spirit

if the spirit is real you can live on it

discordancy

Reality is full of controversy
understanding itself is the illusion

imaginary time

"stitching to the bang" means justifying imaginary time

protective layers of averaging

they must have collapsed a long time ago. i dont know whats holding everything together

black holes again

if you cant say "this only happens in black holes"
then you cant say "black holes only happen if"

information paradox

what role does meaning or significance play in prof hawkings "sum over history approach. if i burn a book, does the meaning or significance of the information play a role if the observability of burning it?

HS dropouts

If I had to take a test to graduate I would quit too. Why hang around and still have to take a test. Id just take the GED.

upgrading old macs

i like to fool around with the old pci bus "beige box" macs. the best thing you can do to upgrade them is a ibm hardrive. they really did make the best back then.

observation

candles burn faster when they are close together

Americans Get Quizzed On World Affairs

A guy walks the streets of America and asks random people some pretty easy questions. A couple of these answers actually had me laughing out loud.

the unthinkable

i have come to think the unthinkable
i am a fictitous character
i dont actually exist

native prophecy

http://www.alaska.net/~peace/hopi.htm

Angry Cat

Really Angry Cat

Talking Cats

Talking Cats by Scoob

what i feel

i feel like the person who is supposed to be on my side, the person who is supposed to be trying to help me, is totally blowing me off

daily matrix

info
ofin
ofni
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onfi
nifo
fnio
foin
onif
nofi
foni
nofi
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peruse do not overwork!

nero

his name is einstein you friggen idiots

does it matter?

does it matter in andromeda if the yankee's win or lose?

problem with the universe?

what you see depends on your own probability?

i guess you cant talk

ive been looking for you for like a decade and a half and now you cant talk. I hope their isnt some conspiracy. Im really mad at her. I feel like she could have stopped all this.

you dont need me

there is nothing i need do

dont i pretty?

ain't i stink?

crystal blue

if it aint persuading you need to persuade it

you friggen idiot

Im not even talking about that
im talkin about numbers

advice

let them pick YOU!

it may sound crazy but

generating uncertainty may limit potentials
you win by certainty

a statement

no one knows the original event history. I suspect I was exposed to several singularities indirectly. that there were others involved. that this was an accident.

great stuff!

www.the-underdogs.org

idiom #1

that he is coming back, is probably the least important thing of the whole story. That they are still fighting over a peice of land since then is sad and pathetic

violation

I asserted that probability affected observation
but you have so keenly demonstrated
I am an absolute moron
because that violates relativity
well maybe time is displaced because probability cant

me again

they didnt have enough time to think about it

in a perfect world

in a perfect world, both would be perfectly imposible

paradigm shift

the paradigm shift of money is about to change. It happens, not because I want it to, but because it must. Right now, the dollar is 300% energy. We know energy can neither be created or destroyed. I would suggest, if necessary, everyone buy a lottery ticket and burn it

mixed up

i get moores law and murphy's law mixed up.

what the future of computing might look like

desktops will go the way of ghetto blasters. everyone is going to carry their OS, Applications, and Documents on portable media. This is going to be driven by kids trying to work their way around parental controls. people will boot from the media, do what they need to do, then go. CPU id's will be useless. home computers are going to look more the like of commodore 64's and such. For a lot of us there may not be a "hardrive" as such. Browsing without a hardrive is going to be quite common. Any successfull OS is going to have to handle several binaries. the move by apple to X86, if it's going to happen, will allow people for the first time to fairly test the "flavor" of the PowerPC. It may turn out like the Coke 2 debacle. except apple is not coke.

wht the !

 

computer fun

I’ve spent the last couple days immersed in technical bullshit. The imac started acting up so I had to revert to the original hard drive. I hate fixing things now, but it was not worth the money to have fixed by somebody else. Anyway we got the old one running and I had fun downloading the essential files I need to do the music thing, luckily everything worked out, except I have this osx partition I cant access and don’t really need. When I eventually figured I couldn’t do anything with it, the vaio started calling me. I’ve been meaning to check out linux for a while so I looked it up in google and went to town. It seems every time I start on this linux thing I start running around in circles. Too many hoops to jump through to get it working right. They got this new thing though called “live”. There’s all sorts of different “compilations” but basically you boot the OS from your cd drive, and everything is up there in your memory. I cant really recommend one without at least trying one other one, I like MEPIS but I tried UBUNTU first. UBUNTU didn’t like my video and would only do 480. This seems to be common with UBUNTU. Somewhere I found a link for MEPIS and downloaded that. The way this works is you download whats called an “iso” from the web. You download another program like “Burn4free” and you take the “iso” and burn a disk with it. Like burning an mp3. I had to fool around with my monitor a bit but MEPIS loaded just fine. It came with mozilla and it would really be useful if something happened to your hardrive and you needed to get on the net for tech support. Its like having another computer.

