A Chromatic Mess

They think men can only solve things with violence.

You are playing right into their psyop agenda.

They will give you everything you want,

Then they will take it all away.

It is called Pump and Dump.

They manufactured the issues 20 years ago.

It is always a scenario.

Are you ready for it?

Violence is not going to win.

It will just decide what the next scenario is going to be.

They sell sundaes in Portland too.

There are millions of people out there

Waiting for something to do

Obligated even

If there was any promise in it,

It has been worked out by now.

If the goal is for everyone to be indispensable 

We ain’t there yet.

There is going to be civil conflict 

And they are going to come to the rescue 

And put us all on medication 

Your not smart enough.

Your just one person.

It would take the second coming to stop this now.

Can the federal government build communities?

Is it the president’s job?

The presidency is not some magical office that is going to solve everything.

I sent them a letter that I was under attack.

If I say too much it won’t be there for other people.

I think there is a romantic hangover 

I ain’t messing with no one

I just want to gather myself and move on.

People ain’t ready for instant karma.

Are you ready for immediate consequences?

Things are built layer on layer,

And I consider we run the risk of exposing the magma.

It is a drop box 

It helps me cope

Burn it like a candle

A paranoid person is a paranoid person.

It doesn’t matter if it’s true or not.

If it is consuming your life,

You should seek treatment.

What about the Washington Sturgeons 

Portland needs to deal with Portland 

Chicago needs to deal with Chicago 

I can’t very well bitch about outsiders in Richmond,

Then get involved with Portland.

I gave Democrats my vote in 2018 because they said they needed it

I hadn’t voted for 20 years

What did they do with it?

They are giving me riddles to determine where my information comes from.

How do you have a discipline you can’t directly talk about?

My birth certificate is a notarized microfiche.

It probably wouldn’t be up to par.

It’s true because it makes itself true.

If you construct a law,

It is going to get tested.

Why are you here to get pissed off about it to begin with?

This is not Facebook 

This is a drop box

I put things because I am paranoid

And feel the need to talk to the television.

What is your excuse for reading it?

It is delusional.

It doesn’t matter.

I was spamming compuserve before I knew www even existed

My first windows machine did not even come with a modem

It all started with a chromatic mess.

The Equalizer

Men went off to war and never came back,

Even in a body bag,

Or if they did, lame or addicted.

They didn’t buy the farm either 

Homes were foreclosed 

Widows were evicted 

Mind you women were considered frail back then

We don’t get the story of reconstruction.

That is what my father told me.

If that is racist I guess I need to work on it.

If it is organized and shared,

It is not considered delusional.

I like the idea of beef hotdogs,

But I think the chicken and pork ones taste better.

I don’t know.

I am sure it means something.

I want people to know,

That the truth has nothing to do with it.

What is a paranova?

I feel disconnected from the sensitivities 

Of the African American community.

It just wasn’t in the front of my mind,

Like Geico or Progressive.

It is these corporations spending millions of dollars

To be at the front of your mind

That are the problem 

Bunch of screen time junkies,

Don’t even know how to make tea.

You do things for yourself,

You are involved in it

I don’t know how they stay ahead of me.

I can’t come up with anything original.

Save some of it

You may need it sometime 

The not knowing,

Combined with the not knowing,

Among the not knowing 

Really has done a number on me.

I didn’t know what the thunder was,

And, as an adopted person, my genealogy

And no one having any answers for me

If Jordy was involved in the development of warp travel,

Then where did warp travel come from?

It was an education.

I did not know black people felt that way.

We need to be mindful 

That everyone feels included 

There was something wrong with society,

That it needed ******* to begin with

I am out of touch.

I am talking about Star Trek.

If it’s about what black children see,

Then let’s do something about it.

You cite a higher power,

When the origin cannot be traced.

It happens.

You have a better name for it?

It doesn’t matter who you vote for,

The winner is going to be China.

Because China is going to benefit either way.

America is short sighted.

We think we have won the game,

But we have been played the whole time.

I think people appreciate that you say something genuine,

As opposed to just winning them over.

I felt I was loosing it,

I felt I needed to reign myself in,

I decided the ball was in her court.

I belonged to MTV.

I didn’t have a page.

MTV gets in trouble if they don’t deliver.

You don’t belong to me.

I am not going to suffer if I don’t deliver you.

Keep that in mind.

I saw it in Bpe

I saw them complaining about the Bush victory

Their indignation that the polls seemed inaccurate 

Concern about who was going to be in power

When information about the Kennedy 

Well you know

It is too deep for me to understand what side I am on

What really gets me,

Is they think they are doing a patriotic thing

I can understand how having someone have your back,

Can be a big deal right now.

I understand why we need science as a tool,

But I don’t think it answers everything.

I understand how someone that can thumb their nose,

Can be attractive.

He is above psychiatry,

And that is scary for people.

