as things chill
the useful bandwidth will become wider and wider
saturation will get stronger
until things are fully saturated
even if it does take a dive at the beginning.

somewhere in the apple
is a seed that can produce a whole new tree

I don't think he was to deny us anything,
just most are wise to leave that tree alone.

Leave something for everybody else.
It is distressing to feel it has all been written before.

If nothing is real, energy should be free.

The definition of real must involve energy.

If we are abused,
we live lives that are ineffective and redundant

It stands for Gray White and Red.

May I love you.

I thought she could help me relocate

It is a small city.
We will meet somewhere else.

If you know your way, go there.
Don't lose your way over me.

The Blue Collision

this is what happens when you fight it.
It ends up on the other side of yourself

I can't say who she is.
I can't say where she comes from.
She minus well be an angel.

You cannot win a war with your subconscious.
Because in the end you will lose.
If you do win, You are your subconscious.
If you are winning all of the time,
You are not real.
Only losers are real.
Winners are imagined.

It is called Win Theory
or
The Blue Collision.

If we keep going with this Win Theory
the little people are going to be fighting wars for us in cyberspace.

When you have everything you want,
the real you has nothing.

The silly games we play have a strong impact on what we consider real.

Reality was open to be defined

If you pick a fight with your subconscious,
expect to be beat up.

I didn't realize how trivial it was.

They were grooming for y2k and I over reacted

It was nothing.
It was a chest x ray.
It was no big deal.
I don't know why I overreacted.

life is too short to be entertained all the time.

Thank you, I appreciate that.

I have loved my whole life and had nothing but hurt
yet it seems I have done the same thing to somebody else.

It is all part of the
we can do it to anyone why not you commission

Just another insensitive jerk

People have an idea of who they want their david to be
and I am not it.

They refuse to walk down a dark road of foolishness and superstition

Does Christ wish us to lance over a word?
If the word is alive, let it live.

gang theory

if i put enough of myself in here,
they may be able to bring me up inside a computer one day

I said that a long time ago

Some people are too caught up in gang theory to understand that

You put yourself into it.
That is what the damn thing is for.
Am I doing the wrong thing?

It is not meant to be read as poetry.
It is written for a computer to compile my personality.

It is construct.
and it is very good construct.

emotional detours

If I do not protect and defend,
I am a poor caretaker and none will be given to me

Men fight.
Men choose violence.
Women choose magic.
What do informed Gentlemen respond with?

It isn't what you think, it is how you respond.
Mental illness is in the response.

This is what I am getting from television.
I am just watching television.

Ugliness compounds itself.

In this day and age, a physicians blackout is an accomplishment.

You are the one that wants evolution.
Why should you be surprised about cow birding.

Sooner or later,
you stop playing the game to win. 

I guess I am just not lead role material.

It was more than just chat.
It was a real thing to me.

I vaguely remember something about you being at Kings Dominion.

The word handyman came up several times today

It is a mathmatical definition
It is like saying you dont need zero

If I am doing more harm than good,
let this be finished.

call it the app room

I remember the 22nd
I still don't think Adam signed up for this.

It means to make plain

You can make an workable understanding
without being completely accurate

electric poverty

perform random acts of kindness
share beautiful things

I didn't come back from where I left

Isn't it enough that somewhere there is a family
whose loved one never returned?

They want me to make time.
They think time is going to end.

There is no significance
The question has been answered already

There are benefits to loosing that are not richly understood.

My mind went through a traumatic experience,
so it created YZAX

find someone who has one
and pummel them to death

If it aint safe for do nothings
it aint safe for anybody

We need to keep this excercise alive.
What will happen if we need to start all over.

You look like Anton Levay.
The trick is getting Sunday to do it.

time exists cause something was thrown away

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How would you recognize the beginning?
and what would happen if it didn't happen?

They think they decide and they don't.
They are forever giving us second chances
and don't even know it.

It would keep coming back and you would never know it.

I aint going for the endless second chance.

those are the effects of probability
It doesn't have to be that way
I have already been instructed in that arena.

the truth makes people delusional

Psychiatry is not about truth.
Psychiatry is about law and order

Anything good can wait

I know it can't be had.
I will settle for being a chronomaly

If I can't have it for myself,
maybe I can have it for somebody else.