file that i burned and ran is called
SimplyMEPIS-2004.04.iso

cosmological uncertainty video and definition

http://fazit.tv/mpi01/start_vid.html

cosmological uncertainty is the observation that quantum fluxuations leave their patterns on matter distribution and trigger formation of the largest structures known.

paraphrase m.turner chicago

falsification

It is the power we give falsification that makes our world what it is.
Falsification is the phenomenon we are here to experience.
We are waiting on the falsification of falsification.
Who will survive the coming of the lord.

what's going on

the people who need to know, know. My opinion is, Yes the people are being placated. I think the higher, higher ups feel it was an accident that got blown out of proportion, that i am not a bad guy, and that if they keep this quiet long enough it will go away. I hope it will go away as well. I don't think people would accept my theory of events anyway. obviously something ahead of me went terribly wrong. Perhaps several things went wrong

weighing in

I think people who use darwin to say god does not exist are not
considering everything. there is uncertainty, entanglement, relativity.
I don't think they fully apreciate the implications.

merry christmas

they say moses was a nutcase that got lucky. they say so many people go around saying the sky is going to fall, that its only a matter of time that one schizo gets it right. Last time it changed the world and monotheism of took root. Science and religion are both ment to protect us from different but similar flames. The ruin of self delusion or the turbulence of an unbalanced mind. we need science. we need religion. we need to understand both better.
thank you for being my observers and

merry christmas
David

OB Updated

in process

New Song at Opaque Burger

site link=====> Opaque Burger

direct song link -------> forgotten me

check it out

new cities

fortune cookie #1

your flair fo the creative taken an important place in your life

yeah the truth

I Lie

http://www.mrc.org

Cost of War

Cost of War

cool site

urban legends

anti psychiatry

http://www.antipsychiatry.org/schizoph.htm

causal philosophy

a causal philosophy is necessarily subjective

The American Textbook Council

The American Textbook Council

tomclegg.net

tomclegg.net

Uncertainty Principle (Werner Heisenberg)

Uncertainty Principle (Werner Heisenberg): "are different interpretations of the same phenomena"

physics again?

u and r the same thing?

male or female

test

shun him

how certain is certain? and what is the nature of certainty? and what does the possession of certainty entail?

fools think so

fools think so audio mp3 128k

we all need someone to shine on

just to keep us alive
you dont have to do it anymore
if you dont want to

probably the best advice

count three and pray

lessons from history

kennedy ignored the second letter

there are better things to believe in

this will stop when you stop believing in me

further study

if you dont use the reply you are able to back off

the fact

I never was anything. God didn't need me at all.

postulation #9

in order for there to be so much difficulty as to who is entitled to do what
it must not have been taken into account in the original equation

it may sound crazy but

habits can be used to your advantage

ask not what a camel can do for you

but what a camel can do for your country

make it a great day

are you sure you would rather deal with him?

Welcome to the library

be peaceful and quiet and you will have a place to visit if you end up going to hell

cosmological uncertainty

there is little direct exposure as they do not radiate in the visible spectrum

I know you were acting on my behalf. I am sorry I am not prepared to accept. Please prepare the other one and let him accept my role.

no thanks

the worst thing that can happen in the afterlife is responsibility. I respectively decline.

you need to use a better screening process. and it shouldnt be used as a JOKE!

perhaps my whole job from the very begining was to watch over president reagan

im slow

you guys have made american pie out of this whole thing havent you? How many thousands of years has it been? I am not remembered very well am I? I am glad for you. I am worried about myself. Please do not pass judgement on me. I am a relic from a bygone era. I will never understand your world. As you will never understand mine. We have truly evolved. In completely opposite directions.

to the one I love

I felt very conflicted. I did not like the way i was feeling. The paranoia. The sexual arousal. The anxiety. It was also very traumatic to learn that my perceptions were not correct and that they disturbed you. I felt out of control. I was scared. I didn't understand what was going on. I wanted it to stop. I wanted desperately to gain control over my life. It took several years to come out of the fugue, but by then it was too late. The trauma had led me to chose a carrer I was not well suited for. The constant stress eventually pushed me over the edge. Over the past ten years events have brought things into sharper and sharper focus, however, with each revelation, I relive the trauma all over again. I feel you have been there waiting for me to end this fiasco. Perhaps it will one day. I certainly hope so. I wish I had been a better friend. That I had not felt the need to push. Somewhere in my mind there is a memory of a poem I wrote that you asked me for and I gave it too you. I hope you would print this out and keep it and remember others to me so that this mistake might not happen again.

love david

how it works

he knows im not supposed to be here anyway, so he starts doubling me up, hoping that when you finally do hit the real thing you wont recognize it, have a "miscalculation", and end up in a blind alley.

