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Time Effort And Money I love that I can pick up the iPad and go with it It doesn't mind if you ain't picked it up in a while It doesn't get in my way setting things up or fixing it Finally getting it to work and not knowing what you did By the time it works you don't feel like it anymore  GarageBand is far more forgiving than the actual instruments  Yet it is still powerful  I would say pianos were probably considered cheating too I have been looking for that sound for a decade One of Ken's tenants played guitar over one of my loops, And I have been trying to capture that ever since. At first I thought it was a recording issue But when it came clear I would have to do the guitar myself, I drew inspiration from Neil Young  People couldn't use my loops Because they weren't a standard tempo Or a standard key I don't consider  Anyone regrets as a life choice  Attending a service academy  Different things are happening to me, Because the rules are changing...

Having your own email And having your own email server Are not the same thing You can go to gmail and have an email address. Whereas If you have your own server You may have a hard drive to bleach or smash Just another John Wayne I guess Run of the mill Beatle issues  I am the village idiot  I say stuff other people can't say Thank Jesus for bringing people to my blog. Sometimes the best way to learn Is to find it for yourself How can you stop making sedans? What are first time car buyers going to buy? Find a hot spot and then rub it. I thought if I was in a relationship the shit would stop. THEY STILL DONT FRIGGEN GET IT! I VOTED DEMOCRATIC BECAUSE YOU ASKED ME TOO! friggen morons you pigeon hole people and take them for granted I will remember this Reality is the consequence of doing It wrong. I was talking about the math They have spent their life savings and  And migrated thousands of miles How can we turn th...

I like that Shania Twain video  I wish someone felt that way about me. You have a mandate. Please do something about mesoamerica. it is difficult to have blue waves when we have these 80%  districts. If you are looking for one that is different, Don't waste your time. according to the Washington Post These were the battleground districts for this election would you buy that network? I object to people being modeled like the weather. Uncertainty is bad for the economy  But that doesn't mean modeling the electorate is innocuous. Because I thought I had a future If you use a word that is on the fringe of your vocabulary like that, It means someone is reading. You cannot have democracy without grace. Without grace there is no democracy. I am still trying to answer shit that happened 30 years ago   Why you trying to work on me? We ain't got forever. I am the way my family brought me to be, That ain't right? I am sorry if you had an acciden...

What is eureka displacement? It feels better in the bath tub. You ain't making no sense either  It is like you are dangerous. It is like you are going to get in trouble if you ain't gay You have to be careful. Some people will bring a stranger to a party  Just to see him get beat up. It is difficult to beach yourself, When the medication has you marching on air. Adopted children are more likely than biological children to have special health care needs, current moderate or severe health problems, learning disability, developmental delay or physical impairment, and other mental health difficulties. I had the bends to begin with, But I asked God to take it away from me Restraint is a disease. Capitalism works? Slavery worked too. It is our hemisphere. We need to do a better job. Take it to the fire station  I was disturbed in my sleep screaming the N word. I am sorry if anyone heard that. I don't kno...

VB What is the principal reaction? I was hissed at because my t shirt looked like it said "virgin". I was put forth as an example of what not to be in the whole triangle. People get drunk They fuck What planet do these people live on? It is like visiting Sodom and Gomorrah  And bitching about your holiday  They wouldn't give him any trouble if he was 10 years older What are women typically delusional about? Don't like being called delusional? Welcome to the club. They don't have any hesitation calling men delusional. Have you seen what is on YouTube lately? It would take a whole cultural do over to fix this shit. That shit makes Madonna look like Madonna. It ain't happening in a vacuum okay? How are we supposed to fix it When we can't even have an honest discussion about it? I think women have a broader scope than men do. I think it's entirely possible its left of center, And he has no recollection of it. People are going to have to sign a release  Be...

I  told my father back during the George W. Bush admin That I suspected foreign powers may take my work seriously  I am labeled schizophrenic  Who else was I supposed to tell? I feel the democrats want America to gracefully decline. It must feel really good. I would have to let go of everything I am And I can't do that I believe in what I believe in If you had it your way I wouldn't be me anymore  I could make pigs fly and nothing would come of it. this is for millennials back in the 90's there was this game called seventh guest it was some sort of trap and people were getting caught in the game it was treated as a big joke I can see how people don't like president trump but a lot of us are still pissed off about it. I expected different results. Was I tagged for being insane? Or am I insane from being tagged? Money is redemption in America. there are people in this world who are different it would be nic...

Ü  It is the loop for the loops sake. You listen to it until you can't remember  How many times you have listened to it It is called lateral repetitions I don't need an emotional wringer I have had enough  More of my share already What could be so secret about the election  That they had to redact all that information? She plays Lucy with the football. It is her empowerment. She is never going to stop. I see children and people strung out on lead. They either have no respect for you, Or they think they own you. You are a demographic. Have you ever tried to be an individual? Go ahead See what happens to you. It is good to jam It is better than driving  You dissipate yourself Is it a sin to assert yourself as an individual? You never break new ground  If people don't go their own way. Do their own thing. It is supposed to be some grand fun thing, And it is not apparently the root o...

