More Real than Qanon

I’ll go with the do not be alarmed 

For me it’s clear a time, two times, and half a time is about Trump

And the mortal head wound didn’t happen.

I guess it could happen again.

I guess we will see.

We need to learn to forgive 

We are all strung out on lead

It’s so obscure how would you know 

if it hadn’t come true 

I’m not a saint or a prophet.  

What am I supposed to call myself?

I feel called to say this stuff.

I don’t fear trump anymore 

Everything is going to be ok

13:3 is a fate worse than death

And it could still happen 

I practically told the man we could have a golden age if he would just step down 

You can lead a horse to water 

but you can’t make him drink

It’s my fault 

I need to stay out of presidential politics 

It would have broke right then and there

I guess people don’t know when to listen to me

It looks like Trump is going to win

And it looks like we are going to have to wait 

Another two years to see if it breaks or not

If I were to share my visions I’d really be heretical 

If Joe wins I’ll shut up

I won’t talk presidential politics anymore 

Sumerian gods

Causality loop processors 

Poor universe models

Reptilians

The earth as a farm

It was a mess

I don’t blame John of Patmos 

He can only relay what he saw

I can’t talk about it

That’s what these antediluvian spirits want me to do

I would be opening a Pandora’s box 

Letting them into our consciousness 

And we don’t want to do that

Under normal circumstances I would disintegrate 

but the medication wont let me

I’m being forced to solve the problems 

My medication has changed 

I’m not on clozapine anymore 

https://everything-everywhere.com/how-lead-was-discovered-to-be-in-everything/

Revelations is lemonade 

There is no other way to put it

The serpent thinks I’m God

He thinks I don’t want people to be like me

God didn’t know why the serpent said that

If I had to guess and decide who I probably was,

I’d say golem

The serpent holds me in great contempt 

He exceeds in making things difficult for me

I grew up big headed 

because of the thunder in my head

I have a hard time worshipping 

and believing in a higher power

For me he is just another physicist 

Albeit he does things differently 

Everybody else is warped backwards 

And He keeps dropping the floor out

He has the past

We can’t force him to cooperate 

We can’t have a forest till he cooperates 

He has the past

It’s his decision 

There is one that goes forwards 

And an infinity that’s backwards 

It’s his

He has to agree

It’s hard

You got to get it right on the first try

Apparently he knows how to handle lemons

You can’t have strawberries 

Till you learn how to handle the lemons right

It might need to happen

But it’s too bloody for me

I don’t like it

I would rather say stuff that almost comes true

Than be right about it

It’s like the boot sequence on a computer 

Things need to happen in the right order 

Thing have to happen in the right sequence 

And they have to happen on the first go round 

Else it’s a lemon

Absent of a miracle 

There is no second chance 

If you try a second chance,

All you get is an endless second chance.

It’s like having a computer that didn’t boot right

It happens sometimes 

But you can’t keep booting it over and over

Thinking it’s eventually going to boot right

Absent of a miracle 

It’s never gonna happen 

My solution is to go south and build a library 

But maybe I’m not handling the lemons right idk

Good, evil, prayer, worship, miracles 

are things I don’t understand 

Well maybe I understand them

But I don’t know how they fit into this equation 

I thought it was over

I thought it was all delusion 

I guess not

I’m sorry I lied to that guy 

about having a church I go to

I don’t like talking to strangers 

I didn’t write A Different America 

as a prediction of a presidential race.

Second actors will have no part 

was supposed to be about me.

Remarkable leaders remarkable art was supposed to be

Remarkable people remarkable art

That line is supposed to be about people using ai

But the tea leaves say what they say

If we get someone other than Trump or Biden

We are going to have a golden age

At least the democrats listened to the American people 

And gave us someone else

I am definitely voting democratic now

I’d vote for Bernie Sanders 

I think there is a lot of people 

who are going to vote democratic 

Because the party listened 

and gave us someone other than those two

I don’t think it’s going to bode well

If republicans try and keep a replacement 

Off the ballot 

I think keeping a replacement off the ballots 

Would be a huge political mistake 

I think the best thing you can do as a leader,

Is prepare someone to take your place

I don’t recognize revelations as a holy book

I believe it was written by converted 

Followers of Artemis 

But it’s none of my business 

I’ve been told to stay out of it

It’s just a vibe 

I have no real reason why

A lot of us that didn’t vote for 20 years,

Trump is our fault 

Now is the time to vote again 

If you feel like you don’t understand what is going on,

I’ve laid it all out for you.

I’m not some mysterious character no one can identify.

I am a real person.

This is more real than qanon

Nothing New

The question is what would have happened if I hadn’t said anything 

This is nothing new.  This has been going on for decades with me.

I’m sorry I messed up.

There is no rule against it,

But I should have stayed out of the electorate.

He makes me nervous.

I don’t like the man.

He is going to lose control of the country.

It’s like a cross between Eveything, Everywhere, All At Once and The Butterfly Effect

I talk about it in here somewhere I think.

I have saved America six or seven times.

We are lucky 

I don’t know if I am going to vote or not.

It becomes a contest between me and him,

And it’s not supposed to be that way.

He doesn’t want to be in this hot seat.

He has enough to worry about.

Somehow everything gets fixed

And we get to go to Disneyworld

I keep talking about this stuff and they are going to put me in the hospital again 

Somebody has to shoot the flare

And right now I think I do it better than anyone else 

I make a song like that and then he gets shot at.

It’s freaking me out.

We can’t solve the world’s problems so we medicate the individual 

Then the individual gets tasked with solving the problem 

They put me on these meds and I got warped backwards, and got manufactured from the dust.

Did Revelation 13:3 not take place?

What does that mean?

Deuteronomy 18:22

Damaging the Ozone

I’m worried about the bloodbath that’s going to happen if he does get elected again.

I’ve been though this before 

We may find a comfortable place in purgatory 

But if we don’t come to God it ain’t gonna last

Let him have it if he wants it that bad, it isn’t going to last.

I would think people would be grateful there was someone like me,

But I guess not

I’m supposed to draw things out and come up with the answer before things hit the fan.

I think he sees it as I’m sitting on power and that drives some people crazy

I can’t stop this one

God help us

I spent decades telling people wwiii was between US and England and everyone thought I was nuts.

Now what do you think?

That it’s even feasible is a revolution.

