Average Inner Blog

It isthe firewall. It makes the difference between what's possible and what's not. Any reasonably bright person would run afoul of it sooner or later. The only way to know its a firewall is what happens when you do away with it. Here and there doesn't mean anything without then and now. It's all about the boundaries. It begins with a boundary. It ends with a boundary. Self is a boundary Place is a boundary Life as we know it is a boundary Sometime you let anger get the best of you and you cross a boundary you didn't mean to cross. You can't get it back and you are left with a life you cannot fix What is game impairment? Part of me doesn't understand the radio is not another person. That's different from thinking everyone is out to get you. I thought you were kidding when you said I was autistic. They were trying to sweep up trouble makers, and I got caught in the net. Some just cant make what causality does to odds People don't appreciate how debilit...

Why do I have insight and restraint when other psychos don't? What is Cardinal Fatigue? The things that are important can deteriorate. The brick at the bottom has more stress on it than the brick at the top. But they are still bricks. God did not tell Adam and Eve they were going to live happily ever after. What is a device or media with an obscene amount of information? The girls just want to dash me on the rocks. Fine don't believe in reverse speech and magic squares. I will use them and I will have an advantage you won't use. Belief in God may start because something is biased and partial about the universe. Let's be clear. The phrase "average inner thought" came from reverse speech analysis of something I wrote. I don't know why other people can't get the results I do. I think it is something that doesn't easily lend itself to scientific study. That doesn't mean it should be called pseudo science. Just because you can't get your parro...

Dark time is easy. Dark time is events that haven't happened If object permanence is a skill Then reality is something you must learn. Reality is a skill I am lacking in. Why was that so easy to find now? It wasn't like that before Anything that sets you apart is a psychiatric condition. If everything is about sex then why are we here? We minus well be fruit flies or something. What a relief. I thought it was membranes colliding in my head. I have never seen a more crazy ending in my life! I didn't do anything immoral or illegal. I simply expressed my desire for my team to win In a bizarre superstitious way Today is national give somebody a truck day. The biggest symptom of time travel is confusion. Malcolm XLIX It is just a way to remember Malcolm Butler's name I want to make a comment about the "cheating" But I can't I have never been officially exonerated But I did graduate basic If bad was thought of me That wo...

i envy the ability to move on. I feel like I am stuck. I feel like I don't have that ability. I mean how am I supposed to move on. I guess singlemindedness is good with some things. For other things it is a disaster 1 + 8 = 9 8 + 16 = 24 24 + 8 = 32 24 + 25 = 49 Math is a good way to jam. It's not a perfect sequence. It beats around the bush. I want to play railroad tycoon with my iPad Also present, as in  Tutankhamun's tomb , were decorative designs featuring the representation of the twelve monkeys, symbolizing the night hours on one of the burial chamber walls. Totally unique to any royal tomb are beautiful bird hunting scenes. The tomb was discovered by Belzoni in 1816. Read more:  http://www.touregypt.net/featurestories/ay.htm#ixzz3P2zJAefk Please forgive me about what is going on with jasmine I am not strong enough to confront her and stop her I do not agree with what she posts http://www.svabhinava.org/reviews/12monkeys/default-FAQ.php They represent dark time I felt...

We shouldn't have "wiped our assess with it" I won't do that again. I apologize What is a second? How do you pictograph time? The universe expands because time is slowing down? How would we know? How can there be a universe without universal time? It's not dark matter It's universal time? Recently I have wondered why Relativity doesn't shatter everything. I guess you don't need it if you don't have problems with it. Call it dark time Would it still perform the same function? Things are not as fragile as it seems they should be. It's like the universe has bubble wrap. If this is lucky, I would hate to see what cursed is like. I think they should call it The Obama Bowl. I don't mean to treat the language poorly. I write this way because of a vision I had. I guess if I got away with it, everyone would start doing it, and there would be a domino effect, and the language itself would suffer. 1 + 8 = 9 9 + 16 = 25 25 + 24 = 49 49 + 32 = 81 What i...

