Kraft Quality

There are a lot of sad people out there.

We can't write them all off for being stupid.

There is no pass or fail.

It is all about how far you can take it.

No one was supposed to get hurt.

It was a funhouse.

It wasn't meant to have a solution.

It wasn't meant to be solved.

Do dominoes fall?

Only if you set them up.

Miracles happen when they need to.

Supernatural 

Divine 

Intervention

You shouldn't call for it unless you are ready for it.

Winning and solving may be anthropic 

What I consider is aliens may not think that way

You are right

I can't just make statements 

I must consider being able to defend them.

It is considered just because we haven't learned anything.

The more we focus on winning and solving the worse it gets.

"You didn't have to be so nice.

I would have loved you anyway."

End stage renal disease.

I like the idea of someone listening to the same stream I am.

Addictive

Predatory

Behavior

I need to be careful.

I am almost always upside down or backwards.

I think it means distress.

You get to the top and realize you have been had.

Then your job is to have somebody else.

I am here to experience the argument,

But it isn't working.

That attitude developed because anyone could do anything better than me.

An "equation that works"?

I'll take it.

I guess that is good for an outsider.

How much information can our hard drive hold,

Even if we do last forever?

What can I say?

It was a bad career choice.

You Know

Too dumb to smash it with a hammer.

I pleaded with her to stop.

She was ready to launch.

I wonder what was so special about Bill Cosby's house.

I am a good guy.

I don't deserve this shit.

She couldn't cover me.

It's not my fault.

I tried to tell her something was wrong.

I am in the way.

I am an obstacle to who she wants to be.

I don't know exactly what American women feel entitled to.

I am a man.

I don't have the right to be in the way.

I guess I can't debate common sense.

The democrats sneezed and the republicans caught the flu.

Delusions are generally the simple explanation.

They are an explanation to something the individual is experiencing.

I don't know what the Internet has to do with the Big Bang.

If we are being compressed, it will develop flaws.

I would go farther, but I hate drum machines.

Mommy why does everyone want to ruin us?

Mommy why does everyone want to ruin us?

That's what buddies are for.

If you can follow it, you are me.

I can't say it was done on purpose,

But that is why it is written this way.

They are against football.

It means something to me.

I don't want people to be afraid of me.

It depends on how you define the end.

What is egolectic?

I think they want something to be wrong with my family.

The compression floor

I get words

I get pictures

I don't always know what they mean.

Scientific minds don't always have that luxury.

I think it scares them.

I don't think they are ready to think that way.

Just because I allow myself to think that way,

Doesn't mean I am mad or delusional.

I believe there is a bizarro world,

And I don't think they have a high opinion of us.

I wanted to be schizophrenic 

I thought it was cool

A lot of the fears I deal with are hers.

If something cannot be compressed,

will that cause errors?

I need to become accustomed to the idea I am not right about everything.

His ways are not my ways.

My thoughts are not his thoughts.

When the rocks start falling, I am going to be praying like everyone else.

Smile and be predictable.

Why do things quantize to begin with?

I shouldn't be expected to prove myself.

I couldn't use it if I created one anyway.

I shouldn't be expected to prove my own existence.

That is wrong.

I have been taught the futility of it.

Because mankind can't handle our own affairs.

It's sad but that's the truth of it.

I understand the argument,

But we can't even do without the bees.

How are we going to do without God?

Would you want a back door on your brain?

That's the whole reason you buy Apple 

It is an extension of yourself,

And should be protected

Making grey goo is not the answer

I am the enemy

Mine comes from math

I am not a music person

I am damaged goods

I have a lot of people who pin their anger at me.

The more they do that the worse it gets,

Cause I don't understand what they are angry about.

I was dealing with issues a lot bigger than if I was gay or not.

I underestimated how serious you were about that crap.

I want to be free to be who I want to be,

But I guess I am not.

It comes at a price.

I lost the simple.

I couldn't get it back.

I can't get it back sweetheart.

It was gone.

People don't get the chance to be Ghandi anymore.

That's nipped in the bud real quick.

You can buy it,

But no one wants it anyway.

We are all wasslers 

And we are supposed to be happy with it.

I am here to suck a big tit, and that's the end of it.

If I think anything different I am angry at women.

Well damnit I guess I am angry then.

I hit the compression floor that's all.

It means I don't mean a damn thing to anybody but myself.

Rationality and permanence

What is cheating sex?

A pedestrian stepped on a butterfly.

All the music of 77 is just really special for some reason.

It reminds me of lying in front of the console with my Mom,

And going to see Star Wars with my Dad.

Radical Islam will never rule the world in peace.

How do you know something is wrong if it has always been that way?

Here I am bitching about lead,

And vinyl records have lead.

I must have been born desperate.

A championship in many other places,

Would be just another championship.

At VCU it would be much more than that.

How about Styx at the super bowl in Chicago?

Matt and the harmonics 

I don't remember there being 93 different versions no.

Of the coverup,

By the coverup,

For the coverup.

Potassium permanganate

I understand the John 1:1 debate

I understand the revelation 1:11 debate

God let the GNB be written.

There is a tradition of parsing surrounding the KJV that outsiders do not understand.

That I admittedly do not understand.

For me it is an issue of new wine and old wine

A domain for the dead

,Nobody wants to be king of the mountain.

It costs too much, and you can't stay there

I may not recognize the truth,

But I am not meaning to deceive anyone.

That there is no magic,

That there is no alchemy,

That is the lie.

There is a difference between resorting to magic to explain something,

And acknowledging it is there

Telling you the truth

Without ushering in the dark ages 

One thing seems certain,

They ain't listening to the carpenters.

The second amendment is about the people's right to revolt,

Not the right to shoot up elementary schools.

I don't think it is understood what would have to be done.

It's not just a 1984 thing
It is a 1963 thing
It makes me hope I am delusional.
That I am making up the absurdity 

E

I want the words to flow

I want my parrot to talk,

Nobody sees the value in It

It's ok to show because he is Palestinian?ff

I don't recall any one else gunned down on television.

