More Than A Choke

No attention to a key

I can’t keep track of everything I am delusional about.

Not playing enough notes to know what key it’s in.

They made some comment on msnbc I didn’t like

I am just saying,

It has become a sad state of affairs,

If this has become a blog of note.

It was a left field observation that had nothing to do with her eligibility 

The biggest obstacle to time travel,

Is that the women are always right.

Some bozo caused an accident 

And the women had to take over

They don’t know when to stop

It’s not an anti Biden thing

This is why I have thought maybe I shouldn’t vote.

you know that the MostHigh rules the kingdom of men and gives it to whom he will

http://www.jamaicaobserver.com/news/the-british-monarchy-8217-s-involvement-in-slavery-the-british-monarchy-8217-s-involvement-in-slavery_128602?profile=1096

Government certainly can’t fix the problem.

Nothing is going to work.

We are stuck with it.

Not believing makes the problem worse.

Seek

Contemplate 

Google God

We need another social welfare program 

On the backs of future generations 

That being said,

We can’t have a permanent underclass on the basis of race

I can’t look to the government to effectively change anything.

We are going to go several rounds with this

I wish I had the clarity of purpose others seem to have.

My life experiences have left me broadly disillusioned.

https://www.theaquilareport.com/marxism-postmodernism-and-critical-race-theory/

I believe there is going to be an equalizer that will stop the cycle of violence.

There is a tremendous amount of information out there,

And people are using Facebook 

It disables the air bags

And keeps you going for the show

I don’t feel fully responsible.

Kellyanne Conway was the best person President Trump had.

If no one is going to have a say, it is okay?

God forbid, I don’t belong to mtv.

When you first learn about nationalization,

You think that is what should happen,

We should support that,

But it is the atheism that doesn’t work.

People are romantic, and want it to work,

But it just doesn’t,

No matter who you blame.

Because atheism is a complete lie and they know it.

It is thought God is a homicidal maniac.

They know better than God.

https://covid19testcenterlocator.uhc.com/ctcl#/CTC-Search

If you are depending on websites to get things done, good luck.

It seems they always hang up on something.

God is real

He gets involved in personal lives.

He is not just someone you are going to be accountable to when you die

Be ready

I think he is going to be in peoples lives

And they are not going to like it.

We probably have more 80 year olds.

I hope that God will let people use it if they need it.

All the anger people had about Hinckley and Chapman got put on me.

I tried to drop it and move on but people wouldn’t let me.

I do feel I am the face of schizophrenia now.

I am all for the separation of church and state,

But God is God

And I fear he is going to be in people’s heads,

And people need to be ready for it.

I can tell you what I fear

But I am not going to make predictions 

Or try not to anyway

We have known for decades that election years are difficult 

When you find your cognac 

You don’t want anyone else to find it

The type of music you make when you are looking for something.

It got me that they drove by the guy that just killed two people.

A Chromatic Mess

They think men can only solve things with violence.

You are playing right into their psyop agenda.

They will give you everything you want,

Then they will take it all away.

It is called Pump and Dump.

They manufactured the issues 20 years ago.

It is always a scenario.

Are you ready for it?

Violence is not going to win.

It will just decide what the next scenario is going to be.

They sell sundaes in Portland too.

There are millions of people out there

Waiting for something to do

Obligated even

If there was any promise in it,

It has been worked out by now.

If the goal is for everyone to be indispensable 

We ain’t there yet.

There is going to be civil conflict 

And they are going to come to the rescue 

And put us all on medication 

Your not smart enough.

Your just one person.

It would take the second coming to stop this now.

Can the federal government build communities?

Is it the president’s job?

The presidency is not some magical office that is going to solve everything.

I sent them a letter that I was under attack.

If I say too much it won’t be there for other people.

I think there is a romantic hangover 

I ain’t messing with no one

I just want to gather myself and move on.

People ain’t ready for instant karma.

Are you ready for immediate consequences?

Things are built layer on layer,

And I consider we run the risk of exposing the magma.

It is a drop box 

It helps me cope

Burn it like a candle

A paranoid person is a paranoid person.

It doesn’t matter if it’s true or not.

If it is consuming your life,

You should seek treatment.

What about the Washington Sturgeons 

Portland needs to deal with Portland 

Chicago needs to deal with Chicago 

I can’t very well bitch about outsiders in Richmond,

Then get involved with Portland.

I gave Democrats my vote in 2018 because they said they needed it

I hadn’t voted for 20 years

What did they do with it?

They are giving me riddles to determine where my information comes from.

How do you have a discipline you can’t directly talk about?

My birth certificate is a notarized microfiche.

It probably wouldn’t be up to par.

It’s true because it makes itself true.

If you construct a law,

It is going to get tested.

Why are you here to get pissed off about it to begin with?

This is not Facebook 

This is a drop box

I put things because I am paranoid

And feel the need to talk to the television.

What is your excuse for reading it?

It is delusional.

It doesn’t matter.

I was spamming compuserve before I knew www even existed

My first windows machine did not even come with a modem

It all started with a chromatic mess.

The Equalizer

Men went off to war and never came back,

Even in a body bag,

Or if they did, lame or addicted.

They didn’t buy the farm either 

Homes were foreclosed 

Widows were evicted 

Mind you women were considered frail back then

We don’t get the story of reconstruction.

That is what my father told me.

If that is racist I guess I need to work on it.