Please don't talk about medication like that It is inappropriate  In evolutionary terms It was only yesterday we were worshiping idols I don't know what is being fought over Or who's side I am on, But as long as that damn door is open, There is a war going on. Sanity is fluid At best it is made of glass We are just rejected people  That is the sad irony of it all I want to be creative enough  That it is their loss if they are going to sit on me I consider it might be the valley of the shadow of death I can't go back Give me a few minutes everyday And listen and to whatever you want to It is called jamming. There are beings that don't belong on this plane That need you to believe in them If there ain't no rules There ain't no contracts either  I ain't against nobody I am just for the middle ground Am I to follow her wherever she goes? Am I to accept what she has assigned for me? I have been broken  I am not scared to be alone anymore  I don't think th...

It The  Observation is more than a tool? I would do proud Mary But I don't remember how I did it. I am lazy I want to jump right in and create something  Say what you want, But at least it's not stuck in my head anymore. I wanted to skip the learning curve, But I guess there is still a curve. Jasmine used to do that with me, I would pose something that made complete sense And she would argue with me about it I couldn't help her because she wouldn't listen. I know what is wrong with my technique now. People used to play guitar. But they played much better than anyone on MTV And they were not getting anywhere    Damn I guess John didn't want to be outdone. Apparently there is an art to not knowing what you are covering. I have listened to revolver the most I like abbey road but a lot of it seems undone 85 was different from 95 was different from 97 was different from 2000 GarageBand is the VisiCalc for the iPad. I wish I had come to it sooner. I have nothing to lose b...

  Earth one got sucked up into a black whole and ended up on the bottom of the Petri dish. Our enemies are nameless They want us to be angry They want us to be confused  No president could face down such criticism  What is going to happen to the office of president? Is every president going to face such criticism? Is every campaign going to have an insurance policy? I like to upload, But I am not a big Internet person anymore  Be positive  Do good  Make a contribution  It was too repetitive  It wasn't tight enough because it would only take one completely absurd individual to screw up the whole thing This stuff is difficult to read. I really thought I was making a contribution. I am coming around. I understand why people don't write this way. Apparently there is an argument And we can't know what the argument is Or It would compromise the investigation. There is nothing to give in to. It is chemi...

If you are going to be a stranger because I said this, Or didn't say that, Just forget about it. I don't clearly remember that argument. I know it happened  But I don't remember clearly what was said. Anger over murderous nut cases is being directed towards me. Go south See who your Friends are Some 14th century fox reality show. If it is going to burn through Hollywood  If it is going to burn through Washington  It's not going to stop for a pink curtain  You don't run edge on a roku I don't understand what she hoped to accomplish. I wish I had never said anything. I would have been better off. His choice was to be alone  Put the music up front And the television in the background  Have I said that before? Probably made a complete fool of myself Silly to think I could make any contribution  But I am glad y'all still had that stuff I hardly know what epr is anymore Everyone...

It You You IJYou  Apparently if you don't vote gender  If you don't vote race You are being duped. Professor Hawking did it. I guess that is why we have a tournament. The republicans presented too many candidates The democrats nominated the wrong candidate And that's how we got Trump Her thought is on demographics. She doesn't care about the individual. I am an individual. There is nothing that can be done about it. I am sorry if that overturns the apple cart. I tried to fit into a demographic and I failed miserably. It is a bubble, get over it. I don't have a tribal identity. This is what would happen to a viable aberrant If there was one. This is what things would look like If there was something different about me. I think they like playing with single celled organisms It seems, for some, God is about winning arguments, And for some, it seems, God is the argument that can't be argued against. The argument of all arguments. Maybe it's about ending argument...

NHFR I think time goes slower when you smoke. What is seamless integration? I'm sorry, But the NRA needs to be proactive. Don't forget... It is very easy to become an irresponsible threat to society. People are going to forgo getting mental health services. If they aren't already. Don't feel smug, it can never happen to you. Because it can. I am dumbfounded it was felt that needed to be done, I guess I don't understand  The only thing it has done is push me closer to God. I have seen armed guards at the supermarket. Wasn't the FISA court supposed to be about terrorists? It is best to be parochial and grounded. It's an LL Cool J video  Biggest video since thriller. I choose Miami Dolphins to win Super Bowl LIII I am not an expert But although some medications may alleviate psychosis I fear some may introduce causality reversal I was right about my tensor tympani  I fear I am going to be right about this too One percent of anything can be bad news. Avoid group...