another rambling

I know you are unsatisfied with what has transpired. I am sorry I did not live up to your expectations. I agree that my interests, motivations, and obsessions have led me down the wrong road. You should not however be lulled into a false sense of security through repition, this is a favorite trick of the adversary. Please be careful, the alternative may find you in a completely blind alley.

another rambling

I know you are unsatisfied with what has transpired. I am sorry I did not live up to your expectations. I agree that my interests, motivations, and obsessions have led me down the wrong road. You should not however be lulled into a false sense of security through repition, this is a favorite trick of the adversary. Please be careful, the alternative may find you in a completely blind alley.

your not supposed to use it!

it bears the "causal" weight!

price stability

youre not getting it

what was the "reply" for? Why was it necessary?

boot code?

to base the whole success or failure of the universe on whether it is observed or not thats just plain genius

ok here goes

this is the hypothesis

because these things have a greater propensity to hit each other, uncertainty pushes them apart.

you may want to know what makes me think this. You may or may not be aware of the website i generated several years ago. we'll after developing the "black hole" website i noticed that i could hit the "singularity" of the "official" black hole website fairly regular. I don't know if these web "expiriments" have anything to do with the real thing.

probability mass

if you are a singularity the chances of you hitting a singularity are much much greater. in fact its probably inevitable. the universe may be expanding because these damn things are "chasing" each other.

nash

most people see "A Beautiful Mind" and dont really get the issue. Information is a lot deeper than we think. whether it be the "equal distant letter skip" phenomenon, used in "decoding" the bible, or the reverse speech phenomenon all the rock stars are accused of, there are strange juxtapositions of words and outright whole sentences that seemingly appear out of nowhere.

I dont want to get into a math lecture but I will say this for those of you who aren't so into it. Ive read that the funny thing about information content and how it is measured is the random numbers or data have the most. Its a real problem of course. How can random be informative?

What I've said, and what's probably driven me mad, is that "no information" and "saturation" can be the same thing. The keep phrase there is "can be". It's not empirical. It does not happen all the time. Which is probably why our ancestors, who may have recognized the phenomenon perhaps in their own way, chose to attribute it, when it occured, to greater beings.

Of Course no one ever is going to come forward and say their sacred texts were written through the use of a random process, and its probably my paranoia to even suggest such a thing. Some people though may have more "control" over it. Or lack of depending on how you look at it.

So what we got is one schizo saying another isn't nuts

The First Chapter

I dont write as much as I used too. Some of the medicines are really bad for that. This is something I started several months ago. It seems now Im constantly starting things and never continuing on with them.

I takes constant effort for things to go well. Perhaps that is what praying is about. Even then you can still get into trouble. They prey on you. A lost soul is more precious to them than diamonds. There’s all sorts of traps just waiting to be sprung. A movie, a book, the television, or even the constant barrage of punch drunk love songs on the radio.. Maybe they won’t get you now, but one day you are going to make a mistake. The door will open. The opportunity will be theirs.

I suffer from one of possibly several different diseases labeled “schizophrenia”. Possibly more articulate than most. Certainly more dangerous. That’s why they keep you all doped up you know, so you don’t start talking to a burning bush, so you don’t cause any “trouble”.

This isn’t a novel. It’s not a scientific paper. Of course you wouldn’t expect an advice book from somebody like me. It’s just a testament. To get it all down. To get it all out. The perspective of it all. The twisted, horrid, pathetic totality of it.

I don’t remember when it started. For a while I had convinced myself it had always been there. The thunder was a secret. Something I would share with someone I truly cared about. A lot of things happened from then to there, and I don’t want to skip anything.

There were two times I remember being very sick as a child. Once was with chickenpox. The other was with some sort of severe allergy complex. The two get sort of twisted in my mind, and I can’t remember exact details. I do remember, while at home for being sick, standing in the corner of my room. It seems like it started then. For all intents and purposes though, I’ve always had it. I was born with it.

At some point during that period, on a dare, I threw a rock through a church window. What happened next is still within the deep recesses of my mind. The children, when I broke the window, proceeded to enter the church. They stole I don’t know what, and I remember it being a big scandal. I remember being very upset. Some say trauma starts these things. Ritual abuse. Chronic separation. Others say you dig this stuff up. It really didn’t happen. Or it wasn’t as bad as you perceive it to be. I had really buried this stuff. I remember running. I remember being very upset. And perhaps even shouting. Shouting in my head.

Had God forsaken me in elementary school? I don’t think so. At least I didn’t then. I remember being very concerned about salvation. The salvation of the world. I knew as early as first grade that the world sat on the brink of armageddon. I was the kind of kid that worried about stuff like that. I think back now. I think why couldn’t I just be a kid. Why did I have to carry the world on my shoulders. I think I knew