He thinks I’m sitting on power

Power is not my job

He is riding the dragon

I went through my physics guru stage

Yzax was a real discovery though

But I’m not another Einstein 

60% of people won’t work with a schizophrenic 

And the other 40%, once they have worked with one, won’t do it either 

The beginning is something that can happen at any time

And it can happen multiple times in multiple places

It’s a phenomenon it’s not linear like we think

I don’t appeal to women 

I don’t know why

I’m mapped out

This thing knows all about me it’s ever gonna know

I don’t understand these people that Jan 6th doesn’t matter to them

I think everyone has lead poisoning 

People are friggen stoned on lead this is friggen crazy

Everyone is strung out on lead

And no one is talking about it

The conspiracy is not about trump

It’s about lead

https://sl.bing.net/dEAweQRJznE

And yes its corporate industrialists that did that

The same guy that was responsible for damaging the ozone with fluorocarbons

If hush money is legal 

Then the hush of the hush should be legal too

If you aren’t going to hush the hush

It defeats the whole purpose 

What was he supposed to call it

I’ve seen no presentation of what trump legally should have done

If he is claiming he knew nothing of the hush money payments at all that’s a different story

I seriously doubt he knew nothing about it

If he had just said they paid the hush money 

and he claimed it as a legal expense 

I doubt that would be illegal 

But that’s not what’s going on

He is claiming he knew nothing about it

He falsified business records to maintain deniability 

Now is that illegal idk 

He falsified business records because it served him politically 

I’m sorry but I doubt he would have gotten convicted 

If he had just been honest about it

I never got a story line from seventh guest

I saw one ghost

When I went back to the puzzle to see the ghost again for like the fourth or fifth time

The door slammed on me and trapped me in the room

That’s when I burnt revelation 

Maybe there is a great satanic conspiracy 

But if you think you know who the good guys are you are sorrowfully mistaken

I think there was some satanic stuff going on with the Clinton’s 

But I can’t get over Jan 6

I’m the one who said if things go south go south 

It’s my fault 

I imagine I spent a lifetime in love with her

And never told her

I really thought one day we would all go to Disney world and everything would be ok.

I guess my only hope is this is a dream and I’m going to wake up someday.

The knife cuts both ways

If Biden lost he could do the same thing Trump did

And nobody would be able to say anything 

We are not going to have the golden age unless its someone other than these two

“Second actors have no part, remarkable leaders, remarkable art.”

Time, two times, and half a time.

It’s either or.

What’s going on with Biden right now

Is the exact thing the Trump supporters are complaining about 

The media thinks they run the country 

It just happened that way I’m sorry 

I have no connection to anyone who tried to harm the former president 

We are all strung out on lead

All of us

As a man of God I am telling you we are in Revelation 

Every one needs to step back and calm down

We got lucky that the former president wasn’t seriously hurt

This has been going on for a long time 

People accept it as normal but it’s not

It’s the new normal 

Back in the 80’s

Back in the 80’s

I tried to get help

But Dr. Curry and my parents didn’t tell me the truth about it,

Cause they thought I wouldn’t try.

Omg Kimberly is dead

I always took solace in the fact that she was happy

And decided it would be creepy to intrude in her new life

I’m sorry she is gone

I told her happy birthday back in 2012 but never heard anything. 

Last I heard she was in charge of her class reunion and everything was going fine.

Everyone else was chasing tail or whatever

And I’m dreaming about hurting myself 

having fantasies about doing in in the woods

I was really messed up

With 

You can’t change what you fantasize about 

If you have the bends you have the bends

It’s like conversion therapy 

It doesn’t work

I’ve come across this reverse speech thing firsthand 

I believe the Bible is like a firewall protects you from it

I thought the three of us would reconcile and go to Disney world one day 

I thought it was wonderful, but apparently it wasn’t good enough.

If I had to go back in time I wouldn’t try to have a relationship with ginger or Kim. 

Things were better when they thought I was gay

I get mixed up between the 14th and the 17th

I have read some of what Lincoln wrote on the subject,

And it seems, at least early on,  he was more concerned about preserving the union,

And the future of democracy than he was about the abolishment of slavery.

Maryland’s slaves weren’t declared free until may of 1864

If it was all about slavery why didn’t Lincoln wait to act on slavery in the border states 

The civil war abolished slavery

But I don’t think Lincoln went to war to abolish slavery

Lincoln went to war to preserve the union and save democracy 

It would have been a hard sell if he had said it was about slavery at the beginning 

The people of the north weren’t clamoring to have a war to free the slaves.

I don’t think the civil war was a grand crusade to free the slaves

But it’s silly to say slavery had nothing to do with it.

And the only thing reparations are going to do is cause astronomical inflation 

It will be like the Bible says

A loaf of bread will cost a days wage

I don’t like Trump

I am not going to vote republican.

But I don’t know if there is a place for me in the Democratic Party 

I’ve got to look out for me

What is going to happen to me if that happens 

Politicians and the media tell you what you want to hear.

Ain’t nothing in it me telling you this stuff

It wasn’t a dream was it

Time, times, and half a time is about Donald Trump

Time is his first term in office

Times is his facing off against Biden twice

Half a time is how long his second term will be

Make no mistake 

You are voting for an Antichrist 

If you don’t recognize it by now

You are in denial about it

Migration has been happening for hundreds of thousands of years 

You are not going to stop it

They tropics become unlivable and people migrate

You know if he loses the nomination he is not going to accept it

And the Republican Party might split

Pure Operational Space

I wish my life had been defined by something I could have gotten credit for.

Something dazzling, something earth shattering and dynamic.

Something worth being stupid about.

The sad thing would be if it got completely ignored.

Probably happens all the time.

It’s my relationship to my genitalia.

Hard to believe my Grandmother started all of this.

I wish I had had the conversation with my mother

It just never came up.

People need to talk about this,

People shouldn’t be treated like pets that aren’t eating.

Even if they are men.

He knows it’s my show

And he isn’t in the lead role.

I have blemishes, I am sorry,  this isn’t a job I applied for.

Once you fall through one, you keep falling through.

Nothing can hold you anymore.

I don’t know the physics behind it and he keeps wanting me to prove it to him.

I can’t say

If grandma was going to do that I should have been raised Jewish.

Just another floor to fall through 

I can’t say, this persona wasn’t there.

I think it goes back to what they had an argument about to begin with

Please forgive me, this is how I go through therapy 

I didn’t mean to cause anyone distress, I’m sorry.

Everything else has been tried.

This is how it works for me.

It was more of a self abuse thing with me.

I know it’s difficult to follow 

You are getting like half a conversation 

I love my father

Being gay is the last thing in the world I would ever do to him

I thought I had a choice

I didn’t know the whole world was going to force me to be gay.

In the end I have done worse

Mostly because of stuff that happened long before I was even born,

That didn’t have anything to do with it to begin with.

Can you imagine believing the Bible was written for you?

That Jesus dies for you?

And not just once

But over and over again 

I try not to think about it

Do you think Hitler’s sexuality had anything to do with the holocaust?

Are we forcing people to be Gay because of Hitler and the holocaust?

How many people get into psychology because they want to understand why the holocaust happened?

Do they think they are stopping another one?

Do they think they are stopping people from dying?

How do you entertain these people?

Only because that’s the knot that was tied.

That was the floor to be fallen through.

The knot could have been about something else

Would you fuck yourself over it?

I like the science fiction shows on appletv+

But if these strikes aren’t settled

I’m not paying $5 a month for no new shows

Let the average American talk long enough,

They are going to contradict themselves.

They would do worse than that.

I thought I heard my mom call me Adolf Mallory, so now I have a complex about it.

I am sorry.

If I had to put my money on it,

His situation and mine are probably similar.

He probably had a G but she was Jewish.

My sexuality might be screwed up,

But I could never hate that bad.

I would hate to lose my patience now.

He lets me know.

If you want your life to be a disaster see a psychiatrist.

Go to church before seeing a psychiatrist.

I could see an independent drawing 25 or 30% 

SoundClick must not be doing too bad.

It’s jammed every night at 12 o’clock 

A Statistic on a Good Saturday

It’s hard to believe Star Wars 

Is coming on 50 years old

When I was a kid

50 years was the 20’s

Ancient history 

Polls suggest 60% of people would not want to work with a schizophrenic.

