Average Inner Blog

If you don't die well  It can send ripple effects Down your whole life It doesn’t do well for people to think they are being punished for days on end. America spent ten years and 12 million dollars developing a pen that would work in space, When Russia just used pencils. Millions didn’t sound big enough. I think they were both positioned. Frames drag Pressure builds  And somewhere it slips Was there involvement Or did it just happen that way? Whale noises van allen belt Like eating cookie dough  Boost your oximetry with folate? I put myself in the electorate, And President Trump did not win. Maybe next time. Don’t get me involved in this. It is not mine to win or lose. What is the alternative? What are we going to have a war every four years? Everyone has things they understand, That no one else seems to appreciate. More a description, than a solution. I am wondering if it is therapeutic. https://www.nm.org/about-us/northwestern-medicine-newsroom/nm-news-blog/power-of-mus...

It is passive dissonance  I am not here to change the definition, Of what is in key and what is not. It is my ears and they are a part of what is me. It has moments when it’s really out of it. I can compare one to another. It is the third or fourth that gets me. Can chemical imbalances be temporary? When do the training wheels come off? If you don’t think you can stop, Well that is something different altogether. More akin to being overweight than out of balance. That is what the tea leaves said, I am sorry. I guess cease and desist doesn’t mean anything to Trump. They were playing “Fortunate Son” when they were asked not to See your trusted professional  Why does bing think I am in Seattle? They wanted a platform where they could hold someone accountable. The borg have a more perfect union too. https://trumpstitution.tumblr.com/ She would have found a reason for me to be inadequate. Why did Virginia seem to handle the vote so well? I don’t know enough about music for me to cl...

Conspiracy zero Because it is the right thing to do I can’t speak that way, it is wrong. Sometimes I get up on the soap box, And start preaching to everybody. That is wrong. I shouldn’t do that. I don’t know as God wants to take the game this way. Was the fat head stuff better? I need the iPad  I can’t put 2 and 2 together without it. Why did my mother have to die without family, If nothing better came of it? I wish the best for the president. I hope he recovers. https://www.worldometers.info/geography/alphabetical-list-of-countries/ It was heartbreaking. My mother had dementia. She had no understanding what was going on. Her pleas still echo in my head. If you stop watching for 24 hours, And you still want to vote for this man, Go ahead. That is how I put it to myself. I did not mean to combat anyone. I don’t care who it is. If they lose you for 24 hours, They think they have lost you politically. I guess the confusion comes from my mother. My mother had an integrity crisis. If so...

Sometimes I work two hours on something  That sounded better in the first 15 minutes  Nobody is going to be a police officer anymore. We are going to have to draft people  I fear it is going to become a federal responsibility  And people are going to get drafted I hear that we need leadership, I hear that there is systemic racism, But what is the president’s role in a solution? There are no clear lines like there were in the 1860’s I fear an increase in federal authority  A power grab that isn’t going to help anyone. What is America going to look like after things get done? I told them to go south I told them don’t stop That change would require a life of protest  Let’s be real It might be put off another 4 years But short of an apocalypse  It’s the black community that is going to determine what America is going to become  There are plenty out there, Who would welcomingly court the apocalypse  Russia is white They would rather give it all to...

No attention to a key I can’t keep track of everything I am delusional about. Not playing enough notes to know what key it’s in. They made some comment on msnbc I didn’t like I am just saying, It has become a sad state of affairs, If this has become a blog of note. It was a left field observation that had nothing to do with her eligibility  The biggest obstacle to time travel, Is that the women are always right. Some bozo caused an accident  And the women had to take over They don’t know when to stop It’s not an anti Biden thing This is why I have thought maybe I shouldn’t vote. you   know   that   the   Most High   rules   the   kingdom   of   men   and   gives   it   to   whom   he   will http://www.jamaicaobserver.com/news/the-british-monarchy-8217-s-involvement-in-slavery-the-british-monarchy-8217-s-involvement-in-slavery_128602?profile=1096 Government certainly can’t fix the problem. Nothing i...

They think men can only solve things with violence. You are playing right into their psyop agenda. They will give you everything you want, Then they will take it all away. It is called Pump and Dump. They manufactured the issues 20 years ago. It is always a scenario. Are you ready for it? Violence is not going to win. It will just decide what the next scenario is going to be. They sell sundaes in Portland too. There are millions of people out there Waiting for something to do Obligated even If there was any promise in it, It has been worked out by now. If the goal is for everyone to be indispensable  We ain’t there yet. There is going to be civil conflict  And they are going to come to the rescue  And put us all on medication  Your not smart enough. Your just one person. It would take the second coming to stop this now. Can the federal government build communities? Is it the president’s job? The presidency is not some magical office that is going to solve everything....

