Godless Party People and Systemic Atheism

I’ve been down this road.

My indignation of what Christianity did to native peoples 

ended with me getting seriously burned

And that is what they want

An atomic free for all

Am I racist?

Am I gay?

That is the only thing people seem to care about.

People can steer you,

But at some point you have to feel that way,

And I just never did.

Ride down Floyd avenue.

Visit the triangle.

I was laughed at for wanting a nice bicycle 

I don’t feel welcomed by the Democratic Party right now.

sunday is going to turn those things around,
and I don't know where we are going to be.

They were dimensional markers to me.

What about Colonial Williamsburg or Jamestown?

I don’t know why I am reinventing algebra,

There must be a reason.

I feel I am procuring freedoms nobody wants.

If you don’t love your country,

Things go to shit for everybody.

Basic algebra 

Do you want to build 

Or do you want to bring everything down?

Where the heck is Biden?

What does he have to say about all this?

Is his coalition so weak he can’t speak his mind?

Have the world on your shoulders,

And have everyone hate you.

They probably didn’t know they were green anyway

There is still exploitation.

They have just redone the algebra 

And named it something else.

If you don’t know what page you are on,

Be on my page.

If you think you are going to be able to smoke all the weed you want,

It doesn’t work out that way.

There maybe a honeymoon,

But it’s going to be an abusive relationship.

Is arranged homosexuality better?

It is not worth the pain it would take to fix it.

Getting laid is more important than staying safe.

If you don’t join in everybody’s sickness,

Something is wrong with you.

The evidence is being ignored.

It is all about control.

I don’t think marijuana,

And the lack of mental health professionals of color,

Are helping the situation

Honestly 

Stop the marijuana and get help

I guess the bottom line is,

What does it say to kids?

Adults may understand there is a nuance there,

Kids probably don’t.

https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2020/06/25/877549715/bear-our-pain-the-plea-for-more-black-mental-health-workers

A Decent Pair of Roller Skates

I guess I have failed to learn my lesson about violence and intimidation.

People like to get in each other’s head

And play with their emotions 

Stop and buy gas in a black community.

Stop and buy beer in a black community.

Ride or skate through a black community.

I might have nineteenth century opinions,

But I am still here.

Are white mobs actually going to do anything for black communities?

When the white mob gets what they want,

Is it going to empower black communities?

White people duplicitous?

Say it ain’t so.

My concern would be,

That they would take the monuments down,

And they would stop there feeling they had done something.

It is going to take more than just taking monuments down.

I feel it would be largely symbolic,

That it wouldn’t help or change anything.

People have faults.

People need to love one another.

It is not going to stop white people,

Selling their house when a black family moves into the neighborhood.

What matters more?

Black lives or property values?

It is still early for this generation.

I guess we will see.

I don’t know if people are prepared

For the role mental health is going to play

If we defund the police

Even larger numbers of people on medication

All of those people losing their gun rights

Effective loss of free speech 

I don’t know

Don’t think the government is not going to be in your life

If we defund the police

They go into prevent mode

What happens to you is going to be based on statistics 

I thought I could stop my medication,

And eventually I would come through to the other side,

But they wouldn’t let me

Because they said most people get in trouble with the law

Plan on this to happen to more people

Plan on being told again and again 

You are only one person.

How can your life matter,

If they don’t even see you as an individual?

And if you are,

You are a trouble maker?

You are a statistic.

You are a demographic.

How can your life matter?

You aren’t an individual.

There is no such thing as an individual.

I am not trying to justify anybody.

Jesus died for asserting himself as an individual.

Has it been recorded?

Then I must have done something right.

I am still sore I didn’t get a decent pair of roller skates.

You may feel indignant,

But don’t expect anyone to embrace you.

Of No Consequence At All

How do you know what I am being rewarded with?

Things are designed 

If it stays with it

We are going to have to rework the entire economy 

If

Money is killing people.

What is the use of a house

If it can’t weather a storm like this

Would America have been criticized 

If Ebola Reston had gone the wrong way?

I don’t think I will ever go back to spending

The way I used to spend

People have been buying what I buy for months

What is herd ignorance?

If we are in the “matrix”

Human diseases can be spread in the digital environment.

A human virus spread by computer 

Why not?

They can make you taste lemons.

You are a herd.

You are stupid.

You don’t think for yourself.

I don’t think China cares one way or the other,

They just want us to have a one party system like they do.

The whole world is tired of a bipolar America.

What do you think?

I don’t want to see the death of the Republican Party.

Or the Democratic Party  either.

But I think we are going to play cooties for a long time over this.

I don’t know why I am being so difficult.

All I have to do is play guitar.

I must be unhappy about something.

Me and secrets just don’t go well together.

Purists have a fit if it takes three hands to play it.

If this thing is killed by sunlight,

Is there a better color to wear?