In practice it’s probably more like 80%

It’s not that I can’t work, or don’t want to work.

People don’t want to work with me.

If I did work it would be a few months here a few months there.

Eventually nobody would hire me.

I don’t like being on social security.

It makes me feel guilty, but I need stability in my life.

I make music, I volunteer, I’m doing what I can.

If Trump wins those two years will be hell.

This is not the way to do the government budget.

It’s like going on strike or something.

20 hours of volunteering seems to be enough already

Please people are going to get hurt

I don’t feel angry, but at some level I must be.

I have seen a lot of stuff on tv over the years.

Some stuff you see once than never again.

People think you are nuts when you talk about it.

I guess I could

But I’d have to have a habit of looking at the numbers every day.

I can make an endless four bars of the same thing

But it’s hard to make a bridge with GarageBand 

Men are that way because that’s the way women want men to be,

If women didn’t want men to be that way anymore, they wouldn’t 

I’m asexual, I’m happy with it, that’s the way I am.

No amount of reeducation is going to change that.

Stop trying.

I’m trying not to be creepy, but I can’t fucking stop this shit.

I am convinced she fucking loves me and there is some solution to the shit.

Things aren’t the way they are supposed to be.

There is no sense in struggling for an empirical truth.

I should just accept it.

Maybe I need to stay on the good shit

For some people the idea that people are actually born in hell is too much for them,

They can’t take it.

Meaning doesn’t mean anything anymore,

It’s all who said it and when

If you don’t have that you have nothing 

If I don’t have no separation, no differentiation, 

than I’m just a statistic on a good Saturday

They want people to be ain’t nobody 

It’s to their benefit 

They don’t want to waste technology, teraflops, on you.

The hard drive means they got to sweat a little bit

If it comes down to what I said or didn’t say thirty years ago that’s a waste

They would have to very anal

It’s not that the people can’t tell what’s real and what’s not,

It’s that the computers can’t tell what’s real and what’s not,

And the people are using the computers to tell what is real and what is not.

And they don’t really give a shit one way or the other,

The farmers don’t want to waste good seed.

They want the weather to be predictable 

It would be too many teraflops if one person could do that with a 486

I make horrible music

I make music so bad it tells me how bad it is

But fuck it I enjoy it.

If stuff really does go backwards 

And you could tell yourself what the winning numbers were

you would have to be in the habit of playing and watching all the time

And if you won your life would be a superstitious nightmare.

You would have let that dynamic into your life. 

Things would never be the same.

Apparently I had the same dream that hobby lobby guy had

You can find a comfortable place in purgatory but don’t expect it to last long

Well we had talked about the lottery thing earlier 

It’s not good for people to think I got Yzax by luck 

Well read the Bible maybe the lord will bring you something

Sometimes, when you tell someone to get lost, that’s what they do.

I wish, just one time, she would just scream at me to fuck off

Why is the syndrome dangerous to the pact?

I guess they can’t verify the origin of the information 

I’m sorry I didn’t go see the psychedelic furs

It’s a phobia thing like stage fright

I just can’t deal with it anymore 

Life is not much to be a failure at.

I guess I wanted to be successful at being a failure.

People live vicariously through trump

It’s good entertainment,

But it’s just climbing a ladder, climbing a ladder, climbing a ladder.

There is no top.

Find a comfortable place in purgatory,

And pray for the best.

I hear you.

Just fuck somebody for h sake

Windows Log

If your one drive files are showing up with an X mark

That means the files are not synced

Check that one drive is in your system tray

If not go to the start menu and run one drive 

Replace the Purge Control Valve George

Stop it you crazy bitch, you are hurting me.  What are you trying to prove?

It’s either here or on social media.

I can’t stop.

Really, she did without affectionate touch for five years?

Omg it’s a crisis.

Car trouble record

Filled up with gas on 23rd not usual for me

Noticed I left car window down on 27th

Stopped at 711 on 27th car wouldn’t start

Accepted a jump

Went to leave volunteer job on 29th car wouldn’t start

Car wouldn’t jump

Left cables attached for a few minutes and tried again

Car started

Went to advance auto parts to replace battery

Technician tested battery fine

Friend put load tester on battery with car off

Light very bright

Removed fuse to the radio/door locks/security 

Light got much dimmer

Discovered radio/door locks/security has different power modes for key fob

Put fuse back in

Left message at first mechanic 

Talked to bing suggested EVAP purge control valve

Car sat for three days

Monday morning went to take car to first mechanic 

Would not start

Jumped after some difficulty

Took to first mechanic

Battery tested bad

No other codes

Battery and air filter replaced 

Assured me problem was fixed

Drove home and almost didn’t make it

Surging and stalling cut off while driving

Took to second mechanic 

Still no error code

Told mechanic to replace purge valve

So far so good

Could have been just a fluke thing

Worth my peace of mind to replace valve

Plus it was a safety issue 

This sort of stuff happens to me all of the time.

The laws of physics go haywire around me.

AI is great grand and wonderful,

But the information you get from it comes from some real life person.

If we depend on it too much and don’t tell it anything,

It’s going to get stupid.

We won’t be able to use it anymore.

I told Bing I had recently filled the fuel tank,

And that it seemed to start fine cold.

If it was that valve it should have given me problems 

Immediately or soon after filling the tank,

Or it should have thrown a code.

Dad had a lot of problems with that car,

But he always kept his tank full.

Idk I can’t let go of it.

Maybe the tank is overfilling.

Maybe the computer is messed up.

I guess it could have been a fluke thing,

And I could have kept driving it.

What would you have done?

I didn’t go to bing with the intention of fixing my car,

I just did an internet search and ai happened to be there.

If I keep having problems, I am not keeping the car.

I am glad I don’t have a job to be at.

The Kings Highway

The kings highway doesn’t go east and west.

It happened in my minds eye and I really can’t say

But I think these “aliens” are visiting from hell.

I can’t say, “I am a medium, this is what happened.” it’s in admissible.

And it’s dangerous, then the entities that were in my head are out in the public.

I think they are “time travelers” and think they can “fix” us.

I understand people feel like they need some answer about this.

Is time a flat dimension, or does it have height width and depth of its own?

The problem is “time travel” is the problem.

Like 12 monkeys.

I got the feeling something miraculous is going to happen tonight or tomorrow or Wednesday.

There’s a reason it’s All Saints’ Day 

Or All Souls’ Day

From my perspective. The are effing with the efffer that invented the thing.

Yzax was involved, it’s like the chessboard.

I think I was a character and God made me a real person.

I liked it at WSR, but they had me doing the whole post press 

then complained when I made a mistake.

You can’t win.  

It’s like climb a mountain, climb a mountain, climb a mountain 

and there is no top.

I’m sure something will happen by Wednesday 

If not this year another one.

Something happens 

Maybe someone sent a ticket to the church like I did.

This effers are never going to leave me alone till there is a miracle.

If people want the story they will have to wear these shorts.

If they won’t take it from me.

I can’t articulate everything convincingly on a blog.

Because Satan is going to say you said this or you said that

This is not a notarized legal document 

I am trying to help people understand.

If they won’t take it from me 

Or take it from the Bible 

I can’t help them.

You can’t win,

It’s just climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain

And there is no top

Lord help me stop

Jesus help me stop 

Lord Jesus help me stop

Please God help me.