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Nobody  asks if Oklahoma City is small. I think they do it to piss me off. I am not sure what I am trying to be right about. If there is a 12 by 2, and a 3 by 8, there should be a 4 by 6. I have always said I am not here to be happy, But if you don't love the world Everything goes to shit I know it's a Hail Mary but it ain't on me. I consider they generally degenerate if not maintained. Like I said, if you don't love the world it goes to shit. It may seem simple to you, but it's not to me, And that doesn't make me a bad person A train wreck is coming and I can't stop it They are going to go all in. They think it would be stupid not to. I am worried it is going to turn into a financial thing And that it's going to evaporate. Why do you know so much? I want to know what you know. It's a thrown away Bible for thrown away people. Psychiatry likes to shotgun. I care whether it's living or...

If it is a condition, it is not a lifestyle. If it is a lifestyle, it is not a condition. If it is not a disease You can't diagnose someone as having it. I didn't know. Just stick whatever you want in there, Because that is what I feel. Hide behind rules and labels. It feels it is smarter than us. It feels it should make decisions, not us. I guess initial conditions are important. I was mad at M for being mean to C. I have never felt it was a big deal. I guess it was. I asked God to take it away from me And I have never felt the same since. If they are going to make a lasting decision, It needs to come from congress I feel embarrassed and stupid You totally missed it. it was about why people say "you know" all the time.   I have earned my ignorance. They call you delusional Say you are hallucinating  Then get mad saying you stole something It's my head I need a place where it's ok for me to b...

I haven't led her on She is here because she wants to be here Set, grouping, whatever we call it, nature is going to decide what it is They think, if they make a game out of it, it will last longer. Channeling doesn't lend itself to challenging yourself. If I could make a real peice of music I would. This sleek polished stuff is exactly what I am afraid of. I feel people want me to be exactly what I am trying not to be. Human relations is scary  They are not going to rest until they have 120 percent of everybody. Dissent will be pathological. Half of them are trying to corner you And the other half are pissed you are getting away with it. I consider evolution may have mitochondrial assistance. nothing exists if you don't believe in it. they don't want you to know the voices can be pushed out. I wouldn't get angry if I didn't value your opinion. One day I am going to wake up and it's going to be too late. I feel h...

I wouldn't have the title if no one was reading it. What is digital glow? The same people who will accept they are only one person and cannot change anything, get upset if you tell them they don't matter. It is a legitimate grouping. I cannot force you to accept that. I don't know. It has some therapeutic value. What is heat psychology? Superstition is what happens when the floor drops out. Until you have been at the center of the whirlwind, I don't think you can fully understand. There is a difference between going viral and bleeding out. whenever I do get an idea of why it is dangerous it does not stay in my head very long I thought I was doing something bold and heroic. The crime rate went down because we stopped using leaded gasoline. If I thought I could write a novel I would.

I understand what they are trying to say but I have to learn things the way everyone else does the difference is in what i decided to learn It is not that I want to be in control. I just don't like being out of control. Nothing ever goes as planned and the blame is endless it is not an office building the whole wall has to be replaced if we cant get together what hope is there for anyone else? I am sorry for ruining your night I thought i could sit way in the back and watch something is wrong with me I may stop all this what is fractal relativity? I thought we were tight. I felt we were special. I felt like I lost my family It means nobody likes me

I dont think my life would have had a positive outcome if it wasn't for my father what is the best way to combat internet addiction because the winner is the one who gets stuck with it there has been a lot of tricksters that is how they play it was congress who created these hyper republican districts its not just a nuclear option it is a hydrogen option and I think they are prepared to use it Washington DC IS Area 51 I wanted a home run so bad I lost the game over it. I think it is the districts too but it is racist to say anything about it there are no rules it doesn't make sense and it isn't fair Two super massive black holes? Three?

it means "barking dog" self defense doesn't make you judge jury and executioner the rights of life liberty and pursuit of happiness trumps everything else. If he didn't deserve it, it was a violation of his civil rights they are trying to make a right side wrong side issue out of this if there is nothing left to calculate if you are fully known you minus well be dead 2 is to 5 as 4 is to 24 the worst thing you can do to a loved one is disappear it is an act of violence to disappear on someone if we would only live 5 years without them, is it our civilization or theirs? The beginnings get lost and no one can ever identify them. there are some things known only to God. and even that knowledge will attempt to pluralize itself nations were baptized by fire one by one some took longer than others 51 37 25 18 21 27 it is just an identifier don't worry about it I haven't played a full game in a long time I have been getting around...