If it is organized and shared,

It is not considered delusional.

I like the idea of beef hotdogs,

But I think the chicken and pork ones taste better.

I don’t know.

I am sure it means something.

I want people to know,

That the truth has nothing to do with it.

What is a paranova?

I feel disconnected from the sensitivities 

Of the African American community.

It just wasn’t in the front of my mind,

Like Geico or Progressive.

It is these corporations spending millions of dollars

To be at the front of your mind

That are the problem 

Bunch of screen time junkies,

Don’t even know how to make tea.

You do things for yourself,

You are involved in it

I don’t know how they stay ahead of me.

I can’t come up with anything original.

Save some of it

You may need it sometime 

The not knowing,

Combined with the not knowing,

Among the not knowing 

Really has done a number on me.

I didn’t know what the thunder was,

And, as an adopted person, my genealogy

And no one having any answers for me

If Jordy was involved in the development of warp travel,

Then where did warp travel come from?

It was an education.

I did not know black people felt that way.

We need to be mindful 

That everyone feels included 

There was something wrong with society,

That it needed ******* to begin with

I am out of touch.

I am talking about Star Trek.

If it’s about what black children see,

Then let’s do something about it.

You cite a higher power,

When the origin cannot be traced.

It happens.

You have a better name for it?

It doesn’t matter who you vote for,

The winner is going to be China.

Because China is going to benefit either way.

America is short sighted.

We think we have won the game,

But we have been played the whole time.

I think people appreciate that you say something genuine,

As opposed to just winning them over.

I felt I was loosing it,

I felt I needed to reign myself in,

I decided the ball was in her court.

I belonged to MTV.

I didn’t have a page.

MTV gets in trouble if they don’t deliver.

You don’t belong to me.

I am not going to suffer if I don’t deliver you.

Keep that in mind.

I saw it in Bpe

I saw them complaining about the Bush victory

Their indignation that the polls seemed inaccurate 

Concern about who was going to be in power

When information about the Kennedy 

Well you know

It is too deep for me to understand what side I am on

What really gets me,

Is they think they are doing a patriotic thing

I can understand how having someone have your back,

Can be a big deal right now.

I understand why we need science as a tool,

But I don’t think it answers everything.

I understand how someone that can thumb their nose,

Can be attractive.

He is above psychiatry,

And that is scary for people.

Is this going to be an issue?

The pendulum has swung way left

And there is a lot of resentment on this issue.

Are you mad at psychiatry?

Do you think Joe Biden is going to do anything?

What we are doing is wrong,

And if we don’t stop,

We are going to end up under sharia law 

The idea that the president is above psychiatry,

Is a big issue.

He is a hero for millions.

And I understand it.

Do you?

What are you going to do

If it happens again?

Which it assuredly will

You need every single person,

And is just not going to happen 

I am angry about what has happened to me.

People should be able to get help

And not be worried about how they will support themselves 

I mean

I couldn’t get help until I lost everything.ep

I guess I am not making the world safe for atheists anymore.

Atheists and people who don’t go to church or read the Bible 

Are not the same thing

Christianity is about how we treat one another.

It is not just do no harm.

It is also do to help people.

The Mayan calendar changed the western calendar 

And I think voodoo changed America too.

I love my mother.

I don’t think anyone called it right.

And I knew it all

I guess there is a difference 

Between a big old tom cat

And a dandy.

He looks like a Patrick Blaine 

They sprayed museums and galleries.

I don’t think a mob from Richmond would do that.

I am afraid some of us are being used to manufacture blind spots.

And I fear it has become cultural.

It is dangerous for me to talk about this shit

And there is nothing I can do about it.

I stitched myself to the bang.

Even if I was,

I am not someone who is delusional or doesn’t remember anymore.

God forbid there be something you don’t understand.

I don’t have to prove anything 

My objective has been met

Then let them be careful who they fuck with.

It is an equalizer 

And they don’t want that

The equalizer has been there for over 20 years!

Godless Party People and Systemic Atheism

I’ve been down this road.

My indignation of what Christianity did to native peoples 

ended with me getting seriously burned

And that is what they want

An atomic free for all

Am I racist?

Am I gay?

That is the only thing people seem to care about.

People can steer you,

But at some point you have to feel that way,

And I just never did.

Ride down Floyd avenue.

Visit the triangle.

I was laughed at for wanting a nice bicycle 

I don’t feel welcomed by the Democratic Party right now.

sunday is going to turn those things around,
and I don't know where we are going to be.

They were dimensional markers to me.

What about Colonial Williamsburg or Jamestown?

I don’t know why I am reinventing algebra,

There must be a reason.

I feel I am procuring freedoms nobody wants.

If you don’t love your country,

Things go to shit for everybody.

Basic algebra 

Do you want to build 

Or do you want to bring everything down?

Where the heck is Biden?

What does he have to say about all this?

Is his coalition so weak he can’t speak his mind?

Have the world on your shoulders,

And have everyone hate you.

They probably didn’t know they were green anyway

There is still exploitation.

They have just redone the algebra 

And named it something else.

If you don’t know what page you are on,

Be on my page.

If you think you are going to be able to smoke all the weed you want,

It doesn’t work out that way.

There maybe a honeymoon,

But it’s going to be an abusive relationship.

Is arranged homosexuality better?

It is not worth the pain it would take to fix it.