In the beginning everything runs in to a wall

And falls off a cliff.

Colorful Geometry

What is the "yet" operation?

.gov is for tourists

I understand why she wanted her own server

It's not .mil

That is the sort of thing you would do in Nobunaga

What is a fantasy fugue?

I don't think they ever took into account what might happen if someone actually did rewire themselves.

I create too many questions,

And I don't answer any.

Did she really have to do it?

Has it really kept me out of trouble?

I don't remember much about 1983.

I tried to become another person but I failed

Beyond the realm of any possibility.

I won't get an accurate portrayal if leave out the ugly parts.

Have they ever said "poo" on American television?

Someone who is always right is not high on my desirable list.

One percent happens

Everyday

Psychiatry doesn't think one percent should change the way they treat people.

They talk about the brain making new connections, but aren't ready when it actually happens.

I have rewired myself, and I don't know if it's for the good or bad.

I don't know that this wasn't the whole problem to begin with.

People go seeking help, but it breaks down their resistance and leads them to the dark side.

What is fourth geometry

What are no boundary vectors

We use imaginary numbers,

Why not fourth geometry

I don't think you can understand 3 until you understand 4

I think things start 4 then deteriorate to 3

What is dark geometry?

or maybe "unexpected geometry"

Or unestablished

Things Meaningful yet Subjective

You can experience it,

But I don't think you will ever have proof.

I am not the way I see myself am I.

Did Jesus really tell them the rocks would talk?

I hate the term "High functioning"

It makes it sound I could be better if I tried harder.

If you have an event that needs to happen,

You will have a whole line of things that need to happen,

And some of those things may be in cyberspace

Just as they might in a dream

Which gets down to what dreams are

Just because it sounds bizarre,

Doesn't mean its irrational.

They are two separate things.

We are like gasoline

Nobody has found a use for us yet.

I spend a lot of energy staying rational.

"Lithium is believed to have been created by the Big Bang"

Hence "stitched to the bang"

You give lithium to those who are holographic

It's a dose of reality

Relax

I am only half kidding

When you try to understand it,

It gets bizarre.

It's like a warning to stay on your own turf.

God is angry

Somebody needs to step up.

I was in the middle of a vision and they tackled me and didn't let me have it.

You are stupid.

You think you can do a better job?

Responsibility is the worst thing that can happen to you.

Now what are you responsible for?

Sometimes you are better off with the lemons.

You can't fix things anyway.

It takes generations for things to get fixed.

The cosmopolitan thing to do

I know why the wall still stands.

And so do they.

Well suspect anyway.

People feel like they can't talk

That they can't make any real decisions.

We are hanging by a thread,

And God has the scissors.

Winners can't begin to understand the rest of us.

I did not consider radio communications 

was an advanced class in psychology.

I think I have "theory of mind" impairment.

If left to their own devices,

People will readily kill one another.

Cognitively I am fine.

It is interaction with other people I have problems with.

America is torn.

America does not believe in itself.

America cannot defend its own interests.

Someone else must stand.

It was the cosmopolitan thing to do

She has something she feels needs to be accomplished and she won't compromise. It would be better if I never said anything.

Why are we so celebrated?

What did we do?

Why were you looking for someone like me to begin with?

It is scary to have conversations with someone who obviously has gaps in their memory.

I am supposed to love all women,

Not just one.

And I am not supposed to go down a list.

I don't know if the music is a blessing or a curse.

You get one shot 

If things go south, go south.

Don't go for the endless second chance.

It never works.

I have to sail through.

I can't let the sirens stop me.

Because mankind has been judged before, and they were unable to tell we had already been given a second chance.

They made the mistake in thinking they would be able to tell.

You don't get any brownie points for backing off,

And ten years is not a long time.

I don't know how long it was.

I just woke up one day and I wasn't brushing my teeth anymore.

Broadcasting energy messed up their atmosphere?

Game impairment

It isthe firewall.

It makes the difference between what's possible and what's not.

Any reasonably bright person would run afoul of it sooner or later.

The only way to know its a firewall is what happens when you do away with it.

Here and there doesn't mean anything without then and now.

It's all about the boundaries.

It begins with a boundary.

It ends with a boundary.

Self is a boundary

Place is a boundary

Life as we know it is a boundary

Sometime you let anger get the best of you and you cross a boundary you didn't mean to cross.

You can't get it back and you are left with a life you cannot fix

What is game impairment?

Part of me doesn't understand the radio is not another person.

That's different from thinking everyone is out to get you.

I thought you were kidding when you said I was autistic.

They were trying to sweep up trouble makers, and I got caught in the net.

Some just cant make what causality does to odds

People don't appreciate how debilitating a game impairment can be.

They record people at atm machines that doesn't get used till someone is robbed.

He comes from nowhere.

He can make himself exist.

I don't know why.

I am just struggling to survive.

What is collective dreaming?

It's probably better chances the brain is simulating reality than a computer simulating a brain

Cardinal Fatigue

Why do I have insight and restraint when other psychos don't?

What is Cardinal Fatigue?

The things that are important can deteriorate.

The brick at the bottom has more stress on it than the brick at the top.

But they are still bricks.

God did not tell Adam and Eve they were going to live happily ever after.

What is a device or media with an obscene amount of information?

The girls just want to dash me on the rocks.

Fine don't believe in reverse speech and magic squares.

I will use them and I will have an advantage you won't use.

Belief in God may start because something is biased and partial about the universe.

Let's be clear.

The phrase "average inner thought" came from reverse speech analysis of something I wrote.

I don't know why other people can't get the results I do.

I think it is something that doesn't easily lend itself to scientific study.

That doesn't mean it should be called pseudo science.

Just because you can't get your parrot to talk,

Doesn't mean parrot's don't talk.

 

Call it parrot talk, I don't mind.

I am going to win out

The parrots don't like trademarks and such.

