Average Inner Blog

He couldn’t stop smoking and masturbating So he made excuses for himself  You can’t force yourself to bond with someone  I finally settled that I was beaching myself. Actually reading the Bible helped, Even if it wasn’t the KJV Why do I think life is supposed to make sense? Nobody else seems to. It is something worse. He likes to perform miracles, And getting involved in individual lives. I really enjoyed Trish and Kennedy. I hope they come back. Coronaviruses are zoonotic, which means they're transmitted  between animals and people .  Although the number of households who own a  cat  or  dog  as a  pet in Korea  are growing, it is undeniable that it is still a new concept here. http://seoulsync.com/lifestyle/owning-a-pet-in-korea Because I seem to remember the cats killed a bat It is what I was craving at the moment  It’s not mine to produce  There is a new d...

You think government knows the truth? What makes you think they now more than we do? They are never going to endorse ancient alien theory. We are lucky to have it on television. Is it the same as everyone else, Or is there something different about it? It was just number salad. Well, It wouldn’t be the first time one of my salads  Ended up meaning something  I guess it is the oops you can’t do that song. I am not going to do rock and guitar, If they are going to give me a hard time. Hearing Party Girl in my head for three days. I wanted to have my a+ certification, But I thought if I was going to spend that kind of money to learn something, I would rather it be music. Is the president going to gloat? They have to bring in generators Because the power ain’t right. I want less industry And more community  If I wasn’t getting a paycheck, Maybe I would be more serious about it. Society has just decided...

I am insane. I hold on because I have to. I don’t spend a lot of time Thinking about what others are thinking. I don’t know as I ever, Will truly get out of C. Confusion is an industry  You are talking about people who have no qualms about killing Americans  In uniform or not. I remember being terrified Reagan was going to cause wwiii Then we got the gulf war and it lasted 6 weeks Schizophrenia is the new leprosy To keep passing the test? To never fail? Don’t count your chickens  I remember 91 How is she going to go back up and get her truck I might have had a chance 20 years ago, But the probability of me bonding with someone  The way I am supposed to Is slim to none I am always on the bottom  It is always my fault I deserve better than that The doctor didn’t diagnose me with schizophrenia or autism, Because he thought I would not try. Well I did try. If you are getting drowsy, You go stand in the back of the room You know, It’s caffeine withdrawal. Do you have...

I know I need a beginning, a middle, and an end. I am working on it. Why does politics take all of our free time? Aren’t we supposed to be producing something? Consumption  Entertainment Replacements Even music is for money laundering  God forbid you call anybody out. They cancel your ass. How do they deploy star gates to begin with? The lower the frequency  The less directional it is. So you put the bass in the center  What is going to happen to deplorable assets like me? You end up crazy sad and alone. Why should we have a mitochondrial ancestor? Our species is defined by a mitochondria? How many other species are that way? Excuse me but that’s a big deal. In some nations, they tell you what you are going to be. We don’t allow people to be Ghandi anymore. It is all a bold faced lie. I am not liked. I am taking everyone back to the stone ages. We crossed the continental divide, And al...

From my experience There is less litter  And cleaner air Maybe I could not be responsible with the information, But they should not have told me to prove it. The idea of proof should have never come up. I can see how an autistic person Might be mistaken as toxic personality  Milk us to death and leave us with a dead cow. The brain may be a quantum computer  But dna isn’t quantum I wouldn’t be surprised if they did it 2 or 3 times. Why did people delight in that happening to me? I don’t understand why people spend hours trying to find me. Americans are naive and self centered. We are being steered toward an electoral revolt. They are going to drive us off a cliff Like a heard of buffalo. What do I have to do to get attention around here? It was the first movie we saw together? I have had formulative experiences that I cannot undo. It is part of who I am, And I cannot divorce myself from it. I guess th...

Holding me to what would be an academic standard is not realistic. I tried to use physics to explain my own psychology I don’t understand the work But I do feel like a bottleneck  I don’t even understand my own journal  I guess that is dangerous  It is not encouraged to write this way I could use some editing. It is just me. This is straight from my iPad  Cultural zero days are big money. I didn’t know the bottleneck thing was an established theory. I considered I was the bottleneck. Like it never even happens. What is the importance of the Bible, In the life of Christians? I have an opinion, but I take it’s none of my business. The random digit is not the first one, but the second. The first one is always going to be. It is the second that you have a choice in the matter. What your first step is, Depends on what you want your second step to be. Where you fly to. Depends on where you want to land. Where you go to, depends on where you want to end up. If weather offic...

It is a foreign consciousness That doesn’t want us to think. We are only informed to willow us out. I remember telling I was going to play the computer  When I was 50 I told a lot of things. We had an argument over whether the computer was an instrument or not. Autochords You have to know the chords to be able to fool around with them. I don’t think there is a product on the market, That hasn’t involved reverse engineering  Somewhere in its development. I miss the old 8 bit computers you bought at toys r us. It is an ongoing research project. We don’t need the power we have To do the things we do. I do have a tendency to play everything too fast. Artifacts seem to happen when I slow stuff down. Thank you for giving me placement. Watermarks or artifacts? I guess they don’t want folks massaging stuff and reselling it. People liked Polaroid  Because you didn’t have to worry About getting it developed  I am miles further than you give me credit for...

