Average Inner Blog

I don't feel so bad. Some hobo invented the blues 100 years ago, and nobody knows who he was. I am just a little kid, digging up roots, building a bypass around a tree, I don't know what I am doing. This is beyond cause. I have turned the other check several times. This shit needs to stop. This shit could be settled right now. Whatever transpires now is beyond cause. It means you are shoving somebody who is out of bounds. I was stupid to think hangups would amount to anything. She is too guarded. I wanted her to open up. Word verification caused time reversal and I had a natural reaction to it. Mathematical activity calms the sun down? Uncertainty is good for the sun? She deserves more. I wish I could give it to her. Ronnie really messed her up. She has probably been through hell just being my sister. I don't care what happens to me. I just want average people to not have to deal with this shit. I just don't want other people to go through what I went through. Satan is ...

I felt encouraged to make something, and nothing ever came of it. It is all upside down and backwards. I couldn't have Blue Lagoon with a woman, so I had Blue Lagoon with my music. I don't think anyone understands that shit. I know it is crazy. I know you can't live that way. It is my driving compulsion. I want things first hand, or as if as I can get. I understand the need for the scientific method, but it caused brinksmanship. It is important to know if it is a natural universe or not, I agree with you, but the only proof is what you are capable of. It was a natural reaction to time reversal. I can see where things would build to the point someone would claim to be God. Living forever is touching so many lives your life review never ends. For me, it is easier to let go of the right than the left. If you cant get both hands going, get a small keyboard and flip it over. it doesn't have to stay like that. once you get things going hopefully you can flip it back. If I wan...

You need to chase lemons. You need to tie knots. You need to bust the game. That shit belongs on the other side of the river. You got to cross the bridge before you get into that shit. I wouldn't say I was blameless, but the codec is the main thing that happened to her. Why do I worry about the real world? Nobody else does. In fact they seem to be in a head long rush to do away with it. They just say mine is different from everyone else's. They say I steal worlds and stitch them to the bang. It is like setting your watch. Isn't that what you are supposed to do? If it is to be mastered, they will master it. They will go on and off bang at will. I am trying to explain it to you. It is a natural reaction to time reversal. You gotta make sure time is going in the right direction. It is called "off the bang" because the arrow of history doesn't point to the bang. When it does point to the bang it is called "on the bang" The alternate realities should alre...

If I was doing my best and working for one dollar, and they drug me before congress, I'd tell them to go screw themselves. These are retention bonuses people. These are groups that AIG is shutting down. The only money these people are working for practically is the bonus. How else are they going to retain people in positions that are to be eliminated shortly? Market capitalism works on the job market too. I wouldn't tolerate this crap. I come out of retirement, and for the sake of my country take a job and a 1$ to do it, and now they are talking about criminal attorneys. This is why the government shouldn't run companies. People worry too much about other people's opinions. Let them get angry. Let them laugh at you. I am insensitive. All I think about is myself. They know the government is messing with me, so they are messing with the government. I think people underestimate what an IQ of 60 is capable of. My opinion? I think they let it happen to find out who our frien...

I used the same method to generate a list of prime numbers. I didn't realize I was doing such important stuff. God I probably could of got a scholarship to MIT for that. I set up flags for the basic rules then set up an array for the rest. You have my permission to do wendy's How was I supposed to know I was outdoing MIT? I was just fiddling around. I didn't know. I have no idea where that shit is now. that was in 88. Is there any doubt it is me? What am I supposed to do? please lets have a reunion I am sorry I am a fuckup Both of you have so much strength, confidence, and motivation. I am creative, but I lack those things. I guess I wanted her to take me under her wing, and take me places. I knew she was going somewhere, and I wanted to tag along. I didn't like radio. It made me nervous. I had to get away from it. I never had any radio ambition. I took the course cause they black balled me from the stage. I didn't expect the mike fright and the paranoia. I didn...

