Beacon of Hope

Things happened in the 90’s

And I felt I didn’t understand what was going on

I started writing this blog in 2004

Things are different now.

I tend to carry the world on my shoulders.

I’ve always been that way.

If this blog has helped you understand things better,

That’s what it was written for.

I don’t know I heard somewhere

They were mathematicians 

And I put two and two together 

Maybe I heard it on Art Bell

I don’t remember 

No Art Bell didn’t say

Converted followers of Artemis wrote revelations 

I think he said something

About them being mathematicians 

I think early Christians 

We’re walking twilight zones like me

I’ve been told to stay out of it

For whatever 

Revelations brought an end 

To walking twilight zones

I’ve been a walking twilight zone

Since the 80’s

You may not like Kamala Harris 

But Jan 6 matters 

And being president doesn’t mean 

She gets everything she wants 

If you want the Republican Party 

To move more to the center again 

You have to vote democratic 

You don’t have a choice 

The only way 

This march to the extreme right is going to stop

Is if they keep losing 

For me Marjorie Taylor Greene

Is running for President 

I don’t like Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez either 

But the democrats didn’t have an insurrection 

I need to shut up I’m gonna get hurt

I consider myself a moderate independent 

Everyone is strung out on lead

I guess the difference is

I stopped listening to the radio 

When you listen to the radio or watch tv

You get a lot of backwards stuff

Something about not listening to the radio

Has caused this crap

I think they burn and cover

He is an individual 

He has the right to bow out if he wants 

I don’t think drag queens should be having story time with kids

But I don’t think we should abolish the department of education either

It’s nice to see someone who smiles and laughs

Let’s be clear 

Republicans are threatening civil war if they don’t win the election 

It’s between MTG and AOC who is it gonna be?

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marjorie_Taylor_Greene

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/AOC

Ones clearly delusional and the other is a socialist, what a choice.

One side threatening violence tips the scales for me.

I don’t want a socialist country 

But I don’t want someone who thinks the earth is flat either 

 My shit is more real than that crap

I think if we get a seriously negative poll for Trump 

Shits gonna hit the fan

I have a moderately negative view of socialism 

It’s the clear violence, delusion, and paranoia of the right I don’t like.

The economy is going to change 

Technology is going to make it

So a lot of people won’t have to work anymore 

The country is going brown

And it’s going socialist

And short of going Amish

There is nothing that can be done about it

We need to talk about it

We shouldn’t have a civil war over it

Christ is gonna come regardless 

I told you he is like a drill instructor from Betazed

You don’t want to run into him

Millions of people won’t have to work

What are we going to do

Japan is preparing for it

The EU is probably preparing for it

What are we going to have a civil war over it?

Is that our way of handling it?

Then we got global warming and lead

We have a lot of obstacles 

We can’t just put our heads in the sand

And go Amish 

It ain’t gonna work 

So maybe the border wasn’t handled well

But is project 2025 the solution?

Can Trump do the job?

https://www.bbc.com/news/technology-65102150#

There might be a replacement to Boolean Algebra

It’s real

It could completely change the economy 

Everybody wants everything for free

And it’s only going to get worse 

The truth is out there but you have to look for it.

Nobody wants to scream fire in the movie theater 

This is another one

https://www.bbc.com/future/article/20221117-how-borders-might-change-to-cope-with-climate-migration

The tropics may become uninhabitable 

Where are those people going to go?

We can’t just stick our head in the sand and go Amish

Project 2025 is not going to solve these problems 

America is going to change

Please let’s not add civil war to these issues 

It’s silly

We have these issues ahead of us

And we are talking about a border crisis 

That’s mild

That’s nothing 

Trump has no plan to address any of this

It doesn’t take a professional prognosticator to identify these issues

His plan is to abolish the department of education 

That’s his plan

The hell with making America great again

We need to be a beacon of hope 

Let’s be a beacon of hope again 

I’m glad I don’t have kids

I’d lose sleep at night if I had kids

I think we are going to see violence 

If Kamala Harris goes up by ten points 

I’ve already said it

I think we are going to have violence long before the election 

Maybe they will read this and change their minds.

I hope so.

More Real than Qanon

I’ll go with the do not be alarmed 

For me it’s clear a time, two times, and half a time is about Trump

And the mortal head wound didn’t happen.

I guess it could happen again.

I guess we will see.

We need to learn to forgive 

We are all strung out on lead

It’s so obscure how would you know 

if it hadn’t come true 

I’m not a saint or a prophet.  

What am I supposed to call myself?

I feel called to say this stuff.

