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You You You You IYou  Plant a tree every single Sunday And eventually you have a grove And for a while, maybe, you won't need  This is not about etiquette. There are very serious issues about gender roles And our philosophy. I understand how planting might work But I don't understand what damage it might do. Is it  better than sitting on bottlenecks? Voodoo works better when it's yours. Or I if God gave it to you. They are in the business of selling insurance policies. We were in a big universal joke. It might alleviate a bottleneck? It is a recovered memory  I was a small child The left shoves stuff too. It was an act of desperation Like a beached whale. They can't fix society  So they treat the individual  And so the individual must solve the problems. I feel I have been locked in a closet, And forced to rediscover relativity. We need to solve these problems, Or we are going to end up under shariah law. We can't keep taxing the individual for societal pro...

IUIt You You ,I I was willing to accept I was schizophrenic in 1985. There are a lot of cousin Kevins out there who think it's funny. I don't know what else I could have done. Don't play with me like that. It is a cousin Kevin It's not doing any good. Because I think, that's why. I am sorry if that is a problem for you. I was already in salvage mode. It wasn't the phone call I planned to make. You insist you can't do anything, But it's your book, You wrote it. The whole future David Mallory thing is yours. Ignore what you think you know Treat it as the first time and it will be It would be contrived  It would be fake for me to respond in that manner. Channel the anger. Make the anger work for me. People go through years of therapy to learn how to solve things without their fists. If you are this way They are going to want you that way If you are that way This way In the end it's all about control You can't win. It's reductionist  I don't ...

IYou You You IYou You I BY It's like drinking the ocean There is never more than a couple hours  Before the stones start falling  I've been down Broad St once. It goes on forever. When they start talking about me on CNN That is the beginning of the end Let's hope that never happens. I feel like one of Harry Mudd's Robots  She wants me to blow a circuit I just want my sanity. It wasn't what she wanted. She would have found a reason to end it. Why do I need you? I caused the Big Bang. You are always going to be expecting something. It is never going to be enough with you. If you don't want the same things You let go, you move on But you won't let me You think you are saving the world from an axe murderer or something. Time travel is always a desperate act. So is listening to the radio. It just feels foreign to me, And it is. You are into heavy metals. I am not. I don't see how they can diagnose people, When they don't even know what normal is. I'm ...

This I'm Don't  Imagine the universe was a video game And if you wanted to save your place The system would give you a number. How big would that number have to be  To save everything? I don't need proof to entertain something. Just because I entertain something, Doesn't mean I believe it. Sometimes my understanding is like a jigsaw puzzle. It's all important if it fits or not. Baptize yourselves. Don't fight over who is real and who is not. I am always at the bottom, And it's always my fault Men suffer too. Am I alone in my own skin? I think they like my self deprecating personality. I don't think they like people who are looking for a Nobel prize over this. How much longer are things going to remain polite? I expected something  This was far beyond what I expected. Actually Henrico county is at the forefront of community treatment. You guys are reading this because we are out in the community. There have always been people who are more paranoid than de...

It It II I T It was a long time ago a long time ago. She sees the world a certain way, and I can't get her to stop. If it wasn't for the grace of God, I would have died from broken heart syndrome a long time ago. I remember years of going to Wendy's by myself, It was good to finally have someone to go to Wendy's with. But it was never going to be more than that. I don't know why yzax affects my sexuality, It just does. Revelation is like the telomerase. I guess we see what the market is going to do  Are they in the position to hold the government hostage? Why should she rely on what I remember anyway? She is going through it too. I have resentment towards women I have serious memory problems And I am socially inept What is whackanomics? It would imply circular logic is real, And people have serious problems with that. I am self absorbed and self important It seems to me to suggest, The arrow of time might be anthropic Everybody is strung out on lead, That is what I ...