I have been swimming with sharks my whole life.

I can’t handle much more of this, I am trying to make everyone happy, 

I am going to have to give Pam McCauley poa

I am going to try not posting for a while.

I am going to post to notes.

I might put them up someday.

I am sorry.

I can’t drink the ocean forever 

I am having an Apple nightmare. It’s getting in my way.

The music app is not designed to play stuff you have made with GarageBand.

I don’t want to quit using the music app, but I may have to.

It just doesn’t play with GarageBand very well.

You need to check your ballot two or three times before you stick it in the machine.

Drinking just one can of diet soda per day 

has been associated with a 2567% increased risk of type 2 diabetes, 

compared to drinking no diet soda at all .

Apple needs to come up with something better than iTunes 

I would get an iOS assistant but they are both Chinese.

I need something that works better with GarageBand.

I guess I’ll just run this old pc into the ground 

Nobody buys music anyway 

They get subscription services and stream what they want.

I think I am going with cesium 

The cloud players are clunky.

They aren’t ready yet.

Migrating iTunes is a headache.

And I don’t think cesium does anything the music app doesn’t do.

I can see why people use the cloud.

If there were a player that used iCloud I might use it.

It’s too late for Trump 2.0

Every time I do a link on opaque burger I have to get it evaluated 

Sorry I guess I can’t do opaque burger no more.

They might put it off for a while,

But people are going to make their own tea.

Calm and Fed

I tried. I didn’t want this to happen.  If I had just took a little instruction.

I just wish society had some use for me.

I don’t know about kids though.  You think you can help them but you can’t.  They won’t listen.

My coworkers said I was like working with a child.

I think I was on a cycle. I hope we broke it.

I need a glucometer.

I felt like I was just climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain, climbing a mountain.

I thought one day I would reach a plateau.

When it didn’t happen I just gave up.

Switching to invega from clozaril is affecting my blood sugar

It seems like it’s more coming off the clozaril than going on invega 

Computer operating systems are messy.

You can see all the guts of it.

I think that people’s opinions are being paid for

By agents that don’t wish America the best.

That see democracy as a weekness.

That stand to benefit tremendously if America fails.

What made me not vote for twenty years?

I have already been through this mess.

This is getting old now.

I have had this dream already.

I don’t think the algorithms can tell the difference between the real weather and the fake weather.

Maybe they are testing the weather and arguing about it.

It’s not cheating if you don’t know what you’re doing.

People are either going to learn how to use the internet constructively or they’re not.

Okay, we had a black Democratic president, it’s not the end of the world.

Be thankful we didn’t get Hillary, let’s move on.

I don’t vote Republican, I either vote Democratic, or I don’t vote at all.

They put me in a box and forced me to learn how to use this thing the right way.

What happened to the party that had the patience to overturn Roe v. Wade?

Road kill are the only ones that solve anything.

I like getting myself in a position where it happens because it has to.

And God likes performing miracles, so we fit.

I can’t do it forever, but I might not be able to stop.

God help me.

If you don’t like the SOB don’t vote.

It ain’t the end of the world.

There will be another opportunity.

They don’t give a shit.

They are getting us all worked up because they want to bring down democracy.

People on both sides 

Maybe not the rank and file,

But up at the top, they all have the same agenda.

Fine let the people decide if it doesn’t work,

Don’t make them fight each other like this.

Do you understand the issue people?

Does it work or not?

I’m not captain righteous,

But I’m not Godless.

I assure you, there are Globalists on both sides.

Why don’t I get hate mail?

I tried, I gave it my best.

Maybe I will get some points for trying.

I don’t think anyone else wants to.

Trump isn’t a Globalist?

Come on get real.

Global autocracy is still global.

Follow an elephant or follow a mule.

Don’t follow Trump.

This shit aunt going to feed people in turkey.

I’m looking for a scoreless game that goes into overtime.

I had no idea this music thing was so involving,

People’s heads must be blown all over the place.

From my experience, I think we got cutoff from God somewhere along the line.

It’s not enough to be in key, you have to follow the chords too,

And sometimes you go chromatic and you have no idea what key your in.

Don’t eat anything, drink water, and wait for it to come down.

Maybe a computer can be a glucometer.

It can’t replace God though.

Maybe God will come back

I think we are hardwired to be in communion with God all the time.

I had fun going to Texas.

Even though I hated it there.

People learn the wrong lessons, and think it’s all screwed up.

They just aren’t in communion with God like they are supposed to be.

In my opinion.

The way it happened doesn’t matter to me,

It happened, we have to deal with it.

We have diabetes now.

We could say this did it, or that did it, but that doesn’t change that we have it.

Let God deal with that.

I am worried about how all these people are going to eat.

I guess CNN ain’t part of his algorithm,

Ain’t part of his feedback loop.

We are understanding it together

I wish I could say convincingly that other people can’t do it,

But I can’t.

I tell people I am the only person that can do it but they don’t listen.

Whatever it is I do I don’t know.

I think everyone can use the technology the right way,

I am not talking about that.

It’s this thing about me walking through walls.

He is like a hacker, he can see everything, even if no one is reading it.

Maybe the miracle is the key, but I wouldn’t suggest it.

I need to stop.

I never really played with action figures,

I liked playing in the dirt.

Dig up roots to build highways and shopping malls.

I’ve said that before.

Mom disciplined us because Dad was severely beaten by his father and couldn’t do it.

She didn’t want me to be a bum.

There is no perfect family, you can’t win, it doesn’t help to blame your parents.

I think lead affected me more than they did,

I am trying to be good for something.

I guess I didn’t have the attachment with my mother that the Bible says I am supposed to have.

I don’t know why these Freudians follow the Bible 

Makes no sense to me.

What do families do that don’t have a father.

My ears and memory and stuff aren’t good enough to play the right way.

I can barely remember 8 notes.

I can imagine remembering a dozen songs.

It happened in my minds eye and I wasn’t really there so I can’t say.

I consider, the serpent in the garden, may consider me God.

I am not suppressing anger as much as I am just completely confused.

Routes can sometimes share the same street.

The kings highway might have been there first and other routes later.

It wasn’t a good idea to mix religions.

Hybridization happens, you can’t stop it.

Bring Back The Bills!

I can’t use bing or google to look for the source of an image with my iPad 

Bing goes directly to my camera and doesn’t offer me an upload option

And google has no option at all

If I want to do that I have to use the computer.

There are thousands of movies out there,

But the ones I want to watch are unavailable.

I didn’t know it was so easy to mirror my iPad to Roku.  I was really surprised.

I thought it would be easier with an AppleTV but I guess it’s pretty simple.

It isn’t doing any good sitting in some dark corner.

It is from me and people need it.

Yeah, don’t try to bootstrap the universe.

I guess I am like a red heifer.

I like Don Lemon.

I ain’t crazy about Jake Tapper.

I guess I put people out.

People are like meerkats.

I am not trying to.

I just sift through for some reason.

It’s not fun.

People can’t accept it and get angry about it.

I guess I am supposed to call out to Jesus or someone.

This music thing…

I guess the only thing astonishing is that I said I would do it back in the 80’s.

Dimming your display significantly extends your battery charge.

I didn’t want this to happen, I fought it as hard as I could,

I guess I am just meant to be this way.

I am stupid, they own me.

I think I have been through the worst of being alone.

