Average Inner Blog

I think she did it on purpose. I think she doesn't like you. You are going to have to let me go. You are going to have to make peace with her. You are going to have to wait your turn and hope you get it right next time. I tried to tell you but you wouldn't stop. It didn't happen until you dug it up. God doesn't dig. Don't you think God already knows? Satan does that crap. You are screwing up. You have left me no choice but to avoid you. Don't you think it is a little weird that almost every adult in my life is screwing me over? Satan is doing this crap. I don't want to do this. The one that is going to be completely lost hasn't done anything. I am not going to stay in her life if she doesn't want me there. I don't want to be like this anymore. Why did you become involved? All I get from you is hurt. Somewhere in there there is a 17 year old who is mortified by all of this. I think that would kill me if I tried it again. DO RAY ME FA SO LA TEE DO ...

Everything is hard. Don't give up on your dreams because it is hard. I crossed into this netherworld because you ignored me. I made the mistake of thinking things were easy. If I knew everything was hard, I might have taken a different path. A discipline is a discipline, and they are all hard. Don't go into something thinking you can skate. It never works out that way. Not only do people resent the fact you are skating, but you can't control what God throws at you. When people are struggling for a "C", and you are settling for zeroes, they can get pretty mad at you. Skating isn't allowed. If you are skating, God is going to throw something at you. I wish there was something I could say to bring you back into my life. I don't understand how you can deny me. I will survive without you. I will remember this denial. I have already left my mark. It is not something I worry about. This drive that I am supposed to have and I don't, is because it has already h...