I watch the news shows with the captions on.

The radio does a number on me.

I needed something to listen to.

I thought some people liked it.

Music isn’t setting people free anymore 

It is part of the program 

What are political derivatives?

Nobody was over concerned

When 19 year old soldiers were dying in Vietnam 

Burning is part of writing it?

They are statistical models,

And they aren’t just used with viruses and weather.

People’s world views have not kept pace

I like what that lady said,

“If my opinion doesn’t matter, why are you testing me?”

I don’t know how they can stay in denial.

Who is going to lose if magic thinking prevails?

Are officers trained that if you can talk you can breathe?

Just a few weeks ago they were cheering first responders,

Now we are on the verge of a race war?

I hope cooler heads prevail.

We have listened,

You made your point.

I wish I could snap my fingers and say

No one will ever die in police custody again,

But I don’t have the power to do that.

Part of me is three years old.

It is something I live with.

I am sorry if I offended anyone.

It is ugly

It is “bananas”

You think I don’t know that?

I did not write a script to screw people.

Black yellow red or white 

https://www.usnews.com/news/us/articles/2019-06-18/government-fails-to-release-data-on-deaths-in-police-custody

Has this been complied with?

Shit is already on the books and the government hasn’t complied with it?

A place to start?

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_in_Custody_Reporting_Act_of_2013

That was the old third district 

I think rep Scott was my congressman 

I have been on both sides.

I helped restrain a woman strung out on pcp,

But I have been tackled and handcuffed myself.

Elsie’s Storm

He couldn’t stop smoking and masturbating

So he made excuses for himself 

You can’t force yourself to bond with someone 

I finally settled that I was beaching myself.

Actually reading the Bible helped,

Even if it wasn’t the KJV

Why do I think life is supposed to make sense?

Nobody else seems to.

It is something worse.

He likes to perform miracles,

And getting involved in individual lives.

I really enjoyed Trish and Kennedy.

I hope they come back.

Coronaviruses are zoonotic, which means they're transmitted between animals and people. 

Although the number of households who own a cat or dog as a pet in Korea are growing, it is undeniable that it is still a new concept here.

http://seoulsync.com/lifestyle/owning-a-pet-in-korea

Because I seem to remember the cats killed a bat

It is what I was craving at the moment 

It’s not mine to produce 

There is a new dynamic going on.

We can’t have a god war with 50000 gods

God has the final say

Take the lowest notes and raise them an octave.

Just because I did an inversion,

Does not mean I am in control of anything 

It is difficult to get to the place where it is easy

God considers everything I do to be upside down or backwards 

I think it started as a signal of distress

If it happens again?

It’s not going to be whale noises and chocolate chip cookies.

Perhaps I spoke too soon.
I am just saying the next miracle is going to be of a different character.

I was looking for a mask

I thought it was a first aid kit

Is music theory supposed to scare me?

She doesn’t want me to be a bum.

The sixties were still around back then.

People like me were called bums or hippies.

That was like 911 is to us.

Apparently our prisons and nursing homes,
Are as bad as Chinese wet markets

They wouldn’t release her to dad

And Susan was not ready for her

It was only supposed to be a couple week

It has been Murphy’s law since Christmas Eve

Diet Soda and Chocolate Chip Cookies

You think government knows the truth?

What makes you think they now more than we do?

They are never going to endorse ancient alien theory.

We are lucky to have it on television.

Is it the same as everyone else,

Or is there something different about it?

It was just number salad.

Well,

It wouldn’t be the first time one of my salads 

Ended up meaning something 

I guess it is the oops you can’t do that song.

I am not going to do rock and guitar,

If they are going to give me a hard time.

Hearing Party Girl in my head for three days.

I wanted to have my a+ certification,

But I thought if I was going to spend that kind of money to learn something,

I would rather it be music.

Is the president going to gloat?

They have to bring in generators

Because the power ain’t right.

I want less industry

And more community 

If I wasn’t getting a paycheck,

Maybe I would be more serious about it.

Society has just decided it doesn’t need people like me.

I want to be the lead figure,

But it just ain’t happening.

I would like to be part of a team that needs someone like me.

In order for me to get it into the music app,

I have to upload it, download it, put it into iTunes, then sync.

So why not?

I was just trying to get it into my music app.

I wouldn't do that.
there was something genuinely wrong

Pandemics can go around the world 3 or 4 times.

I don’t know about you,

But people’s pets have been dying for months.

What is the common cold virus.

I don’t think anyone seriously thinks

He would ship people to Siberia 

I’m screwing things up.

We got the Dave factor going on.

I am too soft and stupid for hip hop

First you think it is true,

Then you settle that it’s not,

Then you find out it really is true.

If you see digital noise when you rub your eyes,

You may need to ground yourself.

If you use it and it works for you,

Tell other people.