The choice is already mine and I need to give it to somebody.

If there isn't a heaven, I will make one.

It is called consolidation of choice.
The universe would not work if choice had free reign.

People lead structured dependent lives.
You are really bucking the system if you don't want to live that way.

It makes me mad  that they know everything I am going to do for the next 15 years.
That is why I fool around with uncertainty.

I would rather go out that way,
Than to give in to them knowing everything.

They want to write everyone's book so they can move on.
They don't care about us.

Because it is ridiculous.
I wasn't raised that way.

I am pissed and I am just trying to confuse everybody.

We will never know unless it is us.
And why shouldn't it be us?

I know it is hard to stay rational.
I know it is beneficial to stay rational.

From another point of view, it may happen all the time.
The odds may be astronomical that we are here and it hasn't happened yet.

If it is me, it is three things interacting with each other.
I don't think you will ever pin it down.

The genome wouldn't forgive me if I didn't try.

wet liver

The only thing real about this life,
is it doesn't stop when you want it to.

Maybe she can change it,
but she has to stop it first.

Nothing it needs to settle out.

I am spellbound
I don't know.

Needless to say
she doesn't see the savior of western civilization.

I know because I needed to know.
Why were you hiding it from me?

That type of stuff is being observed,
and they are not getting away with it.

Anyone can have a conversation with themselves,
that they think is about themselves but its not.
It is like wet liver.

In schizophrenia it breaks down.
You start acting out.

If you are a single neuron in someones brain,
the idea of a human being may be a little radical.

The words want to live and grow.
They don't care who wrote them.

Our desire to pin it to someone is just another bottleneck.

I represent our first world independence.
That is what the monkeys had
before they saw the obelisk.

I am the last one to be cycled,
and the system is hanging up, it won't work.

I grabbed the causal and shook it.

She is mean.
I tunneled underneath of her.

What can I be if she doesn't believe in me?

Nature tunnels?

He is the one that needs batteries.

I wish you had believed in me.
Heartache is the only thing I feel anymore.

Just because your actions were justified,
doesn't mean people forgive you.

Why should I be concerned over what I said?
Nobody made anything about it then.
In fact it was a big joke.

I want to be appreciated for what I am,
not doped up to be what you want me to be.

You want your life back?
You want to be without me?
It can be arranged.

They make trouble for themselves
because they think they decide
and they don't

Don't worry about who's system you are in.
Feed the children.

Deloris is right.
We are spending thousands on frivolous stuff
and the children aren't getting fed.

I can see why law and order people have problems with this shit.
I hope it need not happen again.

He said he was on the other side of 2 nines.

Radiohead says within a week.

That or anonymous has an earthquake machine.

Words are alive.
Words are viral.
We are completely different people than we would be without words.
We can't fight words,
they we given to us by our parents.
There is a feral entity in all of us.

They are stupid.
They don't think right.
All they had to do was play some nintendo.
I thought they understood.

They take advantage of every little loophole they can find.
They think it is a brain contest.

We are always at war.
Peace is a bourgeois illusion.

Hell with it.
I will go to New Orleans by myself if I have to.

This is what proof does.
and this is the proof of it.

In my mind
this world needed to be born
and you caused it by ignoring me.

Words are cruel masters.
You may well visit this again someday.

I used to believe in something.
I don't know what to believe in anymore.

Lies are even worse.

I don't know why they won't tell me the truth.
I wouldn't stop crying so they gave me a lobotomy.

Well I wouldn't be surprised.
They call everything schizophrenia.
They want to get paid without causing a scandal.

Have you ever met someone
that you knew it you hitched up with them
you were going to go somewhere?
That's how I felt about her.
I have no reason to feel that way anymore.

Why are they backing me up against a wall
of what is possible and what is not anyway?

If I responded to a fortune cookie
I would be unstable.

Twice they responded because I didn't respond.

Mistakes can be forced.
Survival has taught me to forget.
A good poet sees both sides.
A bad poet gets himself caught in the middle of it.

I don't remember it
thats why it is what it is
because it is forgotten.

Liverature

because you can't get phrases like
"average inner thought" the regular way

He doesn't know he is moving the sun across the sky.
To him its just a ball of dung.

