Average Inner Blog

just to keep us alive you dont have to do it anymore if you dont want to

count three and pray

kennedy ignored the second letter

this will stop when you stop believing in me

if you dont use the reply you are able to back off

I never was anything. God didn't need me at all.

in order for there to be so much difficulty as to who is entitled to do what it must not have been taken into account in the original equation

habits can be used to your advantage

but what a camel can do for your country

are you sure you would rather deal with him?

be peaceful and quiet and you will have a place to visit if you end up going to hell

there is little direct exposure as they do not radiate in the visible spectrum

I know you were acting on my behalf. I am sorry I am not prepared to accept. Please prepare the other one and let him accept my role.

the worst thing that can happen in the afterlife is responsibility. I respectively decline.

you need to use a better screening process. and it shouldnt be used as a JOKE!

perhaps my whole job from the very begining was to watch over president reagan

you guys have made american pie out of this whole thing havent you? How many thousands of years has it been? I am not remembered very well am I? I am glad for you. I am worried about myself. Please do not pass judgement on me. I am a relic from a bygone era. I will never understand your world. As you will never understand mine. We have truly evolved. In completely opposite directions.

I felt very conflicted. I did not like the way i was feeling. The paranoia. The sexual arousal. The anxiety. It was also very traumatic to learn that my perceptions were not correct and that they disturbed you. I felt out of control. I was scared. I didn't understand what was going on. I wanted it to stop. I wanted desperately to gain control over my life. It took several years to come out of the fugue, but by then it was too late. The trauma had led me to chose a carrer I was not well suited for. The constant stress eventually pushed me over the edge. Over the past ten years events have brought things into sharper and sharper focus, however, with each revelation, I relive the trauma all over again. I feel you have been there waiting for me to end this fiasco. Perhaps it will one day. I certainly hope so. I wish I had been a better friend. That I had not felt the need to push. Somewhere in my mind there is a memory of a poem I wrote that you asked me for and I gave ...

he knows im not supposed to be here anyway, so he starts doubling me up, hoping that when you finally do hit the real thing you wont recognize it, have a "miscalculation", and end up in a blind alley.

I know you are unsatisfied with what has transpired. I am sorry I did not live up to your expectations. I agree that my interests, motivations, and obsessions have led me down the wrong road. You should not however be lulled into a false sense of security through repition, this is a favorite trick of the adversary. Please be careful, the alternative may find you in a completely blind alley.