Limbic Justifications

Maybe it should take two or three people to buy a gun.

I don’t care what it sounds like.

It makes me feel better.

A lot of people think mental illness is a character issue.

That there is something the individual can do about it.

I feel like I have robbed a bank.

The whole thing is just wide open.

I have been listening to Shania Twain

And Lindsey Sterling 

Artists have been taken of for advantage for centuries.

Mental health is treated like heartburn.

It is not.

People think you can take a pill,

And the whole problem goes away.

It doesn’t.

Google hardly gives me anything at all.

If it doesn’t push me to myself,

What is it pushing to other people?

Bing pushes me to myself.

Other people are going to take the idea and run with it.

No one is going to know where it came from.

Wouldn’t be the first time.

I would probably flip out anyway.

I probably have a reputation for flipping out.

I thought the test was about Earth.

I thought the test was about America.

I didn’t know the test was about me.

I am starting to get a feel for playing the keyboard with two hands,

But I have not tried it yet.

I don’t know what the hell she is doing,

But it is just making it harder on me.

They don’t want us to be a first planet.

It would govern what they could do,

And what they couldn’t.

Satan doesn’t care if the damn thing breaks.

I was right.

If things were going to get done,

95 was the time to do it.

Turn the volume down,

Turn on the captions 

Plug into some music

And jam

I think Marconi would cry.

Jesus ain’t had me make all these ringtones for nothing.

There are people that know what to do with them.

I loved pookie.

I am sorry if I blew his mind out.

I like looking at their heads.

You could go half way there, every day forever.

There are ways to do things,

That you don’t have to give up all your information,

To some centralized authority.

The birdhouse was not the objective.

Building it was.

This is not an academic pursuit.

This is free association.

I have myself on the couch.

I don’t know why I delve  into the subjects I do.

I apologize, and you should call me out.

If you can’t,

That’s a whole different story isn’t it?

I feel like I am being stoned to be happy.

It needs to stop.

They want people to be limbic junkies.

Social Butterflies

I am fairly confident,

We will never encounter,

Another Newtonian civilization.

Hopefully we won’t lose it,

Before we realize how valuable it is.

If you are immune,

And everyone else has a disease,

You are the one being difficult.

You are supposed to be sad,

The world is sad,

How can you be happy when the world is so sad?

You minus well be a fruit fly.

I have it,

I need to find a place to put it.

New York Social Security Numbers.  

Social Security Numbers issued to New York 

fall between 050-xx-xxxx and 134-xx-xxxx.

It was in the apple loop that way.

I had the idea that people would mark it up and pass it around,

But I guess they felt it would make the net unnavigable.

It is the fold that matters.

16 is not folded in 3.

It shows up when it is represented in a different way.

I expect people to just accept things.

It splits into two groups of three fours.

Three different types of symmetry.

They must have had Nostradamus on the guy,

And they messed up.

We might have to go south someday.

I wouldn’t download a ringtone from somebody’s blog.

I would be grateful if I could get help with my consumer debt.

People would treat each other better if there was guaranteed income.

I would have been more motivated to quit my job and get help.

People need help,

And instead they are being harassed until they quit,

And they don’t want to quit because there is no safety net,

And there is no guarantee if they do quit,

That they are going to find stability in life,

The way things are is not working.

There are a lot of people with an independent spirit,

Who are not getting the assistance that might help them.

Things are not setup for transactions less than a dollar.

What should a ringtone cost?

A whole song is a dollar.

Having the skills to make one might be valuable.

What do they expect people to make with GarageBand anyway?

If you did not know what you were looking for,

Could you have found it?

Would you know what to do with it?

How much is their time worth?

If they can find it let them have it.

People are going to hide their shit

And force people to find it

It is going to be a dark web thing.

If it is not already.

The people who make money,

Will be the people who find shit.

I love the name my parents gave me.

I just wish there weren’t so many people with it.

We need a cryptocurrency for peer to peer transactions less than a dollar or two.

They call it jewelry and masturbation.

You can only brew the tea they want you to.

If you are worried if it is going to render right

You have to get it from me.

my mind is blown
its not getting any better

How am I going to be known

And work with other people 

If I can’t even post the best thing I have made so far.

When you don’t know what you are doing,

You do stuff you aren’t supposed to do.

Why should I struggle to play what everyone else does?

If it sounds harsh,

You are playing it too loud.

Buried Sentiments

Why can’t people learn to film in landscape?

How do male calicos happen?

Somebody needs to stand up.

Customs and Border Protection is not a relief agency.

Time is going to blame all of us.

Many Americans feel,

How they vote,

Is the sole determinant,

Of what side of history they will be on.

We need to start cooperating now.

Am I being too partisan?

I don’t want to be in the situation,

That many more die,

Because we won’t cooperate.