Getting laid is more important than staying safe.

If you don’t join in everybody’s sickness,

Something is wrong with you.

The evidence is being ignored.

It is all about control.

I don’t think marijuana,

And the lack of mental health professionals of color,

Are helping the situation

Honestly 

Stop the marijuana and get help

I guess the bottom line is,

What does it say to kids?

Adults may understand there is a nuance there,

Kids probably don’t.

https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2020/06/25/877549715/bear-our-pain-the-plea-for-more-black-mental-health-workers

A Decent Pair of Roller Skates

I guess I have failed to learn my lesson about violence and intimidation.

People like to get in each other’s head

And play with their emotions 

Stop and buy gas in a black community.

Stop and buy beer in a black community.

Ride or skate through a black community.

I might have nineteenth century opinions,

But I am still here.

Are white mobs actually going to do anything for black communities?

When the white mob gets what they want,

Is it going to empower black communities?

White people duplicitous?

Say it ain’t so.

My concern would be,

That they would take the monuments down,

And they would stop there feeling they had done something.

It is going to take more than just taking monuments down.

I feel it would be largely symbolic,

That it wouldn’t help or change anything.

People have faults.

People need to love one another.

It is not going to stop white people,

Selling their house when a black family moves into the neighborhood.

What matters more?

Black lives or property values?

It is still early for this generation.

I guess we will see.

I don’t know if people are prepared

For the role mental health is going to play

If we defund the police

Even larger numbers of people on medication

All of those people losing their gun rights

Effective loss of free speech 

I don’t know

Don’t think the government is not going to be in your life

If we defund the police

They go into prevent mode

What happens to you is going to be based on statistics 

I thought I could stop my medication,

And eventually I would come through to the other side,

But they wouldn’t let me

Because they said most people get in trouble with the law

Plan on this to happen to more people

Plan on being told again and again 

You are only one person.

How can your life matter,

If they don’t even see you as an individual?

And if you are,

You are a trouble maker?

You are a statistic.

You are a demographic.

How can your life matter?

You aren’t an individual.

There is no such thing as an individual.

I am not trying to justify anybody.

Jesus died for asserting himself as an individual.

Has it been recorded?

Then I must have done something right.

I am still sore I didn’t get a decent pair of roller skates.

You may feel indignant,

But don’t expect anyone to embrace you.

Of No Consequence At All

How do you know what I am being rewarded with?

Things are designed 

If it stays with it

We are going to have to rework the entire economy 

If

Money is killing people.

What is the use of a house

If it can’t weather a storm like this

Would America have been criticized 

If Ebola Reston had gone the wrong way?

I don’t think I will ever go back to spending

The way I used to spend

People have been buying what I buy for months

What is herd ignorance?

If we are in the “matrix”

Human diseases can be spread in the digital environment.

A human virus spread by computer 

Why not?

They can make you taste lemons.

You are a herd.

You are stupid.

You don’t think for yourself.

I don’t think China cares one way or the other,

They just want us to have a one party system like they do.

The whole world is tired of a bipolar America.

What do you think?

I don’t want to see the death of the Republican Party.

Or the Democratic Party  either.

But I think we are going to play cooties for a long time over this.

I don’t know why I am being so difficult.

All I have to do is play guitar.

I must be unhappy about something.

Me and secrets just don’t go well together.

Purists have a fit if it takes three hands to play it.

If this thing is killed by sunlight,

Is there a better color to wear?

I watch the news shows with the captions on.

The radio does a number on me.

I needed something to listen to.

I thought some people liked it.

Music isn’t setting people free anymore 

It is part of the program 

What are political derivatives?

Nobody was over concerned

When 19 year old soldiers were dying in Vietnam 

Burning is part of writing it?

They are statistical models,

And they aren’t just used with viruses and weather.

People’s world views have not kept pace

I like what that lady said,

“If my opinion doesn’t matter, why are you testing me?”

I don’t know how they can stay in denial.

Who is going to lose if magic thinking prevails?

Are officers trained that if you can talk you can breathe?

Just a few weeks ago they were cheering first responders,

Now we are on the verge of a race war?

I hope cooler heads prevail.

We have listened,

You made your point.

I wish I could snap my fingers and say

No one will ever die in police custody again,

But I don’t have the power to do that.

Part of me is three years old.

It is something I live with.

I am sorry if I offended anyone.

It is ugly

It is “bananas”

You think I don’t know that?

I did not write a script to screw people.

Black yellow red or white 

https://www.usnews.com/news/us/articles/2019-06-18/government-fails-to-release-data-on-deaths-in-police-custody

Has this been complied with?

Shit is already on the books and the government hasn’t complied with it?

A place to start?

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_in_Custody_Reporting_Act_of_2013

That was the old third district 

I think rep Scott was my congressman 

I have been on both sides.

I helped restrain a woman strung out on pcp,

But I have been tackled and handcuffed myself.

Elsie’s Storm

He couldn’t stop smoking and masturbating

So he made excuses for himself 

You can’t force yourself to bond with someone 

I finally settled that I was beaching myself.

Actually reading the Bible helped,

Even if it wasn’t the KJV

Why do I think life is supposed to make sense?

Nobody else seems to.

It is something worse.

He likes to perform miracles,

And getting involved in individual lives.

I really enjoyed Trish and Kennedy.

I hope they come back.

Coronaviruses are zoonotic, which means they're transmitted between animals and people. 