It never occurred to me. It just was not an option. I thought I had the freedom to be who I wanted to be. God games are bad for your health. God games don't have to be played on a computer. I am guilty. A lot of schizophrenics are playing God games with themselves. It is difficult to stop a god game When the doors are open That means war is going on? It looks like we are going to have to take it on the chin, Before China is going to do anything. I don't see the future. The future sees me. http://blackboxvoting.org/fraction-magic-1/ Is it better to be in denial about it? Am I to be an unknowing fool? What is willful ignorance? The information itself decides who can be read in And who cannot. Does pertinence matter? https://soundcloud.com/meglodave/my-song-6

This past Monday I bought a used computer at a thrift store. I went to Walmart to buy a patch cord to connect my vga monitor to the dvi outputs but they did not have one. So I went to OfficeMax and they did, but it cost more than the computer did. But I bought it anyway. I got it home was locked out at a password prompt. I thought about it, and I read up on it. I tried to run an installation disc, but I couldn't get the system to boot from the DVD drive. I did not have a keyboard that had the right connector, so I went to target to get that. When I got back home, I was playing hell trying to get the system to go into cmos. Struggling with that, I discovered you could get into it by holding the shift key while clicking restart. Having discovered that I found I could also revert to previous versions of Windows that way too.  So I tried it and it worked. The system booted into windows 8. Of course I had to update it before I could install 8.1 and, after a little hacking, I got the 600...

Hazing is wrong too. I wish they could do something about that. Why does the eclipse go west to east? None of us needs a lecture  On nineteenth century politics. It is easy to be romantic  When it is not your freedom involved  I feel for all those who fell But it is not romantic anymore I don't think an open sore is a good idea

IYou IThe I I am sorry for what happened, It was not planned or rehearsed I have to stand public opinion. People have been lynched for less. I could have used better judgement. I am sorry if she was traumatized. We do have healthcare in America. It is called bankruptcy. How many people are being trickled out of the economy? I thought they were talking about the election being hacked. Having dinner is not hacking. Has anyone else noticed they have changed the subject? Why have they changed the subject? Was information exchanged over dinner? Was that information gathered by Russian hacking? My relationship with Jesus is nobody else's business. I have my story. The land of cruel jokes and missed opportunities. We need to help people going bankrupt  Over catastrophic or long term care. Because the democrats don't care about the cruel jokes. They think it's cool. They think it's part of American life. ...

IIt It It If If If It  HU I admit he is not that savory  But I have to defend him there were serious concerns  about the security of our election systems  A long time ago And I don't know if anything was ever done about it You didn't have to be Nostradamus to see that one coming. Let's just say It wasn't a snowfall in May OK? Welcome to hell? What is up with that? I guess chicken pox is a serious thing if you are older. Fox News just has a gloss the others don't have. It is sad. They are fighting over which is the communist. Holding information for political advantage. It looks like a trump card they were waiting to play. How long has this been an issue? And this is coming out just now? This is not in the spirit of how things should work. There are those that want education To be at the center of social and economic life. I don't agree with that. I don't consider it a cure all for making people happy. People don't like Hillary Clinton. I fail to see why ...

It If I IBB It  goes backward until it arcs somewhere Then you have a timeline  I guess you could do it the right way  And wait for someone to hit you Women want babies They don't care about timelines They think they are all the same They think it is stupid What is the universe from the perspective of a sperm? Isn't a man more than that? It's not Christianity that's is making people's lives difficult  It is the application of probability  Sometimes things are difficult for a reason. Applicate the applicators, It's not the music, it's the charts. You are deluded I can do anything about it. It is too monolithic to be stupid chance. The whole thing has become a probability circus. I remember voting for Bill Clinton. I took a lot of heat for it. I took a lot of heat for just being a democrat back then. It's better to be in a real hell than a false one. We have a media medicine complex I lied to James It didn't even occur to me till I was in Florida. What...

We NNT If you have someone's memories You have a universe How do we know dna is static Maybe it goes off like a volcano It is a situational dance isn't it? Of course I idolize my father. Everything I do have is because of him. I am more paranoid than delusional, But where do the delusions start, And the paranoid end. The Jehovah's Witness don't vote either Maybe they kept you out of office I am waiting for someone to come forward about lead I am convinced it is responsible for the ebb and flow of civilization. If I knew what was good for me, I would probably be scared. What use is the presidency, If we keep putting them through investigations like this? I am a living breathing talking walking person. I don't want to be calculated by some machine. What is Liberty if they know what you are going to do For the next 30 years Art Bell talked about the hacking of voting machines 20 years ago The high witches pledged a coronation and didn't deliver. Using people you co...