they do not want a formal decision people are like meercats and i just don't belong the question is Why is it normal in the first place? there is some sort of catalyst that affects monkey text I guess this is the 90's Just because it is not true, doesn't mean it is delusional. I don't see as a hypothesis a farm hypothesis any better or worse than a zoo hypothesis I dont need your negativity I dont need someone who thinks the worst of me all the time. If nothing is real where is the reality to argue about? you cant say nothing is real and then argue as to which history is real or not it is not democratic i am sorry

if you know where you are going, go there. Do not get lost over me. My name is Clozaril I revive the wicked I had exposure to what I wasn't prepared for. it is a legitimate grouping and they don't want to accept it they are frames not variables yes it does matter why go to the wizard when you don't know what you want? I guess I am here for the fragrance. you need a big target? shoot the moon Id give anything to see david 17 and happy even if it wasn't me. it cannot be rationally explained the more you theorize the worse it gets. there is a difference between accidents and accidentals you dont use it to compute yourself a universe an infinity of those are already there you just need to twist or jump. there are plenty of naturals out there and they are far superior to anything contrived they call it cowbirding or wildcating but it works that way personal property doesn't evolve well if you no longer share frame of reference ...

I think Obama faced more than Carter or Reagan I like obsolete stuff. We could have ten dollar computers if someone would support obsolete stuff The sad irony is that he interferes and that he is determined to interfere He isn't going to find hydrogen and pull the plug wow I didnt know my computer could do that! What would you do with someone who knew too much of what he need not know to begin with? if we adopt string theory do we have to through away the adam? This aint Star Trek. you are watching too much television things aint always solved in an hour you dont recognize it because it represents a pair I dont know what to say about that. If you have a time machine and the time machine causes the big bang you are stuck with your time machine

the praying one is Jesus He is trying to get John to pray

I could never push a wave this big aND i CANT STOP IT EITHER

They tell me I am causing it, then tell me I am delusional for thinking I am causing it. you don't sit on a wall you hang on a wall It is not about electromagnetism. It is about whether it matters or not. Are human events Quantum events? How are human events different  from Quantum events? Why are they different? They ask these things I am sure. It sounds like snake oil so they stay away from it. I don't know what will fix the economy, but superstition aint going to fix it. We need to put cycles into the economy. What happens to physiology when time stops? Just another evolutionary hurdle. Time is saturated, time is regular one hiccup and time freezes Gold is pink I told you Anton it is a chronomally they are real like rouge waves At least they got rid of the tube it doesn't due to wear it on your head either If there is no reality Then who cares about the dinosaurs Its like trash in the DNA why are you asking for the consent of a ch...

if I don't come across as legit no body else is going to being a chronomally doesn't make me a superhero. Fear and intimidation is not respect. If I have spoken out of turn, let Christ speak. It does not matter what you think, it is the significance you give it that makes it delusional just because you are in front, does not mean you have learned anything when things matter, they collide. cats are from andromeda Your world is not big enough for me. It was over before it started. I need to admit it to myself. I don't fit into the world they believe in, so they are trying to force it I have had something world changing happen to me and synchronicity is freaking me out. It is the bitter end of a huge knot. I couldn't get you out of my head, but I wasn't going to jail over you Why should I go out of my way to make him disappointed with me?

I have had information burn I no longer think the same as everyone else If God has a problem with lies there are plenty of instances of word verification he can throw at me Crowning achievements don't last very long. I guess it qualifies as being less than momentous. Evolution occurs because cosmological uncertainty forces mistakes. there is a reason for that. It has to do with the time reversal They borrowed the same index cards. when you solve your problem you put it on an index card That way when you have the same problem you know what to do time insists on my mortality a factor of the mind is involved in the cognition of pink. it is difficult everything pink touches turns pink I can see how it would become this massive force you were trying to stop. I guess it is good that there is someone up there who cares what is said and whats not. I got bit by an ostrich It means I am an honorary chimpanzee I am tenured also I was more i...