Is this going to be an issue?

The pendulum has swung way left

And there is a lot of resentment on this issue.

Are you mad at psychiatry?

Do you think Joe Biden is going to do anything?

What we are doing is wrong,

And if we don’t stop,

We are going to end up under sharia law 

The idea that the president is above psychiatry,

Is a big issue.

He is a hero for millions.

And I understand it.

Do you?

What are you going to do

If it happens again?

Which it assuredly will

You need every single person,

And is just not going to happen 

I am angry about what has happened to me.

People should be able to get help

And not be worried about how they will support themselves 

I mean

I couldn’t get help until I lost everything.ep

I guess I am not making the world safe for atheists anymore.

Atheists and people who don’t go to church or read the Bible 

Are not the same thing

Christianity is about how we treat one another.

It is not just do no harm.

It is also do to help people.

The Mayan calendar changed the western calendar 

And I think voodoo changed America too.

I love my mother.

I don’t think anyone called it right.

And I knew it all

I guess there is a difference 

Between a big old tom cat

And a dandy.

He looks like a Patrick Blaine 

They sprayed museums and galleries.

I don’t think a mob from Richmond would do that.

I am afraid some of us are being used to manufacture blind spots.

And I fear it has become cultural.

It is dangerous for me to talk about this shit

And there is nothing I can do about it.

I stitched myself to the bang.

Even if I was,

I am not someone who is delusional or doesn’t remember anymore.

God forbid there be something you don’t understand.

I don’t have to prove anything 

My objective has been met

Then let them be careful who they fuck with.

It is an equalizer 

And they don’t want that

The equalizer has been there for over 20 years!

Godless Party People and Systemic Atheism

I’ve been down this road.

My indignation of what Christianity did to native peoples 

ended with me getting seriously burned

And that is what they want

An atomic free for all

Am I racist?

Am I gay?

That is the only thing people seem to care about.

People can steer you,

But at some point you have to feel that way,

And I just never did.

Ride down Floyd avenue.

Visit the triangle.

I was laughed at for wanting a nice bicycle 

I don’t feel welcomed by the Democratic Party right now.

sunday is going to turn those things around,
and I don't know where we are going to be.

They were dimensional markers to me.

What about Colonial Williamsburg or Jamestown?

I don’t know why I am reinventing algebra,

There must be a reason.

I feel I am procuring freedoms nobody wants.

If you don’t love your country,

Things go to shit for everybody.

Basic algebra 

Do you want to build 

Or do you want to bring everything down?

Where the heck is Biden?

What does he have to say about all this?

Is his coalition so weak he can’t speak his mind?

Have the world on your shoulders,

And have everyone hate you.

They probably didn’t know they were green anyway

There is still exploitation.

They have just redone the algebra 

And named it something else.

If you don’t know what page you are on,

Be on my page.

If you think you are going to be able to smoke all the weed you want,

It doesn’t work out that way.

There maybe a honeymoon,

But it’s going to be an abusive relationship.

Is arranged homosexuality better?

It is not worth the pain it would take to fix it.

Getting laid is more important than staying safe.

If you don’t join in everybody’s sickness,

Something is wrong with you.

The evidence is being ignored.

It is all about control.

I don’t think marijuana,

And the lack of mental health professionals of color,

Are helping the situation

Honestly 

Stop the marijuana and get help

I guess the bottom line is,

What does it say to kids?

Adults may understand there is a nuance there,

Kids probably don’t.

https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2020/06/25/877549715/bear-our-pain-the-plea-for-more-black-mental-health-workers

A Decent Pair of Roller Skates

I guess I have failed to learn my lesson about violence and intimidation.

People like to get in each other’s head

And play with their emotions 

Stop and buy gas in a black community.

Stop and buy beer in a black community.

Ride or skate through a black community.

I might have nineteenth century opinions,

But I am still here.

Are white mobs actually going to do anything for black communities?

When the white mob gets what they want,

Is it going to empower black communities?

White people duplicitous?

Say it ain’t so.

My concern would be,

That they would take the monuments down,

And they would stop there feeling they had done something.

It is going to take more than just taking monuments down.

I feel it would be largely symbolic,

That it wouldn’t help or change anything.

People have faults.

People need to love one another.

It is not going to stop white people,

Selling their house when a black family moves into the neighborhood.

What matters more?

Black lives or property values?

It is still early for this generation.

I guess we will see.

I don’t know if people are prepared

For the role mental health is going to play

If we defund the police

Even larger numbers of people on medication

All of those people losing their gun rights

Effective loss of free speech 

I don’t know

Don’t think the government is not going to be in your life

If we defund the police

They go into prevent mode

What happens to you is going to be based on statistics 

I thought I could stop my medication,

And eventually I would come through to the other side,

But they wouldn’t let me

Because they said most people get in trouble with the law

Plan on this to happen to more people

Plan on being told again and again 

You are only one person.