Although the number of households who own a cat or dog as a pet in Korea are growing, it is undeniable that it is still a new concept here.

http://seoulsync.com/lifestyle/owning-a-pet-in-korea

Because I seem to remember the cats killed a bat

It is what I was craving at the moment 

It’s not mine to produce 

There is a new dynamic going on.

We can’t have a god war with 50000 gods

God has the final say

Take the lowest notes and raise them an octave.

Just because I did an inversion,

Does not mean I am in control of anything 

It is difficult to get to the place where it is easy

God considers everything I do to be upside down or backwards 

I think it started as a signal of distress

If it happens again?

It’s not going to be whale noises and chocolate chip cookies.

Perhaps I spoke too soon.
I am just saying the next miracle is going to be of a different character.

I was looking for a mask

I thought it was a first aid kit

Is music theory supposed to scare me?

She doesn’t want me to be a bum.

The sixties were still around back then.

People like me were called bums or hippies.

That was like 911 is to us.

Apparently our prisons and nursing homes,
Are as bad as Chinese wet markets

They wouldn’t release her to dad

And Susan was not ready for her

It was only supposed to be a couple week

It has been Murphy’s law since Christmas Eve

Diet Soda and Chocolate Chip Cookies

You think government knows the truth?

What makes you think they now more than we do?

They are never going to endorse ancient alien theory.

We are lucky to have it on television.

Is it the same as everyone else,

Or is there something different about it?

It was just number salad.

Well,

It wouldn’t be the first time one of my salads 

Ended up meaning something 

I guess it is the oops you can’t do that song.

I am not going to do rock and guitar,

If they are going to give me a hard time.

Hearing Party Girl in my head for three days.

I wanted to have my a+ certification,

But I thought if I was going to spend that kind of money to learn something,

I would rather it be music.

Is the president going to gloat?

They have to bring in generators

Because the power ain’t right.

I want less industry

And more community 

If I wasn’t getting a paycheck,

Maybe I would be more serious about it.

Society has just decided it doesn’t need people like me.

I want to be the lead figure,

But it just ain’t happening.

I would like to be part of a team that needs someone like me.

In order for me to get it into the music app,

I have to upload it, download it, put it into iTunes, then sync.

So why not?

I was just trying to get it into my music app.

I wouldn't do that.
there was something genuinely wrong

Pandemics can go around the world 3 or 4 times.

I don’t know about you,

But people’s pets have been dying for months.

What is the common cold virus.

I don’t think anyone seriously thinks

He would ship people to Siberia 

I’m screwing things up.

We got the Dave factor going on.

I am too soft and stupid for hip hop

First you think it is true,

Then you settle that it’s not,

Then you find out it really is true.

If you see digital noise when you rub your eyes,

You may need to ground yourself.

If you use it and it works for you,

Tell other people.

I don't remember,
but I think Christians were being gassed.

Why were people listening to me to begin with?

Cheese Pizza

I am insane.

I hold on because I have to.

I don’t spend a lot of time

Thinking about what others are thinking.

I don’t know as I ever,

Will truly get out of C.

Confusion is an industry 

You are talking about people who have no qualms about killing Americans 

In uniform or not.

I remember being terrified Reagan was going to cause wwiii

Then we got the gulf war and it lasted 6 weeks

Schizophrenia is the new leprosy

To keep passing the test?

To never fail?

Don’t count your chickens 

I remember 91

How is she going to go back up and get her truck

I might have had a chance 20 years ago,

But the probability of me bonding with someone 

The way I am supposed to

Is slim to none

I am always on the bottom 

It is always my fault

I deserve better than that

The doctor didn’t diagnose me with schizophrenia or autism,

Because he thought I would not try.

Well I did try.

If you are getting drowsy,

You go stand in the back of the room

You know,

It’s caffeine withdrawal.

Do you have pepperoni on your pizza because you like pepperoni,

Or because you think you are supposed to?

I never really understood cheese pizza.

Rare Obsessional Coherence

I know

I need a beginning, a middle, and an end.

I am working on it.

Why does politics take all of our free time?

Aren’t we supposed to be producing something?

Consumption 

Entertainment

Replacements

Even music is for money laundering 

God forbid you call anybody out.

They cancel your ass.

How do they deploy star gates to begin with?

The lower the frequency 

The less directional it is.

So you put the bass in the center 

What is going to happen to deplorable assets like me?

You end up crazy sad and alone.

Why should we have a mitochondrial ancestor?

Our species is defined by a mitochondria?

How many other species are that way?

Excuse me but that’s a big deal.

In some nations, they tell you what you are going to be.

We don’t allow people to be Ghandi anymore.

It is all a bold faced lie.

I am not liked.

I am taking everyone back to the stone ages.

We crossed the continental divide,

And all we saw was more mountains.

It’s bad for my karma,

And it’s the producers and promoters that make any money.

Thousands of people better than me

The dragon lady is going to have my neck.

Take all the abandoned Kmarts

And use them for homeless people 

I like Gwen’s Christmas album.

It is very uplifting and merry.

Not despondent and sad.

First it was computer as television.

Then it was computer as telephone.

I think a tablet is the first computer as a computer.

If you have supported my sister,

Thank you, we both appreciate it.

I think someone has made Bilderberg promises.

It is the idea elections are being taken for granted that bothers me.

