Average Inner Blog

count three and pray

kennedy ignored the second letter

this will stop when you stop believing in me

if you dont use the reply you are able to back off

I never was anything. God didn't need me at all.

in order for there to be so much difficulty as to who is entitled to do what it must not have been taken into account in the original equation

habits can be used to your advantage

but what a camel can do for your country

are you sure you would rather deal with him?

be peaceful and quiet and you will have a place to visit if you end up going to hell

there is little direct exposure as they do not radiate in the visible spectrum

I know you were acting on my behalf. I am sorry I am not prepared to accept. Please prepare the other one and let him accept my role.

the worst thing that can happen in the afterlife is responsibility. I respectively decline.

you need to use a better screening process. and it shouldnt be used as a JOKE!

perhaps my whole job from the very begining was to watch over president reagan

you guys have made american pie out of this whole thing havent you? How many thousands of years has it been? I am not remembered very well am I? I am glad for you. I am worried about myself. Please do not pass judgement on me. I am a relic from a bygone era. I will never understand your world. As you will never understand mine. We have truly evolved. In completely opposite directions.

I felt very conflicted. I did not like the way i was feeling. The paranoia. The sexual arousal. The anxiety. It was also very traumatic to learn that my perceptions were not correct and that they disturbed you. I felt out of control. I was scared. I didn't understand what was going on. I wanted it to stop. I wanted desperately to gain control over my life. It took several years to come out of the fugue, but by then it was too late. The trauma had led me to chose a carrer I was not well suited for. The constant stress eventually pushed me over the edge. Over the past ten years events have brought things into sharper and sharper focus, however, with each revelation, I relive the trauma all over again. I feel you have been there waiting for me to end this fiasco. Perhaps it will one day. I certainly hope so. I wish I had been a better friend. That I had not felt the need to push. Somewhere in my mind there is a memory of a poem I wrote that you asked me for and I gave ...

he knows im not supposed to be here anyway, so he starts doubling me up, hoping that when you finally do hit the real thing you wont recognize it, have a "miscalculation", and end up in a blind alley.

I know you are unsatisfied with what has transpired. I am sorry I did not live up to your expectations. I agree that my interests, motivations, and obsessions have led me down the wrong road. You should not however be lulled into a false sense of security through repition, this is a favorite trick of the adversary. Please be careful, the alternative may find you in a completely blind alley.

I know you are unsatisfied with what has transpired. I am sorry I did not live up to your expectations. I agree that my interests, motivations, and obsessions have led me down the wrong road. You should not however be lulled into a false sense of security through repition, this is a favorite trick of the adversary. Please be careful, the alternative may find you in a completely blind alley.

it bears the "causal" weight!

what was the "reply" for? Why was it necessary?

to base the whole success or failure of the universe on whether it is observed or not thats just plain genius

this is the hypothesis because these things have a greater propensity to hit each other, uncertainty pushes them apart. you may want to know what makes me think this. You may or may not be aware of the website i generated several years ago. we'll after developing the "black hole" website i noticed that i could hit the "singularity" of the "official" black hole website fairly regular. I don't know if these web "expiriments" have anything to do with the real thing.

if you are a singularity the chances of you hitting a singularity are much much greater. in fact its probably inevitable. the universe may be expanding because these damn things are "chasing" each other.

most people see "A Beautiful Mind" and dont really get the issue. Information is a lot deeper than we think. whether it be the "equal distant letter skip" phenomenon, used in "decoding" the bible, or the reverse speech phenomenon all the rock stars are accused of, there are strange juxtapositions of words and outright whole sentences that seemingly appear out of nowhere. I dont want to get into a math lecture but I will say this for those of you who aren't so into it. Ive read that the funny thing about information content and how it is measured is the random numbers or data have the most. Its a real problem of course. How can random be informative? What I've said, and what's probably driven me mad, is that "no information" and "saturation" can be the same thing. The keep phrase there is "can be". It's not empirical. It does not happen all the time. Which is probably why our ancestors, who may hav...

I dont write as much as I used too. Some of the medicines are really bad for that. This is something I started several months ago. It seems now Im constantly starting things and never continuing on with them. I takes constant effort for things to go well. Perhaps that is what praying is about. Even then you can still get into trouble. They prey on you. A lost soul is more precious to them than diamonds. There’s all sorts of traps just waiting to be sprung. A movie, a book, the television, or even the constant barrage of punch drunk love songs on the radio.. Maybe they won’t get you now, but one day you are going to make a mistake. The door will open. The opportunity will be theirs. I suffer from one of possibly several different diseases labeled “schizophrenia”. Possibly more articulate than most. Certainly more dangerous. That’s why they keep you all doped up you know, so you don’t start talking to a burning bush, so you don’t cause any “trouble”. This isn’t ...