I don’t fear trump anymore 

Everything is going to be ok

13:3 is a fate worse than death

And it could still happen 

I practically told the man we could have a golden age if he would just step down 

You can lead a horse to water 

but you can’t make him drink

It’s my fault 

I need to stay out of presidential politics 

It would have broke right then and there

I guess people don’t know when to listen to me

It looks like Trump is going to win

And it looks like we are going to have to wait 

Another two years to see if it breaks or not

If I were to share my visions I’d really be heretical 

If Joe wins I’ll shut up

I won’t talk presidential politics anymore 

Sumerian gods

Causality loop processors 

Poor universe models

Reptilians

The earth as a farm

It was a mess

I don’t blame John of Patmos 

He can only relay what he saw

I can’t talk about it

That’s what these antediluvian spirits want me to do

I would be opening a Pandora’s box 

Letting them into our consciousness 

And we don’t want to do that

Under normal circumstances I would disintegrate 

but the medication wont let me

I’m being forced to solve the problems 

My medication has changed 

I’m not on clozapine anymore 

https://everything-everywhere.com/how-lead-was-discovered-to-be-in-everything/

Revelations is lemonade 

There is no other way to put it

The serpent thinks I’m God

He thinks I don’t want people to be like me

God didn’t know why the serpent said that

If I had to guess and decide who I probably was,

I’d say golem

The serpent holds me in great contempt 

He exceeds in making things difficult for me

I grew up big headed 

because of the thunder in my head

I have a hard time worshipping 

and believing in a higher power

For me he is just another physicist 

Albeit he does things differently 

Everybody else is warped backwards 

And He keeps dropping the floor out

He has the past

We can’t force him to cooperate 

We can’t have a forest till he cooperates 

He has the past

It’s his decision 

There is one that goes forwards 

And an infinity that’s backwards 

It’s his

He has to agree

It’s hard

You got to get it right on the first try

Apparently he knows how to handle lemons

You can’t have strawberries 

Till you learn how to handle the lemons right

It might need to happen

But it’s too bloody for me

I don’t like it

I would rather say stuff that almost comes true

Than be right about it

It’s like the boot sequence on a computer 

Things need to happen in the right order 

Thing have to happen in the right sequence 

And they have to happen on the first go round 

Else it’s a lemon

Absent of a miracle 

There is no second chance 

If you try a second chance,

All you get is an endless second chance.

It’s like having a computer that didn’t boot right

It happens sometimes 

But you can’t keep booting it over and over

Thinking it’s eventually going to boot right

Absent of a miracle 

It’s never gonna happen 

My solution is to go south and build a library 

But maybe I’m not handling the lemons right idk

Good, evil, prayer, worship, miracles 

are things I don’t understand 

Well maybe I understand them

But I don’t know how they fit into this equation 

I thought it was over

I thought it was all delusion 

I guess not

I’m sorry I lied to that guy 

about having a church I go to

I don’t like talking to strangers 

I didn’t write A Different America 

as a prediction of a presidential race.

Second actors will have no part 

was supposed to be about me.

Remarkable leaders remarkable art was supposed to be

Remarkable people remarkable art

That line is supposed to be about people using ai

But the tea leaves say what they say

If we get someone other than Trump or Biden

We are going to have a golden age

At least the democrats listened to the American people 

And gave us someone else

I am definitely voting democratic now

I’d vote for Bernie Sanders 

I think there is a lot of people 

who are going to vote democratic 

Because the party listened 

and gave us someone other than those two

I don’t think it’s going to bode well

If republicans try and keep a replacement 

Off the ballot 

I think keeping a replacement off the ballots 

Would be a huge political mistake 

I think the best thing you can do as a leader,

Is prepare someone to take your place

I don’t recognize revelations as a holy book

I believe it was written by converted 

Followers of Artemis 

But it’s none of my business 

I’ve been told to stay out of it

It’s just a vibe 

I have no real reason why

A lot of us that didn’t vote for 20 years,

Trump is our fault 

Now is the time to vote again 

If you feel like you don’t understand what is going on,

I’ve laid it all out for you.

I’m not some mysterious character no one can identify.

I am a real person.

This is more real than qanon

Nothing New

The question is what would have happened if I hadn’t said anything 

This is nothing new.  This has been going on for decades with me.

I’m sorry I messed up.

There is no rule against it,

But I should have stayed out of the electorate.

He makes me nervous.

I don’t like the man.

He is going to lose control of the country.

It’s like a cross between Eveything, Everywhere, All At Once and The Butterfly Effect

I talk about it in here somewhere I think.

I have saved America six or seven times.

