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"I have judged this man harshly" was the last thing I heard. I haven't heard anything since. I don't think he thought I was still there. I think he thought I was JJ. I said some horrible things back in 97 that are not here for people to evaluate I know apologizes are not enough and I take full responsibility for what I said I am sorry if it is not supposed to do that, that is what it is doing. Every article I ever read on the shit, says it is as subtle as a horse tranquilizer. I am here to get well. I am not here to satisfy your curiosity. You would not question a heart patient, or a cancer patient, if they complained about common side effects. There is no freedom. Where is freedom in America? Try to speak your mind, and they use word verification on your ass. When it comes to the Constitution, we either mean it or we don't. I guess "see ya" does not count. Thank God he died. I do not know what would have happened. How can you get involved like that, a...

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That is what I have been trying to tell him. There are people down there. I am the only one who ever goes down there. They think I am the only one that cares about them. When things go south you go south. I go south. I consider it my job to go as far south as I can go. I don't care if you don't care about them, I care about them. Ok they need to rock out. I won't worry about them anymore. That happened to me several years ago. I thought you knew. That happened back in 97. I started wondering if it didn't happen or did I just not remember it. I take what people give me, and turn it into weapons to vent my hostility. In the wrong hands these atypicals are like weapons grade plutonium. I guess schizophrenics are people who insist they remember everything. When the doctor said I had quadrophrenia I thought he knew I thought syphilis was an imaginary disease. I came about that by thinking I might not remember everything. I tried to claim the blog was just mine, indicating He...

What motivates me? I must really think I am somebody to get into this kind of trouble. If every decision splits into a parallel universe, What happens to the Sun? What happens in Andromeda? These are serious questions. Anything that can happen has already happened, and you really have to bust the odds for shit like that to happen. It is like rouge waves, It is real, It happens. There is a difference between what can take place, what will take place, and what must take place. It is a power that makes hydrogen bombs look like tinker toys. Quit on a holiday. Years later it will be easier to remember what day you quit. I don't like this new doctor. This medicine lights me up like a Christmas tree, and she is in complete denial about it. Why is it automatically my fault? She is the friggen doctor. You want me off my damn meds? God forbid something happen and I can't get my clozaril. You will see what it is like without them. you wont mistake me for not being on my meds anymore. If I...