Why are we singling out Russia? Other nations have artists that sing about it from 20 years ago. It seems one witch hunt just leads to another witch hunt Progress gets made and roadblocks are put up I was wanting to say something, But I felt it would be offensive. Mounted pedestrians? Swiss guard? I am having a windows nightmare. I haven't seen a machine this sick since 1998 Apparently Intel and Microsoft are at odds over antivirus utilities  Mcafee was telling me nothing was wrong and it was fighting me Obviously something was wrong Machines don't get that sick and nothing is wrong  I just wanted it to do a scan for Pete's sake It should be able to do a scan on command Mcafee wouldn't do a scan And it wouldn't let defender do a scan I got to get control of this machine Some people believe what the computer is telling them Some people don't I wrote one time that it was sad we spend hundreds a month on technology While there are people starving in Africa, And I t...

BFIt's harder for things to evolve if you try to own them. That's my opinion anyway. I don't remember why I came to have that opinion. If I did I would be trying to own it. It is augmented. My perp said he would cut off my nookie supply if I ever fingered him. Imagine that. Occam's razor says lead. The closest thing to victim a schizophrenic is ever going to get. Schizophrenic = Perpetrator Giving new meaning to the word watergate. I did not start out on the right. Now that I know what left and right is about, I am glad to be on the right. It seems some looked into my ravings and profited. I warned my dad that was going to happen. I give my shit away for free, Because I am on somebody's shit list, And I am getting blackballed. I have the right to exist and I am defending myself. They make deals with the devil And when they can't deliver or fall short They blame republicans  I am defending myself  I don't have the luxury of an opinion. I saw a sign between th...

If they are going to stitch people to it, They should at least know what the Big Bang is. I have pissed somebody off. This is ridiculous. If you don't think about sex every eight seconds, Something is wrong with you. It was never even an option for me. The people spreading those rumors had their own motivation. There are people out there whose issue is gay or not gay. I am never going to convince those people. I think we need to come to terms with the fact, I am not fitting into the formula. "I don't like it anymore than you do..." Be thankful you don't live in a place, Where it's racist to love your hometown. Oh my goodness can you believe it! Oh my gosh I have never seen a game like this! Go Patriots! Thanks for the response, I appreciate it.

V It's thought Christ is a pansy. It's thought love is in hell. It's thought Christ is not going to physically do anything. It's thought he needs to finish what he started, Do what he promised. This is not radical. Millions of people believe this. Democracy is not the real experiment. The real experiment is whether we can live together or not. Whether we can recognize reality or not. Whether we are his or not. Yzax is a discovery  If it is not assimilated it my never be discovered again I may have been crazy to think one of my posts might cause wwiii, But we are in the center of it snow aren't we. I know I have foreshadowed things before. I hope I am wrong about this one. Is there an x they have anything good to say about? It looks like the manna machine. Lithium = dose of reality = stitched to the bang What are tunneling led's She got angry She fought I am afraid to play my Nintendo Sometimes I realize people are trying to get a reaction out of me, So I try and...

It's not worth my sanity. It is considered creepy and stalking If they admit to what is happening in the polls, It will make their situation worse. I have no problem with it. They lie and hide from the people, Let the people hide and lie to them. If states had rights You wouldn't have to worry about your marriage Or reproductive rights If California wants to do one thing And New Jersey wants to do something else To a certain extent They should be able to do that Unfortunately it becomes a race issue and doesn't work. It is the last hoorah of the silent majority. Enjoy it while it lasts. Issues can always be hijacked by people who want to do the wrong thing I decided to see if my vote mattered or not. Actually I felt the party I voted for would have an unfair advantage. They have four years to prove to the rest of us they are right. A bunch of tricksters who want to play mind games on the public Is not a demographic I want to be a part of. I think the real question is whethe...