We are lucky 

I don’t know if I am going to vote or not.

It becomes a contest between me and him,

And it’s not supposed to be that way.

He doesn’t want to be in this hot seat.

He has enough to worry about.

Somehow everything gets fixed

And we get to go to Disneyworld

I keep talking about this stuff and they are going to put me in the hospital again 

Somebody has to shoot the flare

And right now I think I do it better than anyone else 

I make a song like that and then he gets shot at.

It’s freaking me out.

We can’t solve the world’s problems so we medicate the individual 

Then the individual gets tasked with solving the problem 

They put me on these meds and I got warped backwards, and got manufactured from the dust.

Did Revelation 13:3 not take place?

What does that mean?

Deuteronomy 18:22

Damaging the Ozone

I’m worried about the bloodbath that’s going to happen if he does get elected again.

I’ve been though this before 

We may find a comfortable place in purgatory 

But if we don’t come to God it ain’t gonna last

Let him have it if he wants it that bad, it isn’t going to last.

I would think people would be grateful there was someone like me,

But I guess not

I’m supposed to draw things out and come up with the answer before things hit the fan.

I think he sees it as I’m sitting on power and that drives some people crazy

I can’t stop this one

God help us

I spent decades telling people wwiii was between US and England and everyone thought I was nuts.

Now what do you think?

That it’s even feasible is a revolution.

He thinks I’m sitting on power

Power is not my job

He is riding the dragon

I went through my physics guru stage

Yzax was a real discovery though

But I’m not another Einstein 

60% of people won’t work with a schizophrenic 

And the other 40%, once they have worked with one, won’t do it either 

The beginning is something that can happen at any time

And it can happen multiple times in multiple places

It’s a phenomenon it’s not linear like we think

I don’t appeal to women 

I don’t know why

I’m mapped out

This thing knows all about me it’s ever gonna know

I don’t understand these people that Jan 6th doesn’t matter to them

I think everyone has lead poisoning 

People are friggen stoned on lead this is friggen crazy

Everyone is strung out on lead

And no one is talking about it

The conspiracy is not about trump

It’s about lead

https://sl.bing.net/dEAweQRJznE

And yes its corporate industrialists that did that

The same guy that was responsible for damaging the ozone with fluorocarbons

If hush money is legal 

Then the hush of the hush should be legal too

If you aren’t going to hush the hush

It defeats the whole purpose 

What was he supposed to call it

I’ve seen no presentation of what trump legally should have done

If he is claiming he knew nothing of the hush money payments at all that’s a different story

I seriously doubt he knew nothing about it

If he had just said they paid the hush money 

and he claimed it as a legal expense 

I doubt that would be illegal 

But that’s not what’s going on

He is claiming he knew nothing about it

He falsified business records to maintain deniability 

Now is that illegal idk 

He falsified business records because it served him politically 

I’m sorry but I doubt he would have gotten convicted 

If he had just been honest about it

I never got a story line from seventh guest

I saw one ghost

When I went back to the puzzle to see the ghost again for like the fourth or fifth time

The door slammed on me and trapped me in the room

That’s when I burnt revelation 

Maybe there is a great satanic conspiracy 

But if you think you know who the good guys are you are sorrowfully mistaken

I think there was some satanic stuff going on with the Clinton’s 

But I can’t get over Jan 6

I’m the one who said if things go south go south 

It’s my fault 

I imagine I spent a lifetime in love with her

And never told her

I really thought one day we would all go to Disney world and everything would be ok.

I guess my only hope is this is a dream and I’m going to wake up someday.

The knife cuts both ways

If Biden lost he could do the same thing Trump did

And nobody would be able to say anything 

We are not going to have the golden age unless its someone other than these two

“Second actors have no part, remarkable leaders, remarkable art.”

Time, two times, and half a time.

It’s either or.

What’s going on with Biden right now

Is the exact thing the Trump supporters are complaining about 

The media thinks they run the country 

It just happened that way I’m sorry 

I have no connection to anyone who tried to harm the former president 

We are all strung out on lead

All of us

As a man of God I am telling you we are in Revelation 

Every one needs to step back and calm down

We got lucky that the former president wasn’t seriously hurt

This has been going on for a long time 

People accept it as normal but it’s not

It’s the new normal 

Back in the 80’s

Back in the 80’s

I tried to get help

But Dr. Curry and my parents didn’t tell me the truth about it,

Cause they thought I wouldn’t try.

Omg Kimberly is dead

I always took solace in the fact that she was happy

And decided it would be creepy to intrude in her new life

I’m sorry she is gone

I told her happy birthday back in 2012 but never heard anything. 