You You You You IYou  Plant a tree every single Sunday And eventually you have a grove And for a while, maybe, you won't need  This is not about etiquette. There are very serious issues about gender roles And our philosophy. I understand how planting might work But I don't understand what damage it might do. Is it  better than sitting on bottlenecks? Voodoo works better when it's yours. Or I if God gave it to you. They are in the business of selling insurance policies. We were in a big universal joke. It might alleviate a bottleneck? It is a recovered memory  I was a small child The left shoves stuff too. It was an act of desperation Like a beached whale. They can't fix society  So they treat the individual  And so the individual must solve the problems. I feel I have been locked in a closet, And forced to rediscover relativity. We need to solve these problems, Or we are going to end up under shariah law. We can't keep taxing the individual for societal pro...

IUIt You You ,I I was willing to accept I was schizophrenic in 1985. There are a lot of cousin Kevins out there who think it's funny. I don't know what else I could have done. Don't play with me like that. It is a cousin Kevin It's not doing any good. Because I think, that's why. I am sorry if that is a problem for you. I was already in salvage mode. It wasn't the phone call I planned to make. You insist you can't do anything, But it's your book, You wrote it. The whole future David Mallory thing is yours. Ignore what you think you know Treat it as the first time and it will be It would be contrived  It would be fake for me to respond in that manner. Channel the anger. Make the anger work for me. People go through years of therapy to learn how to solve things without their fists. If you are this way They are going to want you that way If you are that way This way In the end it's all about control You can't win. It's reductionist  I don't ...

IYou You You IYou You I BY It's like drinking the ocean There is never more than a couple hours  Before the stones start falling  I've been down Broad St once. It goes on forever. When they start talking about me on CNN That is the beginning of the end Let's hope that never happens. I feel like one of Harry Mudd's Robots  She wants me to blow a circuit I just want my sanity. It wasn't what she wanted. She would have found a reason to end it. Why do I need you? I caused the Big Bang. You are always going to be expecting something. It is never going to be enough with you. If you don't want the same things You let go, you move on But you won't let me You think you are saving the world from an axe murderer or something. Time travel is always a desperate act. So is listening to the radio. It just feels foreign to me, And it is. You are into heavy metals. I am not. I don't see how they can diagnose people, When they don't even know what normal is. I'm ...

This I'm Don't  Imagine the universe was a video game And if you wanted to save your place The system would give you a number. How big would that number have to be  To save everything? I don't need proof to entertain something. Just because I entertain something, Doesn't mean I believe it. Sometimes my understanding is like a jigsaw puzzle. It's all important if it fits or not. Baptize yourselves. Don't fight over who is real and who is not. I am always at the bottom, And it's always my fault Men suffer too. Am I alone in my own skin? I think they like my self deprecating personality. I don't think they like people who are looking for a Nobel prize over this. How much longer are things going to remain polite? I expected something  This was far beyond what I expected. Actually Henrico county is at the forefront of community treatment. You guys are reading this because we are out in the community. There have always been people who are more paranoid than de...

It It II I T It was a long time ago a long time ago. She sees the world a certain way, and I can't get her to stop. If it wasn't for the grace of God, I would have died from broken heart syndrome a long time ago. I remember years of going to Wendy's by myself, It was good to finally have someone to go to Wendy's with. But it was never going to be more than that. I don't know why yzax affects my sexuality, It just does. Revelation is like the telomerase. I guess we see what the market is going to do  Are they in the position to hold the government hostage? Why should she rely on what I remember anyway? She is going through it too. I have resentment towards women I have serious memory problems And I am socially inept What is whackanomics? It would imply circular logic is real, And people have serious problems with that. I am self absorbed and self important It seems to me to suggest, The arrow of time might be anthropic Everybody is strung out on lead, That is what I ...

It never occurred to me. It just was not an option. I thought I had the freedom to be who I wanted to be. God games are bad for your health. God games don't have to be played on a computer. I am guilty. A lot of schizophrenics are playing God games with themselves. It is difficult to stop a god game When the doors are open That means war is going on? It looks like we are going to have to take it on the chin, Before China is going to do anything. I don't see the future. The future sees me. http://blackboxvoting.org/fraction-magic-1/ Is it better to be in denial about it? Am I to be an unknowing fool? What is willful ignorance? The information itself decides who can be read in And who cannot. Does pertinence matter? https://soundcloud.com/meglodave/my-song-6

This past Monday I bought a used computer at a thrift store. I went to Walmart to buy a patch cord to connect my vga monitor to the dvi outputs but they did not have one. So I went to OfficeMax and they did, but it cost more than the computer did. But I bought it anyway. I got it home was locked out at a password prompt. I thought about it, and I read up on it. I tried to run an installation disc, but I couldn't get the system to boot from the DVD drive. I did not have a keyboard that had the right connector, so I went to target to get that. When I got back home, I was playing hell trying to get the system to go into cmos. Struggling with that, I discovered you could get into it by holding the shift key while clicking restart. Having discovered that I found I could also revert to previous versions of Windows that way too.  So I tried it and it worked. The system booted into windows 8. Of course I had to update it before I could install 8.1 and, after a little hacking, I got the 600...