Toys don't stay at the North Pole forever

I know you don't like me,

But do you have to erase me from history?

I am a real person

I have a real history

I am not trying to break anyone apart

This is who I am

I tried to make this an adult blog, but it did not take.

I was trying to not be the antichrist.

Method for gridlock

Drew Bledsoe was a key player

VCU is a good school

They deserve to be successful 

I want VCU to be successful

I could easily get addicted to basketball 

Maybe the parrots don't feel the need to talk.

It cannot be accepted by some that it is so simple

And that I am more than a normal guy.

He did more for VCU and Richmond than anyone in recent memory

I am sorry to see him leave

The 12th Planet

Dark time is easy.

Dark time is events that haven't happened

If object permanence is a skill

Then reality is something you must learn.

Reality is a skill I am lacking in.

Why was that so easy to find now?

It wasn't like that before

Anything that sets you apart is a psychiatric condition.

If everything is about sex then why are we here?

We minus well be fruit flies or something.

What a relief.

I thought it was membranes colliding in my head.

I have never seen a more crazy ending in my life!

I didn't do anything immoral or illegal.
I simply expressed my desire for my team to win
In a bizarre superstitious way

Today is national give somebody a truck day.

The biggest symptom of time travel is confusion.

Malcolm XLIX

It is just a way to remember Malcolm Butler's name

I want to make a comment about the "cheating"

But I can't

I have never been officially exonerated

But I did graduate basic

If bad was thought of me

That wouldn't have happened.

😱

It is pac man

It follows me everywhere

Well he won his first

That seems to be a key to future success

What is the one yard line if you can't get stuck on it.

I never wanted my team to win before,

I only wanted them not to lose.

Because people are going to want to know how I know, and saying somebody told me isn't going to be enough.

Riding in a Huey is scary

The one time I was in one I felt for sure I was going to fall out.

I don't consider people care what schizophrenics think.

It is the compulsion to do something that gets them in trouble.

I predicted these buggers

They are playing right into the hand of big brother

They are going to make it impossible to do anything meaningful on the net

The people who crash websites when their darlings don't win.

Reality is the challenge.

Anyone can live in a fantasy world.

They wait until African American history month to play "Birth of a Nation"?

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i envy the ability to move on.

I feel like I am stuck.

I feel like I don't have that ability.

I mean how am I supposed to move on.

I guess singlemindedness is good with some things.

For other things it is a disaster

1 + 8 = 9

8 + 16 = 24

24 + 8 = 32

24 + 25 = 49

Math is a good way to jam.

It's not a perfect sequence.

It beats around the bush.

I want to play railroad tycoon with my iPad

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Please forgive me about what is going on with jasmine

I am not strong enough to confront her and stop her

I do not agree with what she posts

http://www.svabhinava.org/reviews/12monkeys/default-FAQ.php

They represent dark time

I felt she did not want me in her life

And it was up to her

I felt something spooky was going on

And I felt she knew something

I don't want to get well

I have had enough

Nobody wants to work with me anyhow

You can't rely on what a person remembers and what they don't

It doesn't work

Hey at least I knew what the Big Bang was.

My doctor asked me if it was a good explosion or a bad one.

We are talking universal lethality,

I shouldn't even be here.

Playing around like that is not a good idea.

I don't know why I feel I have to reinvent the wheel.

Well I do but it's a long story.

I just sometimes feel the powers that be don't name things well.

It's the spelling

And the character development

And the dialog

And the adjectives

And do people on the net really want to read paragraphs anyway?

I wouldn't want to play Tom Brady when he is pissed.

I wonder if they count the counties and skip the cities thinking they are in the county.

Calling you paranoid

Is a bigger fly swatter

Fig leaves are one thing,

Lipstick is a whole different thing

Bubble Wrap

We shouldn't have "wiped our assess with it"

I won't do that again.

I apologize

What is a second?

How do you pictograph time?

The universe expands because time is slowing down?

How would we know?

How can there be a universe without universal time?

It's not dark matter

It's universal time?

Recently I have wondered why Relativity doesn't shatter everything.

I guess you don't need it if you don't have problems with it.

Call it dark time

Would it still perform the same function?

Things are not as fragile as it seems they should be.

It's like the universe has bubble wrap.

If this is lucky, I would hate to see what cursed is like.

I think they should call it The Obama Bowl.

I don't mean to treat the language poorly.

I write this way because of a vision I had.

I guess if I got away with it,

everyone would start doing it,

and there would be a domino effect,

and the language itself would suffer.

1 + 8 = 9

9 + 16 = 25

25 + 24 = 49

49 + 32 = 81

What is a magic ladder?

3 is an explosion,

4 is an implosion.

I can't have an answer for everything.

Sooner or later I had to face up to something.

1 square

Surrounded by 8 squares

Is a total of 9 squares

A Selfish Catalyst

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you are right
the original was wrong
i consider it developed mistakes

lucid absurdity

Nobody  asks if Oklahoma City is small.

I think they do it to piss me off.

I am not sure what I am trying to be right about.

If there is a 12 by 2, and a 3 by 8, there should be a 4 by 6.

I have always said I am not here to be happy,

But if you don't love the world

Everything goes to shit

I know it's a Hail Mary but it ain't on me.

I consider they generally degenerate if not maintained.

Like I said, if you don't love the world it goes to shit.

It may seem simple to you, but it's not to me,

And that doesn't make me a bad person

A train wreck is coming and I can't stop it

They are going to go all in.

They think it would be stupid not to.

I am worried it is going to turn into a financial thing

And that it's going to evaporate.

Why do you know so much?

I want to know what you know.

It's a thrown away Bible for thrown away people.

Psychiatry likes to shotgun.

I care whether it's living or not.

Being authorized means less to me

There is something to this no information

thing, but I think it's the shutout that matters.

I was slow.

If I did my homework I did not have time for anything else.

Giving a shit is pathological.

Everybody needs a narrative.