Men went off to war and never came back, Even in a body bag, Or if they did, lame or addicted. They didn’t buy the farm either  Homes were foreclosed  Widows were evicted  Mind you women were considered frail back then We don’t get the story of reconstruction. That is what my father told me. If that is racist I guess I need to work on it. If it is organized and shared, It is not considered delusional. I like the idea of beef hotdogs, But I think the chicken and pork ones taste better. I don’t know. I am sure it means something. I want people to know, That the truth has nothing to do with it. What is a paranova? I feel disconnected from the sensitivities  Of the African American community. It just wasn’t in the front of my mind, Like Geico or Progressive. It is these corporations spending millions of dollars To be at the front of your mind That are the problem  Bunch of screen time junkies, Don’t even know how to make tea. You do things for yourself, You are invo...

I’ve been down this road. My indignation of what Christianity did to native peoples  ended with me getting seriously burned And that is what they want An atomic free for all Am I racist? Am I gay? That is the only thing people seem to care about. People can steer you, But at some point you have to feel that way, And I just never did. Ride down Floyd avenue. Visit the triangle. I was laughed at for wanting a nice bicycle  I don’t feel welcomed by the Democratic Party right now. sunday is going to turn those things around, and I don't know where we are going to be. They were dimensional markers to me. What about Colonial Williamsburg or Jamestown? I don’t know why I am reinventing algebra, There must be a reason. I feel I am procuring freedoms nobody wants. If you don’t love your country, Things go to shit for everybody. Basic algebra  Do you want to build  Or do you want to bring everything down? Where the heck is Biden? What does he ...

I guess I have failed to learn my lesson about violence and intimidation. People like to get in each other’s head And play with their emotions  Stop and buy gas in a black community. Stop and buy beer in a black community. Ride or skate through a black community. I might have nineteenth century opinions, But I am still here. Are white mobs actually going to do anything for black communities? When the white mob gets what they want, Is it going to empower black communities? White people duplicitous? Say it ain’t so. My concern would be, That they would take the monuments down, And they would stop there feeling they had done something. It is going to take more than just taking monuments down. I feel it would be largely symbolic, That it wouldn’t help or change anything. People have faults. People need to love one another. It is not going to stop white people, Selling their house when a black family moves into the neighborhood. What matters more? Black lives or property values? It is s...

How do you know what I am being rewarded with? Things are designed  If it stays with it We are going to have to rework the entire economy  If Money is killing people. What is the use of a house If it can’t weather a storm like this Would America have been criticized  If Ebola Reston had gone the wrong way? I don’t think I will ever go back to spending The way I used to spend People have been buying what I buy for months What is herd ignorance? If we are in the “matrix” Human diseases can be spread in the digital environment. A human virus spread by computer  Why not? They can make you taste lemons. You are a herd. You are stupid. You don’t think for yourself. I don’t think China cares one way or the other, They just want us to have a one party system like they do. The whole world is tired of a bipolar America. What do you think? I don’t want to see the death of the Republican Party. Or the Democratic Party  either. But I think we are going to play cooties for a ...

He couldn’t stop smoking and masturbating So he made excuses for himself  You can’t force yourself to bond with someone  I finally settled that I was beaching myself. Actually reading the Bible helped, Even if it wasn’t the KJV Why do I think life is supposed to make sense? Nobody else seems to. It is something worse. He likes to perform miracles, And getting involved in individual lives. I really enjoyed Trish and Kennedy. I hope they come back. Coronaviruses are zoonotic, which means they're transmitted  between animals and people .  Although the number of households who own a  cat  or  dog  as a  pet in Korea  are growing, it is undeniable that it is still a new concept here. http://seoulsync.com/lifestyle/owning-a-pet-in-korea Because I seem to remember the cats killed a bat It is what I was craving at the moment  It’s not mine to produce  There is a new d...

You think government knows the truth? What makes you think they now more than we do? They are never going to endorse ancient alien theory. We are lucky to have it on television. Is it the same as everyone else, Or is there something different about it? It was just number salad. Well, It wouldn’t be the first time one of my salads  Ended up meaning something  I guess it is the oops you can’t do that song. I am not going to do rock and guitar, If they are going to give me a hard time. Hearing Party Girl in my head for three days. I wanted to have my a+ certification, But I thought if I was going to spend that kind of money to learn something, I would rather it be music. Is the president going to gloat? They have to bring in generators Because the power ain’t right. I want less industry And more community  If I wasn’t getting a paycheck, Maybe I would be more serious about it. Society has just decided...

I am insane. I hold on because I have to. I don’t spend a lot of time Thinking about what others are thinking. I don’t know as I ever, Will truly get out of C. Confusion is an industry  You are talking about people who have no qualms about killing Americans  In uniform or not. I remember being terrified Reagan was going to cause wwiii Then we got the gulf war and it lasted 6 weeks Schizophrenia is the new leprosy To keep passing the test? To never fail? Don’t count your chickens  I remember 91 How is she going to go back up and get her truck I might have had a chance 20 years ago, But the probability of me bonding with someone  The way I am supposed to Is slim to none I am always on the bottom  It is always my fault I deserve better than that The doctor didn’t diagnose me with schizophrenia or autism, Because he thought I would not try. Well I did try. If you are getting drowsy, You go stand in the back of the room You know, It’s caffeine withdrawal. Do you have...