Last I heard she was in charge of her class reunion and everything was going fine.

Everyone else was chasing tail or whatever

And I’m dreaming about hurting myself 

having fantasies about doing in in the woods

I was really messed up

With 

You can’t change what you fantasize about 

If you have the bends you have the bends

It’s like conversion therapy 

It doesn’t work

I’ve come across this reverse speech thing firsthand 

I believe the Bible is like a firewall protects you from it

I thought the three of us would reconcile and go to Disney world one day 

I thought it was wonderful, but apparently it wasn’t good enough.

If I had to go back in time I wouldn’t try to have a relationship with ginger or Kim. 

Things were better when they thought I was gay

I get mixed up between the 14th and the 17th

I have read some of what Lincoln wrote on the subject,

And it seems, at least early on,  he was more concerned about preserving the union,

And the future of democracy than he was about the abolishment of slavery.

Maryland’s slaves weren’t declared free until may of 1864

If it was all about slavery why didn’t Lincoln wait to act on slavery in the border states 

The civil war abolished slavery

But I don’t think Lincoln went to war to abolish slavery

Lincoln went to war to preserve the union and save democracy 

It would have been a hard sell if he had said it was about slavery at the beginning 

The people of the north weren’t clamoring to have a war to free the slaves.

I don’t think the civil war was a grand crusade to free the slaves

But it’s silly to say slavery had nothing to do with it.

And the only thing reparations are going to do is cause astronomical inflation 

It will be like the Bible says

A loaf of bread will cost a days wage

I don’t like Trump

I am not going to vote republican.

But I don’t know if there is a place for me in the Democratic Party 

I’ve got to look out for me

What is going to happen to me if that happens 

Politicians and the media tell you what you want to hear.

Ain’t nothing in it me telling you this stuff

It wasn’t a dream was it

Time, times, and half a time is about Donald Trump

Time is his first term in office

Times is his facing off against Biden twice

Half a time is how long his second term will be

Make no mistake 

You are voting for an Antichrist 

If you don’t recognize it by now

You are in denial about it

Migration has been happening for hundreds of thousands of years 

You are not going to stop it

They tropics become unlivable and people migrate

You know if he loses the nomination he is not going to accept it

And the Republican Party might split

Pure Operational Space

I wish my life had been defined by something I could have gotten credit for.

Something dazzling, something earth shattering and dynamic.

Something worth being stupid about.

The sad thing would be if it got completely ignored.

Probably happens all the time.

It’s my relationship to my genitalia.

Hard to believe my Grandmother started all of this.

I wish I had had the conversation with my mother

It just never came up.

People need to talk about this,

People shouldn’t be treated like pets that aren’t eating.

Even if they are men.

He knows it’s my show

And he isn’t in the lead role.

I have blemishes, I am sorry,  this isn’t a job I applied for.

Once you fall through one, you keep falling through.

Nothing can hold you anymore.

I don’t know the physics behind it and he keeps wanting me to prove it to him.

I can’t say

If grandma was going to do that I should have been raised Jewish.

Just another floor to fall through 

I can’t say, this persona wasn’t there.

I think it goes back to what they had an argument about to begin with

Please forgive me, this is how I go through therapy 

I didn’t mean to cause anyone distress, I’m sorry.

Everything else has been tried.

This is how it works for me.

It was more of a self abuse thing with me.

I know it’s difficult to follow 

You are getting like half a conversation 

I love my father

Being gay is the last thing in the world I would ever do to him

I thought I had a choice

I didn’t know the whole world was going to force me to be gay.

In the end I have done worse

Mostly because of stuff that happened long before I was even born,

That didn’t have anything to do with it to begin with.

Can you imagine believing the Bible was written for you?

That Jesus dies for you?

And not just once

But over and over again 

I try not to think about it

Do you think Hitler’s sexuality had anything to do with the holocaust?

Are we forcing people to be Gay because of Hitler and the holocaust?

How many people get into psychology because they want to understand why the holocaust happened?

Do they think they are stopping another one?

Do they think they are stopping people from dying?

How do you entertain these people?

Only because that’s the knot that was tied.

That was the floor to be fallen through.

The knot could have been about something else

Would you fuck yourself over it?

I like the science fiction shows on appletv+

But if these strikes aren’t settled

I’m not paying $5 a month for no new shows

Let the average American talk long enough,

They are going to contradict themselves.

They would do worse than that.

I thought I heard my mom call me Adolf Mallory, so now I have a complex about it.

I am sorry.

If I had to put my money on it,

His situation and mine are probably similar.