I don't remember,
but I think Christians were being gassed.

Why were people listening to me to begin with?

Cheese Pizza

I am insane.

I hold on because I have to.

I don’t spend a lot of time

Thinking about what others are thinking.

I don’t know as I ever,

Will truly get out of C.

Confusion is an industry 

You are talking about people who have no qualms about killing Americans 

In uniform or not.

I remember being terrified Reagan was going to cause wwiii

Then we got the gulf war and it lasted 6 weeks

Schizophrenia is the new leprosy

To keep passing the test?

To never fail?

Don’t count your chickens 

I remember 91

How is she going to go back up and get her truck

I might have had a chance 20 years ago,

But the probability of me bonding with someone 

The way I am supposed to

Is slim to none

I am always on the bottom 

It is always my fault

I deserve better than that

The doctor didn’t diagnose me with schizophrenia or autism,

Because he thought I would not try.

Well I did try.

If you are getting drowsy,

You go stand in the back of the room

You know,

It’s caffeine withdrawal.

Do you have pepperoni on your pizza because you like pepperoni,

Or because you think you are supposed to?

I never really understood cheese pizza.

Rare Obsessional Coherence

I know

I need a beginning, a middle, and an end.

I am working on it.

Why does politics take all of our free time?

Aren’t we supposed to be producing something?

Consumption 

Entertainment

Replacements

Even music is for money laundering 

God forbid you call anybody out.

They cancel your ass.

How do they deploy star gates to begin with?

The lower the frequency 

The less directional it is.

So you put the bass in the center 

What is going to happen to deplorable assets like me?

You end up crazy sad and alone.

Why should we have a mitochondrial ancestor?

Our species is defined by a mitochondria?

How many other species are that way?

Excuse me but that’s a big deal.

In some nations, they tell you what you are going to be.

We don’t allow people to be Ghandi anymore.

It is all a bold faced lie.

I am not liked.

I am taking everyone back to the stone ages.

We crossed the continental divide,

And all we saw was more mountains.

It’s bad for my karma,

And it’s the producers and promoters that make any money.

Thousands of people better than me

The dragon lady is going to have my neck.

Take all the abandoned Kmarts

And use them for homeless people 

I like Gwen’s Christmas album.

It is very uplifting and merry.

Not despondent and sad.

First it was computer as television.

Then it was computer as telephone.

I think a tablet is the first computer as a computer.

If you have supported my sister,

Thank you, we both appreciate it.

I think someone has made Bilderberg promises.

It is the idea elections are being taken for granted that bothers me.

How can we have freedom,

When they know everything you are going to do

For the next 40 years?

If even one vote can be taken for granted,

It is a failure of democracy.

I guess reciprocity is bribery.

Who do others have symbiotic relationships with?

The electorate is being milked.

There is no desire to represent.

Oppose them.

See what nasty things they say.

You lose your positivity.

You get negative about everything.

It is depressing,

And we decide what to incorporate anyway.e

Space time is a crochet?

They could cut a deal tomorrow and it still wouldn’t stop.

He took the wrong course at Hogfrogggles

She is a professional.

I should be low fruit for her.

They get pissed when they don’t win in four moves.

A four door mustang made in China?

Am I just supposed to give them four moves because I can’t win?

They need to win big.

Money goes where other money goes 

It is not going to stop collecting 

Just because you get rid of billionaires 

Is this “rotting in hell”?

I can’t do the blue lagoon thing forever.

I am going to start studying music production.

I guess you don’t need a ladder anymore.

It was stupid.

It is like trying to rediscover Algebra.

Why would you do it?

It is sad.

No one is ever going for the banana again.

Lions Tigers and Bears

From my experience

There is less litter 

And cleaner air

Maybe I could not be responsible with the information,

But they should not have told me to prove it.

The idea of proof should have never come up.

I can see how an autistic person

Might be mistaken as toxic personality 

Milk us to death and leave us with a dead cow.

The brain may be a quantum computer 

But dna isn’t quantum

I wouldn’t be surprised if they did it 2 or 3 times.

Why did people delight in that happening to me?

I don’t understand why people spend hours trying to find me.

Americans are naive and self centered.

We are being steered toward an electoral revolt.

They are going to drive us off a cliff

Like a heard of buffalo.

What do I have to do to get attention around here?

It was the first movie we saw together?

I have had formulative experiences that I cannot undo.

It is part of who I am,

And I cannot divorce myself from it.

I guess they saw me drive through the plaza there in Santa Fe.

Would you preside over a graceful decline?

If so, you need to make that known and come out with it.

There is a righteous politician?

This is about globalism pure and simple.

Honestly?

Someone has made globalist promises.

I can’t come up with anything original.

People are thinking this.

Pay attention to the banners they stand in front of.

We could have simulated qbits right now.

It was a genuine pursuit.

One pursuit led to something else.