How can we have freedom,

When they know everything you are going to do

For the next 40 years?

If even one vote can be taken for granted,

It is a failure of democracy.

I guess reciprocity is bribery.

Who do others have symbiotic relationships with?

The electorate is being milked.

There is no desire to represent.

Oppose them.

See what nasty things they say.

You lose your positivity.

You get negative about everything.

It is depressing,

And we decide what to incorporate anyway.e

Space time is a crochet?

They could cut a deal tomorrow and it still wouldn’t stop.

He took the wrong course at Hogfrogggles

She is a professional.

I should be low fruit for her.

They get pissed when they don’t win in four moves.

A four door mustang made in China?

Am I just supposed to give them four moves because I can’t win?

They need to win big.

Money goes where other money goes 

It is not going to stop collecting 

Just because you get rid of billionaires 

Is this “rotting in hell”?

I can’t do the blue lagoon thing forever.

I am going to start studying music production.

I guess you don’t need a ladder anymore.

It was stupid.

It is like trying to rediscover Algebra.

Why would you do it?

It is sad.

No one is ever going for the banana again.

Lions Tigers and Bears

From my experience

There is less litter 

And cleaner air

Maybe I could not be responsible with the information,

But they should not have told me to prove it.

The idea of proof should have never come up.

I can see how an autistic person

Might be mistaken as toxic personality 

Milk us to death and leave us with a dead cow.

The brain may be a quantum computer 

But dna isn’t quantum

I wouldn’t be surprised if they did it 2 or 3 times.

Why did people delight in that happening to me?

I don’t understand why people spend hours trying to find me.

Americans are naive and self centered.

We are being steered toward an electoral revolt.

They are going to drive us off a cliff

Like a heard of buffalo.

What do I have to do to get attention around here?

It was the first movie we saw together?

I have had formulative experiences that I cannot undo.

It is part of who I am,

And I cannot divorce myself from it.

I guess they saw me drive through the plaza there in Santa Fe.

Would you preside over a graceful decline?

If so, you need to make that known and come out with it.

There is a righteous politician?

This is about globalism pure and simple.

Honestly?

Someone has made globalist promises.

I can’t come up with anything original.

People are thinking this.

Pay attention to the banners they stand in front of.

We could have simulated qbits right now.

It was a genuine pursuit.

One pursuit led to something else.

Happens all the time.

Even “avginner” isn’t original.

It is crazy.

Zuckerburg is doing us a favor,

They did not want peer to peer

So we got Facebook

They want someone to be accountable.

They want someone to censor things.

There is some that would love

To be able to play something once

And be done with it

A writer doesn’t keep rewriting every thing.

At some point it is finished.

I like the electric piano in GarageBand.
You can do the most with it.

They are just labels that don’t mean anything anymore.

Just like I said 20 years ago.

Assholes or communists

Now it’s becoming

Globalist or Nationalist

Republican and Democrat are archaic words.

They don’t mean anything anymore.

I am not going to be shamed into voting for a Globalist

God forbid I get cancelled by a blithering mob.

If you knew the position was there,

Would you trust somebody else to do it?

Framed in America

Holding me to what would be an academic standard is not realistic.

I tried to use physics to explain my own psychology

I don’t understand the work

But I do feel like a bottleneck 

I don’t even understand my own journal 

I guess that is dangerous 

It is not encouraged to write this way

I could use some editing.

It is just me.

This is straight from my iPad 

Cultural zero days are big money.

I didn’t know the bottleneck thing was an established theory.

I considered I was the bottleneck.

Like it never even happens.

What is the importance of the Bible,

In the life of Christians?

I have an opinion,

but I take it’s none of my business.

The random digit is not the first one,

but the second.

The first one is always going to be.

It is the second that you have a choice in the matter.

What your first step is,

Depends on what you want your second step to be.

Where you fly to.

Depends on where you want to land.

Where you go to,

depends on where you want to end up.

If weather officials are warning us we have to do something,

How we afford to ignore them?

If you ain’t doing bars,

If you ain’t doing keys or progressions

If you only go halfway

You could produce a lot every day

We have moved beyond political parties.

Now we have political dynasties against each other.

If it is going to take a miracle to fix it,

then what difference does it make?

I wanted to be in her circle,

But that was up to her.

I am plagued by what people feel are character issues.

Please don’t force me to be happy.

I am moving on.

Pain has come to be the way I define myself.

I was a wacky kid with some crazy ideas about life.

Is reverse phraseology supernatural?

I feel like Galileo in reverse.

I never had sexual desire for my mother.

Have you ever seen a fetus in formaldehyde?

They don’t want people to contemplate.

They don’t want people to associate.

They want to dictate,

And mandate,

And frustrate.

We live in a feel good society,

and self thinkers are dangerous people.

It would be poetic justice if I were Freud.

Freud was the one

Who was supposed to write the April fools day poem.

Which I ran into when I lost it.

It was a formulative moment.

Most people are so busy with their replacements,

They don’t have time to do like this.

Freud had to know someone 

Would blow their mind out over that.

It took me 30 years to find the appregater.

I don’t know as people know how to think

Without something stuck in their head.

You don’t need hooks when you are trying to meditate.

Nobody gets framed in America.

Weathering Information

It is a foreign consciousness

That doesn’t want us to think.

We are only informed to willow us out.

I remember telling I was going to play the computer 

When I was 50

I told a lot of things.

