why cant I feel good?

why can't I feel good about myself?
I can't answer these questions

I feel I am stealing from the ether
I don't feel I am communicating, controlled by spirits
or running a program

I am not calling anybody

its bad enough that I am in everybody's dreams
and that i am talking to the radio

oink oink

it just aint my thing
I never did really like it
I started out with the bends

ive had enough

you have already given me a major episode
I have had enough for now
I can sandwich my posts at any time

I know

I know what is superimposed
and what is not
and so do a lot of other people

keep it up

you keep up this word verification
and i am going to keep sandwiching my posts
you dont want to know what i think

me and henry...

me and henry we arent like other people
we get lost on purpose
I am lost out in goochland somewhere

love wants me...

love wants me to plan and think about the future

?

what does love want me to do?

they were self deluded

they were self deluded and totally wrong about me
if thats my fault I accept responsibility

I told you

I told you not to hurt my father again
but you did it anyway didnt you?
more than twice didnt you?

you know I am an evergreen
you know what evergreens are

dont play stupid with me

dont they already have one?

they are idiots

the whole thing is going to end up as a big head game where the rules dont apply and thats where they want to go
i dont want to go there
its better to pop than snort

I know you think it is witchcraft

but its not
it is an extraction
and its never gonna die
please use it
for else this

please forgive my father

I don't want him to "die" because of me
I don't understand
I thought people sinned sinned sinned and sinned until they died
I don't know why I seem to be confused about something
everybody else knows

its your decision

either it was my idea
or I stole it from the ether

one thing I do know

its better to pop than to snort

I steal things from the ether

that's the way it is with me

it was my idea

I did not learn the lesson I was supposed too
paths and gardens were my idea
I take responsibility for it

ok so now we are back

now we are not only hung up on divine
now we are hung up on sacred