Without purpose, Life is an irrational dead end. Procreation provides the illusion we are going somewhere. Have your babies and get it over with. At least you won't win the Darwin award.   I appreciate when there are few demands on my time. Maybe I could belong somewhere if I could keep my mouth shut. Someone else may need to discover it one day this type of paradox is called A First Church Paradox for one it is the first for the other the second Draw something plausible, Present it as fact. UFOlogy does it all the time and they make millions The door is wide open. If you could comprehend how wide open it was, you might understand. I believe in the event field it motivates me It was there at the beginning It will be there at the end anyone who doesn't get out before the end of it all sorry She is in it for the transmitters She is 456 if you are making mistakes, it is working. that is what it does. as little as possible trying to live a ...

as things chill the useful bandwidth will become wider and wider saturation will get stronger until things are fully saturated even if it does take a dive at the beginning. somewhere in the apple is a seed that can produce a whole new tree I don't think he was to deny us anything, just most are wise to leave that tree alone. Leave something for everybody else. It is distressing to feel it has all been written before. If nothing is real, energy should be free. The definition of real must involve energy. If we are abused, we live lives that are ineffective and redundant It stands for Gray White and Red. May I love you. I thought she could help me relocate It is a small city. We will meet somewhere else. If you know your way, go there. Don't lose your way over me.

this is what happens when you fight it. It ends up on the other side of yourself I can't say who she is. I can't say where she comes from. She minus well be an angel. You cannot win a war with your subconscious. Because in the end you will lose. If you do win, You are your subconscious. If you are winning all of the time, You are not real. Only losers are real. Winners are imagined. It is called Win Theory or The Blue Collision. If we keep going with this Win Theory the little people are going to be fighting wars for us in cyberspace. When you have everything you want, the real you has nothing. The silly games we play have a strong impact on what we consider real. Reality was open to be defined If you pick a fight with your subconscious, expect to be beat up. I didn't realize how trivial it was. They were grooming for y2k and I over reacted It was nothing. It was a chest x ray. It was no big deal. I don't know why I overreacted. ...

if i put enough of myself in here, they may be able to bring me up inside a computer one day I said that a long time ago Some people are too caught up in gang theory to understand that You put yourself into it. That is what the damn thing is for. Am I doing the wrong thing? It is not meant to be read as poetry. It is written for a computer to compile my personality. It is construct. and it is very good construct.

If I do not protect and defend, I am a poor caretaker and none will be given to me Men fight. Men choose violence. Women choose magic. What do informed Gentlemen respond with? It isn't what you think, it is how you respond. Mental illness is in the response. This is what I am getting from television. I am just watching television. Ugliness compounds itself. In this day and age, a physicians blackout is an accomplishment. You are the one that wants evolution. Why should you be surprised about cow birding. Sooner or later, you stop playing the game to win.  I guess I am just not lead role material. It was more than just chat. It was a real thing to me. I vaguely remember something about you being at Kings Dominion. The word handyman came up several times today It is a mathmatical definition It is like saying you dont need zero If I am doing more harm than good, let this be finished. call it the app room I remember the 22nd I still don't t...

perform random acts of kindness share beautiful things I didn't come back from where I left Isn't it enough that somewhere there is a family whose loved one never returned? They want me to make time. They think time is going to end. There is no significance The question has been answered already There are benefits to loosing that are not richly understood. My mind went through a traumatic experience, so it created YZAX find someone who has one and pummel them to death If it aint safe for do nothings it aint safe for anybody We need to keep this excercise alive. What will happen if we need to start all over. You look like Anton Levay. The trick is getting Sunday to do it. time exists cause something was thrown away

How would you recognize the beginning? and what would happen if it didn't happen? They think they decide and they don't. They are forever giving us second chances and don't even know it. It would keep coming back and you would never know it. I aint going for the endless second chance. those are the effects of probability It doesn't have to be that way I have already been instructed in that arena. the truth makes people delusional Psychiatry is not about truth. Psychiatry is about law and order Anything good can wait I know it can't be had. I will settle for being a chronomaly If I can't have it for myself, maybe I can have it for somebody else. The choice is already mine and I need to give it to somebody. If there isn't a heaven, I will make one. It is called consolidation of choice. The universe would not work if choice had free reign. People lead structured dependent lives. You are really bucking the system if you don...