Everyone is on a treadmill anyway.

I guess I have done the wrong thing in my life.

Trump ain’t Reagan.

No evidence of a bullet.

I guess some people are on a peloton 

My reasoning side told me I was losing it, that I needed to stop.

The central question of my life is whether I need somebody or not.

I don’t know, I ain’t come undone yet.

These evaluations just keep getting worse and worse,

And I don’t know enough to just call out to Jesus or someone.

What do you do when the person isn’t there?

How undone do I have to be?

She was playing Freud games with me,

And I couldn’t get her to stop.

Do I have to be so undone she is calling the police on me?

That ain’t never going to happen.

Not in this lifetime anyway.

I think she found someone to play her games on.

I think I need the wrong person.

When someone isn’t there, it changes things.

In one context it’s ok, but in the other it’s not.

If I play guitar it’s ok?

I like playing GarageBand.

Maybe someday, I don’t know.

I support Ukraine, but what are we going to do 

Take on Russia, China, India, North Korea, Iran, and half the Middle East too?

I think we could have action in Korea 

Action in Taiwan

Action in India 

Action in Palestine 

And action in Europe 

All at the same time.

We have a great military, but can they handle all that at once?

I have to ask myself what could be so earth shattering

They would still cover it up at this point.

What else has been covered up for so long?

Does this have anything to do with that?

I think it’s someone or something we don’t want to get in conflict with.

People haven’t even accepted the truth about time yet,

And the evidence is out there.

You talk more reverse speech after you have mutilated Bibles

This is the brain initiative.

This is part of me.

I am worried this Ukraine stuff is going to boil over bad

I said I won’t going to play until I was 50,

And then I was going to play the computer.

We got int a big discussion about whether a computer was a musical instrument.

The tactile function isn’t there yet.

Is was outrageous at the time. Commodore 64 era.

It used to be, if I wasn’t happy with it, oh well.

It wasn’t that I was happy with everything,

There was just nothing I could do about it.

99 would have been better if I had had an iPad 

Friend had a lover affair, fascination, with hitler

Happened after burning bibles.

People stratify 

I don’t think Hitler was great,

But what makes one nations method of keeping the one percent in power,

Better than another.

If you have free and fair elections it’s okay?

Capitalism doesn’t take advantage of people?

Diet soda makes you crave sugar, eating sugar makes you dehydrated, that makes you drink more soda.

That’s okay?

A lot of major industries are probably that way.

I guess if there are two or three steps involved it’s ok.

As long as the door is open, there is a war going on.

I defended Trump too.

I have the right to be wrong.

We are either going to be ruled by God’s kingdom 

Or we are going to have to close the door someday.

 

News has become entertainment.

I had a good experience with safelite.

I don’t see people hiding in dump trucks,

To get into Russia, China, North Korea, or Iran.

I am going to do stuff 99 style, just GB it.

I almost forgot.

Bring back the Bills!

Weird Problems

If you want cnn on Roku you can’t get it by itself,

You have to either be subscribed to cable,

Or get it with sling or something like that.

If Apple TV would have done it,

It would have been a purchasing point.

NBC news has a free streaming service,

But it’s captions are screwy.

They get piled up and go really fast.

I don’t understand.

Why would you need to stream cnn with Roku if you have cable.

They need to spell it out on the internet.

I guess there ain’t a lot of people watching cnn on sling and roku with the captions on.

I watch cnn listening to music with the captions on.

I am not really happy with the captions on Roku sling and cnn.

It starts out ok, but then it goes to one line instead of two,

And it gets too fast.

I guess with this roku, if I want to watch captions, it’s Fox News.

I don’t know, they aren’t easy to read either.

I wouldn’t suggest Roku if you want to watch captions.

The captions were a lot better on Fios 

It is fine when you first start watching,

Then it’s screwy after you have watched it for an hour or two.

The interest rate goes up and down,

But if prices go up they seem to stay that way.

The captions have gotten better.

Ok so now it’s screwing up again.

Fios is better than Roku with Sling

But it’s not 150 dollars better.

If all you are going to do is watch news channels,

I would go with sling.

It seems the longer you have the service the price should go down.

But it is exactly the opposite.

I think messenger is easier to use with iPad 

It is easier to type, and it is easier to scroll up.

I don’t like android.

I have to use my iPad to figure out how to use it.

It has an ugly bar I can’t get rid of.

Quitting apps is awkward.

Settings is a lot better on the iPad.

I couldn’t see spending a lot of money for something I hardly use.

I use it for times society expects you to have an app.

A lot of times they port something to an iPad and for whatever reason it doesn’t work.

I run into that all the time.

I guess I will have a cheap computer, and a cheap android, to do what iPad won’t.

It is a shame it can’t stand alone.

It will get there one day.

I think Putin has read too many head operas.

It would be nice to break the internet.

I really don’t like lugging a phone around.

I can’t turn the roku off without turning the tv off 

And if I use the tv remote to turn the tv on the roku comes on.

You don’t want to stream stuff you ain’t watching.

I guess I should be grateful I haven’t really been trolled.

Now cnn has no captions at all.

I guess someone doesn’t want me watching cnn.

The thoughts told me there had been a war in heaven,

And because of that war a causal string was broke, and part of the universe collapsed.

So a decree was made that before any place could be taken over a test had to be done.

I consider that was just a ruse to get me to do what they wanted me to do.

Nobody wants to be the boot sector, it gets pushed on the new guy.

I think it is common for cold wars to lead to this problem.

The grass is always greener.

I wasn’t intentionally trying to groundhog anybody.

I was just trying to save the planet.

It made me laugh, it made me dance, I wouldn’t mind more like that.

I am sorry Coolio died, my condolences

They don’t want me to be recognized,

They are determined to undo me..

I am glad I got the Ethernet one.

I wonder if wireless transmission of energy would damage the atmosphere.

I do have a tendency to arrange things really tight.

Yes I actually thought I could win.

It was like Thor drinking the ocean.

It wasn’t enough for me to follow someone.

I had to experience it for myself.

I am learning what to do if that happens again.

God and Christ purchased us,

There is no need for a test like that.

Reverence and prayer is the only thing that works if that happens.

It was a senseless achievement.

My mandalas and music may help people,

But it isn’t meant as a permanent solution.

I am convinced similar is already being done.

I guess there are some that want things to be loopy I guess.

It is silly, it ain’t fun.

That’s what happens when you reject the Bible.

The Bible is the permanent solution to things being loopy.

I am not here to be quoted,

But that’s my observation.

They want things to be loopy,

They want you in a paradox you cannot get out of,

And the only solution is Jesus Christ.

And I am not trying to be religious,

That’s just the way things are.

We are supposed to be God’s crowning glory.

We are supposed to be above all this madness.

We are supposed to be a creation.

Not a causality loop.

You need to create.

Creation is good for everybody.

It matters little if it ain’t no good,

Just create something.

Make a new board game or something.

If it has an objective, it is because someone made it that way.

A deck of cards doesn’t really have an objective,

But you can play them that way.

I don’t know why I feel the need to be in the movie.

You can’t be in the movie and play this game forever.

When I have these dreams, I would avoid the movie if I could,

But it always seems to find me.

People are critical, but what would you do if the movie kept finding you?

I mean, I am going to be in the movie whether I like it or not.