What makes one narrative better than any other.

People believe a lot of warped shit because they need a narrative.

People know what they need.

I don't have to lead them to it.

They let me publicize the gasoline.

That was a big deal.

Maybe they will mellow out too.

I never had dreams about you and her.

I told you what you wanted to hear.

I believe leaded gasoline caused a mass psychosis.

Just because someone beat you to the punch

Doesn't mean you didn't make the connection yourself

I got lead poisoning from playing in the dirt all the time.

http://www.schizophrenia.com/New/04/2.25.lead.htm

In the presence of this lead issue,

I don't know what to believe and what not.

If you are doing drugs,

you need to consider what you are using them with

A radio antenna might not be the best idea

Blame the individual

Blame the parents

There are no environmental concerns at all

Lead sensitivity has more behind it than childhood immunizations causing autism.

Lead causes a problem wth calcium?

They use lithium instead of calcium because it would be too obvious?

Even if they wanted to say something,

They would lose their position,

And be thrown out of medicine.

Stellar Mediocrity

If it is a condition, it is not a lifestyle.

If it is a lifestyle, it is not a condition.

If it is not a disease

You can't diagnose someone as having it.

I didn't know.

Just stick whatever you want in there,

Because that is what I feel.

Hide behind rules and labels.

It feels it is smarter than us.

It feels it should make decisions, not us.

I guess initial conditions are important.
I was mad at M for being mean to C.
I have never felt it was a big deal.
I guess it was.

I asked God to take it away from me

And I have never felt the same since.

If they are going to make a lasting decision,

It needs to come from congress

I feel embarrassed and stupid

You totally missed it.
it was about why people say "you know" all the time.

 I have earned my ignorance.

They call you delusional

Say you are hallucinating 

Then get mad saying you stole something

It's my head

I need a place where it's ok for me to be celebrate

I apologize for stealing the song

I stopped calling her,
I told the doctor I had schizophrenia
I don't know what else I could have done

I guess they wanted me to have a violent outburst
It is a little difficult to do that when you know it

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tetraethyllead

I was bicycling in that crap

It is all about the chemicals

Megalomania is wishful thinking at this point

I hope I am just out of my head

I have tricked my physiology into thinking I have reproduced

No one ever sees the schizophrenic as a victim.

If it has black spots in it watch out.

The medicine takes you beyond the envelop in a way that is not good.

Quitting the game cold turkey was the hardest thing I ever did,

And I didn't get a trophy for it either.

I feel like doing the right thing was the wrong thing to do.

It is a legitimate grouping and I am not letting go of it.

There is no math to done

It's like saying numbers are even or odd

Except it not numbers its frames

They are hoping it's easy enough someone else will come up with it.

If it is not mine,

Why do I know how to use it?

Strange groupings are at the center of why we are schizophrenics

That does not mean the groupings are delusional.

 

If you don't understand why this would happen

You don't understand my flavor of schizophrenia

Who's reality am I supposed to be in denial about?

HB

I wish I had given more consideration into what we already had.

The Last Paradigm

I haven't led her on
She is here because she wants to be here

Set, grouping, whatever we call it, nature is going to decide what it is

They think, if they make a game out of it, it will last longer.

Channeling doesn't lend itself to challenging yourself.

If I could make a real peice of music I would.

This sleek polished stuff is exactly what I am afraid of.

I feel people want me to be exactly what I am trying not to be.

Human relations is scary 

They are not going to rest until they have 120 percent of everybody.

Dissent will be pathological.

Half of them are trying to corner you

And the other half are pissed you are getting away with it.

I consider evolution may have mitochondrial assistance.

nothing exists if you don't believe in it.

they don't want you to know the voices can be pushed out.

I wouldn't get angry if I didn't value your opinion.

One day I am going to wake up and it's going to be too late.

I feel helpless.

Make them spend a lot of time on you.

If I lose control

Then the ball is not in play anymore.

Apparently it is "Eagle Nest" not "Eagle's Nest"

I hate handshakes.

People get hurt.

People think they know what the rules are.

Then people start playing dodgeball

And the whole thing goes nuts.

Don't get addicted to it

Unless you are creating something.

If it's not a positive force in your life,

you are better coping without it.

I feel they want to say addictive and predatory behavior is desirable

And it's not

I am in control.

I have control and you don't like it.

I am the epitome of everything you hate.

And there is not a damn thing

Either of us can do about it.

The sad part?

I wanted you to love me.

That is the sad part.

What is a Turing wash?

I was talking about computer addiction,

But it could apply to that too

What is a code wash?

Being insensitive doesn't require a great deal of effort.

Funny things happen when it matters

You want to know more about these things,

Come gather and consult.

I am a heretic who stumbled upon word verification.

The only thing stellar about mediocrity is the length of it.

Nonsense microwaves

I wouldn't have the title if no one was reading it.

What is digital glow?

The same people who will accept they are only one person
and cannot change anything,
get upset if you tell them they don't matter.

It is a legitimate grouping.
I cannot force you to accept that.

I don't know.
It has some therapeutic value.

What is heat psychology?

Superstition is what happens when the floor drops out.

Until you have been at the center of the whirlwind,
I don't think you can fully understand.

There is a difference between going viral
and bleeding out.

whenever I do get an idea of why it is dangerous
it does not stay in my head very long

I thought I was doing something bold and heroic.

The crime rate went down because we stopped using leaded gasoline.

If I thought I could write a novel I would.

I understand what they are trying to say

but I have to learn things the way everyone else does

the difference is in what i decided to learn

It is not that I want to be in control.
I just don't like being out of control.

Nothing ever goes as planned
and the blame is endless

it is not an office building
the whole wall has to be replaced

if we cant get together
what hope is there for anyone else?

I am sorry for ruining your night
I thought i could sit way in the back and watch
something is wrong with me
I may stop all this

what is fractal relativity?