Happens all the time.

Even “avginner” isn’t original.

It is crazy.

Zuckerburg is doing us a favor,

They did not want peer to peer

So we got Facebook

They want someone to be accountable.

They want someone to censor things.

There is some that would love

To be able to play something once

And be done with it

A writer doesn’t keep rewriting every thing.

At some point it is finished.

I like the electric piano in GarageBand.
You can do the most with it.

They are just labels that don’t mean anything anymore.

Just like I said 20 years ago.

Assholes or communists

Now it’s becoming

Globalist or Nationalist

Republican and Democrat are archaic words.

They don’t mean anything anymore.

I am not going to be shamed into voting for a Globalist

God forbid I get cancelled by a blithering mob.

If you knew the position was there,

Would you trust somebody else to do it?

Framed in America

Holding me to what would be an academic standard is not realistic.

I tried to use physics to explain my own psychology

I don’t understand the work

But I do feel like a bottleneck 

I don’t even understand my own journal 

I guess that is dangerous 

It is not encouraged to write this way

I could use some editing.

It is just me.

This is straight from my iPad 

Cultural zero days are big money.

I didn’t know the bottleneck thing was an established theory.

I considered I was the bottleneck.

Like it never even happens.

What is the importance of the Bible,

In the life of Christians?

I have an opinion,

but I take it’s none of my business.

The random digit is not the first one,

but the second.

The first one is always going to be.

It is the second that you have a choice in the matter.

What your first step is,

Depends on what you want your second step to be.

Where you fly to.

Depends on where you want to land.

Where you go to,

depends on where you want to end up.

If weather officials are warning us we have to do something,

How we afford to ignore them?

If you ain’t doing bars,

If you ain’t doing keys or progressions

If you only go halfway

You could produce a lot every day

We have moved beyond political parties.

Now we have political dynasties against each other.

If it is going to take a miracle to fix it,

then what difference does it make?

I wanted to be in her circle,

But that was up to her.

I am plagued by what people feel are character issues.

Please don’t force me to be happy.

I am moving on.

Pain has come to be the way I define myself.

I was a wacky kid with some crazy ideas about life.

Is reverse phraseology supernatural?

I feel like Galileo in reverse.

I never had sexual desire for my mother.

Have you ever seen a fetus in formaldehyde?

They don’t want people to contemplate.

They don’t want people to associate.

They want to dictate,

And mandate,

And frustrate.

We live in a feel good society,

and self thinkers are dangerous people.

It would be poetic justice if I were Freud.

Freud was the one

Who was supposed to write the April fools day poem.

Which I ran into when I lost it.

It was a formulative moment.

Most people are so busy with their replacements,

They don’t have time to do like this.

Freud had to know someone 

Would blow their mind out over that.

It took me 30 years to find the appregater.

I don’t know as people know how to think

Without something stuck in their head.

You don’t need hooks when you are trying to meditate.

Nobody gets framed in America.

Weathering Information

It is a foreign consciousness

That doesn’t want us to think.

We are only informed to willow us out.

I remember telling I was going to play the computer 

When I was 50

I told a lot of things.

We had an argument over whether the computer was an instrument or not.

Autochords

You have to know the chords to be able to fool around with them.

I don’t think there is a product on the market,

That hasn’t involved reverse engineering 

Somewhere in its development.

I miss the old 8 bit computers you bought at toys r us.

It is an ongoing research project.

We don’t need the power we have

To do the things we do.

I do have a tendency to play everything too fast.

Artifacts seem to happen when I slow stuff down.

Thank you for giving me placement.

Watermarks or artifacts?

I guess they don’t want folks massaging stuff and reselling it.

People liked Polaroid 

Because you didn’t have to worry

About getting it developed 

I am miles further than you give me credit for.

You mistake me for someone I am not.

I don’t want to be sucked into the Facebook wormhole.

I understand the “no surprises” deal,

But I am pro uncertainty.

There is a difference 

Between writing a paragraph 

And writing a book

It is impossible.

You will blow your mind out kid.

I guess it is a little late to begin skateboarding.

I don’t know.

You either believe in someone or you don’t.

Should you wait for them to prove themselves to you?

A high sense to what you are entitled to.

It is over my head.

I thought if you had the right sequence,

You could send information on EPR.

Latency just seems to matter to Apple.

If you want your candy crush and your angry birds,

Get an android 

If you want to do real things 

Get an iPad

Android does 90% of what iOS can do

At substantially lower costs

But for me

GarageBand is worth it

There is no Android equivalent 

Because Android simply can’t do it.

Ribbons did not cost 40 bucks,

And the printer lasted longer.

If you don’t use or excercise your inkjet printer,

It messes up like an ink pen.

The thrift stores are loaded with them.

We need inkjet technology I guess.

I would not want people to formulate a religion,

Based on what I said in this blog.