I am not a sexual predator. I don't know how to be one. I wouldn't want to be one anyway. I couldn't fill that role if I tried. Does that mean I had a bad mother? I didn't know this was a friggen mountain. I thought I was free to have it the way I wanted it. Everyone wants to make my mother out to be the antichrist. When it comes to mapping and polarization, damn right I am going to be obstructionist. You say too often I am the problem. You say this needs to be done. but its not my fault you are living with lemons. I don't care if it needed to be done or not. They were messing with me and they know it. I have been through the gauntlet. I don't have the energy to deal with this crap anymore. Y2K happened sweetheart. Us breaking up is a big deal to them. I cant stay here much longer. I am scaring the living crap out of everybody. I don't remember what I wrote. It is probably secret anyway. The effect is it calls itself, but it doesn't really do that. it fl...

whatever it was it started on October 1 2008 and ended February 15 2009 something happened on the 15th. I wish I could wear the uniform again. I would go to Iraq in a heartbeat. The only proof I have is what I am capable of. I don't think this is going to be resolved without conflict. Moving around in four dimensions does something. Its an actualization. I know you think there is no such thing as the real world. I know you think men that do this are angry at women. but it has moved beyond that now. The only proof I have is what I am capable of. Can brinkmanship cease for a moment? Maybe I am angry at women but that doesn't change anything. I have still done something unallowed. I praise her. She could of got me kicked out the program, but she didn't. I probably wouldn't have graduated without them. A program crashes when it does something unallowed. I am free to do all sorts of unallowed stuff. It is not just Dave's little world. Dave has done something unallowed. O...

Satan is real and the medicine is not fair play. You think some piece of paper is going to get you off the hook of civil disobedience, you are wrong. Because they think some piece of paper is going to solve it, and the problem is bigger than that. Satan does that shit. I took it upon myself to explain to people who are atheist or agnostic what God and Creation are about. God is there because game theory doesn't belong, and Creation is a world that comes out of information theory. Satan wants to make this about me, but it isn't about me. This is Grace. This was a natural reaction to time reversal. They laughed at me for wanting to be Ghandi. There is serious pressure to leave your values around here. Our generation is screwy. We came up at a time where everything was known, Where everything had been done. There was no frontier. You got laughed at if you turned the other cheek. Everybody wanted to have a good time. Nobody wanted to tackle anything more serious than presidential k...

smoke and stare at the flag smoke and stare at the president smoke and stare at aunt jemima Love your President. Wish good to him. If I could do the math, I'd be big. I am a clown. Nobody takes me serious. I know it sounds crazy, but that is how I got original developments. If she wanted me to be warm, I wish she would just knit some socks. Women can move on and forget about people. I wish I could do that. Its better. I couldn't have jumped 9 cars if I were still backward. We are not in my matrix. I use it, along with other things, to point the arrow of time. I don't like regular people. I think they are sex obsessed, materialistic, and shallow. There is so much pressure to give up what you believe in around here. You can't jump 9 cars backwards, that would be a feat. It was over when we went to Williamsburg. We were under time reversal, and everyone was dumb to it but me and Pookie. This has been the longest 6 months of my entire life. I am never going to be anything. ...

We are on the other side of two 9's. We shouldn't have to worry about anything for a while. It was an interpretation error. I thought I belonged to the order of Melchisedec . We got a little taste of heaven. I am just going to worry about the floor. That burning shit is yall's business. I am cold, and I am going to stay cold. I fall for the floor. I believe in the floor. There is another Bible here for somebody. It is the phrasing of the Good News Bible. I took it personally. I fought the voices who told me I was Jesus, but when the Bible said that I just accepted it. I don't know I can't find it. the Bible said "You are a priest of the order Melchisedec, and I am not taking no for an answer." I wasn't thrilled. I am not bragging. I didn't even know what it was. I just took it personally. You would think if you wanted to change the Bible, You would have to go back to where it was written. But God can change anyone's Bible at anytime. And Yours ...