Maybe it should take two or three people to buy a gun. I don’t care what it sounds like. It makes me feel better. A lot of people think mental illness is a character issue. That there is something the individual can do about it. I feel like I have robbed a bank. The whole thing is just wide open. I have been listening to Shania Twain And Lindsey Sterling  Artists have been taken of for advantage for centuries. Mental health is treated like heartburn. It is not. People think you can take a pill, And the whole problem goes away. It doesn’t. Google hardly gives me anything at all. If it doesn’t push me to myself, What is it pushing to other people? Bing pushes me to myself. Other people are going to take the idea and run with it. No one is going to know where it came from. Wouldn’t be the first time. I would probably flip out anyway. I probably have a reputation for flipping out. I thought the test was about Earth. I thought the test was about America. I didn’t know the test was about...

I am fairly confident, We will never encounter, Another Newtonian civilization. Hopefully we won’t lose it, Before we realize how valuable it is. If you are immune, And everyone else has a disease, You are the one being difficult. You are supposed to be sad, The world is sad, How can you be happy when the world is so sad? You minus well be a fruit fly. I have it, I need to find a place to put it. New York  Social Security Numbers .   Social Security Numbers  issued to New York  fall between 050-xx-xxxx and 134-xx-xxxx. It was in the apple loop that way. I had the idea that people would mark it up and pass it around, But I guess they felt it would make the net unnavigable. It is the fold that matters. 16 is not folded in 3. It shows up when it is represented in a different way. I expect people to just accept things. It splits into two groups of three fours. Three different types of symme...

Why can’t people learn to film in landscape? How do male calicos happen? Somebody needs to stand up. Customs and Border Protection is not a relief agency. Time is going to blame all of us. Many Americans feel, How they vote, Is the sole determinant, Of what side of history they will be on. We need to start cooperating now. Am I being too partisan? I don’t want to be in the situation, That many more die, Because we won’t cooperate.  I doubt you are going to hear it from anyone else. All we needed was one more push, And we would have been over the edge. I am holding no great wisdom. You should be proud of your performance, It was very good. I don’t know what makes people consider preposterous things. It seems to come with age. Would you have believed it when the world made sense? Why do you believe it now? How does it pertain to other people? Do they need it? What is more likely? Quantum bubbles Or old age. It is out there. You can believe it if you want to. They see an unpopular pre...

There is a border there. Just like there is a border with Mexico. It is not bizarro superstition. We have been given a gift. People need to decide if they accept it or not. There is a plethora of bizarro superstitions out there. What I have been through is not illegitimate. It was released. It is like lithium. It is old. People get angry when you challenge what they justify themselves with. The medication just establishes a new normal. It doesn’t fix anything. A cut and paste virtuoso  I apologize  For me it is about who is doing it right And who is doing it wrong  It is a blowout  It is not a hierarchical thing I thought the computer would be attached to my brain And I would be able to play anything I heard in my head  But this is ok They are going to beg this president to go to war Before it’s all over with. Who cares if they shoot down drones. Let China pay for it. War would split the coalition against them War is in their interest  Not ours If sanctions...

I like Kennedy. She could tell me to vote for hermit the frog. Atypical men get a lot of hassle. Men ain’t supposed to be atypical. It is ugly. Men are men, you know? We are all the same. Atypical men get it from everyone. I thought if I was in a relationship, The harassment would stop. It doesn’t. It doesn’t really matter what you are atypical about. And it snowballs into other things. Critical teraflops are being wasted on you. This is government in America. It has been like this for decades. People are separated by what, or who, they choose to ignore. This was 1995 I don’t know what led me to believe America was under attack I am sorry It is an Easter egg effect. People like the idea that they have found something  I was self important. I needed somebody’s attention. I am flattered that I have anything in the wayback machine But it would be nice if it was something I wrote  If your candidacy was going to end up Getting someone undesirable elected, Would you withdraw? Men do...

You should use it for poetry and song. She is so sold She is sold on everything  It has been supplanted  You can use a computer for computational space Or use it for what Asimov called “twisting” I think “cowbirding” is viable. I think it can be mutually beneficial, And I think the computational space thing Is being done already  Either God is giving me gifts  Or I am a sorcerer. I don’t pretend to know which one. If it is threatening, Why did they develop the internet, And personal devices to begin with? My mom and dad raised me, That no one really knows until judgement day. And that it’s the ones that think they know, That you have to watch out for. People get their head stuck in a book, And they forget how to love each other. The love of Jesus doesn’t require a book. Apparently God’s anger doesn’t either. “We are always at war.  Peace is a bourgeois illusion.” If you are upset about it, You don’t understand the way things are. We don’t control the information...