He probably had a G but she was Jewish.

My sexuality might be screwed up,

But I could never hate that bad.

I would hate to lose my patience now.

He lets me know.

If you want your life to be a disaster see a psychiatrist.

Go to church before seeing a psychiatrist.

I could see an independent drawing 25 or 30% 

SoundClick must not be doing too bad.

It’s jammed every night at 12 o’clock 

A Statistic on a Good Saturday

It’s hard to believe Star Wars 

Is coming on 50 years old

When I was a kid

50 years was the 20’s

Ancient history 

Polls suggest 60% of people would not want to work with a schizophrenic.

In practice it’s probably more like 80%

It’s not that I can’t work, or don’t want to work.

People don’t want to work with me.

If I did work it would be a few months here a few months there.

Eventually nobody would hire me.

I don’t like being on social security.

It makes me feel guilty, but I need stability in my life.

I make music, I volunteer, I’m doing what I can.

If Trump wins those two years will be hell.

This is not the way to do the government budget.

It’s like going on strike or something.

20 hours of volunteering seems to be enough already

Please people are going to get hurt

I don’t feel angry, but at some level I must be.

I have seen a lot of stuff on tv over the years.

Some stuff you see once than never again.

People think you are nuts when you talk about it.

I guess I could

But I’d have to have a habit of looking at the numbers every day.

I can make an endless four bars of the same thing

But it’s hard to make a bridge with GarageBand 

Men are that way because that’s the way women want men to be,

If women didn’t want men to be that way anymore, they wouldn’t 

I’m asexual, I’m happy with it, that’s the way I am.

No amount of reeducation is going to change that.

Stop trying.

I’m trying not to be creepy, but I can’t fucking stop this shit.

I am convinced she fucking loves me and there is some solution to the shit.

Things aren’t the way they are supposed to be.

There is no sense in struggling for an empirical truth.

I should just accept it.

Maybe I need to stay on the good shit

For some people the idea that people are actually born in hell is too much for them,

They can’t take it.

Meaning doesn’t mean anything anymore,

It’s all who said it and when

If you don’t have that you have nothing 

If I don’t have no separation, no differentiation, 

than I’m just a statistic on a good Saturday

They want people to be ain’t nobody 

It’s to their benefit 

They don’t want to waste technology, teraflops, on you.

The hard drive means they got to sweat a little bit

If it comes down to what I said or didn’t say thirty years ago that’s a waste

They would have to very anal

It’s not that the people can’t tell what’s real and what’s not,

It’s that the computers can’t tell what’s real and what’s not,

And the people are using the computers to tell what is real and what is not.

And they don’t really give a shit one way or the other,

The farmers don’t want to waste good seed.

They want the weather to be predictable 

It would be too many teraflops if one person could do that with a 486

I make horrible music

I make music so bad it tells me how bad it is

But fuck it I enjoy it.

If stuff really does go backwards 

And you could tell yourself what the winning numbers were

you would have to be in the habit of playing and watching all the time

And if you won your life would be a superstitious nightmare.

You would have let that dynamic into your life. 

Things would never be the same.

Apparently I had the same dream that hobby lobby guy had

You can find a comfortable place in purgatory but don’t expect it to last long

Well we had talked about the lottery thing earlier 

It’s not good for people to think I got Yzax by luck 

Well read the Bible maybe the lord will bring you something

Sometimes, when you tell someone to get lost, that’s what they do.

I wish, just one time, she would just scream at me to fuck off

Why is the syndrome dangerous to the pact?

I guess they can’t verify the origin of the information 

I’m sorry I didn’t go see the psychedelic furs

It’s a phobia thing like stage fright

I just can’t deal with it anymore 

Life is not much to be a failure at.

I guess I wanted to be successful at being a failure.

People live vicariously through trump

It’s good entertainment,

But it’s just climbing a ladder, climbing a ladder, climbing a ladder.

There is no top.

Find a comfortable place in purgatory,

And pray for the best.

I hear you.

Just fuck somebody for h sake

Windows Log

If your one drive files are showing up with an X mark

That means the files are not synced

Check that one drive is in your system tray

If not go to the start menu and run one drive 

Replace the Purge Control Valve George

Stop it you crazy bitch, you are hurting me.  What are you trying to prove?

It’s either here or on social media.

I can’t stop.

Really, she did without affectionate touch for five years?

Omg it’s a crisis.