I thought we were tight.
I felt we were special.
I felt like I lost my family

It means nobody likes me

the hydrogen option

I dont think my life would have had a positive outcome
if it wasn't for my father

what is the best way to combat internet addiction

because the winner is the one who gets stuck with it

there has been a lot of tricksters
that is how they play

it was congress who created these hyper republican districts

its not just a nuclear option
it is a hydrogen option
and I think they are prepared to use it

Washington DC IS Area 51

I wanted a home run so bad I lost the game over it.

I think it is the districts too
but it is racist to say anything about it

there are no rules
it doesn't make sense
and it isn't fair

Two super massive black holes?
Three?

it means "barking dog"

self defense doesn't make you judge jury and executioner

the rights of life liberty and pursuit of happiness trumps everything else.

If he didn't deserve it, it was a violation of his civil rights

they are trying to make a right side wrong side issue out of this

if there is nothing left to calculate
if you are fully known
you minus well be dead

2 is to 5 as 4 is to 24

the worst thing you can do to a loved one is disappear

it is an act of violence to disappear on someone

if we would only live 5 years without them,
is it our civilization or theirs?

The beginnings get lost and no one can ever identify them.

there are some things known only to God.
and even that knowledge will attempt to pluralize itself

nations were baptized by fire one by one
some took longer than others

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it is just an identifier don't worry about it

I haven't played a full game in a long time
I have been getting around to it

are you gasible?
is your family gasible?
who decides who is gasible and who is not?

the lack of moral outrage does not bode well for humanity

people were more upset about KAL

maybe they could use pycrete

they do not want a formal decision

people are like meercats
and i just don't belong

the question is
Why is it normal in the first place?

there is some sort of catalyst that affects monkey text

I guess this is the 90's

Just because it is not true,
doesn't mean it is delusional.

I don't see
as a hypothesis
a farm hypothesis
any better or worse
than a zoo hypothesis

I dont need your negativity
I dont need someone who thinks the worst of me all the time.

If nothing is real
where is the reality to argue about?

you cant say nothing is real
and then argue as to which history is real or not

it is not democratic i am sorry

accidents and accidentals

if you know where you are going, go there.
Do not get lost over me.

My name is Clozaril
I revive the wicked

I had exposure to what I wasn't prepared for.

it is a legitimate grouping and they don't want to accept it

they are frames not variables

yes it does matter

why go to the wizard when you don't know what you want?

I guess I am here for the fragrance.

you need a big target?
shoot the moon

Id give anything to see david 17 and happy
even if it wasn't me.

it cannot be rationally explained
the more you theorize the worse it gets.

there is a difference between accidents and accidentals

you dont use it to compute yourself a universe
an infinity of those are already there
you just need to twist or jump.

there are plenty of naturals out there
and they are far superior to anything contrived

they call it cowbirding or wildcating
but it works that way

personal property doesn't evolve well

if you no longer share frame of reference
Who is to say whats going to happen

this is not 1987

I think Obama faced more than Carter or Reagan

I like obsolete stuff.
We could have ten dollar computers if someone would support obsolete stuff

The sad irony is that he interferes
and that he is determined to interfere
He isn't going to find hydrogen and pull the plug

wow I didnt know my computer could do that!

What would you do with someone who knew too much of what he need not know to begin with?

if we adopt string theory
do we have to through away the adam?


This aint Star Trek.
you are watching too much television
things aint always solved in an hour

you dont recognize it because it represents a pair

I dont know what to say about that.

If you have a time machine
and the time machine causes the big bang
you are stuck with your time machine

the praying one is Jesus
He is trying to get John to pray

I could never push a wave this big
aND i CANT STOP IT EITHER

Tonal Impressionism

They tell me I am causing it,
then tell me I am delusional for thinking I am causing it.

you don't sit on a wall
you hang on a wall

It is not about electromagnetism.
It is about whether it matters or not.

Are human events Quantum events?
How are human events different  from Quantum events?
Why are they different?

They ask these things I am sure.
It sounds like snake oil so they stay away from it.

I don't know what will fix the economy,
but superstition aint going to fix it.
We need to put cycles into the economy.

What happens to physiology when time stops?
Just another evolutionary hurdle.

Time is saturated, time is regular
one hiccup and time freezes

Gold is pink

I told you Anton
it is a chronomally
they are real
like rouge waves

At least they got rid of the tube
it doesn't due to wear it on your head either

If there is no reality
Then who cares about the dinosaurs
Its like trash in the DNA

why are you asking for the consent of a child?

It doesn't matter
It is a brick
A take it or leave it brick.

I have my understanding
Get yours

it is only me in this chair
and I dont care that you cant see I am blindsighted

The Purpose Particle

if I don't come across as legit
no body else is going to

being a chronomally doesn't make me a superhero.

Fear and intimidation is not respect.
If I have spoken out of turn, let Christ speak.

It does not matter what you think,
it is the significance you give it that makes it delusional

just because you are in front,
does not mean you have learned anything

when things matter, they collide.
cats are from andromeda

Your world is not big enough for me.

It was over before it started.
I need to admit it to myself.

I don't fit into the world they believe in,
so they are trying to force it

I have had something world changing happen to me
and synchronicity is freaking me out.

It is the bitter end of a huge knot.

I couldn't get you out of my head,
but I wasn't going to jail over you

Why should I go out of my way to make him disappointed with me?

I have had information burn
I no longer think the same as everyone else
If God has a problem with lies
there are plenty of instances of word verification he can throw at me

Crowning achievements don't last very long.

I guess it qualifies as being less than momentous.

Evolution occurs because cosmological uncertainty forces mistakes.

there is a reason for that.
It has to do with the time reversal

They borrowed the same index cards.

when you solve your problem you put it on an index card
That way when you have the same problem
you know what to do

time insists on my mortality

a factor of the mind is involved in the cognition of pink.

it is difficult
everything pink touches turns pink

I can see how it would become this massive force you were trying to stop.

I guess it is good that there is someone up there who cares what is said and whats not.