I know I need a beginning, a middle, and an end. I am working on it. Why does politics take all of our free time? Aren’t we supposed to be producing something? Consumption  Entertainment Replacements Even music is for money laundering  God forbid you call anybody out. They cancel your ass. How do they deploy star gates to begin with? The lower the frequency  The less directional it is. So you put the bass in the center  What is going to happen to deplorable assets like me? You end up crazy sad and alone. Why should we have a mitochondrial ancestor? Our species is defined by a mitochondria? How many other species are that way? Excuse me but that’s a big deal. In some nations, they tell you what you are going to be. We don’t allow people to be Ghandi anymore. It is all a bold faced lie. I am not liked. I am taking everyone back to the stone ages. We crossed the continental divide, And al...

From my experience There is less litter  And cleaner air Maybe I could not be responsible with the information, But they should not have told me to prove it. The idea of proof should have never come up. I can see how an autistic person Might be mistaken as toxic personality  Milk us to death and leave us with a dead cow. The brain may be a quantum computer  But dna isn’t quantum I wouldn’t be surprised if they did it 2 or 3 times. Why did people delight in that happening to me? I don’t understand why people spend hours trying to find me. Americans are naive and self centered. We are being steered toward an electoral revolt. They are going to drive us off a cliff Like a heard of buffalo. What do I have to do to get attention around here? It was the first movie we saw together? I have had formulative experiences that I cannot undo. It is part of who I am, And I cannot divorce myself from it. I guess th...

Holding me to what would be an academic standard is not realistic. I tried to use physics to explain my own psychology I don’t understand the work But I do feel like a bottleneck  I don’t even understand my own journal  I guess that is dangerous  It is not encouraged to write this way I could use some editing. It is just me. This is straight from my iPad  Cultural zero days are big money. I didn’t know the bottleneck thing was an established theory. I considered I was the bottleneck. Like it never even happens. What is the importance of the Bible, In the life of Christians? I have an opinion, but I take it’s none of my business. The random digit is not the first one, but the second. The first one is always going to be. It is the second that you have a choice in the matter. What your first step is, Depends on what you want your second step to be. Where you fly to. Depends on where you want to land. Where you go to, depends on where you want to end up. If weather offic...

It is a foreign consciousness That doesn’t want us to think. We are only informed to willow us out. I remember telling I was going to play the computer  When I was 50 I told a lot of things. We had an argument over whether the computer was an instrument or not. Autochords You have to know the chords to be able to fool around with them. I don’t think there is a product on the market, That hasn’t involved reverse engineering  Somewhere in its development. I miss the old 8 bit computers you bought at toys r us. It is an ongoing research project. We don’t need the power we have To do the things we do. I do have a tendency to play everything too fast. Artifacts seem to happen when I slow stuff down. Thank you for giving me placement. Watermarks or artifacts? I guess they don’t want folks massaging stuff and reselling it. People liked Polaroid  Because you didn’t have to worry About getting it developed  I am miles further than you give me credit for...

Maybe it should take two or three people to buy a gun. I don’t care what it sounds like. It makes me feel better. A lot of people think mental illness is a character issue. That there is something the individual can do about it. I feel like I have robbed a bank. The whole thing is just wide open. I have been listening to Shania Twain And Lindsey Sterling  Artists have been taken of for advantage for centuries. Mental health is treated like heartburn. It is not. People think you can take a pill, And the whole problem goes away. It doesn’t. Google hardly gives me anything at all. If it doesn’t push me to myself, What is it pushing to other people? Bing pushes me to myself. Other people are going to take the idea and run with it. No one is going to know where it came from. Wouldn’t be the first time. I would probably flip out anyway. I probably have a reputation for flipping out. I thought the test was about Earth. I thought the test was about America. I didn’t know the test was about...

I am fairly confident, We will never encounter, Another Newtonian civilization. Hopefully we won’t lose it, Before we realize how valuable it is. If you are immune, And everyone else has a disease, You are the one being difficult. You are supposed to be sad, The world is sad, How can you be happy when the world is so sad? You minus well be a fruit fly. I have it, I need to find a place to put it. New York  Social Security Numbers .   Social Security Numbers  issued to New York  fall between 050-xx-xxxx and 134-xx-xxxx. It was in the apple loop that way. I had the idea that people would mark it up and pass it around, But I guess they felt it would make the net unnavigable. It is the fold that matters. 16 is not folded in 3. It shows up when it is represented in a different way. I expect people to just accept things. It splits into two groups of three fours. Three different types of symme...