Average Inner Blog

whatever it was it started on October 1 2008 and ended February 15 2009 something happened on the 15th. I wish I could wear the uniform again. I would go to Iraq in a heartbeat. The only proof I have is what I am capable of. I don't think this is going to be resolved without conflict. Moving around in four dimensions does something. Its an actualization. I know you think there is no such thing as the real world. I know you think men that do this are angry at women. but it has moved beyond that now. The only proof I have is what I am capable of. Can brinkmanship cease for a moment? Maybe I am angry at women but that doesn't change anything. I have still done something unallowed. I praise her. She could of got me kicked out the program, but she didn't. I probably wouldn't have graduated without them. A program crashes when it does something unallowed. I am free to do all sorts of unallowed stuff. It is not just Dave's little world. Dave has done something unallowed. O...

Satan is real and the medicine is not fair play. You think some piece of paper is going to get you off the hook of civil disobedience, you are wrong. Because they think some piece of paper is going to solve it, and the problem is bigger than that. Satan does that shit. I took it upon myself to explain to people who are atheist or agnostic what God and Creation are about. God is there because game theory doesn't belong, and Creation is a world that comes out of information theory. Satan wants to make this about me, but it isn't about me. This is Grace. This was a natural reaction to time reversal. They laughed at me for wanting to be Ghandi. There is serious pressure to leave your values around here. Our generation is screwy. We came up at a time where everything was known, Where everything had been done. There was no frontier. You got laughed at if you turned the other cheek. Everybody wanted to have a good time. Nobody wanted to tackle anything more serious than presidential k...

smoke and stare at the flag smoke and stare at the president smoke and stare at aunt jemima Love your President. Wish good to him. If I could do the math, I'd be big. I am a clown. Nobody takes me serious. I know it sounds crazy, but that is how I got original developments. If she wanted me to be warm, I wish she would just knit some socks. Women can move on and forget about people. I wish I could do that. Its better. I couldn't have jumped 9 cars if I were still backward. We are not in my matrix. I use it, along with other things, to point the arrow of time. I don't like regular people. I think they are sex obsessed, materialistic, and shallow. There is so much pressure to give up what you believe in around here. You can't jump 9 cars backwards, that would be a feat. It was over when we went to Williamsburg. We were under time reversal, and everyone was dumb to it but me and Pookie. This has been the longest 6 months of my entire life. I am never going to be anything. ...

We are on the other side of two 9's. We shouldn't have to worry about anything for a while. It was an interpretation error. I thought I belonged to the order of Melchisedec . We got a little taste of heaven. I am just going to worry about the floor. That burning shit is yall's business. I am cold, and I am going to stay cold. I fall for the floor. I believe in the floor. There is another Bible here for somebody. It is the phrasing of the Good News Bible. I took it personally. I fought the voices who told me I was Jesus, but when the Bible said that I just accepted it. I don't know I can't find it. the Bible said "You are a priest of the order Melchisedec, and I am not taking no for an answer." I wasn't thrilled. I am not bragging. I didn't even know what it was. I just took it personally. You would think if you wanted to change the Bible, You would have to go back to where it was written. But God can change anyone's Bible at anytime. And Yours ...

If you are giving people trouble, sleep on the floor. If you have jumped 9 cars, you need to sleep on the floor. On the ground or as close as you can get to it. I can't talk this shit to the psychiatrist. She just totally writes this shit off. All I can tell her is I am being risky and impulsive. She doesn't understand this jumping cars business. They call it OCD. They give it no validity at all. People are slamming doors and screaming and I don't know what to do. All I can do is sleep on the floor. They don't know what to do with someone whose magic works. Weird shit happens on the sofa. They are living in worlds out of psychology, and they don't work. They are lemons. I am supposed to make a leap of faith to California. Isn't that sick? It is sad and pathetic. I am not going to California. I know where my bread is buttered. It means I am rediscovering Shinto. It is as if I were with a team of virgins reverse engineering Shinto. Wait, don't panic, be respon...

What am I Adolf Mallory? I guess I should have gone into the church. Blame psychiatry. I couldn't do this shit without the medicine. You don't know. You weren't there. In my experience it isn't a good thing. I was preyed on by dangerous spirits who get off on the shit. Don't you want me? There are nations on this earth that would give their left nut for someone like me. Is the glass half empty? Or is the glass half full? I know. It is like blaming the father for child birth. I know. You want to go through it quickly and painlessly. Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read. This shit was set in motion in 1781 people. Eventually someone was going to end up in control who wasn't elected. The whole thing was set up that way. Blame them. It was set up to be the best Government on earth until the Kingdom of Heaven came. I am trying to be non political. but yall need a history lesson. How did Washington put it? "The best Government we could have until angel...

It is all dark. Some people struggle with it, and others don't. Nirvana struggles with it, Metallica doesn't. John struggles with it, Paul not as much. You know when you hear it. The Who struggles with it, Led Zepplin and Pink Floyd don't. The Psychedelic Furs struggle with it, The Sex Pistols don't. David Lee Roth doesn't struggle with it. Eric Clapton struggles with it. Ted Nugent Doesn't. You either struggle with it or you don't, and it pretty much stays that way. It is hard to name an actor who struggles with it. Playwrights and poets struggle with it, but I can't think of a single actor who struggles with it. It just isn't their job. It is hard to make the act more than it is. NASA debated for years on who they should send into space, before they settled on test pilots. I can jump 9 cars anytime I want to. If that's not real, I don't know what is. I know it causes trouble, but it is a good thing. It means we are going forward instead of ...

I have been through 25 years of absolute hell. I am ok now. I have turned around. You have to turn around. You have to forget about it. In the end you have done it to yourself. You have to let go of the past. It does no good to ruminate. I guess I needed a major thing to happen in my life. Wow, I didn't know the world could be like this. I don't know. It is just different. Something major has happened. I was stuck in my own mind. People are having terrible nightmares. They need to know how to turn around. It is a math prescription. It was a natural reaction to time reversal. I am having a think explosion. It works on the principle of the "many world dilemma". People need not be David Mallory anymore. Strawberries should be a math prescription controlled by the FDA. It is going to take decades before this type of medicine is fully appreciated. be responsible with it. If you have to do an extraction, do an extraction. It makes no sense to just take care of one or two th...