Is saturation real? Or is it what you decide it to be? What is universal saturation? Mine is the same as yours, is the same as his... Or, Mine is mine, yours is yours, his is his In a scramble nothing is substituted  If I gave every line its own page, it would cause a mess. It is less spambolic that way. The bizzarro people like that I leave it open like that. It's like reality, you never know when the door is going to close. You put it on the bus, and it just bounces around in there until you ask for it again. They are bringing packets back from the dead. States may resign and become dysfunctional.

Happy birthday I am not cut out for radio generous, I need to leave. If I could go back to that day I walked out I would leave White people have lived with lead for thousands of years His body, His blood, If he is risen, It is his decision. If one lone gunman versus Kennedy doesn't balance out, The crucifixion for 144000 elite individuals doesn't balance out. Clean air matters Clean water matters Parsley sage rosemary and lead It is just another part of the recipe Are you doing what needs to be done? Or are you doing what you want to do to somebody? I was in the chat room or something, And they asked me what I do it for And I said "I am in it for the lulls" Meaning quiet restful moments And they just really thought that was funny I don't know if they admire me, Or if they just like watching me lose my mind. It's like everything else, Did it really happen? I don't know. I am a failure. My ego is not doing its job How can the electoral college do its job as ...

I don't get angry like I am supposed to. I can't run. I have facial recognition problems My social interaction is shot. I can't push myself I can't challenge myself I don't feel the need to worship anything. Proverbs is right. Sometimes you need to set aside your personal understanding And trust in God. It bothers me that I don't know what the original timeline was. I saw a small child given a game, And he was told,"You have one chance, and if things go south, go south." I want that small boy to make it back home. Run with it. I must admit, he looks nothing like Oj Simpson. I guess the meme likes being stolen. "Something in the water does not compute." It is probably the cycle, not the water itself. I guess the role does too. I don't do the math, The math does me. Apparently so  do a number of others. Jesus was crucified for saying "I am" His divinity is the central issue to why ...

There are a lot of sad people out there. We can't write them all off for being stupid. There is no pass or fail. It is all about how far you can take it. No one was supposed to get hurt. It was a funhouse. It wasn't meant to have a solution. It wasn't meant to be solved. Do dominoes fall? Only if you set them up. Miracles happen when they need to. Supernatural  Divine  Intervention You shouldn't call for it unless you are ready for it. Winning and solving may be anthropic  What I consider is aliens may not think that way You are right I can't just make statements  I must consider being able to defend them. It is considered just because we haven't learned anything. The more we focus on winning and solving the worse it gets. "You didn't have to be so nice. I would have loved you anyway." End stage renal disease. I like the idea of someone listening to the same stream I am. Addictive Pr...

Too dumb to smash it with a hammer. I pleaded with her to stop. She was ready to launch. I wonder what was so special about Bill Cosby's house. I am a good guy. I don't deserve this shit. She couldn't cover me. It's not my fault. I tried to tell her something was wrong. I am in the way. I am an obstacle to who she wants to be. I don't know exactly what American women feel entitled to. I am a man. I don't have the right to be in the way. I guess I can't debate common sense. The democrats sneezed and the republicans caught the flu. Delusions are generally the simple explanation. They are an explanation to something the individual is experiencing. I don't know what the Internet has to do with the Big Bang. If we are being compressed, it will develop flaws. I would go farther, but I hate drum machines. Mommy why does everyone want to ruin us? Mommy why does everyone want to ruin us? That's what buddies are for. If you can follow it, you are me. I can...

I get words I get pictures I don't always know what they mean. Scientific minds don't always have that luxury. I think it scares them. I don't think they are ready to think that way. Just because I allow myself to think that way, Doesn't mean I am mad or delusional. I believe there is a bizarro world, And I don't think they have a high opinion of us. I wanted to be schizophrenic  I thought it was cool A lot of the fears I deal with are hers. If something cannot be compressed, will that cause errors? I need to become accustomed to the idea I am not right about everything. His ways are not my ways. My thoughts are not his thoughts. When the rocks start falling, I am going to be praying like everyone else. Smile and be predictable. Why do things quantize to begin with? I shouldn't be expected to prove myself. I couldn't use it if I created one anyway. I shouldn't be expected to prove my own existence. That is wrong. I have been taught the futility of it. Be...