How can your life matter,

If they don’t even see you as an individual?

And if you are,

You are a trouble maker?

You are a statistic.

You are a demographic.

How can your life matter?

You aren’t an individual.

There is no such thing as an individual.

I am not trying to justify anybody.

Jesus died for asserting himself as an individual.

Has it been recorded?

Then I must have done something right.

I am still sore I didn’t get a decent pair of roller skates.

You may feel indignant,

But don’t expect anyone to embrace you.

Of No Consequence At All

How do you know what I am being rewarded with?

Things are designed 

If it stays with it

We are going to have to rework the entire economy 

If

Money is killing people.

What is the use of a house

If it can’t weather a storm like this

Would America have been criticized 

If Ebola Reston had gone the wrong way?

I don’t think I will ever go back to spending

The way I used to spend

People have been buying what I buy for months

What is herd ignorance?

If we are in the “matrix”

Human diseases can be spread in the digital environment.

A human virus spread by computer 

Why not?

They can make you taste lemons.

You are a herd.

You are stupid.

You don’t think for yourself.

I don’t think China cares one way or the other,

They just want us to have a one party system like they do.

The whole world is tired of a bipolar America.

What do you think?

I don’t want to see the death of the Republican Party.

Or the Democratic Party  either.

But I think we are going to play cooties for a long time over this.

I don’t know why I am being so difficult.

All I have to do is play guitar.

I must be unhappy about something.

Me and secrets just don’t go well together.

Purists have a fit if it takes three hands to play it.

If this thing is killed by sunlight,

Is there a better color to wear?

I watch the news shows with the captions on.

The radio does a number on me.

I needed something to listen to.

I thought some people liked it.

Music isn’t setting people free anymore 

It is part of the program 

What are political derivatives?

Nobody was over concerned

When 19 year old soldiers were dying in Vietnam 

Burning is part of writing it?

They are statistical models,

And they aren’t just used with viruses and weather.

People’s world views have not kept pace

I like what that lady said,

“If my opinion doesn’t matter, why are you testing me?”

I don’t know how they can stay in denial.

Who is going to lose if magic thinking prevails?

Are officers trained that if you can talk you can breathe?

Just a few weeks ago they were cheering first responders,

Now we are on the verge of a race war?

I hope cooler heads prevail.

We have listened,

You made your point.

I wish I could snap my fingers and say

No one will ever die in police custody again,

But I don’t have the power to do that.

Part of me is three years old.

It is something I live with.

I am sorry if I offended anyone.

It is ugly

It is “bananas”

You think I don’t know that?

I did not write a script to screw people.

Black yellow red or white 

https://www.usnews.com/news/us/articles/2019-06-18/government-fails-to-release-data-on-deaths-in-police-custody

Has this been complied with?

Shit is already on the books and the government hasn’t complied with it?

A place to start?

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_in_Custody_Reporting_Act_of_2013

That was the old third district 

I think rep Scott was my congressman 

I have been on both sides.

I helped restrain a woman strung out on pcp,

But I have been tackled and handcuffed myself.

Elsie’s Storm

He couldn’t stop smoking and masturbating

So he made excuses for himself 

You can’t force yourself to bond with someone 

I finally settled that I was beaching myself.

Actually reading the Bible helped,

Even if it wasn’t the KJV

Why do I think life is supposed to make sense?

Nobody else seems to.

It is something worse.

He likes to perform miracles,

And getting involved in individual lives.

I really enjoyed Trish and Kennedy.

I hope they come back.

Coronaviruses are zoonotic, which means they're transmitted between animals and people. 

Although the number of households who own a cat or dog as a pet in Korea are growing, it is undeniable that it is still a new concept here.

http://seoulsync.com/lifestyle/owning-a-pet-in-korea

Because I seem to remember the cats killed a bat

It is what I was craving at the moment 

It’s not mine to produce 

There is a new dynamic going on.

We can’t have a god war with 50000 gods

God has the final say

Take the lowest notes and raise them an octave.

Just because I did an inversion,

Does not mean I am in control of anything 

It is difficult to get to the place where it is easy

God considers everything I do to be upside down or backwards 

I think it started as a signal of distress

If it happens again?

It’s not going to be whale noises and chocolate chip cookies.

Perhaps I spoke too soon.
I am just saying the next miracle is going to be of a different character.

I was looking for a mask

I thought it was a first aid kit

Is music theory supposed to scare me?

She doesn’t want me to be a bum.

The sixties were still around back then.

People like me were called bums or hippies.

That was like 911 is to us.

Apparently our prisons and nursing homes,
Are as bad as Chinese wet markets

They wouldn’t release her to dad

And Susan was not ready for her

It was only supposed to be a couple week

It has been Murphy’s law since Christmas Eve