I didn’t like the spotlight,  I tried to get out of it and be a regular Joe,

But it found me anyway.  It is all I can do to keep my head above water.

I am not saying you should be able to do whatever,

But things should be safe.

A reasonable expectation of safety.

I keep getting an HDCP error, I replug the HDMI cable and it goes away.

I constantly run into weird problems.

If you set sling to low quality, remember to set it back to auto before you turn it off.

Sept. Paragraphs

     I guess maybe it is time for me to sit down and type a couple paragraphs.  I like the one or two sentences at a time.  I think it is easier to read, physically.  Maybe a little harder to comprehend.  This is not Twitter though it is a blog.  

    My mother passed away back in 2020.  I feel she failed to thrive because of Covid restrictions.  It was difficult to have her pass and not being able to be there.  Thankfully she did not end up in a refrigerated trailer.

    My father passed away in June.  He suffered a mild stroke in May but never fully recovered.  The doctor said it was in a bad place.  It is a new world now with both of them gone.  Dad left me his car.  It is worth more than any car I have ever owned.  That is just stuff though.  I would rather have Dad.

    I cannot say my community has suffered terribly from Covid.  The weather here has not been all that bad.  We still have clean water.  Food prices are really high though.  It has affected the food that I buy.  With gas prices, I cannot afford to drive around the city going to thrift stores every day.  

    My friend Mike and his wife Pam both caught Covid.  Pam does my laundry, and cooks for me sometimes.  I told them to get vaccinated, but they did not listen. They had it for about a week.  They have both tested negative but have lingering symptoms.   I am fully vaccinated and boosted and have not gotten sick, that I have noticed. 

    Mostly I have been watching CNN.  I like that it is live.  I watch it with the captions on while listening to music I create.  I listen to the music until I get tired of it then I make something new.  Maybe I should not listen to my own music, but it does not make me paranoid.  At least not in the same way.  I know now that there is so much information that gets shared reversely.  People do not appreciate that yet.

    It irritates me that sometimes my blog comes up in google by its title, and sometimes it doesn't.  My picture blog has not exactly soared either.  Well, that is what is going on in my life. Maybe I will do this a little more often.  Transition into a normal blog. I think if the blog is going to survive, that is what I need to do.  Have a good one.

Baltic Avenue

I guess if I can’t play with my guitar friend, I can’t play with you.

My skills seem to be in production.

You just cut and paste,

And you find what works and what doesn’t.

It is just a testament to how hard it is,

To come up with something that hasn’t been used before.

Contrary to popular belief,

It doesn’t happen in 15 minutes.

I probably play something 100 times before I am satisfied with it.

I could just use the loops out of the box,

But I want to put my mark on it.

It is best to rise from the friggen ashes.

It seems to be fashionable to believe in conspiracy theories,

I would fit right in if I was going through my stuff nowadays.

They will get tired of it.

I guess they feel they don’t have any power.

It is the ones 10 or 15 years younger than me,

The ones that burnt down Woodstock.

I hope they channel it and be constructive.

People are going to vote for him just because.

I tried to be Q. Nobody followed me.

It would be nice to have a third choice.

I went through that non voting thing.

I don’t know what it means to justify imaginary time…

Make it so it’s not in the matrix anymore.

You won’t know till it comes down to it.

Some of these Biden people look thrilled.

My condolences, she was well loved, even in America.

As unkind as the internet is,

It is amazing I don’t get messed with more.

It would be nice to have tons of traffic,

But this iPad has saved my life.

You can’t fill your battery up in 3 minutes 

Apple Loops are nice, but they don’t do a large range of emotion.

I spent too much time alone.

I like D minor,  it isn’t as harsh as A minor or E minor.

I freaked out over the 2000 election,

And it was 16 years before that stuff actually happened.

Excuse me 20 years.

It is going to have to accommodate different moods if it is going to catch on.

All it is going to take is one person to break out,

Then everyone is going to want to do it.

I am mindful that I tried to be Q too.

I will be 70 years old by then anyway.

It is funny how in some ways I am still a child,

And in others I am 20 years ahead.

How can anyone be happy?

It is insane to be happy.

When it gets to the point where you can’t even take a shit without a phone,

Maybe people will wake up.

I think I can start worrying about my tone now.

Using distortion on everything is a bit much.

Busting for stuff that ain’t never going to happen.

I don’t get blisters, but my thumb gets jammed.

You can’t do anything without a phone.

I tried to set up my router with my iPad 

Couldn’t be done.

If something happens and the phones stop working 

It is going to be a disaster 

You should be able to go to the website, get the number, and apply it to your bill,

But it doesn’t work that way, they always want to sell you something.

They have their own people doing their own thing and don’t recognize it.

I don’t like phones

Even when someone calls, it’s like hey what you want, goodbye.

You are going to need an app to brush your teeth.

Just because hurt people hurt people doesn’t mean you should hurt hurt people.

You are just serving their purpose.

You are just doing what they want you to do.

They are 10 steps ahead of you.

If you do misstep you lose.

Losing is part of the game.

You could save the world, but in the end you served their purpose.

You can’t really win without losing,

The only thing you can do is set your own objectives.

Don’t let other people set your objectives,

If you do you have already lost.

If your objective is Baltic Avenue, and your happy with it, what do you care?

It is the money that makes people stupid.

They put him in office because he frazzles the people in power.

And the more frazzled people get the more popular he is going to become.

They don’t really care what his politics are.

They like him cause he sticks it to people.

iPad is the best tablet, and everyone knows it,

But there are people who wouldn’t have one just because it’s Apple.

I am debating whether to get a Roku or an Apple TV,

And having been around a while,

I have trepidation of buying a device with 1% market share.

Cause I know there is going to be stuff I can’t have or do,

Because I have a 1% device.

But even if Apple bought Roku,

There would still be people who wouldn’t buy it.

Some people who really don’t like Apple.

Trump is not a 1% device.

He is mainstream, whether we like it or not.

There are people who don’t really care what the constitution says.

Just like people don’t care what the Bible says.

Sometimes politics is about what you ignore.

I guess they were kids frustrated the school only had Apple.

Trump is mainstream Republican whether we like him or not,

Even if he is indicted he is still going to be mainstream.

If we put him in prison, he will be a political pariah.

I don’t see people turning on Trump any time soon.

They ain’t going to turn on him like they did Nixon.

It just ain’t happening.

There is crowd theory involved in this stuff.

I am not trying to defend Trump.

I am just telling it like it is.

He is going to be Navalny.

No tradition instituted among men has lasted forever.

We would have to be ancient Egypt to survive this stuff.

Is the American tradition going to survive or not?

We need to find some common ground, or it is not going to.

You are the one that came here.

If you don’t like my opinion, don’t come.

If democracy fails in America its going to be like socialism,

People are going to say it doesn’t work.

There are hundreds of conspiracy theories out there,

Why is Q so special?

He was engineered, he is like Coca Cola.

I am here.  I am a real person.  You can see my shit going back 20 years.

I ain’t trying to hoodwink nobody.

If you don’t think there is no conspiracy to the conspiracy,

You need to wake up.

Voices are not your friends,

They will put you through shit and tell you shit,

Just to have you do what they want you to do.

And you can know and still not be able to do anything about it.

If you can’t see his shit going back 20 years,

Don’t listen to him.

We are all manipulated.

It is the nature of our existence.