I got bit by an ostrich

It means I am an honorary chimpanzee

I am tenured also

I was more interested in doing it in the woods.

First Church Paradox

Without purpose,
Life is an irrational dead end.

Procreation provides the illusion we are going somewhere.

Have your babies and get it over with.
At least you won't win the Darwin award.

 I appreciate when there are few demands on my time.

Maybe I could belong somewhere if I could keep my mouth shut.

Someone else may need to discover it one day

this type of paradox is called A First Church Paradox
for one it is the first
for the other the second

Draw something plausible,
Present it as fact.
UFOlogy does it all the time
and they make millions

The door is wide open.
If you could comprehend how wide open it was,
you might understand.

I believe in the event field
it motivates me

It was there at the beginning
It will be there at the end
anyone who doesn't get out before the end of it all
sorry

She is in it for the transmitters
She is 456
if you are making mistakes, it is working.
that is what it does.

as little as possible
trying to live a normal life

America was formatted.
Russia wasn't
China wasn't

Even in it's righteous form,
people still see a box.

We live in the world of bits and pieces.
Often we fail to appreciate the enormity of it all .

Be gone from me
Frustrate the dust

Well how does it work?
And when was it working?

They are ripping up the track to build their own roller coaster

as things chill
the useful bandwidth will become wider and wider
saturation will get stronger
until things are fully saturated
even if it does take a dive at the beginning.

somewhere in the apple
is a seed that can produce a whole new tree

I don't think he was to deny us anything,
just most are wise to leave that tree alone.

Leave something for everybody else.
It is distressing to feel it has all been written before.

If nothing is real, energy should be free.

The definition of real must involve energy.

If we are abused,
we live lives that are ineffective and redundant

It stands for Gray White and Red.

May I love you.

I thought she could help me relocate

It is a small city.
We will meet somewhere else.

If you know your way, go there.
Don't lose your way over me.

The Blue Collision

this is what happens when you fight it.
It ends up on the other side of yourself

I can't say who she is.
I can't say where she comes from.
She minus well be an angel.

You cannot win a war with your subconscious.
Because in the end you will lose.
If you do win, You are your subconscious.
If you are winning all of the time,
You are not real.
Only losers are real.
Winners are imagined.

It is called Win Theory
or
The Blue Collision.

If we keep going with this Win Theory
the little people are going to be fighting wars for us in cyberspace.

When you have everything you want,
the real you has nothing.

The silly games we play have a strong impact on what we consider real.

Reality was open to be defined

If you pick a fight with your subconscious,
expect to be beat up.

I didn't realize how trivial it was.

They were grooming for y2k and I over reacted

It was nothing.
It was a chest x ray.
It was no big deal.
I don't know why I overreacted.

life is too short to be entertained all the time.

Thank you, I appreciate that.

I have loved my whole life and had nothing but hurt
yet it seems I have done the same thing to somebody else.

It is all part of the
we can do it to anyone why not you commission

Just another insensitive jerk

People have an idea of who they want their david to be
and I am not it.

They refuse to walk down a dark road of foolishness and superstition

Does Christ wish us to lance over a word?
If the word is alive, let it live.

gang theory

if i put enough of myself in here,
they may be able to bring me up inside a computer one day

I said that a long time ago

Some people are too caught up in gang theory to understand that

You put yourself into it.
That is what the damn thing is for.
Am I doing the wrong thing?

It is not meant to be read as poetry.
It is written for a computer to compile my personality.

It is construct.
and it is very good construct.

emotional detours

If I do not protect and defend,
I am a poor caretaker and none will be given to me

Men fight.
Men choose violence.
Women choose magic.
What do informed Gentlemen respond with?

It isn't what you think, it is how you respond.
Mental illness is in the response.

This is what I am getting from television.
I am just watching television.

Ugliness compounds itself.

In this day and age, a physicians blackout is an accomplishment.

You are the one that wants evolution.
Why should you be surprised about cow birding.

Sooner or later,
you stop playing the game to win. 

I guess I am just not lead role material.

It was more than just chat.
It was a real thing to me.

I vaguely remember something about you being at Kings Dominion.

The word handyman came up several times today

It is a mathmatical definition
It is like saying you dont need zero

If I am doing more harm than good,
let this be finished.

call it the app room

I remember the 22nd
I still don't think Adam signed up for this.

It means to make plain

You can make an workable understanding
without being completely accurate

electric poverty

perform random acts of kindness
share beautiful things

I didn't come back from where I left

Isn't it enough that somewhere there is a family
whose loved one never returned?

They want me to make time.
They think time is going to end.

There is no significance
The question has been answered already

There are benefits to loosing that are not richly understood.

My mind went through a traumatic experience,
so it created YZAX

find someone who has one
and pummel them to death

If it aint safe for do nothings
it aint safe for anybody

We need to keep this excercise alive.
What will happen if we need to start all over.

You look like Anton Levay.
The trick is getting Sunday to do it.

time exists cause something was thrown away

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How would you recognize the beginning?
and what would happen if it didn't happen?

They think they decide and they don't.
They are forever giving us second chances
and don't even know it.

It would keep coming back and you would never know it.

I aint going for the endless second chance.

those are the effects of probability
It doesn't have to be that way
I have already been instructed in that arena.

the truth makes people delusional

Psychiatry is not about truth.
Psychiatry is about law and order

Anything good can wait

I know it can't be had.
I will settle for being a chronomaly

If I can't have it for myself,
maybe I can have it for somebody else.

The choice is already mine and I need to give it to somebody.

If there isn't a heaven, I will make one.

It is called consolidation of choice.
The universe would not work if choice had free reign.

People lead structured dependent lives.
You are really bucking the system if you don't want to live that way.

It makes me mad  that they know everything I am going to do for the next 15 years.
That is why I fool around with uncertainty.

I would rather go out that way,
Than to give in to them knowing everything.

They want to write everyone's book so they can move on.
They don't care about us.