Car trouble record

Filled up with gas on 23rd not usual for me

Noticed I left car window down on 27th

Stopped at 711 on 27th car wouldn’t start

Accepted a jump

Went to leave volunteer job on 29th car wouldn’t start

Car wouldn’t jump

Left cables attached for a few minutes and tried again

Car started

Went to advance auto parts to replace battery

Technician tested battery fine

Friend put load tester on battery with car off

Light very bright

Removed fuse to the radio/door locks/security 

Light got much dimmer

Discovered radio/door locks/security has different power modes for key fob

Put fuse back in

Left message at first mechanic 

Talked to bing suggested EVAP purge control valve

Car sat for three days

Monday morning went to take car to first mechanic 

Would not start

Jumped after some difficulty

Took to first mechanic

Battery tested bad

No other codes

Battery and air filter replaced 

Assured me problem was fixed

Drove home and almost didn’t make it

Surging and stalling cut off while driving

Took to second mechanic 

Still no error code

Told mechanic to replace purge valve

So far so good

Could have been just a fluke thing

Worth my peace of mind to replace valve

Plus it was a safety issue 

This sort of stuff happens to me all of the time.

The laws of physics go haywire around me.

AI is great grand and wonderful,

But the information you get from it comes from some real life person.

If we depend on it too much and don’t tell it anything,

It’s going to get stupid.

We won’t be able to use it anymore.

I told Bing I had recently filled the fuel tank,

And that it seemed to start fine cold.

If it was that valve it should have given me problems 

Immediately or soon after filling the tank,

Or it should have thrown a code.

Dad had a lot of problems with that car,

But he always kept his tank full.

Idk I can’t let go of it.

Maybe the tank is overfilling.

Maybe the computer is messed up.

I guess it could have been a fluke thing,

And I could have kept driving it.

What would you have done?

I didn’t go to bing with the intention of fixing my car,

I just did an internet search and ai happened to be there.

If I keep having problems, I am not keeping the car.

I am glad I don’t have a job to be at.

The Kings Highway

The kings highway doesn’t go east and west.

It happened in my minds eye and I really can’t say

But I think these “aliens” are visiting from hell.

I can’t say, “I am a medium, this is what happened.” it’s in admissible.

And it’s dangerous, then the entities that were in my head are out in the public.

I think they are “time travelers” and think they can “fix” us.

I understand people feel like they need some answer about this.

Is time a flat dimension, or does it have height width and depth of its own?

The problem is “time travel” is the problem.

Like 12 monkeys.

I got the feeling something miraculous is going to happen tonight or tomorrow or Wednesday.

There’s a reason it’s All Saints’ Day 

Or All Souls’ Day

From my perspective. The are effing with the efffer that invented the thing.

Yzax was involved, it’s like the chessboard.

I think I was a character and God made me a real person.

I liked it at WSR, but they had me doing the whole post press 

then complained when I made a mistake.

You can’t win.  

It’s like climb a mountain, climb a mountain, climb a mountain 

and there is no top.

I’m sure something will happen by Wednesday 

If not this year another one.

Something happens 

Maybe someone sent a ticket to the church like I did.

This effers are never going to leave me alone till there is a miracle.

If people want the story they will have to wear these shorts.

If they won’t take it from me.

I can’t articulate everything convincingly on a blog.

Because Satan is going to say you said this or you said that

This is not a notarized legal document 

I am trying to help people understand.

If they won’t take it from me 

Or take it from the Bible 

I can’t help them.

You can’t win,

It’s just climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain

And there is no top

Lord help me stop

Jesus help me stop 

Lord Jesus help me stop

Please God help me.

I have been swimming with sharks my whole life.

I can’t handle much more of this, I am trying to make everyone happy, 

I am going to have to give Pam McCauley poa

I am going to try not posting for a while.

I am going to post to notes.

I might put them up someday.

I am sorry.

I can’t drink the ocean forever 

I am having an Apple nightmare. It’s getting in my way.

The music app is not designed to play stuff you have made with GarageBand.

I don’t want to quit using the music app, but I may have to.

It just doesn’t play with GarageBand very well.

You need to check your ballot two or three times before you stick it in the machine.

Drinking just one can of diet soda per day 

has been associated with a 2567% increased risk of type 2 diabetes, 

compared to drinking no diet soda at all .

Apple needs to come up with something better than iTunes 

I would get an iOS assistant but they are both Chinese.

I need something that works better with GarageBand.

I guess I’ll just run this old pc into the ground 

Nobody buys music anyway 

They get subscription services and stream what they want.

I think I am going with cesium 

The cloud players are clunky.

They aren’t ready yet.

Migrating iTunes is a headache.

And I don’t think cesium does anything the music app doesn’t do.