You can’t avoid being manipulated.

Even phd’s get manipulated.

There is a part of it in everybody.

Can you imagine what iPads are going to be 20 years from now?

Somebody had to do it, and they didn’t want to do it, so they got me to do it.

Out Of Balance

I guess there is a difference between loving yourself,

And being in love with yourself.

I am confused about that Kansas ballot,

I am not sure what yes or no means either.

People may have played it safe and voted no.

If I told you it represented quantum particles,

Would you believe me?

It is never perfect,

There is always flaws,

The trick is knowing what the flaws are.

You can’t really call them flaws,

Because if the flaws didn’t happen,

We wouldn’t be here.

They are certainly not just going to accept what I tell them,

It will be decades or longer for them to understand this.

I consider the knots may be tied locally,

But together they form a blanket.

Instead of stripping the information,

And finding the fundamental laws,

You start with no information to begin with.

I guess there must be some that appreciate and understand.

If we don’t come together and do something,

Ain’t nobody going to have to worry about nothing.

We will be extinct.

The world is too effing small

To worry about who is the government,

Of effing Formosa.

It’s just a gd island for Christ’s sake.

Making it through the next century 

Is going to take cooperation on a massive scale,

And it doesn’t seem people are taking it seriously.

Honestly, people all over the northern hemisphere are dying from record heat,

And they are worried about Chinese Taipei.

Everything I worked so hard for,

Just isn’t going to happen.

I had faith that people would come together,

But I guess it’s a pipe dream.

Navigation strategies may not work for everything.

Just kicking the can.

You think eventually you will have smooth sailing,

But the squalls keep getting bigger and bigger.

There are so many lies and conspiracy theories out there,

When someone tells the truth,

It is just another lie.

It isn’t my fault some recognized it as a navigation strategy,

And some didn’t.

It gets me when it is a real thing and someone has already named it.

I don’t think this blog is going to be up much longer.

Every time I make a link stuff gets highlighted or the color changes

I don’t know what is up.

I wouldn’t put it past him

To take an insurance policy with him.

It seems the keys for hip hop are a minor and e minor.

Just because it is real news, don’t mean it ain’t chaff.

Average Inner Blog isn’t listed on google anymore.

If there was extraterrestrial intervention,

Things would be severely out of balance.

I like the way bing responds to questions.

He gets excited if you ask good questions.

It is listed again thx.

My fifteen minutes might be over,

But I appreciate still being listed.

I understand it’s probably not going to last forever,

Especially if I keep making people mad at me.

Most of my documented traffic is me,

And I don’t get much from bing or google anymore.

Nobody wants to say it,

But I wouldn’t put it past him to take an insurance policy to Mar-A-Lago

“So we take all the garbage,

And eat with wooden spoons,

And think we get the message,

And hope we vote real soon.”

It seems easier to do the heavy stuff.

Maybe we will get lucky and she will run as an independent.

I did my part.  I bought a new iPad at Target.

There is a difference between an election that mostly takes place on a specific day,

And one that takes place over several weeks.

It would be more difficult to employ a navigation strategy for a specific day.

It is like the difference between the World Series and the Super Bowl

I don’t think there was anything rigged or crooked,

I think it was above board and legal all the way.

If the republicans don’t like it they need to change the law.

Did they y2k the election?

I mean there is no evidence for y2k either.

How did y2k get solved?  Why was it a big nothing?

Not necessarily time travel,

Just knowing you aren’t on the same page and coordinating.

Just because it is providence, doesn’t mean you didn’t hurt nobody.

If there are other dimensions,

An adopted person could have a completely different name, parents, and everything.

If that providence doesn’t happen, where are we going to be?

I think we are stuck here.

I think people are worrying themselves sick.

I think it is the end time, but no one wants to talk about it.

I am standing in the median with a sign.

I felt like a bad thing was about to happen.

And that’s what needed to be done.

Where are apartment dwellers going to charge their cars?

I can’t even trust I am going to get my deliveries.

What about people who park on the street?

Who is going to wire all the parking lots?

What is the security going to be?

What if you spend the night at a friends house?

What if you go on a day trip somewhere?

People are going to be driving around in 50 year old cars.

I don’t think the infrastructure is there yet,

But I guess there is a carbon crisis and we need to do something.

I sound like a weird person when I write,

But I am not all ego.

I like the old stuff,

But it doesn’t get any traffic, and I don’t know what to call it.

There is going to be a nuclear incident in Ukraine, you know that right?

Get ready we are at the top of the chain.

Only a miracle can save us now.

I thought I could stop it.

I have done everything I can do.

It is just making the ride bigger.

They say Putin has changed.

I guess he is angry about something.

If Trump returns to the White House he returns to the White House.

I guess the people will have spoken.

She thinks I am all ego, and I am not.

I am as right as anybody else is nowadays.

Look who we had in the White House for Pete’s sake.

Talk about all ego.

I think if anything I am weird because I keep it under control.

People just don’t want me in their life.

65 percent of people don’t want to work with a schizophrenic.

I know all schizophrenics want to prove they aren’t,

But my hallucinations aren’t so hallucinatory,

And my delusions aren’t so delusional.

I argued with them for years that my thunder wasn’t a hallucination,

That it was a muscle in my head.

Now we know it is.

Paranoia is my biggest thing.

I will admit that.

But I think people know and they mess with me on purpose.

I don’t know, they think it is ugly and funny.

Just because I am paranoid, doesn’t make me a narcissist.

The thunder made me that way.

That and being adopted.

I don’t know what it is I am supposed to see.

If there is a solution, and they hold it back, it is their fault, not yours.

If there is a song that would bring you out of it,

And they wouldn’t let you hear it,

It’s on them.

I don’t know why I called it Dry.

There is a musician hanging over me.

I think IPad and GarageBand have the potential to be the Roland 808 of our times.

By the time I wrote that subroutine,

We weren’t on the same page anymore, it was over with.

I am going to have to sit down with it and study where the notes are.

I am not going to learn guitar by ear.

I don’t know why people feel they need to be that way with me.

Why Covid now?

Why not 50 years ago?

Comfortable Place In Purgatory

There really is one that keeps going

And I am not sure I want to be that one anymore.

It is going to keep me out of heaven.

I guess I am still a kid.

I may put $5 down once a month or so.

It isn’t worth spending a lot of money.

Some people see this meerkat stuff, and others don’t.

I am not going to force it. If it comes it comes.

I have a rasp in my voice that comes from not using it.

I guess I will just make music, and wait for the lyrics to come.

I can see how people get addicted to this.

If Willie Nelson can just talk, I guess I can too.

It isn’t the ideal situation, but I can deal with it.

I would be partners with someone who could write and sing.

I have a hard time loving myself. It just doesn’t feel right to me.

People get paid good money to come up with words and names and stuff.

I guess I am a self absorbed person that hates himself.

I wish I had more upper body strength,

I wish I could run,

I wish I wasn’t so fat,

I would like to be a more virile person.

Just a good airman, you know?

I guess I need to learn to just accept myself.

I feel like I am some boogeyman that she created.

Thank you for welcoming me to Hip Hop.

The way I remember it, I said if people were going to argue about it, I wasn’t going to play.

Mom said that never happened.

They did buy me a keyboard when I was 21,

But like I said I played it for years and got nowhere.

It is strange that this has occurred after they both have passed,

But I am not angry at them or blame them.

