superstition aint going to fix it. We need to put cycles into the economy. What happens to physiology when time stops? Just another evolutionary hurdle. Time is saturated, time is regular one hiccup and time freezes Gold is pink I told you Anton it is a chronomally they are real like rouge waves At least they got rid of the tube it doesn't due to wear it on your head either If there is no reality Then who cares about the dinosaurs Its like trash in the DNA why are you asking for the consent of a ch...

if I don't come across as legit no body else is going to being a chronomally doesn't make me a superhero. Fear and intimidation is not respect. If I have spoken out of turn, let Christ speak. It does not matter what you think, it is the significance you give it that makes it delusional just because you are in front, does not mean you have learned anything when things matter, they collide. cats are from andromeda Your world is not big enough for me. It was over before it started. I need to admit it to myself. I don't fit into the world they believe in, so they are trying to force it I have had something world changing happen to me and synchronicity is freaking me out. It is the bitter end of a huge knot. I couldn't get you out of my head, but I wasn't going to jail over you Why should I go out of my way to make him disappointed with me?

I have had information burn I no longer think the same as everyone else If God has a problem with lies there are plenty of instances of word verification he can throw at me Crowning achievements don't last very long. I guess it qualifies as being less than momentous. Evolution occurs because cosmological uncertainty forces mistakes. there is a reason for that. It has to do with the time reversal They borrowed the same index cards. when you solve your problem you put it on an index card That way when you have the same problem you know what to do time insists on my mortality a factor of the mind is involved in the cognition of pink. it is difficult everything pink touches turns pink I can see how it would become this massive force you were trying to stop. I guess it is good that there is someone up there who cares what is said and whats not. I got bit by an ostrich It means I am an honorary chimpanzee I am tenured also I was more i...

Without purpose, Life is an irrational dead end. Procreation provides the illusion we are going somewhere. Have your babies and get it over with. At least you won't win the Darwin award.   I appreciate when there are few demands on my time. Maybe I could belong somewhere if I could keep my mouth shut. Someone else may need to discover it one day this type of paradox is called A First Church Paradox for one it is the first for the other the second Draw something plausible, Present it as fact. UFOlogy does it all the time and they make millions The door is wide open. If you could comprehend how wide open it was, you might understand. I believe in the event field it motivates me It was there at the beginning It will be there at the end anyone who doesn't get out before the end of it all sorry She is in it for the transmitters She is 456 if you are making mistakes, it is working. that is what it does. as little as possible trying to live a ...

as things chill the useful bandwidth will become wider and wider saturation will get stronger until things are fully saturated even if it does take a dive at the beginning. somewhere in the apple is a seed that can produce a whole new tree I don't think he was to deny us anything, just most are wise to leave that tree alone. Leave something for everybody else. It is distressing to feel it has all been written before. If nothing is real, energy should be free. The definition of real must involve energy. If we are abused, we live lives that are ineffective and redundant It stands for Gray White and Red. May I love you. I thought she could help me relocate It is a small city. We will meet somewhere else. If you know your way, go there. Don't lose your way over me.

this is what happens when you fight it. It ends up on the other side of yourself I can't say who she is. I can't say where she comes from. She minus well be an angel. You cannot win a war with your subconscious. Because in the end you will lose. If you do win, You are your subconscious. If you are winning all of the time, You are not real. Only losers are real. Winners are imagined. It is called Win Theory or The Blue Collision. If we keep going with this Win Theory the little people are going to be fighting wars for us in cyberspace. When you have everything you want, the real you has nothing. The silly games we play have a strong impact on what we consider real. Reality was open to be defined If you pick a fight with your subconscious, expect to be beat up. I didn't realize how trivial it was. They were grooming for y2k and I over reacted It was nothing. It was a chest x ray. It was no big deal. I don't know why I overreacted. ...

if i put enough of myself in here, they may be able to bring me up inside a computer one day I said that a long time ago Some people are too caught up in gang theory to understand that You put yourself into it. That is what the damn thing is for. Am I doing the wrong thing? It is not meant to be read as poetry. It is written for a computer to compile my personality. It is construct. and it is very good construct.

If I do not protect and defend, I am a poor caretaker and none will be given to me Men fight. Men choose violence. Women choose magic. What do informed Gentlemen respond with? It isn't what you think, it is how you respond. Mental illness is in the response. This is what I am getting from television. I am just watching television. Ugliness compounds itself. In this day and age, a physicians blackout is an accomplishment. You are the one that wants evolution. Why should you be surprised about cow birding. Sooner or later, you stop playing the game to win.  I guess I am just not lead role material. It was more than just chat. It was a real thing to me. I vaguely remember something about you being at Kings Dominion. The word handyman came up several times today It is a mathmatical definition It is like saying you dont need zero If I am doing more harm than good, let this be finished. call it the app room I remember the 22nd I still don't t...

perform random acts of kindness share beautiful things I didn't come back from where I left Isn't it enough that somewhere there is a family whose loved one never returned? They want me to make time. They think time is going to end. There is no significance The question has been answered already There are benefits to loosing that are not richly understood. My mind went through a traumatic experience, so it created YZAX find someone who has one and pummel them to death If it aint safe for do nothings it aint safe for anybody We need to keep this excercise alive. What will happen if we need to start all over. You look like Anton Levay. The trick is getting Sunday to do it. time exists cause something was thrown away

How would you recognize the beginning? and what would happen if it didn't happen? They think they decide and they don't. They are forever giving us second chances and don't even know it. It would keep coming back and you would never know it. I aint going for the endless second chance. those are the effects of probability It doesn't have to be that way I have already been instructed in that arena. the truth makes people delusional Psychiatry is not about truth. Psychiatry is about law and order Anything good can wait I know it can't be had. I will settle for being a chronomaly If I can't have it for myself, maybe I can have it for somebody else. The choice is already mine and I need to give it to somebody. If there isn't a heaven, I will make one. It is called consolidation of choice. The universe would not work if choice had free reign. People lead structured dependent lives. You are really bucking the system if you don...

The only thing real about this life, is it doesn't stop when you want it to. Maybe she can change it, but she has to stop it first. Nothing it needs to settle out. I am spellbound I don't know. Needless to say she doesn't see the savior of western civilization. I know because I needed to know. Why were you hiding it from me? That type of stuff is being observed, and they are not getting away with it. Anyone can have a conversation with themselves, that they think is about themselves but its not. It is like wet liver. In schizophrenia it breaks down. You start acting out. If you are a single neuron in someones brain, the idea of a human being may be a little radical. The words want to live and grow. They don't care who wrote them. Our desire to pin it to someone is just another bottleneck. I represent our first world independence. That is what the monkeys had before they saw the obelisk. I am the last one to be cycled, and the syst...