A brainwashed R2-D2 I pre think stuff all the time, Does that mean I am the originator? I am not going to have surgery  So I can cross my knees Information only comes from legitimate sources? I know it’s not palatable  But to deny it happens is false It is scary You believe what you are told Information from the ether is unacceptable  Adding 2+2 was my doing, I make my own inference  Forbid  Reverse phraseology is not real, Individuals don’t receive information from it, To believe otherwise is delusional. Some Catholic Jew boy with the name Mallory was unacceptable? Leave it alone. Let it settle out. How do I know pointing at her, Wasn’t the reason she was mean at me to begin with. “Clozaril has kept me in a game, I would be more than willing to lose.” People make an industry  Of us pointing fingers at each other Two times Applied together Cut the time in half What is paral...

Some people have opinions about stuff that can’t be shaken. They are terriers. They won’t let go till the rats dead. It is masochistic to even be interested in these people. People have no respect for asexuals  Most don’t even consider it possible  Some of the strongest opinions people have Is about sexuality  It is difficult  You don’t understand what it means to be sexual. There are many who would gladly be asexual  It is a gift. What I can interpret  I can not live that way. I just shoved my hand in the rack and pulled her out Trump is going to “win” And this is the way things are going to be done from now on. By what standard is anyone going to win? It will be the Donald Trump playbook from now on. I considered Venezuela to be part of mesoamerica People have been watching this for years, Waiting for someone to do something  I thought Mesosmerica was different than Central America...

People are going to drive themselves  And brew their own tea I starting to believe I can brew tea It is turning into a whole tea ceremony  The can was kicked  That is all I am going to say about it Why is it so important? You win another day. We are getting a sideshow. I need to be quiet about it. They can’t even get adequate housing, And we are worried about whether they can vote? Everyone is nimby about where these people live, And we are worried about their voting rights? Do they have an opinion? Or do they live and die statistics? If you lie or don’t participate in polls or encourage others not to, Are you attacking our democracy?   Would you have people in jail? You can’t have an opinion without a dissertation. We tell you what your opinions are. Do you hide behind issues you don’t really care about, Just because you want to win? What is winning? Who benefits if you win? We might determine who is right and who is not, But I don’t think anyone is going to win. It...

Yeah and it ain’t her either They tried to put the president in a paranoid tail spin. They thought they could jet wash the president. It was the Spanish Armada  It was millennial hysteria  Move on Get over it Clearly something did not go her way He had problems keeping his composure  They are terriers It is clearly a political thing now Go fry an egg I think Attorney General Barr is trying to heal the country  There is no good to be had in pursuing impeachment  Media outlets have vested their sacred honor to bring down this president  I fear the roads we are headed down  They can’t do a u-turn It just ain’t going to happen A great deal of political capital has been spent  It is not just going to go away The president does not have to prove he is innocent. If they are going to charge him, they need to go ahead and do it. Wasn’t there something about a speedy jury? Why does the president have less protection than I do? You don’t get to be president ...

Nowadays it isn’t enough to protest once or twice. You need to live a life of protest. And even then the line is long waiting for you to drop out, And take your place. Fall afoul and see what your opinion is. Their own arrogance that it was never going to happen, Is what brought it about. I think they doubled down on a perjury trap that didn’t materialize. It is more than equation that can not be solved  It implies all of our equations are humanistic. Tone tone semitone tone tone tone semitone  I like the idea that it is local and fresh, But I can’t drink Budweiser  Gives me a headache. Is it just me, Or does it go through the hoop faster than it used to Would you want to work with someone like me? People expect me to turn green.   I need to be careful  I have severe paranoia I need to draw lines I don’t want to be the Bjork creep thank you for life Telling me to wake up hoo wah It’s not...

This is what happens when you watch too much Ancient Aliens Revelation is there to protect you from this stuff The idea was people would mark it up and pass it around  Single notes do sound a little harsh I could be a priest  I wouldn’t hurt the kids It is like a game of free cell they can’t let go of They are determined to solve it They are so determined everything is solvable, They are ruining my life. I wish it was a hand of free cell, Then we could prove it unsolvable, And that would be the end of it. Just because you can’t be beat, Doesn’t mean you are unavoidable    agile acid   do you fit the bill   afghanbd2 I had my love affair with socialism  If you discovered zero how would you explain it to people? Would everyone want you to?   Let someone talk long enough  And they will contradict themselves    ageless wobble What can I say? I like Kitaro....

You should have seen what Evergreen Cemetery looked like 30 years ago. We may lose the southwest to Aztlan Some want to see a graceful decline of America Agendas need to be made plain America is a social, political, economic and environmental failure? A racist and homophobic hoard is standing in the way of global socialism? IfllI wish I didn't have thoughts like this. Forgive me, there are people who feel that way https://www.icloud.com/iclouddrive/0sQ-FqPyklvInyl_KBwffHbfQ#win2019 I have been trying for years to figure out how to do that Every since they took Opaque Burger down. What I really want is to share my GarageBand projects Let me know if it works or not. I want people to be able to easily listen to my improvisations as loops. Things don’t seem to be set up to do that. They are not songs. They are improvisations. They are never going to be played on the radio. I am never going to perform them to an audience. They are not structured ...