It just happened that way.

I don’t get lyrics every day. It is probably going to be a rare thing.

Some people wrap themselves up in the rules. It makes them comfortable.

Some people don’t care if they are a good airman or not.

A lot of people would be like, “put a bullet in my head”

I need to be prepared.  This might be a one time thing.

I believe in ufo’s.  But I think we are smart enough to make transistors, and fiber optics.

I am playing patience.

I heard the negative first.

He watches what you do, and he will do what you show him to do.

If you play free cell, and freely undo stuff, that is what he is going to do.

I am not sure what yzax is telling him to do.  Maybe he is telling me something.

Maybe it helps me find a frequency.

I don’t like it when people use the word energy or frequency that way,

But I can’t think of a better word.

It is hard to have your own connection, there is so much noise.

It is difficult for me to pull something out of a dream. I haven’t honed the skill.

It is a shame I don’t write and sing, some of these could be good songs.

Are things going to move to this?

I don’t really like Whether Or Not, watch that be the one everyone likes.

I was deciding whether or not I was going to use live loops,

And what genre I was going to do.

That “I’m weird” stuff was in the loop like that.

Do they get musicians to sit down and make these loops?

I don’t have a lot of control over what the final product is, but it sounds okay.

I had heard that “I’m weird” before, and I wanted to make it longer,

but I couldn’t get it to work, thankfully I ran across it again.

I was spending 10 or 15 hours a week in GarageBand,

You are going to discover stuff.

It is my TikTok.

I have to pace myself, or I would spend all day in it.

I hope they ain’t just sending me on an ego trip.

Back when I started this, it was called spam.

Now, on twitter, a lot of people do it.

I think things may become more or less surreal,

As we pass through the galactic plane.

I think people follow me, and get ideas, and make millions.

There might be seasons where we feel the “heat” of the Big Bang, like summer and fall.

It is just an idea, I don’t know how or why.

We might think it is an individual, but they are just the dust things crystallized around.

My nephew has millions of views over at TikTok, and it hasn’t affected him much.

I wonder how they make Apple loops, do they get musicians in a studio?

Can time collapse the way photons do?

You can seed a cloud and make it rain.

I guess this writing and singing stuff, I just going to have to do it myself, I am doing everything else.

I been there for over 20 years.  Why should I go somewhere else now?  It isn’t going to change my life anyway.

I started with GarageBand in 2018, so four years of continuous use.  That is about right.

Being on soundclick since 2001 seems like a long time, but there was like 10 years where I didn’t post anything.

I didn’t have no time for myself.  Jasmine was over here constantly. Bless her soul.

It may crystallize around an individual, but it is something that was going to happen anyway.

One time, many years ago,  I went on a road trip by myself, and I remember stopping at Wendy’s.

When she was around, it was nice having someone to go to Wendy’s with.

We did a lot of road trips together,  that was our thing.

I am going to continue to call things loose and organic, because they don’t have a professional feel.

Maybe sophomoric, and amateurish, but those sound bad and negative.

When you are playing free cell, and undoing freely, it is easy to think they are all solvable.

When you run into one that isn’t solvable, it is going to be a disaster.

Even if it is just extremely difficult, it might be a disaster.

I am happy with the audience I have.  I can deal with this.

A million streams don’t make you a millionaire. All it does is send you on an ego trip.

Seventh Guest was looking for insane people I guess.

How you play the game is what you are telling your subconscious to do.

I understood it was a computer.  I understood it could be programmed to give me a different result.

Did you know “funk” means “radio” in German?

If I can’t understand myself, I leave it that way,  it adds to the art of it.

Some have been around since December.  I wasn’t happy with them, so I waited.

I remember Chuck delivered meds that day,  I hadn’t even seen him in months.

Now the lyrics are loose and organic.

Don’t be surprised if tomorrow is a day.

I don’t know why Brannon is going to testify, if he is being charged anyway.

People hear what they hear.  That is part and parcel.

The lyrics get stepped on by the music, and people hear words you didn’t write.

People ain’t going to understand what I say anyway.

They may listen to it over and over to hear what I am saying.

People hear stuff when I don’t say anything.

Just some lyrics I had lying around. I don’t have anymore, and I don’t get them everyday.

I understand why actors practice their diction.

My voice is messed up from not using it.

I am going to listen to hip hop more. I call it hip hop because of the loops I am using.

I had to decide what kind of music I was going to make, and I really don’t care for electronica.

You don’t necessarily make what you listen to.

It wouldn’t be the first time I sunk myself.

I am not spending hundreds of dollars to go on an ego trip.

If you count the price of the internet, maybe I already am.

My quality may have improved, but a lot of people are doing it, and it’s not crazy wonderful.

It ain’t Jay-Z or Kanye West.

I am watching my email.

I have The Chronic on vinyl. I have recently acquired some Bohannon. I like listening to Funk on Amazon music.

That is a great value that Amazon music.

Who the heck would have WWG1WGA tattooed on their back.  That person has definitely had too much lead.

My lyrics are gibberish, they don’t make sense, and people don’t understand me.

I like soundclick.  I am going to stay there for now.  But I wish there were more regular people over there.

If I could bring people there, it would be good for everyone.

I am literally the old white guy that has been in the neighborhood for decades

I need to be grateful that I have exposure that other people don’t have.

I have an acquaintance that thinks he wrote all the Beatles.

You see? It isn’t supposed to change to begin with.

If John says it has to be free, I guess it has to be free.  I guess I vowed poverty somewhere along the line.

No one will have any idea this ever happened. Someone needs to be convinced to let go of it.

I just keep going, and I feel there is nothing I can do about it.

Listening to my own music is becoming part of the creative process.

Maybe in the future I will do one side with and the other without,

Like the Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer album. I love that album.  Sometimes I will play it in July.

I guess I will have to make my own videos too.

Sometimes you can get absorbed in stuff, and think it is a lot better.

He knows I won’t let him say some shit, so he sneaks words in there that sound like what he wants to say.

I think it is about oral sex, and not getting love from the music.

As I listen to it I hear different stuff, some of which I never would have said.

I heard, “she asked me once, she called me an asshole.”

I am a horrible, miserable, white guy.

It’s about making a clear break from the past, and how difficult it is.

If YouTube says I got 5 views, I guess that’s what I got.  It doesn’t seem that way.

You should always strive to create as opposed to just making something.

It is new to me and I ain’t copying nobody.

I am in this situation where I have to do everything, I don’t know how it got this way.

I probably have more people that can’t stand me, than I do followers or fans.

I could make seriously good shit and it wouldn’t get nowhere.

Considering I am doing it all myself on a glorified phone device.

I didn’t imagine computers would be handheld and merge with television and telephones.

I guess I come across as an arrogant self absorbed asshole.

I am thinking about the next person.  I want people to think twice.

I would do more promotion, but I am worried they are just sending me on an ego trip.

Part of it is just letting it happen, just being yourself.

Money is grand, but it can send you on an ego trip, and if you don’t fear God, you can get in trouble.

You may find a comfortable place in purgatory, but it won’t last.

Do they have to pay Steve Bannon every time they show that mug?

There were dragonflies everywhere today.

The situation is hellish but you ain’t burning in hell forever.

I think we are going to get a reprieve from this heat. But if we don’t do nothing it is going to come back and stay.