We had an argument over whether the computer was an instrument or not.

Autochords

You have to know the chords to be able to fool around with them.

I don’t think there is a product on the market,

That hasn’t involved reverse engineering 

Somewhere in its development.

I miss the old 8 bit computers you bought at toys r us.

It is an ongoing research project.

We don’t need the power we have

To do the things we do.

I do have a tendency to play everything too fast.

Artifacts seem to happen when I slow stuff down.

Thank you for giving me placement.

Watermarks or artifacts?

I guess they don’t want folks massaging stuff and reselling it.

People liked Polaroid 

Because you didn’t have to worry

About getting it developed 

I am miles further than you give me credit for.

You mistake me for someone I am not.

I don’t want to be sucked into the Facebook wormhole.

I understand the “no surprises” deal,

But I am pro uncertainty.

There is a difference 

Between writing a paragraph 

And writing a book

It is impossible.

You will blow your mind out kid.

I guess it is a little late to begin skateboarding.

I don’t know.

You either believe in someone or you don’t.

Should you wait for them to prove themselves to you?

A high sense to what you are entitled to.

It is over my head.

I thought if you had the right sequence,

You could send information on EPR.

Latency just seems to matter to Apple.

If you want your candy crush and your angry birds,

Get an android 

If you want to do real things 

Get an iPad

Android does 90% of what iOS can do

At substantially lower costs

But for me

GarageBand is worth it

There is no Android equivalent 

Because Android simply can’t do it.

Ribbons did not cost 40 bucks,

And the printer lasted longer.

If you don’t use or excercise your inkjet printer,

It messes up like an ink pen.

The thrift stores are loaded with them.

We need inkjet technology I guess.

I would not want people to formulate a religion,

Based on what I said in this blog.

Limbic Justifications

Maybe it should take two or three people to buy a gun.

I don’t care what it sounds like.

It makes me feel better.

A lot of people think mental illness is a character issue.

That there is something the individual can do about it.

I feel like I have robbed a bank.

The whole thing is just wide open.

I have been listening to Shania Twain

And Lindsey Sterling 

Artists have been taken of for advantage for centuries.

Mental health is treated like heartburn.

It is not.

People think you can take a pill,

And the whole problem goes away.

It doesn’t.

Google hardly gives me anything at all.

If it doesn’t push me to myself,

What is it pushing to other people?

Bing pushes me to myself.

Other people are going to take the idea and run with it.

No one is going to know where it came from.

Wouldn’t be the first time.

I would probably flip out anyway.

I probably have a reputation for flipping out.

I thought the test was about Earth.

I thought the test was about America.

I didn’t know the test was about me.

I am starting to get a feel for playing the keyboard with two hands,

But I have not tried it yet.

I don’t know what the hell she is doing,

But it is just making it harder on me.

They don’t want us to be a first planet.

It would govern what they could do,

And what they couldn’t.

Satan doesn’t care if the damn thing breaks.

I was right.

If things were going to get done,

95 was the time to do it.

Turn the volume down,

Turn on the captions 

Plug into some music

And jam

I think Marconi would cry.

Jesus ain’t had me make all these ringtones for nothing.

There are people that know what to do with them.

I loved pookie.

I am sorry if I blew his mind out.

I like looking at their heads.

You could go half way there, every day forever.

There are ways to do things,

That you don’t have to give up all your information,

To some centralized authority.

The birdhouse was not the objective.

Building it was.

This is not an academic pursuit.

This is free association.

I have myself on the couch.

I don’t know why I delve  into the subjects I do.

I apologize, and you should call me out.

If you can’t,

That’s a whole different story isn’t it?

I feel like I am being stoned to be happy.

It needs to stop.

They want people to be limbic junkies.

Social Butterflies

I am fairly confident,

We will never encounter,

Another Newtonian civilization.

Hopefully we won’t lose it,

Before we realize how valuable it is.

If you are immune,

And everyone else has a disease,

You are the one being difficult.

You are supposed to be sad,

The world is sad,

How can you be happy when the world is so sad?

You minus well be a fruit fly.

I have it,

I need to find a place to put it.

New York Social Security Numbers.  

Social Security Numbers issued to New York 

fall between 050-xx-xxxx and 134-xx-xxxx.

It was in the apple loop that way.

I had the idea that people would mark it up and pass it around,

But I guess they felt it would make the net unnavigable.

It is the fold that matters.

16 is not folded in 3.

It shows up when it is represented in a different way.

I expect people to just accept things.

It splits into two groups of three fours.

Three different types of symmetry.

They must have had Nostradamus on the guy,

And they messed up.

We might have to go south someday.

I wouldn’t download a ringtone from somebody’s blog.

I would be grateful if I could get help with my consumer debt.

People would treat each other better if there was guaranteed income.

I would have been more motivated to quit my job and get help.

People need help,

And instead they are being harassed until they quit,

And they don’t want to quit because there is no safety net,

And there is no guarantee if they do quit,

That they are going to find stability in life,

The way things are is not working.

There are a lot of people with an independent spirit,

Who are not getting the assistance that might help them.

Things are not setup for transactions less than a dollar.

What should a ringtone cost?

A whole song is a dollar.

Having the skills to make one might be valuable.

What do they expect people to make with GarageBand anyway?

If you did not know what you were looking for,

Could you have found it?

Would you know what to do with it?