Because it is ridiculous.
I wasn't raised that way.

I am pissed and I am just trying to confuse everybody.

We will never know unless it is us.
And why shouldn't it be us?

I know it is hard to stay rational.
I know it is beneficial to stay rational.

From another point of view, it may happen all the time.
The odds may be astronomical that we are here and it hasn't happened yet.

If it is me, it is three things interacting with each other.
I don't think you will ever pin it down.

The genome wouldn't forgive me if I didn't try.

wet liver

The only thing real about this life,
is it doesn't stop when you want it to.

Maybe she can change it,
but she has to stop it first.

Nothing it needs to settle out.

I am spellbound
I don't know.

Needless to say
she doesn't see the savior of western civilization.

I know because I needed to know.
Why were you hiding it from me?

That type of stuff is being observed,
and they are not getting away with it.

Anyone can have a conversation with themselves,
that they think is about themselves but its not.
It is like wet liver.

In schizophrenia it breaks down.
You start acting out.

If you are a single neuron in someones brain,
the idea of a human being may be a little radical.

The words want to live and grow.
They don't care who wrote them.

Our desire to pin it to someone is just another bottleneck.

I represent our first world independence.
That is what the monkeys had
before they saw the obelisk.

I am the last one to be cycled,
and the system is hanging up, it won't work.

I grabbed the causal and shook it.

She is mean.
I tunneled underneath of her.

What can I be if she doesn't believe in me?

Nature tunnels?

He is the one that needs batteries.

I wish you had believed in me.
Heartache is the only thing I feel anymore.

Just because your actions were justified,
doesn't mean people forgive you.

Why should I be concerned over what I said?
Nobody made anything about it then.
In fact it was a big joke.

I want to be appreciated for what I am,
not doped up to be what you want me to be.

You want your life back?
You want to be without me?
It can be arranged.

They make trouble for themselves
because they think they decide
and they don't

Don't worry about who's system you are in.
Feed the children.

Deloris is right.
We are spending thousands on frivolous stuff
and the children aren't getting fed.

I can see why law and order people have problems with this shit.
I hope it need not happen again.

He said he was on the other side of 2 nines.

Radiohead says within a week.

That or anonymous has an earthquake machine.

Words are alive.
Words are viral.
We are completely different people than we would be without words.
We can't fight words,
they we given to us by our parents.
There is a feral entity in all of us.

They are stupid.
They don't think right.
All they had to do was play some nintendo.
I thought they understood.

They take advantage of every little loophole they can find.
They think it is a brain contest.

We are always at war.
Peace is a bourgeois illusion.

Hell with it.
I will go to New Orleans by myself if I have to.

This is what proof does.
and this is the proof of it.

In my mind
this world needed to be born
and you caused it by ignoring me.

Words are cruel masters.
You may well visit this again someday.

I used to believe in something.
I don't know what to believe in anymore.

Lies are even worse.

I don't know why they won't tell me the truth.
I wouldn't stop crying so they gave me a lobotomy.

Well I wouldn't be surprised.
They call everything schizophrenia.
They want to get paid without causing a scandal.

Have you ever met someone
that you knew it you hitched up with them
you were going to go somewhere?
That's how I felt about her.
I have no reason to feel that way anymore.

Why are they backing me up against a wall
of what is possible and what is not anyway?

If I responded to a fortune cookie
I would be unstable.

Twice they responded because I didn't respond.

Mistakes can be forced.
Survival has taught me to forget.
A good poet sees both sides.
A bad poet gets himself caught in the middle of it.

I don't remember it
thats why it is what it is
because it is forgotten.

Liverature

because you can't get phrases like
"average inner thought" the regular way

He doesn't know he is moving the sun across the sky.
To him its just a ball of dung.

Not only is it a ball of dung,
but he has it all wrong.

How can you tell me it is no good?
It is my whole life.

People who fool around with reverse speech
do not live happy normal lives

I guess the odds are better I am not a real person
I haven't accomplished anything.
It's all fabricated.

Take a wrong turn at every intersection
and see where you end up

You want action?
Make a movie.

The whole thing is going to turn into a flip flop
and the whole thing is going to flip and flop.

We need to work under the assumption it is already happening.

You need to wait until things are extremely forgotten,
then things will re write themselves

I trust that time will flow through this circuit again someday.

I am never going to believe it
It is never going to happen for me.

I don't know about that guy behind you.
He looks a little shady.

You have learned something.
I am following you.

It is not about being the real david mallory is it?

He chose to claim it and defend it.

It was up for grabs.
He could of let it all go away,
or he could claim it and defend it.
What would you do?

Nobody wanted it.
It was scheduled for terraforming.

It started out me trying to save everything
and it got out of control

I still dont understand why I can do what I do.

I was supposed to see 1995 and I was supposed to go back
but I didn't want to\

16 years is a long time.
God created the world in 7 days.

These are the people who have chosen to honor me
How can I deny them?
They know more about who I am and what I want than I do.

I don't think there is anything wrong with the idea of sacred lives,
and what you get from these lives is what you learn.
It doesn't mean anything more than that.

They are the ones who have changed what America means.
They want us to live in some sort of pubescent fantasy.

My life is a war zone.
The choices I make effect everyone.

Ginger is a big gun.
To her I am a pretender.
She doesn't even recognize I am David.

How do you recognize a war zone?
A war zone is a war zone.

It is sad.
I will never convince her she has lost.

For ages mankind competed to make things bigger and bigger,
but the true revolution was the revolution of the small.

If you don't want me here,
stop keeping me around.

This is excess.
You have gone too far.

I am more interested in this never happening again

What do you expect from liverature?

Everyone thinks they are winning.
Thats how this crazy shit works.

There is something about me that is not welcome
and I have no control over it.

It is difficult to live in,
and we need to transition from it.

It is a mess. Things need to settle out.

It is no more delusional,
than the world being in a woman's heart
and sex holding the world together.