I can see why people use the cloud.

If there were a player that used iCloud I might use it.

It’s too late for Trump 2.0

Every time I do a link on opaque burger I have to get it evaluated 

Sorry I guess I can’t do opaque burger no more.

They might put it off for a while,

But people are going to make their own tea.

Calm and Fed

I tried. I didn’t want this to happen.  If I had just took a little instruction.

I just wish society had some use for me.

I don’t know about kids though.  You think you can help them but you can’t.  They won’t listen.

My coworkers said I was like working with a child.

I think I was on a cycle. I hope we broke it.

I need a glucometer.

I felt like I was just climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain.

I thought one day I would reach a plateau.

When it didn’t happen I just gave up.

Switching to invega from clozaril is affecting my blood sugar

It seems like it’s more coming off the clozaril than going on invega 

Computer operating systems are messy.

You can see all the guts of it.

I think that people’s opinions are being paid for

By agents that don’t wish America the best.

That see democracy as a weekness.

That stand to benefit tremendously if America fails.

What made me not vote for twenty years?

I have already been through this mess.

This is getting old now.

I have had this dream already.

I don’t think the algorithms can tell the difference between the real weather and the fake weather.

Maybe they are testing the weather and arguing about it.

It’s not cheating if you don’t know what you’re doing.

People are either going to learn how to use the internet constructively or they’re not.

Okay, we had a black Democratic president, it’s not the end of the world.

Be thankful we didn’t get Hillary, let’s move on.

I don’t vote Republican, I either vote Democratic, or I don’t vote at all.

They put me in a box and forced me to learn how to use this thing the right way.

What happened to the party that had the patience to overturn Roe v. Wade?

Road kill are the only ones that solve anything.

I like getting myself in a position where it happens because it has to.

And God likes performing miracles, so we fit.

I can’t do it forever, but I might not be able to stop.

God help me.

If you don’t like the SOB don’t vote.

It ain’t the end of the world.

There will be another opportunity.

They don’t give a shit.

They are getting us all worked up because they want to bring down democracy.

People on both sides 

Maybe not the rank and file,

But up at the top, they all have the same agenda.

Fine let the people decide if it doesn’t work,

Don’t make them fight each other like this.

Do you understand the issue people?

Does it work or not?

I’m not captain righteous,

But I’m not Godless.

I assure you, there are Globalists on both sides.

Why don’t I get hate mail?

I tried, I gave it my best.

Maybe I will get some points for trying.

I don’t think anyone else wants to.

Trump isn’t a Globalist?

Come on get real.

Global autocracy is still global.

Follow an elephant or follow a mule.

Don’t follow Trump.

This shit aunt going to feed people in turkey.

I’m looking for a scoreless game that goes into overtime.

I had no idea this music thing was so involving,

People’s heads must be blown all over the place.

From my experience, I think we got cutoff from God somewhere along the line.

It’s not enough to be in key, you have to follow the chords too,

And sometimes you go chromatic and you have no idea what key your in.

Don’t eat anything, drink water, and wait for it to come down.

Maybe a computer can be a glucometer.

It can’t replace God though.

Maybe God will come back

I think we are hardwired to be in communion with God all the time.

I had fun going to Texas.

Even though I hated it there.

People learn the wrong lessons, and think it’s all screwed up.

They just aren’t in communion with God like they are supposed to be.

In my opinion.

The way it happened doesn’t matter to me,

It happened, we have to deal with it.

We have diabetes now.

We could say this did it, or that did it, but that doesn’t change that we have it.

Let God deal with that.

I am worried about how all these people are going to eat.

I guess CNN ain’t part of his algorithm,

Ain’t part of his feedback loop.

We are understanding it together

I wish I could say convincingly that other people can’t do it,

But I can’t.

I tell people I am the only person that can do it but they don’t listen.

Whatever it is I do I don’t know.

I think everyone can use the technology the right way,

I am not talking about that.

It’s this thing about me walking through walls.

He is like a hacker, he can see everything, even if no one is reading it.

Maybe the miracle is the key, but I wouldn’t suggest it.

I need to stop.

I never really played with action figures,

I liked playing in the dirt.

Dig up roots to build highways and shopping malls.

I’ve said that before.

Mom disciplined us because Dad was severely beaten by his father and couldn’t do it.

She didn’t want me to be a bum.

There is no perfect family, you can’t win, it doesn’t help to blame your parents.

I think lead affected me more than they did,

I am trying to be good for something.

I guess I didn’t have the attachment with my mother that the Bible says I am supposed to have.

I don’t know why these Freudians follow the Bible 

Makes no sense to me.

