please forgive them

I can understand why they did not ask you
this somehow has become too important

they called me delusional and schizoprenic

so i just went with it
what am I supposed to do
get all upset over the music I thought was about me
and end up in the hospital
In my case
I feel no information and saturation became the same thing

this is crazy

This shit IS bananas
I can't believe that shit actually happened
please tell me that shit didn't happen
in my delusional state
MIT and the Catholic Church wiped me clean

I don't think they are ever going to trust me...

but if what happened inside my delusional mind really happened
I can understand why
I feel I have been wiped clean
I feel its been over with for a decade

I feel they dont like it...

I feel they don't like it when I make announcements as fact
which I have no way of knowing from their perspective I guess

I feel there is a massive dark side...

I feel there is a massive dark side that has already been taken care of from my perspective

I guess they keep the dark side at bay

they must have took it as their job
I don't believe they are wicked and evil

the whole world could be under this umbrella

but they wont accept it because they don't know where it came from

that is why christ gets so much grief

its not that there is no outside

its that if there is one
nobody knows where it is
and some get freaked out about that

I wish these people no bad will

but I have problems with their
safety in numbers, one man can't do anything attitude

its hard to spam with a dictionary

how about prevalent
you know what I was trying to say

endemic

common to
systemic

why?

cause they were trying to bankrupt the church
over something that was endemic to american society

it used to be like that

it used to be sin sin sin until you die
its not like that anymore

you wanted to say it was endemic to the church

and it wasn't
all of American society was messed up

you having problems people

go sit in the kitchen

there is no guarantee

there is no guarantee we are going to meet again
I am sorry

you want some relief?

then ask for it!

why?

cause they thought they were living in some kind of fantasy land
where they could do whatever they wanted
those times are over people
you want to hold people responsible
we can hold people responsible

I know how to use the kitchen now assholes

so fuck off!

that is one of the things I can do

gather information and lay bombs on people
so be careful

I was molested....

I was molested by 4 or 5 people
and none of them were priests
or regular Catholics
so back off!

you want to hold people responsible

we can hold people responsible

if something has happened to you...

you need to tell someone
no one can help you if you don't tell

the church can do things

please don't mess with the church

I have somewhat of an undertanding...

I have somewhat of an understanding what you have planned
but that must be taken care of first

something horrible happened in my family

and I am not happy about it

God bless the church

let nothing befall the church

I am like Pete to these kids

they are going to bring it back to me too

why...

why is another thing that will drive you crazy
you don't ask why
you find out why

proof is a game

you can free yourself from that kind of thinking

I dont want to play a proof game with them

but I dont feel its genetic

drive them crazy

rest until you lose

they wanted somebody angry

they wanted somebody on their level
well they got it

you wanted somebody angry

so you got somebody angry

prelite

I am serious
I am not kidding around
I am not the one that started this word verification business

tenth

is there safety in numbers?
can one man do anything?
what is your opinion now?

this shit was over before it started ginger

satan is lying to you
this shit aint about you anymore
it never was

from now on

her name is liberty assholes

I know what happened

they want me to offer it as proof and it is sick

I may be not quite born with it

but I cant go back and live in a world of lies

they dont think i am deserving

they dont think I am one of them

real christians are walking twilight zones

thats just the way thing are

yes

the word verification gave me that shit

gated

nobody else asked you friggen morons

God came to our aid

cause I asked him too assholes

I dont care where I came from

its a real friggen government with real friggen people!