If you are giving people trouble, sleep on the floor. If you have jumped 9 cars, you need to sleep on the floor. On the ground or as close as you can get to it. I can't talk this shit to the psychiatrist. She just totally writes this shit off. All I can tell her is I am being risky and impulsive. She doesn't understand this jumping cars business. They call it OCD. They give it no validity at all. People are slamming doors and screaming and I don't know what to do. All I can do is sleep on the floor. They don't know what to do with someone whose magic works. Weird shit happens on the sofa. They are living in worlds out of psychology, and they don't work. They are lemons. I am supposed to make a leap of faith to California. Isn't that sick? It is sad and pathetic. I am not going to California. I know where my bread is buttered. It means I am rediscovering Shinto. It is as if I were with a team of virgins reverse engineering Shinto. Wait, don't panic, be respon...

What am I Adolf Mallory? I guess I should have gone into the church. Blame psychiatry. I couldn't do this shit without the medicine. You don't know. You weren't there. In my experience it isn't a good thing. I was preyed on by dangerous spirits who get off on the shit. Don't you want me? There are nations on this earth that would give their left nut for someone like me. Is the glass half empty? Or is the glass half full? I know. It is like blaming the father for child birth. I know. You want to go through it quickly and painlessly. Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read. This shit was set in motion in 1781 people. Eventually someone was going to end up in control who wasn't elected. The whole thing was set up that way. Blame them. It was set up to be the best Government on earth until the Kingdom of Heaven came. I am trying to be non political. but yall need a history lesson. How did Washington put it? "The best Government we could have until angel...

It is all dark. Some people struggle with it, and others don't. Nirvana struggles with it, Metallica doesn't. John struggles with it, Paul not as much. You know when you hear it. The Who struggles with it, Led Zepplin and Pink Floyd don't. The Psychedelic Furs struggle with it, The Sex Pistols don't. David Lee Roth doesn't struggle with it. Eric Clapton struggles with it. Ted Nugent Doesn't. You either struggle with it or you don't, and it pretty much stays that way. It is hard to name an actor who struggles with it. Playwrights and poets struggle with it, but I can't think of a single actor who struggles with it. It just isn't their job. It is hard to make the act more than it is. NASA debated for years on who they should send into space, before they settled on test pilots. I can jump 9 cars anytime I want to. If that's not real, I don't know what is. I know it causes trouble, but it is a good thing. It means we are going forward instead of ...

I have been through 25 years of absolute hell. I am ok now. I have turned around. You have to turn around. You have to forget about it. In the end you have done it to yourself. You have to let go of the past. It does no good to ruminate. I guess I needed a major thing to happen in my life. Wow, I didn't know the world could be like this. I don't know. It is just different. Something major has happened. I was stuck in my own mind. People are having terrible nightmares. They need to know how to turn around. It is a math prescription. It was a natural reaction to time reversal. I am having a think explosion. It works on the principle of the "many world dilemma". People need not be David Mallory anymore. Strawberries should be a math prescription controlled by the FDA. It is going to take decades before this type of medicine is fully appreciated. be responsible with it. If you have to do an extraction, do an extraction. It makes no sense to just take care of one or two th...

They live in a whatever can go wrong will go wrong world. They will never create anything bullet proof that way. They don't understand Creation. They think they can just write some software and turn it on. You cannot. I mean maybe you can but it would not be worth living in. That is where I come in. I make sure the absolute worse happens every time, Cause I don't want people living with lemons. I know you think you are entitled. I know you think you have the right, but you cant just through some GUT in there and turn the damn thing on. It doesn't work that way. I am telling you they are friggen roach traps. They don't work. We don't understand Creation, and I don't know when if ever we will understand it. It is a type of world. It involves information. Setting up bottlenecks. I don't know. They freak out when people start talking about Creation. The best way I can describe it, is a world that comes out of information theory. Every day we stay here is my faul...