 I doubt you are going to hear it from anyone else.

All we needed was one more push,

And we would have been over the edge.

I am holding no great wisdom.

You should be proud of your performance,

It was very good.

I don’t know what makes people consider preposterous things.

It seems to come with age.

Would you have believed it when the world made sense?

Why do you believe it now?

How does it pertain to other people?

Do they need it?

What is more likely?

Quantum bubbles

Or old age.

It is out there.

You can believe it if you want to.

They see an unpopular president as an opportunity to go left.

I don’t blame them.

I would too.

I am not trying to deny anything,

I just think it doesn’t do any good.

I can understand chemistry 

Give me something I can understand 

I cannot deny I have attachment issues 

But I don’t fully understand 

People want things to be pretty.

Life is not like that.

People act like they themselves have been hurt by my parents.

It just simply is not the case.

I witnessed at least three families that practiced  corporal punishment.

I never considered approaching my parents with it.

Is it pathological that I couldn’t talk to my parents?

I have some attachment pathology.

Americans have elevated fears in general 

You try to get help,

And the first thing that happens is your life falls apart.

What are the odds of successfully navigating getting help?

I had a breakdown because I felt safe to have one?

I remember switching from Ritalin to Wellbutrin 

looking at the chart

And thinking 

This would be an opportune time

Please don’t make me the poster child for misogyny 

Somehow

I thought if I lived in France 

My perps hurt a lot of children 

I am the only one that ever reported anything.

look what happened to me.

I am a convenient, easy target.

What children did I hurt?

Who benefits?

Beauty means something in China.

Schwartzman notes that the expected form from usual Latin phrasing would be sexadecimal, 

but computer hackers would be tempted to shorten that word to sex.^[27] 

I have read a few books

The Chronicles of Narina

Jaws

The Amityville Horror

Endless Love

Some Arthur C Clark

Some Isaac Asimov

The Stand

The Long Walk

Some Michael Crichton 

The Good News Bible

Books on UFOs and aliens

A Brief History of Time

Communion

On The Road

Wuthering Heights

Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy

I don’t know why I stopped reading.

You really have to trust the author.

Who am I going to be when I wake up?

I come from nowhere?

I make myself exist?

There is no original.

Is that just settling an argument?

Where does beauty come from?

What makes something beautiful?

Are origins humanistic?

Not like this.

I have accomplished too much to go back now.

Narcissism is an ugly name,

That provides little incentive,

For people to have empathy.

She is very aware of her image.

The number of frames depends upon the angle.

If we were worried about what works and what doesn’t,

I don’t think America would have gotten done.

Apparently iOS thinks it is a phone number.

I forgot the argument.

Taking a list and marking it up,

Should be a simple thing to do.

It sounds like I know what I am doing.

I can’t, with good conscience, continue to support president Trump.

It was offensive.

I am not lock step.

I am not going to take heat for him.

He needs to come to my community and say that shit.

This was not meant to be a political blog.

I am sorry I have strayed from what I originally intended.

The De Facto Zone

There is a border there.

Just like there is a border with Mexico.

It is not bizarro superstition.

We have been given a gift.

People need to decide if they accept it or not.

There is a plethora of bizarro superstitions out there.

What I have been through is not illegitimate.

It was released.

It is like lithium.

It is old.

People get angry when you challenge what they justify themselves with.

The medication just establishes a new normal.

It doesn’t fix anything.

A cut and paste virtuoso 

I apologize 

For me it is about who is doing it right

And who is doing it wrong 

It is a blowout 

It is not a hierarchical thing

I thought the computer would be attached to my brain

And I would be able to play anything I heard in my head 

But this is ok

They are going to beg this president to go to war

Before it’s all over with.

Who cares if they shoot down drones.

Let China pay for it.

War would split the coalition against them

War is in their interest 

Not ours

If sanctions are going to work,

We are going to take in on the chin a couple times.

I have always been treated with dignity and respect.

I have never voted republican.

I am torn.

The people I am agreeing with

Have not always been kind to me

I have been called derogatory names too

But that doesn’t mean I need to be socialist

They are playing solid politics.

They are not going to give the president a success on anything.

Is there one candidate that supports USMCA?

You shouldn’t hate your country.

It is like hating your mother.

It doesn’t do any good. 

The election is the thing.

Nothing matters but the election.

A humanitarian crisis 

Requires a humanitarian response 

It doesn’t help anyone to argue who’s fault it is.

AIG played the odds too.

Politics has become entertainment.

It sells car insurance.

Frank Zappa said something similar

I can’t come up with anything original.

At least I bothered to look.

It is not the exact same thing.

I wouldn’t google myself so much

If I was getting accurate statistics 

Let the person calling decide what the ringtone is.

I see you everywhere.

Am I supposed to make eye contact with everyone I think is you?