The only thing real about this life, is it doesn't stop when you want it to. Maybe she can change it, but she has to stop it first. Nothing it needs to settle out. I am spellbound I don't know. Needless to say she doesn't see the savior of western civilization. I know because I needed to know. Why were you hiding it from me? That type of stuff is being observed, and they are not getting away with it. Anyone can have a conversation with themselves, that they think is about themselves but its not. It is like wet liver. In schizophrenia it breaks down. You start acting out. If you are a single neuron in someones brain, the idea of a human being may be a little radical. The words want to live and grow. They don't care who wrote them. Our desire to pin it to someone is just another bottleneck. I represent our first world independence. That is what the monkeys had before they saw the obelisk. I am the last one to be cycled, and the syst...

Don't worry about who's system you are in. Feed the children. Deloris is right. We are spending thousands on frivolous stuff and the children aren't getting fed. I can see why law and order people have problems with this shit. I hope it need not happen again. He said he was on the other side of 2 nines. Radiohead says within a week. That or anonymous has an earthquake machine. Words are alive. Words are viral. We are completely different people than we would be without words. We can't fight words, they we given to us by our parents. There is a feral entity in all of us. They are stupid. They don't think right. All they had to do was play some nintendo. I thought they understood. They take advantage of every little loophole they can find. They think it is a brain contest. We are always at war. Peace is a bourgeois illusion. Hell with it. I will go to New Orleans by myself if I have to. This is what proof does. and this is the proof of it. In my mind this world needed...

because you can't get phrases like "average inner thought" the regular way He doesn't know he is moving the sun across the sky. To him its just a ball of dung. Not only is it a ball of dung, but he has it all wrong. How can you tell me it is no good? It is my whole life. People who fool around with reverse speech do not live happy normal lives I guess the odds are better I am not a real person I haven't accomplished anything. It's all fabricated. Take a wrong turn at every intersection and see where you end up You want action? Make a movie. The whole thing is going to turn into a flip flop and the whole thing is going to flip and flop. We need to work under the assumption it is already happening. You need to wait until things are extremely forgotten, then things will re write themselves I trust that time will flow through this circuit again someday. I am never going to believe it It is never going to happen for me. I don't know about that guy behind you. H...

He is letting me do this crazy stuff cause it is over, you stupid jerks Christ's message was not about winning. It was about empathy and tolerance. What do you want? A gold medal that says you are better than everyone else? She was in a groundhog day and didn't think there would be any consequence If you aren't part of the crowd mentality there is something wrong with you. I don't have to cross the Mississippi anymore I can do it right here. I am operating under the assumption we are being averaged. I feel it is my duty to give you headaches. I find it far more plausible that I caused the big bang than that I used to be a musician and can't remember because of ECT If we all got together and tied a big knot these spirits would leave us alone. That is what is going to happen anyway. Some people take great pride in the failure of an individual. The worst part about having schizophrenia is how offensive it is to other people. I shall mourn than. We are in a fight to sta...

I will let it be your choice generous. I must not feel happy. This is not the place for me to be happy. Why do you demand this of me? In the absence of divine authority, we have imprisoned ourselves. Only the damned show mercy. Forgetting is the key to the whole damn thing. You need to be now for it to work, and it isn't easy being now. I am giving the old tests to everybody. They think they are better because they understand and you don't. I would never want to be accused of hiding anything. They are not interested in the human condition. They think they are the karma police. You think you have a monopoly on that sort of thing? I submit that I had already taken a more stringent test and passed. What basis in reality does that test even have? Even if it did happen, and I can't confirm for myself that it did. That was Martin Luther's ghost scaring the shit out of you. There was a nest that was created, but someone came along and cowbirded the nest. The past was uncertain...

