a new tradition

there are five reasons why
to pass the test you must know all five reasons

I am not going to dictate the reasons
and I am not going to say for or against
I will let yall decide that

I don't know all five
and it is better that I don't
cause I don't want to dictate what they are

I am more interested in starting this tradition
than passing the test.
I am sure there are five in there somewhere.

Of course it is going to happen.
It cannot be stopped.
I just have a real problem feeling good about it.
Hopefully this is part and it is many decades away.
The new generation
wont let it dominate and ruin their life like I did.

I don't think anyone fully appreciates
what the cold war did to people's psychology.

I have gotten addicted to sudoku.
It is easier than minesweeper.
I thought it would be hard, but it is not.
I use triage and elimination.

I minus well have been the guardian of the country.
It is a dark sadistic energy that is attacking me.
I cant afford to have feelings for christ's sake.

You think I am loosing touch with my feelings,
and I am doing it on purpose
and you don't understand why
I am trying to tell you and you aint listening

Can't you see?
It doesn't want us to solve the damn thing.

I am not blaming anybody.
I am just saying it was a dark sadistic energy.

Yes a dark sadistic energy attacked me
because it knew I had the solution to Y2K

I am not saying they used it.
I am saying I wrote it,
and it knew I wrote it,
and it attacked me.

I have been at my post for 25 friggen years.
It is time for me to retire.

I am sorry I blamed England and claimed the whole world
Damnit I did the best I could.

I was in the middle of a damn war with this thing
and I didn't know what it was about.

Getting us to blame each other
is part of the game this thing plays.

The only interest it has
is in stealing what is rightfully ours.

I believe in Christ,
I believe in the resurrection,
but this I know for certain.

Now this goes out to the atheists and agnostics.
There is a dark sadistic energy in the world,
and we know above all else Jesus is our salvation.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
Ignore me at your own peril.

I feel I am a millennial figure.
I feel I ought and have the right to say such things.
I feel it is expected of me.

I was just a teenager
who wrote 20 lines of code that changed the world.
I didn't know what was happening to me.

I was there with you, struggling with the mysteries,
and this is what I have to say about it.

Mohammad wasn't here to deal with this sadistic energy.
Moses wasn't here to deal with this sadistic energy.
Only Christ came to deal with it.
And he is our salvation from it.

I can't deal with someone who thinks the worst of everything.
This could have been over many years ago.

Of course I am mad at you.
I told you it was over in 2000 and you didn't believe me.
I had to go through all that Turing test and everything.
For goodness sake
People didn't think I was a real person.

I hope I don't have to choose
which one of you I am going to keep alive.
but if I do
don't think automatically it is going to be you.

God's love is enough for me.
I don't need anymore than that.

I guess I feel if I can convince you something is wrong
you will stop it.
but its not working.

We have had a serious misunderstanding me and you.

I have seen what you are like when you have all the cards,
and I am not happy about it.

I don't know.
It is my way of checking up on people.

I checked up on you and you failed.
You failed big time.

Do you know how many sadistic spirits
I have to deal with on a daily basis?
I don't need it from you.

I am never going to trust God again.
Christ is all I have to hold on to.

I am like a small child that got burned by the stove.
I am terrified of the stove now.

How can I deny her?
She is the only one that friggen passed.

This is not about who I love anymore.
She deserves it.
You don't.

The number was there in plain sight for months.

Cause she is married and the guys name is David
and I don't want to cause any trouble.

For christ's sake Gin
I had to sleep on the darn floor.
More than once even.

I guess what I am trying to say
is that I have found a way to live without you,
and I don't know if I am going to turn back or not.

They blessed the floor of my mind Gin.
They are not happy with me.

I don't know
I think they tried to set up some utopia for Dave
and it's not working.
It's not working Gin.

You have a gift and I am supposed to love you
but its not working.

Cause I had to know
and I was a stubborn dickhead
but that doesn't change anything.

I don't need you sweetheart.
Thanks to this shit I don't need anybody anymore.

I am left feeling it is sick and ridiculous.

Men aren't real
and women are some sort of pattern amplifier

I know how to amplify my own pattern now.

I didn't write those 20 lines of code
cause I was angry with women!
You want to call the cops on me
and I think it is ridiculous.

I love you
I would be happy just to be with you
but you are friggen looney!

I guess some people were just born for God and Country.

Cause the Hopi didn't pass either.
They were doing sadistic shit to people.

That is what Satan does.
That is Satanism.

He thinks stupidity should be painful,
so he plays cruel jokes on people
to get them to stop.
Which is exactly what they were doing.

The President didn't fail anybody.
It is my damn war.
If you don't like it go to Canada.

Look I didn't ask for this mess.
I was practically born in a God and Country position.
It was not of my choosing.

Do you want to go back to situation books and index cards?

If I could step off the stage
and let someone else handle it I would,
but I don't know how to do that.

It is a scary position to find yourself in.
It is not fun.

There is a sense in the world
that if you are not hung on a cross
or fed to the lions
that you are not a martyr
we should have a new sense of martyrdom now.

People are being kept in deep psychological pain.
There are tens of thousands of us.

Following Freud is equivalent to following Marx,
and needs to be confronted.

If you keep doing this it is going to happen again,
and he might not be as congenial as me.

I understand I am a rare exception
and you didn't know about the y2k issue
but it sets a dangerous precedent.

Yes I understand women almost universally win this argument.
It is the brinkmanship that bothers me.

Because I am locked in.
I couldn't even if I wanted to.

Your argument doesn't bother me so much.
It is how far you took it.

You can't judge me.
A world changing thing like that never happened to you.

Yes I must have anger issues with women.
However, I feel the need to confront this issue.

Its assholes and communists.
That is just the way the world is.

In my book, if you follow Freud you are a communist.
I see no difference between the two.

I make no distinction between Marx and Freud.
They have the same motivation and agenda.

It is the motivation for the argument
not the argument itself.
They are for a secular, hedonistic, materialistic world.
I am not.

I had to struggle with the mysteries myself.
I understand the issues now.

It didn't use to be like this.
Peoples patterns are getting weak.

People are going to burn in the event field
if they don't stop.

Jesus catches people so they don't burn in the event field.

Satan doesn't care if you go to the event field or not.

It is something God worries about.
I don't fully understand it either.

There are pink clouds and white clouds
pink clouds burn white ones dont

I think it is about information
getting all your ducks lined up in a row

The white is more challenging than the pink
anybody can do the pink

I mixed the two and Jesus had to play catch.

This is what happens with the pink clouds.
People's patterns get weak
and people burn in the event field.

I told you
I didn't pull the plug right
I broke symmetry

I couldn't figure out which 12 to throw away
So I just threw out any 12

I got caught in the game.
I burnt revelation and went to find hydrogen.
but I didn't pull the plug right
and caused the big bang.

Why do you give me so much hassle.
You never believe anything I say.
Aren't you curious as to why everything is so foreign to me?

Because that is what you are supposed to do
when someone does that to you.

I never said I was God.
I said I caused the big bang.