I dont want to work...

how would you like to live in a world of lies
you dont know what it feels like

why is it so important?

cause I was the only one to reach over and ask them you friggen morons
thats what its so important

why God?

game theory doesn't belong

it could have been over before it even started

some people just have a "game" mentality
you cant help these people

dont shoot the piano player

I knew they were playing around with sand
I knew the shit was coming
and I did the best I could

why?

cause I know what atheists do to each other thats why

we may not agree on everything

but I am not going to allow people to fall into an atheist sand pit

whether you like it or not

this is too important for you to do
willy nilly whatever you want with me

you would do better...

you would do better to ask for something like that

I am sorry Carolina

you stepped into an atheist sinkpit
they do that shit to each other

theres a lot of people...

they think God doesn't see
but he does see
he sees everything

is this ok?

now is the time to ask

God doesn't speak to me

and it is not my decision

I am sorry

I know there is some good people out there
I feel like they are druging me up and turning me into someone I am not
or have false expectations about me
If this happens again in 2012
its not going to be pretty

you manufactured my ass people!

all of you!
its your fault!
God I hope this turns out ok

why?

cause I had been through enough already
and they put me through even more
I mean damn I was on clozaril
thats last line of defense people
now im on clozaril and geodon and a whole handfull
when are they going to let me go?
I asked them to leave me alone!

this is page one

the main reason for arguments and hatred is people aren't on the same page

if I am here to do an extraction

I minus well do an extraction

the mechanics

"to he who has is given more..."

it is too late to forgive John Lennon

a Shinto rebellion has already started

ive had a serious break

i have had a serious break with reality

its hard

its hard to save the game and the people
sometimes its the game or the people

I know better now

I know that its better to pop than snort now
that doesn't mean I am going to stop snorting tomorrow
I dont know how to pop

what do I think?

I think its been done like this in a lot of places
coming in from the future
they don't realize who's way it is

the more I feel bothered

the deeper and deeper I go

just because

they are deep philosophical questions for me

why cant I feel good?

why can't I feel good about myself?
I can't answer these questions

I feel I am stealing from the ether
I don't feel I am communicating, controlled by spirits
or running a program

I am not calling anybody

its bad enough that I am in everybody's dreams
and that i am talking to the radio

oink oink

it just aint my thing
I never did really like it
I started out with the bends

ive had enough

you have already given me a major episode
I have had enough for now
I can sandwich my posts at any time

I know

I know what is superimposed
and what is not
and so do a lot of other people

keep it up

you keep up this word verification
and i am going to keep sandwiching my posts
you dont want to know what i think

me and henry...

me and henry we arent like other people
we get lost on purpose
I am lost out in goochland somewhere

love wants me...

love wants me to plan and think about the future

?

what does love want me to do?

they were self deluded

they were self deluded and totally wrong about me
if thats my fault I accept responsibility

I told you

I told you not to hurt my father again
but you did it anyway didnt you?
more than twice didnt you?

you know I am an evergreen
you know what evergreens are

dont play stupid with me

dont they already have one?

they are idiots

the whole thing is going to end up as a big head game where the rules dont apply and thats where they want to go
i dont want to go there
its better to pop than snort

I know you think it is witchcraft

but its not
it is an extraction
and its never gonna die
please use it
for else this

please forgive my father

I don't want him to "die" because of me
I don't understand
I thought people sinned sinned sinned and sinned until they died
I don't know why I seem to be confused about something
everybody else knows

its your decision

either it was my idea
or I stole it from the ether

one thing I do know

its better to pop than to snort

I steal things from the ether

that's the way it is with me

it was my idea

I did not learn the lesson I was supposed too
paths and gardens were my idea
I take responsibility for it

ok so now we are back

now we are not only hung up on divine
now we are hung up on sacred

naming the path

this is the path to the garden of Joy and Gladness

I am in the wrong

I am doing things backwards
I need to leave
but I don't know how

no future

apparently that is the assigned punishment for people who use sorcery or magic
but now its so ubiquitous innocent people are getting hurt

apparently

If not me

if it hadn't been me
somebody else would have had to read it in
lots of people all they got
and they believe in it
whether the translation has serious problems or not

who is she?

who is she to make me jump her hoops
to heck with her
I mean its gotten so pathetic and sad
it just doesnt happen anymore
and the deal is
it didnt need to happen from the begining