How much is their time worth?

If they can find it let them have it.

People are going to hide their shit

And force people to find it

It is going to be a dark web thing.

If it is not already.

The people who make money,

Will be the people who find shit.

I love the name my parents gave me.

I just wish there weren’t so many people with it.

We need a cryptocurrency for peer to peer transactions less than a dollar or two.

They call it jewelry and masturbation.

You can only brew the tea they want you to.

If you are worried if it is going to render right

You have to get it from me.

my mind is blown
its not getting any better

How am I going to be known

And work with other people 

If I can’t even post the best thing I have made so far.

When you don’t know what you are doing,

You do stuff you aren’t supposed to do.

Why should I struggle to play what everyone else does?

If it sounds harsh,

You are playing it too loud.

Buried Sentiments

Why can’t people learn to film in landscape?

How do male calicos happen?

Somebody needs to stand up.

Customs and Border Protection is not a relief agency.

Time is going to blame all of us.

Many Americans feel,

How they vote,

Is the sole determinant,

Of what side of history they will be on.

We need to start cooperating now.

Am I being too partisan?

I don’t want to be in the situation,

That many more die,

Because we won’t cooperate.

 I doubt you are going to hear it from anyone else.

All we needed was one more push,

And we would have been over the edge.

I am holding no great wisdom.

You should be proud of your performance,

It was very good.

I don’t know what makes people consider preposterous things.

It seems to come with age.

Would you have believed it when the world made sense?

Why do you believe it now?

How does it pertain to other people?

Do they need it?

What is more likely?

Quantum bubbles

Or old age.

It is out there.

You can believe it if you want to.

They see an unpopular president as an opportunity to go left.

I don’t blame them.

I would too.

I am not trying to deny anything,

I just think it doesn’t do any good.

I can understand chemistry 

Give me something I can understand 

I cannot deny I have attachment issues 

But I don’t fully understand 

People want things to be pretty.

Life is not like that.

People act like they themselves have been hurt by my parents.

It just simply is not the case.

I witnessed at least three families that practiced  corporal punishment.

I never considered approaching my parents with it.

Is it pathological that I couldn’t talk to my parents?

I have some attachment pathology.

Americans have elevated fears in general 

You try to get help,

And the first thing that happens is your life falls apart.

What are the odds of successfully navigating getting help?

I had a breakdown because I felt safe to have one?

I remember switching from Ritalin to Wellbutrin 

looking at the chart

And thinking 

This would be an opportune time

Please don’t make me the poster child for misogyny 

Somehow

I thought if I lived in France 

My perps hurt a lot of children 

I am the only one that ever reported anything.

look what happened to me.

I am a convenient, easy target.

What children did I hurt?

Who benefits?

Beauty means something in China.

Schwartzman notes that the expected form from usual Latin phrasing would be sexadecimal, 

but computer hackers would be tempted to shorten that word to sex.^[27] 

I have read a few books

The Chronicles of Narina

Jaws

The Amityville Horror

Endless Love

Some Arthur C Clark

Some Isaac Asimov

The Stand

The Long Walk

Some Michael Crichton 

The Good News Bible

Books on UFOs and aliens

A Brief History of Time

Communion

On The Road

Wuthering Heights

Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy

I don’t know why I stopped reading.

You really have to trust the author.

Who am I going to be when I wake up?

I come from nowhere?

I make myself exist?

There is no original.

Is that just settling an argument?

Where does beauty come from?

What makes something beautiful?

Are origins humanistic?

Not like this.

I have accomplished too much to go back now.

Narcissism is an ugly name,

That provides little incentive,

For people to have empathy.

She is very aware of her image.

The number of frames depends upon the angle.

If we were worried about what works and what doesn’t,

I don’t think America would have gotten done.

Apparently iOS thinks it is a phone number.

I forgot the argument.

Taking a list and marking it up,

Should be a simple thing to do.

It sounds like I know what I am doing.

I can’t, with good conscience, continue to support president Trump.

It was offensive.

I am not lock step.

I am not going to take heat for him.

He needs to come to my community and say that shit.

This was not meant to be a political blog.

I am sorry I have strayed from what I originally intended.

The De Facto Zone

There is a border there.

Just like there is a border with Mexico.

It is not bizarro superstition.

We have been given a gift.

People need to decide if they accept it or not.

There is a plethora of bizarro superstitions out there.

What I have been through is not illegitimate.

It was released.

It is like lithium.

It is old.

People get angry when you challenge what they justify themselves with.

The medication just establishes a new normal.

It doesn’t fix anything.

A cut and paste virtuoso 

I apologize 

For me it is about who is doing it right

And who is doing it wrong 

It is a blowout 

It is not a hierarchical thing

I thought the computer would be attached to my brain

And I would be able to play anything I heard in my head 

But this is ok

They are going to beg this president to go to war

Before it’s all over with.

Who cares if they shoot down drones.

Let China pay for it.

War would split the coalition against them

War is in their interest 

Not ours

If sanctions are going to work,

We are going to take in on the chin a couple times.

I have always been treated with dignity and respect.

I have never voted republican.

I am torn.

The people I am agreeing with

Have not always been kind to me

I have been called derogatory names too

But that doesn’t mean I need to be socialist

They are playing solid politics.

They are not going to give the president a success on anything.

Is there one candidate that supports USMCA?

You shouldn’t hate your country.