Planting a tree helps you think. A little Nobunaga, A little Solitaire, A little info set. I don't tell you right off cause I think it helps to figure it out for yourself. I have turned around. I am fighting the gravity thing. It is Satan's code. He gets off on the gravity shit. If it is fiction, you can take what you learn here and apply it somewhere else. He calls it love, but it is not, It is the damn gravity thing. You fight that gravity shit by planting trees. Satan's code is all backwards and messed up. He gets off on the gravity shit. He calls it love. You plant a tree in your mind. You talk. I don't give you everything at first. If you have read the Bible you already know. It is better if you come to it by yourself. You have to fight the gravity shit. God knows how to do it. Dave knows how to do it too. The gravity thing is the idea that there may be a plethora of world out there where the only thing different is what is going on in your mind. Satan gets off on ...

Wait, don't panic, be responsible, read, and plant a tree. There are advantages to being fictional. Cause I feel for people that are living with lemons, and I am in a position to do something about it. It is not easy to close a chapter of history. I am fighting a war with every physicist on the planet. I don't know. Whenever you talk about God or Grace they go into crisis mode. I know you see it as love or the world, I don't see it that way. I am Spock in the radiation room. Why do you torture me so? I am doing the right thing. People are living with lemons, and I am in the position to do something about it. I don't care if it is going to turn over everyone's reality, It needs to be turned over. I know. You are playing straight. You still want to know who this is. I talk to dead people. I am a walking twilight zone. Thank modern psychiatry. I know. You think too often I am the problem, but we will all be the better for it. If not me it is just going to be somebody e...

I knew you thought it didn't make sense. They think we can't tell natural from plastic. I told you I got stuck in the darn thing, and I used my reality to twist into a more natural world. You are pensive. I thought it meant hesitant. I don't know does it mean I am a computer if I use a word I don't know the definition of? "To err is human." God I must be an awful person for them to be so afraid of me. I am still taking a Turing test. I don't know. Do you want me to be mistaken? I don't like the world divine when it applies to me. I could care less whether it is fictional or not. I have been so many different people you want to know who this is. I can deal with that. I am talking with the dead. I know this must be difficult for you. I have had an information burn. You are right I am not fully human. If it were physical I would look like Darth Vader. I guess we know what it is for now huh? I got stuck in one of the rooms and I freaked out. Why did you do...

There is a bible here waiting for you. Maybe this is what happens when you keep turning it off. I guess this is the way Androids think about it. To me, How do I know? They are both doing the same thing. It is messed up. It is like they feed off our decisions. I don't think Jesus would do that. Damn psychiatry must think that shit is natural. People it doesn't happen to are sick. That is messed up. That is messed up. That is the major accomplishment? They are sick in the head. Don't slack a military education. I don't mean to be hateful towards Native Americans, but damn that shit needs to stop. I like the idea that if it is number one it is over with. Christianity needed a little Shinto. Don't forget. Grace makes it work. Now please stop playing cruel jokes on people. Without Grace it is superstition. If you feel the need to use a superlative, use "blessed" or "graced". It is like carrots and salt. They just go together. Together we plant a fores...

The heck with the Hopi, I don't care what they say. They play cruel jokes on people. They know who Satan is. They know who I am. They are not stupid. God can wipe their prophecy rock clean, and start it all over anytime he wants to. Christians can jump from tree to tree if need be. I will show them who received the light first. Friggen dickheads. Millions of people, can jump from tree to tree. I am not kidding around. They play cruel jokes on people, an it is going to friggen stop. I was an idiot. I was a fool. Don't listen to them. The prophecy rock has changed, and it can change, and it will change. Please stop playing hideous jokes on each other. The Christians love me, Cause I plant trees, and I don't play hideous jokes on people. Together we plant a forest every day. Money doesn't grow on trees. Their paradigm has ended and they don't like it. The Satanists should just take the zip unzip job and be happy with it. They told you this was going to happen, and you ...