What is cheating sex? A pedestrian stepped on a butterfly. All the music of 77 is just really special for some reason. It reminds me of lying in front of the console with my Mom, And going to see Star Wars with my Dad. Radical Islam will never rule the world in peace. How do you know something is wrong if it has always been that way? Here I am bitching about lead, And vinyl records have lead. I must have been born  desperate. A championship in many other places, Would be just another championship. At VCU it would be much more than that. How about Styx at the super bowl in Chicago? Matt and the harmonics  I don't remember there being 93 different versions no. Of the coverup, By the coverup, For the coverup.

I understand the John 1:1 debate I understand the revelation 1:11 debate God let the GNB be written. There is a tradition of parsing surrounding the KJV that outsiders do not understand. That I admittedly do not understand. For me it is an issue of new wine and old wine

,Nobody wants to be king of the mountain. It costs too much, and you can't stay there I may not recognize the truth, But I am not meaning to deceive anyone. That there is no magic, That there is no alchemy, That is the lie. There is a difference between resorting to magic to explain something, And acknowledging it is there Telling you the truth Without ushering in the dark ages  One thing seems certain, They ain't listening to the carpenters. The second amendment is about the people's right to revolt, Not the right to shoot up elementary schools. I don't think it is understood what would have to be done. It's not just a 1984 thing It is a 1963 thing It makes me hope I am delusional. That I am making up the absurdity  E I want the words to flow I want my parrot to talk, Nobody sees the value in It It's ok to show because he is Palestinian?ff I don't recall any one else gunned down on television. In the beginning ...

What is the "yet" operation? .gov is for tourists I understand why she wanted her own server It's not .mil That is the sort of thing you would do in Nobunaga What is a fantasy fugue? I don't think they ever took into account what might happen if someone actually did rewire themselves. I create too many questions, And I don't answer any. Did she really have to do it? Has it really kept me out of trouble? I don't remember much about 1983. I tried to become another person but I failed Beyond the realm of any possibility. I won't get an accurate portrayal if leave out the ugly parts. Have they ever said "poo" on American television? Someone who is always right is not high on my desirable list. One percent happens Everyday Psychiatry doesn't think one percent should change the way they treat people. They talk about the brain making new connections, but aren't ready when it actually happens. I have rewired myself, and I don't know if it...

You can experience it, But I don't think you will ever have proof. I am not the way I see myself am I. Did Jesus really tell them the rocks would talk? I hate the term "High functioning" It makes it sound I could be better if I tried harder. If you have an event that needs to happen, You will have a whole line of things that need to happen, And some of those things may be in cyberspace Just as they might in a dream Which gets down to what dreams are Just because it sounds bizarre, Doesn't mean its irrational. They are two separate things. We are like gasoline Nobody has found a use for us yet. I spend a lot of energy staying rational. "Lithium is believed to have been created by the Big Bang" Hence "stitched to the bang" You give lithium to those who are holographic It's a dose of reality Relax I am only half kidding When you try to understand it, It gets bizarre. It...

I know why the wall still stands. And so do they. Well suspect anyway. People feel like they can't talk That they can't make any real decisions. We are hanging by a thread, And God has the scissors. Winners can't begin to understand the rest of us. I did not consider radio communications  was an advanced class in psychology. I think I have "theory of mind" impairment. If left to their own devices, People will readily kill one another. Cognitively I am fine. It is interaction with other people I have problems with. America is torn. America does not believe in itself. America cannot defend its own interests. Someone else must stand. It was the cosmopolitan thing to do She has something she feels needs to be accomplished and she won't compromise. It would be better if I never said anything. Why are we so celebrated? What did we do? Why were you looking for someone like me to begin with? It is scary to have conversations with someon...