It is like hating your mother.

It doesn’t do any good. 

The election is the thing.

Nothing matters but the election.

A humanitarian crisis 

Requires a humanitarian response 

It doesn’t help anyone to argue who’s fault it is.

AIG played the odds too.

Politics has become entertainment.

It sells car insurance.

Frank Zappa said something similar

I can’t come up with anything original.

At least I bothered to look.

It is not the exact same thing.

I wouldn’t google myself so much

If I was getting accurate statistics 

Let the person calling decide what the ringtone is.

I see you everywhere.

Am I supposed to make eye contact with everyone I think is you?

It is a defense mechanism that keeps me sane.

I have approached people and been wrong.

Not that I thought was you.

I am not always willing to do that.

This anger energy I get from you,

Doesn’t make it any easier.

We are in a mathematical space,

That depends on causality loops?

I may have had previous obligations.

I can’t keep pace.

I burn out.

We are coming from a time,

Where you had to sell your soul just to be heard.

Choosing Barabbas

I like Kennedy.

She could tell me to vote for hermit the frog.

Atypical men get a lot of hassle.

Men ain’t supposed to be atypical.

It is ugly.

Men are men, you know?

We are all the same.

Atypical men get it from everyone.

I thought if I was in a relationship,

The harassment would stop.

It doesn’t.

It doesn’t really matter what you are atypical about.

And it snowballs into other things.

Critical teraflops are being wasted on you.

This is government in America.

It has been like this for decades.

People are separated by what, or who, they choose to ignore.

This was 1995

I don’t know what led me to believe America was under attack

I am sorry

It is an Easter egg effect.

People like the idea that they have found something 

I was self important.

I needed somebody’s attention.

I am flattered that I have anything in the wayback machine

But it would be nice if it was something I wrote 

If your candidacy was going to end up

Getting someone undesirable elected,

Would you withdraw?

Men don’t have a monopoly on creepiness.

Are illegal aliens above the law?

It is self defining circular logic.

I can’t prove that I am not a narcissist,

But would I even consider it?

The more you insist you aren’t 

The more you are

Why does it have to be a psychiatric condition?

I am being rational and considerate.

I am not right about everything.

I began with the wrong attitude.

Being rational and considerate screwed everything up.

There was no room to be rational and considerate.

There never has been.

I am not going to have a mental crisis 

Because I contradicted myself.

I am clearly not in love with myself.

The democrats have their tickets 

And they don’t care

They were having estate sales 

It was over

It is sad.

I am getting evp

Because they have cut off my supply 

I could walk to the corner,

And it would be said I got away with it.

I may not be getting the adoration I need,

But if I was in China or Saudi Arabia,

I would be dead or in prison by now.

Magic is real in Saudi Arabia.

You go to prison for it.

There are conventions about where you get your adoration from.

There are no original facts.

You need to be extemporaneous to find original questions.

If I worried about what The Simpsons said first

I wouldn’t be able to write anything 

And did they really say it first anyway?

Be safe.

Live longer.

Christianity is our reality.

There would be no secular world without Jesus.

If there are people deep in the pentagon who feel that way,

I say good they should.

Anyone who has gone to tango,

Knows

Some only follow the rules when they are hiding.

I remember there being ads in my ufology magazines.

I tried to wrap my mind around something that was too big,

And it was like a rubber band 

It snapped

Who would you trust to be focused on?

We are still choosing Barabbas.

Evaluated Twice

You should use it for poetry and song.

She is so sold

She is sold on everything 

It has been supplanted 

You can use a computer for computational space

Or use it for what Asimov called “twisting”

I think “cowbirding” is viable.

I think it can be mutually beneficial,

And I think the computational space thing

Is being done already 

Either God is giving me gifts 

Or I am a sorcerer.

I don’t pretend to know which one.

If it is threatening,

Why did they develop the internet,

And personal devices to begin with?

My mom and dad raised me,

That no one really knows until judgement day.

And that it’s the ones that think they know,

That you have to watch out for.

People get their head stuck in a book,

And they forget how to love each other.

The love of Jesus doesn’t require a book.

Apparently God’s anger doesn’t either.

“We are always at war.  Peace is a bourgeois illusion.”

If you are upset about it,

You don’t understand the way things are.

We don’t control the information we think we do.

I knew I was in the past

I knew I would forget

erectile dysfunction is the least of my worries

I can’t take care of myself 

I don’t know what is going to happen to me

Maybe those are not the right words

Suspected is better.

There is less preconception of what an ehru should sound like.

Satanists think stupidity should be painful.

They feel smug and laugh at people.

If you find yourself in a situation with a shooter,

Get in their face, holler at them “fall down, fall down.”

9 times out if 10 they have voices

Use that to your advantage 

If I could be in a room by myself 

Making widgets all day I would be fine.

People want a reaction,

But all I am feeling is confusion.

It just isn’t there.

Evaluated twice.

Didn’t need to get a lawyer.

My disability went through on the first try.

I would have no stability in my life,

And I would end up homeless.

My biggest problems 

Are social interactions 

And severe paranoia 

It is frustrating 

I understand, but I cannot do anything about it.

Lord knows I have tried.

People solve things their own way,

Using whatever tools they have on hand,

And sometimes they don’t even know they are doing it,

Or it wasn’t meant to be solved.

I don’t want to hurt people.

Every time I go out I hurt people.