"When you start to compete with it,
that's when everything goes wrong."

"I say you are crazy if you don't."

This is how i get messages.
This is how they talk to me.

He had a lemon on his hands.

I don't like it either,
but he is doing the right thing.

It was a mistake made very very long ago,
and there is nothing I can do about it.

It would have been a grim existence.
Nobody deserves that.

Why get in a battle you can't win?
Make them go slowly and use the time wisely.

They want you to struggle with the basics,
so you can't learn anything else.

Mother Nature and Father Time
have no concern for what we deem factual.

Factual is an illusion expensive to maintain.

But together we must.

What is there to decide?
It is an illusion you are deciding anyway.

lymphatic barbarism

He is letting me do this crazy stuff cause it is over,
you stupid jerks

Christ's message was not about winning.
It was about empathy and tolerance.

What do you want?
A gold medal that says
you are better than everyone else?

She was in a groundhog day
and didn't think there would be any consequence

If you aren't part of the crowd mentality
there is something wrong with you.

I don't have to cross the Mississippi anymore
I can do it right here.

I am operating under the assumption we are being averaged.
I feel it is my duty to give you headaches.

I find it far more plausible that I caused the big bang
than that I used to be a musician
and can't remember because of ECT

If we all got together and tied a big knot
these spirits would leave us alone.
That is what is going to happen anyway.

Some people take great pride
in the failure of an individual.

The worst part about having schizophrenia
is how offensive it is to other people.

I shall mourn than.

We are in a fight to stay dry now.
This is the dry war.

Are we going to delude ourselves until doomsday?
I would rather face it.

They are fighting over the umbrella.

They tried to x file the x generation
and they wonder what is wrong with us.

I guess I am fairly ugly.
I don't want to jump.

Maybe trying is what got me here in the first place.

The consternation some people have about it is peculiar.

I am trying for something I have wasted.
I am trying for something I can never have.

I don't want to be instructed.
I don't want to learn.
I want it to be painful.
I want it to pour out of me.

I don't care if it is lymphatic barbarism

in the nexus of a convergence

I will let it be your choice generous.

I must not feel happy.
This is not the place for me to be happy.
Why do you demand this of me?

In the absence of divine authority,
we have imprisoned ourselves.

Only the damned show mercy.

Forgetting is the key to the whole damn thing.

You need to be now for it to work,
and it isn't easy being now.

I am giving the old tests to everybody.
They think they are better
because they understand and you don't.
I would never want to be accused of hiding anything.

They are not interested in the human condition.
They think they are the karma police.

You think you have a monopoly on that sort of thing?
I submit that I had already taken a more stringent test and passed.

What basis in reality does that test even have?

Even if it did happen,
and I can't confirm for myself that it did.

That was Martin Luther's ghost
scaring the shit out of you.

There was a nest that was created,
but someone came along and cowbirded the nest.

The past was uncertain.
That is why the nest was built in the first place.

They don't start at the same place,
they don't end at the same place,
but they share the same road for a while.

As far as schizophrenics go
I am a skeptic

Psychiatry is for trouble makers.

Hardly anything happens
that doesn't contribute to the servitude of humanity anymore.

Am I delusional for thinking that was her?
I think I did well.
What would you have done?

It is easier for you to sit back and say I am delusional,
but it wouldn't be so easy if you were me.

I am pretentious.
I have no regard for anything but myself.

What are you going to do
when you get in the middle of it
and realize you can't?

I remain unconvinced that God can do anything in this matter.

Thanks for sticking your neck out.

Dave needs pictures.
Everybody should make pictures for Dave.

I don't want to write that way.
I like the way I write.

The world line has taken on a new dimension.
Things converge and diverge.
It is called perception.

Many people find themselves in the nexus of a convergence.
I am not sure medication is the best thing for these people.

What is going to happen?
They loose Clozoril?
They don't need it anymore anyway.

Clozaril has kept me in a game
I would be more than willing to lose.

we don't see the world as it is
we see it as our mind allows us to

This world is precious.
It would be selfish of me to do that.

There are 5 people in this world and I am one of them.
We love David.
We keep giving him gifts and he wont use them.
We told him it is not polite but he won't listen.

Let us blur the line so we can tell a story.

This is not about the consequence.
David is the consequence.

David is an answer.
David is a reflection of ourselves.

He has said it before.
We are the ones who need a solution, not him.

Because I don't understand paragraphs,
They seem so arbitrary.

If I didn't have to use people,
I would have done it already.

I am just an obstacle to her.
Someone to be gotten rid of.

She hired pest control to bring me down.

He was a bad shepherd.
It was divine providence.

I thought you wanted a Camaro.

Handshakes and bottlenecks do not mix.

let the actors handle it

There must be something more
if they were willing to let this happen

Why should I?
You are not the most approachable person on earth,

I don't entertain myself with psychiatry.

I don't care that this has never happened before,
this shouldn't happen to anybody.

If I had what I was worth things wouldn't be this way.

Configuration is not enough.
Things need to be made whole.
Things need to be understandable.

The proof paradox

you have to wait for it to find you
you can not force it

What should we do about a government
masquarading as a religion?

They see freedom of religion as a weakness
and they want to expolit it.

If we let them do that,
we will have to admit
something is wrong with the constitution.

I haven't been voting
because I am afraid time will follow me.

It is an insult,
and they know it is an insult,
they are trying to sway opinion.
they know what this shit is for.

if you can't do it if you try,
then don't try just do it.

It can come to you.
It can fall in your lap.

Truth happens because people need it.

demons have no purpose but to make us hungry and afraid.

I know what happened.
but I don't know if that frog is going to sing for anyone else.

I have little concern for rank and privledge.
It is the people I am worried about.

I think she died of a heartache in her sleep.

There is nothing better
than a girl who would run away with you.

I am warning you.
Handshakes are going to break down.

What kind of universe would you live in
if you could prove something like that?

That is what happens when you hang proof around someone's neck.
It causes paradox.