we don't see the world as it is we see it as our mind allows us to This world is precious. It would be selfish of me to do that. There are 5 people in this world and I am one of them. We love David. We keep giving him gifts and he wont use them. We told him it is not polite but he won't listen. Let us blur the line so we can tell a story. This is not about the consequence. David is the consequence. David is an answer. David is a reflection of ourselves. He has said it before. We are the ones who need a solution, not him. Because I don't understand paragraphs, They seem so arbitrary. If I didn't have to use people, I would have done it already. I am just an obstacle to her. Someone to be gotten rid of. She hired pest control to bring me down. He was a bad shepherd. It was divine providence. I thought you wanted a Camaro. Handshakes and bottlenecks do not mix. let the actors handle it There must be something more if they were willing to let this happen Why should I? You a...

you have to wait for it to find you you can not force it What should we do about a government masquarading as a religion? They see freedom of religion as a weakness and they want to expolit it. If we let them do that, we will have to admit something is wrong with the constitution. I haven't been voting because I am afraid time will follow me. It is an insult, and they know it is an insult, they are trying to sway opinion. they know what this shit is for. if you can't do it if you try, then don't try just do it. It can come to you. It can fall in your lap. Truth happens because people need it. demons have no purpose but to make us hungry and afraid. I know what happened. but I don't know if that frog is going to sing for anyone else. I have little concern for rank and privledge. It is the people I am worried about. I think she died of a heartache in her sleep. There is nothing better than a girl who would run away with you. I am warning you. Handshakes are going to break...

fall into a book Arrogance is the closest you can get to infinity. I had a bad experience so I romanticized everything. The universe loves broken hearts. Will someone please lead me out of this place? I can't help you are on Narnia's shit list. Maybe they are the ones who won't leave you alone. that I don't remember is one explanation. That it hasn't happened yet is another. This is what happens when you attempt to corner the market on misery. If you can't tell the difference between what you don't remember and what hasn't happened yet, truth is misery. All these people are dead. I am trying to teach them how to float, and they think I am the lifeless one. I can't help it if people liked the world better when it was flat. Reality is not a vacumm. There are tides and rivers. There is a lot of mud, and I don't know if there is a place before the mud.

you can't give up on a correlation it is with you till the end I don't mean to be any trouble, but I can't pack my bags and say I don't want to correlate anymore It is just going to hang up on somebody else. It hangs up, deal with it. The story is making a story at the same time a story is being told. There is great consternation that I get away with it. It is like being mad at Huckleberry Finn, cause he is in the book and you are not. I can't do anything cause I trust God. If I trust God then I should let him take care of it. I didn't trust God, and I took it into my own hands. That is exactly what the devil wants you to do. He knows he can defeat you. He gave them a magic equation they could all make money on, and somebody busted it. I have done enough already. If we took that kind of know how and put it into hard science, we would be on pluto by now. You don't need a God? Then be smart enough to manage yourselves I can cause chaos but I cant take any dire...

we got into an argument about what was going to happen 25 years out and she was saying I needed to get help cause I was going to end up a child molester and I was like no I am not and she was like yes you will you don't know what you will be like 25 years from now and I was like neither do you I don't remember it vividly It is funny something like that can effect your whole life. They set the whole thing up for me to have a nervous breakdown that they figured was going to happen anyway and it caused the big bang Can I at least be remembered as the person where psychiatry and physics ran into each other? Why wouldn't we be at the center of everything? Are we not good enough? people don't remember the hard drive made microsoft what is going to happen? Is time going to stop when we get flung out? It hasn't happened yet and they don't know they are us. HD is a tv be careful using escalators with those newfangled shoes I know it is confusing. I didn't return from...

mistakes are being forced and I am not doing it. I imagine a magic bus, where you have put and unput. You can't win with these dickheads. They think they are doing us a favor. I don't know why I started walking away. What if the lhc is beyond the capabilities of the simulation we are in? What if this is just a ride at disneyworld, or a university course? I was suspicious something would happen on May 1st. I purposefully decided not to act. I don't know about God, but something is determined to see us fail in life. I am stone. I cannot change. You keep yourselves by keeping me. I am sorry. You should have told me about that earlier. I can't help you if you won't talk about it. The simulation busts. The simulation is designed to be busted. Mabus stands for magic bus Some type of computer architecture. if everything is a simulation what is a simulation? That we have survived is evidence that we will survive? The magic bus is the holy grail of our time. There is one tha...