It is a defense mechanism that keeps me sane.

I have approached people and been wrong.

Not that I thought was you.

I am not always willing to do that.

This anger energy I get from you,

Doesn’t make it any easier.

We are in a mathematical space,

That depends on causality loops?

I may have had previous obligations.

I can’t keep pace.

I burn out.

We are coming from a time,

Where you had to sell your soul just to be heard.

Choosing Barabbas

I like Kennedy.

She could tell me to vote for hermit the frog.

Atypical men get a lot of hassle.

Men ain’t supposed to be atypical.

It is ugly.

Men are men, you know?

We are all the same.

Atypical men get it from everyone.

I thought if I was in a relationship,

The harassment would stop.

It doesn’t.

It doesn’t really matter what you are atypical about.

And it snowballs into other things.

Critical teraflops are being wasted on you.

This is government in America.

It has been like this for decades.

People are separated by what, or who, they choose to ignore.

This was 1995

I don’t know what led me to believe America was under attack

I am sorry

It is an Easter egg effect.

People like the idea that they have found something 

I was self important.

I needed somebody’s attention.

I am flattered that I have anything in the wayback machine

But it would be nice if it was something I wrote 

If your candidacy was going to end up

Getting someone undesirable elected,

Would you withdraw?

Men don’t have a monopoly on creepiness.

Are illegal aliens above the law?

It is self defining circular logic.

I can’t prove that I am not a narcissist,

But would I even consider it?

The more you insist you aren’t 

The more you are

Why does it have to be a psychiatric condition?

I am being rational and considerate.

I am not right about everything.

I began with the wrong attitude.

Being rational and considerate screwed everything up.

There was no room to be rational and considerate.

There never has been.

I am not going to have a mental crisis 

Because I contradicted myself.

I am clearly not in love with myself.

The democrats have their tickets 

And they don’t care

They were having estate sales 

It was over

It is sad.

I am getting evp

Because they have cut off my supply 

I could walk to the corner,

And it would be said I got away with it.

I may not be getting the adoration I need,

But if I was in China or Saudi Arabia,

I would be dead or in prison by now.

Magic is real in Saudi Arabia.

You go to prison for it.

There are conventions about where you get your adoration from.

There are no original facts.

You need to be extemporaneous to find original questions.

If I worried about what The Simpsons said first

I wouldn’t be able to write anything 

And did they really say it first anyway?

Be safe.

Live longer.

Christianity is our reality.

There would be no secular world without Jesus.

If there are people deep in the pentagon who feel that way,

I say good they should.

Anyone who has gone to tango,

Knows

Some only follow the rules when they are hiding.

I remember there being ads in my ufology magazines.

I tried to wrap my mind around something that was too big,

And it was like a rubber band 

It snapped

Who would you trust to be focused on?

We are still choosing Barabbas.

Evaluated Twice

You should use it for poetry and song.

She is so sold

She is sold on everything 

It has been supplanted 

You can use a computer for computational space

Or use it for what Asimov called “twisting”

I think “cowbirding” is viable.

I think it can be mutually beneficial,

And I think the computational space thing

Is being done already 

Either God is giving me gifts 

Or I am a sorcerer.

I don’t pretend to know which one.

If it is threatening,

Why did they develop the internet,

And personal devices to begin with?

My mom and dad raised me,

That no one really knows until judgement day.

And that it’s the ones that think they know,

That you have to watch out for.

People get their head stuck in a book,

And they forget how to love each other.

The love of Jesus doesn’t require a book.

Apparently God’s anger doesn’t either.

“We are always at war.  Peace is a bourgeois illusion.”

If you are upset about it,

You don’t understand the way things are.

We don’t control the information we think we do.

I knew I was in the past

I knew I would forget

erectile dysfunction is the least of my worries

I can’t take care of myself 

I don’t know what is going to happen to me

Maybe those are not the right words

Suspected is better.

There is less preconception of what an ehru should sound like.

Satanists think stupidity should be painful.

They feel smug and laugh at people.

If you find yourself in a situation with a shooter,

Get in their face, holler at them “fall down, fall down.”

9 times out if 10 they have voices

Use that to your advantage 

If I could be in a room by myself 

Making widgets all day I would be fine.

People want a reaction,

But all I am feeling is confusion.

It just isn’t there.

Evaluated twice.

Didn’t need to get a lawyer.

My disability went through on the first try.

I would have no stability in my life,

And I would end up homeless.

My biggest problems 

Are social interactions 

And severe paranoia 

It is frustrating 

I understand, but I cannot do anything about it.

Lord knows I have tried.

People solve things their own way,

Using whatever tools they have on hand,

And sometimes they don’t even know they are doing it,

Or it wasn’t meant to be solved.

I don’t want to hurt people.

Every time I go out I hurt people.