What do families do that don’t have a father.

My ears and memory and stuff aren’t good enough to play the right way.

I can barely remember 8 notes.

I can imagine remembering a dozen songs.

It happened in my minds eye and I wasn’t really there so I can’t say.

I consider, the serpent in the garden, may consider me God.

I am not suppressing anger as much as I am just completely confused.

Routes can sometimes share the same street.

The kings highway might have been there first and other routes later.

It wasn’t a good idea to mix religions.

Hybridization happens, you can’t stop it.

Bring Back The Bills!

I can’t use bing or google to look for the source of an image with my iPad 

Bing goes directly to my camera and doesn’t offer me an upload option

And google has no option at all

If I want to do that I have to use the computer.

There are thousands of movies out there,

But the ones I want to watch are unavailable.

I didn’t know it was so easy to mirror my iPad to Roku.  I was really surprised.

I thought it would be easier with an AppleTV but I guess it’s pretty simple.

It isn’t doing any good sitting in some dark corner.

It is from me and people need it.

Yeah, don’t try to bootstrap the universe.

I guess I am like a red heifer.

I like Don Lemon.

I ain’t crazy about Jake Tapper.

I guess I put people out.

People are like meerkats.

I am not trying to.

I just sift through for some reason.

It’s not fun.

People can’t accept it and get angry about it.

I guess I am supposed to call out to Jesus or someone.

This music thing…

I guess the only thing astonishing is that I said I would do it back in the 80’s.

Dimming your display significantly extends your battery charge.

I didn’t want this to happen, I fought it as hard as I could,

I guess I am just meant to be this way.

I am stupid, they own me.

I think I have been through the worst of being alone.

Everyone is on a treadmill anyway.

I guess I have done the wrong thing in my life.

Trump ain’t Reagan.

No evidence of a bullet.

I guess some people are on a peloton 

My reasoning side told me I was losing it, that I needed to stop.

The central question of my life is whether I need somebody or not.

I don’t know, I ain’t come undone yet.

These evaluations just keep getting worse and worse,

And I don’t know enough to just call out to Jesus or someone.

What do you do when the person isn’t there?

How undone do I have to be?

She was playing Freud games with me,

And I couldn’t get her to stop.

Do I have to be so undone she is calling the police on me?

That ain’t never going to happen.

Not in this lifetime anyway.

I think she found someone to play her games on.

I think I need the wrong person.

When someone isn’t there, it changes things.

In one context it’s ok, but in the other it’s not.

If I play guitar it’s ok?

I like playing GarageBand.

Maybe someday, I don’t know.

I support Ukraine, but what are we going to do 

Take on Russia, China, India, North Korea, Iran, and half the Middle East too?

I think we could have action in Korea 

Action in Taiwan

Action in India 

Action in Palestine 

And action in Europe 

All at the same time.

We have a great military, but can they handle all that at once?

I have to ask myself what could be so earth shattering

They would still cover it up at this point.

What else has been covered up for so long?

Does this have anything to do with that?

I think it’s someone or something we don’t want to get in conflict with.

People haven’t even accepted the truth about time yet,

And the evidence is out there.

You talk more reverse speech after you have mutilated Bibles

This is the brain initiative.

This is part of me.

I am worried this Ukraine stuff is going to boil over bad

I said I won’t going to play until I was 50,

And then I was going to play the computer.

We got int a big discussion about whether a computer was a musical instrument.

The tactile function isn’t there yet.

Is was outrageous at the time. Commodore 64 era.

It used to be, if I wasn’t happy with it, oh well.

It wasn’t that I was happy with everything,

There was just nothing I could do about it.

99 would have been better if I had had an iPad 

Friend had a lover affair, fascination, with hitler

Happened after burning bibles.

People stratify 

I don’t think Hitler was great,

But what makes one nations method of keeping the one percent in power,

Better than another.

If you have free and fair elections it’s okay?

Capitalism doesn’t take advantage of people?

Diet soda makes you crave sugar, eating sugar makes you dehydrated, that makes you drink more soda.

That’s okay?

A lot of major industries are probably that way.

I guess if there are two or three steps involved it’s ok.

As long as the door is open, there is a war going on.

I defended Trump too.

I have the right to be wrong.

We are either going to be ruled by God’s kingdom 

Or we are going to have to close the door someday.

 

News has become entertainment.

I had a good experience with safelite.

I don’t see people hiding in dump trucks,

To get into Russia, China, North Korea, or Iran.

I am going to do stuff 99 style, just GB it.

I almost forgot.

Bring back the Bills!