Not only is it a ball of dung,
but he has it all wrong.

How can you tell me it is no good?
It is my whole life.

People who fool around with reverse speech
do not live happy normal lives

I guess the odds are better I am not a real person
I haven't accomplished anything.
It's all fabricated.

Take a wrong turn at every intersection
and see where you end up

You want action?
Make a movie.

The whole thing is going to turn into a flip flop
and the whole thing is going to flip and flop.

We need to work under the assumption it is already happening.

You need to wait until things are extremely forgotten,
then things will re write themselves

I trust that time will flow through this circuit again someday.

I am never going to believe it
It is never going to happen for me.

I don't know about that guy behind you.
He looks a little shady.

You have learned something.
I am following you.

It is not about being the real david mallory is it?

He chose to claim it and defend it.

It was up for grabs.
He could of let it all go away,
or he could claim it and defend it.
What would you do?

Nobody wanted it.
It was scheduled for terraforming.

It started out me trying to save everything
and it got out of control

I still dont understand why I can do what I do.

I was supposed to see 1995 and I was supposed to go back
but I didn't want to\

16 years is a long time.
God created the world in 7 days.

These are the people who have chosen to honor me
How can I deny them?
They know more about who I am and what I want than I do.

I don't think there is anything wrong with the idea of sacred lives,
and what you get from these lives is what you learn.
It doesn't mean anything more than that.

They are the ones who have changed what America means.
They want us to live in some sort of pubescent fantasy.

My life is a war zone.
The choices I make effect everyone.

Ginger is a big gun.
To her I am a pretender.
She doesn't even recognize I am David.

How do you recognize a war zone?
A war zone is a war zone.

It is sad.
I will never convince her she has lost.

For ages mankind competed to make things bigger and bigger,
but the true revolution was the revolution of the small.

If you don't want me here,
stop keeping me around.

This is excess.
You have gone too far.

I am more interested in this never happening again

What do you expect from liverature?

Everyone thinks they are winning.
Thats how this crazy shit works.

There is something about me that is not welcome
and I have no control over it.

It is difficult to live in,
and we need to transition from it.

It is a mess. Things need to settle out.

It is no more delusional,
than the world being in a woman's heart
and sex holding the world together.

"When you start to compete with it,
that's when everything goes wrong."

"I say you are crazy if you don't."

This is how i get messages.
This is how they talk to me.

He had a lemon on his hands.

I don't like it either,
but he is doing the right thing.

It was a mistake made very very long ago,
and there is nothing I can do about it.

It would have been a grim existence.
Nobody deserves that.

Why get in a battle you can't win?
Make them go slowly and use the time wisely.

They want you to struggle with the basics,
so you can't learn anything else.

Mother Nature and Father Time
have no concern for what we deem factual.

Factual is an illusion expensive to maintain.

But together we must.

What is there to decide?
It is an illusion you are deciding anyway.

lymphatic barbarism

He is letting me do this crazy stuff cause it is over,
you stupid jerks

Christ's message was not about winning.
It was about empathy and tolerance.

What do you want?
A gold medal that says
you are better than everyone else?

She was in a groundhog day
and didn't think there would be any consequence

If you aren't part of the crowd mentality
there is something wrong with you.

I don't have to cross the Mississippi anymore
I can do it right here.

I am operating under the assumption we are being averaged.
I feel it is my duty to give you headaches.

I find it far more plausible that I caused the big bang
than that I used to be a musician
and can't remember because of ECT

If we all got together and tied a big knot
these spirits would leave us alone.
That is what is going to happen anyway.

Some people take great pride
in the failure of an individual.

The worst part about having schizophrenia
is how offensive it is to other people.

I shall mourn than.

We are in a fight to stay dry now.
This is the dry war.

Are we going to delude ourselves until doomsday?
I would rather face it.

They are fighting over the umbrella.

They tried to x file the x generation
and they wonder what is wrong with us.

I guess I am fairly ugly.
I don't want to jump.

Maybe trying is what got me here in the first place.

The consternation some people have about it is peculiar.

I am trying for something I have wasted.
I am trying for something I can never have.

I don't want to be instructed.
I don't want to learn.
I want it to be painful.
I want it to pour out of me.

I don't care if it is lymphatic barbarism