It isthe firewall. It makes the difference between what's possible and what's not. Any reasonably bright person would run afoul of it sooner or later. The only way to know its a firewall is what happens when you do away with it. Here and there doesn't mean anything without then and now. It's all about the boundaries. It begins with a boundary. It ends with a boundary. Self is a boundary Place is a boundary Life as we know it is a boundary Sometime you let anger get the best of you and you cross a boundary you didn't mean to cross. You can't get it back and you are left with a life you cannot fix What is game impairment? Part of me doesn't understand the radio is not another person. That's different from thinking everyone is out to get you. I thought you were kidding when you said I was autistic. They were trying to sweep up trouble makers, and I got caught in the net. Some just cant make what causality does to odds People don't appreciate how debilit...

Why do I have insight and restraint when other psychos don't? What is Cardinal Fatigue? The things that are important can deteriorate. The brick at the bottom has more stress on it than the brick at the top. But they are still bricks. God did not tell Adam and Eve they were going to live happily ever after. What is a device or media with an obscene amount of information? The girls just want to dash me on the rocks. Fine don't believe in reverse speech and magic squares. I will use them and I will have an advantage you won't use. Belief in God may start because something is biased and partial about the universe. Let's be clear. The phrase "average inner thought" came from reverse speech analysis of something I wrote. I don't know why other people can't get the results I do. I think it is something that doesn't easily lend itself to scientific study. That doesn't mean it should be called pseudo science. Just because you can't get your parro...

Dark time is easy. Dark time is events that haven't happened If object permanence is a skill Then reality is something you must learn. Reality is a skill I am lacking in. Why was that so easy to find now? It wasn't like that before Anything that sets you apart is a psychiatric condition. If everything is about sex then why are we here? We minus well be fruit flies or something. What a relief. I thought it was membranes colliding in my head. I have never seen a more crazy ending in my life! I didn't do anything immoral or illegal. I simply expressed my desire for my team to win In a bizarre superstitious way Today is national give somebody a truck day. The biggest symptom of time travel is confusion. Malcolm XLIX It is just a way to remember Malcolm Butler's name I want to make a comment about the "cheating" But I can't I have never been officially exonerated But I did graduate basic If bad was thought of me That wo...

i envy the ability to move on. I feel like I am stuck. I feel like I don't have that ability. I mean how am I supposed to move on. I guess singlemindedness is good with some things. For other things it is a disaster 1 + 8 = 9 8 + 16 = 24 24 + 8 = 32 24 + 25 = 49 Math is a good way to jam. It's not a perfect sequence. It beats around the bush. I want to play railroad tycoon with my iPad Also present, as in  Tutankhamun's tomb , were decorative designs featuring the representation of the twelve monkeys, symbolizing the night hours on one of the burial chamber walls. Totally unique to any royal tomb are beautiful bird hunting scenes. The tomb was discovered by Belzoni in 1816. Read more:  http://www.touregypt.net/featurestories/ay.htm#ixzz3P2zJAefk Please forgive me about what is going on with jasmine I am not strong enough to confront her and stop her I do not agree with what she posts http://www.svabhinava.org/reviews/12monkeys/default-FAQ.php They represent dark time I felt...

We shouldn't have "wiped our assess with it" I won't do that again. I apologize What is a second? How do you pictograph time? The universe expands because time is slowing down? How would we know? How can there be a universe without universal time? It's not dark matter It's universal time? Recently I have wondered why Relativity doesn't shatter everything. I guess you don't need it if you don't have problems with it. Call it dark time Would it still perform the same function? Things are not as fragile as it seems they should be. It's like the universe has bubble wrap. If this is lucky, I would hate to see what cursed is like. I think they should call it The Obama Bowl. I don't mean to treat the language poorly. I write this way because of a vision I had. I guess if I got away with it, everyone would start doing it, and there would be a domino effect, and the language itself would suffer. 1 + 8 = 9 9 + 16 = 25 25 + 24 = 49 49 + 32 = 81 What i...

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