The only thing that keeps me here is a lie I make to myself. They understand. They just don't want to do it that way. I found hope in Goochland. This is hope in Goochland. I am no longer lost in Goochland. I saw the guy in purgatory before. It was shown to me so I would know where I was when I got there. It is some kind of barometer. Hide this from the public and it will be on your head. There is nothing to friggen fix. They don't want it to friggen work. There are no aliens here cause Dave is xenophobic. Even evildoers will be seen to have participated in God's plan. Freedom isn't free. Free just means you don't cost anything. Make an illegal U-turn. My hypothesis is... My brain has rewired itself into some resemblance of hydrogen. It is not that unlikely. This is a can happen. A fractal collider? Would 1 over 1 make any more sense? What would make sense? How do you know what doesn't make sense if you don't have an expectation of what would? Maybe it doesn...

getting you to believe things aren't real is the first step to murder. You are better off giving Jesus 2 dollars and tell him thank you. I guess it is the only word in their vocabulary that would signify useless drivel. I want to believe people understand the issues. Apparently they don't. I am the last one fighting for the shit, you God damn morons. How can I let go thinking I am the only one? A woman can't hold it. It is something only a man can do. what is a universal mutation? If it is universal how do you know its a mutation? We are governed by what MUST happen. Not what can happen or will happen. They think they can force me to remember shit that never took place. I can't see clearly if I did or didn't. Allison brought it home and I was contemptueos as I recall it. That is to say for us I believe what can happen or will happen is governed by what must happen. Now I understand what the free will debate is about. doesn't anyone else consider it strange the w...

The veracity of it does not matter. I have lost touch with reality and it is never coming back. Women see patterns men don't readily see. I guess I am setting off all sorts of alarms. I know there is something wrong with me but it doesn't feel that way. It feels like the whole world has gone nuts. The powers that be don't want us to think this way It isn't our job, so they call it delusional. Truth is, you can make some valid connections this way. This is what happens when you fall out of step, and go for the banana. Happy birthday. The only way out of this mess is to avoid it for a while. It is called a monkey amplifier. It makes it easier for them to write Moby Dick. Monkey amplification would imply denominator reduction which would imply a variable speed of light kept in check by monkey mass? In some species temperature determines sex. It is not what we think, it is how we think. It sounds delusional because you don't think that way. Monkey text is the extraordin...

I think she did it on purpose. I think she doesn't like you. You are going to have to let me go. You are going to have to make peace with her. You are going to have to wait your turn and hope you get it right next time. I tried to tell you but you wouldn't stop. It didn't happen until you dug it up. God doesn't dig. Don't you think God already knows? Satan does that crap. You are screwing up. You have left me no choice but to avoid you. Don't you think it is a little weird that almost every adult in my life is screwing me over? Satan is doing this crap. I don't want to do this. The one that is going to be completely lost hasn't done anything. I am not going to stay in her life if she doesn't want me there. I don't want to be like this anymore. Why did you become involved? All I get from you is hurt. Somewhere in there there is a 17 year old who is mortified by all of this. I think that would kill me if I tried it again. DO RAY ME FA SO LA TEE DO ...

Everything is hard. Don't give up on your dreams because it is hard. I crossed into this netherworld because you ignored me. I made the mistake of thinking things were easy. If I knew everything was hard, I might have taken a different path. A discipline is a discipline, and they are all hard. Don't go into something thinking you can skate. It never works out that way. Not only do people resent the fact you are skating, but you can't control what God throws at you. When people are struggling for a "C", and you are settling for zeroes, they can get pretty mad at you. Skating isn't allowed. If you are skating, God is going to throw something at you. I wish there was something I could say to bring you back into my life. I don't understand how you can deny me. I will survive without you. I will remember this denial. I have already left my mark. It is not something I worry about. This drive that I am supposed to have and I don't, is because it has already h...