whatever it was...

whatever it was
it started on October 1 2008
and ended February 15 2009
something happened on the 15th.

I wish I could wear the uniform again.
I would go to Iraq in a heartbeat.

The only proof I have is what I am capable of.
I don't think this is going to be resolved without conflict.

Moving around in four dimensions does something.
Its an actualization.

I know you think there is no such thing as the real world.
I know you think men that do this are angry at women.
but it has moved beyond that now.
The only proof I have is what I am capable of.
Can brinkmanship cease for a moment?

Maybe I am angry at women
but that doesn't change anything.
I have still done something unallowed.
I praise her.
She could of got me kicked out the program,
but she didn't.
I probably wouldn't have graduated without them.

A program crashes when it does something unallowed.
I am free to do all sorts of unallowed stuff.

It is not just Dave's little world.
Dave has done something unallowed.

Ok I admit it
I have anger and resentment towards women.
I don't know how this shit started.
I just feel like everyone is lying to me.

I have performed an illegal operation.
I need to shut down.
Thou shall not suffer a witch to live.

I don't blame my mother.
I blame the dish detergent and the Clorox.
They have a good 2009
and they don't want me to shut down.

God forbid it be the dish detergent and the Clorox.
Somebody is getting something out of this.
I have performed an illegal operation.
I need to shut down.

They are Newtonian.
They don't understand what I am trying to tell them.
Cause and effect can get mixed up on this medicine,
but they won't listen to me.

What can I do?
I know what it is doing to me,
but they are forcing me to take it.
and I am never going to successfully sue Google.
All I have is this damn blog.
Future generations are going to know who was responsible for this.

Now they want to blame Actifed.

I am sorry.
Cause and effect has gotten screwed up with me.

I have had a fatal error.

I just don't recall anything,
God damn it!

I had all sorts of girl friends.
Then I met her and everything went to hell.

I don't have to do it anymore if I don't want to,
and I like it that way.

I don't know where I got this attitude about sex.
I don't know what I am supposed to do about it.

Other singularities don't go bang.
What made the big bang singularity go bang?

A singularity went bang somewhere people.
There are billions of them and nobody knows why one went bang.
I know people specialize and can't know everything,
but I talk to them about the big bang,
and they are like "Is that a good explosion or a bad explosion."
They have gotten a little ahead of themselves.

They think the world exists inside a woman's heart.
They think sex holds the world together.
They think men created the stars to entertain themselves.
They think men are superimposed.
I am telling you, they are nuts.

They think men that do this are angry at women.
They are going to see me that way forever,
whether I am right or wrong.
There is nothing I can say or do to change their mind.

If you understood better what it is supposed to be used for
you might have a different opinion.

I have freed my mind.
I was backwards.
I am on the other side of that mess now.
If that is being angry at women so be it.

My life has split into before and after.

She was only the third girl I ever asked out.
I knew that summer
if she got away from me it would be a disaster.

I didn't know it was a mountain.

I don't mean to hurt women.
I don't mean to make them cry.
I just don't buy into the same shit everyone else does.

I keep losing them forever and it hurts.

Satan is real

Satan is real
and the medicine is not fair play.

You think some piece of paper
is going to get you off the hook of civil disobedience,
you are wrong.

Because they think some piece of paper is going to solve it,
and the problem is bigger than that.
Satan does that shit.

I took it upon myself
to explain to people who are atheist or agnostic
what God and Creation are about.
God is there because game theory doesn't belong,
and Creation is a world that comes out of information theory.

Satan wants to make this about me,
but it isn't about me.
This is Grace.
This was a natural reaction to time reversal.

They laughed at me for wanting to be Ghandi.
There is serious pressure to leave your values around here.

Our generation is screwy.
We came up at a time where everything was known,
Where everything had been done.
There was no frontier.
You got laughed at if you turned the other cheek.
Everybody wanted to have a good time.
Nobody wanted to tackle
anything more serious than presidential kneecaps.
It is sad.

I decided to tackle something serious.

I have two good friends and both of them are atheist or agnostic.
They were laughing and joking about Christians disappearing.
They were like "I have never seen a miracle have you?"
I remember just a few years ago,
one was talking seriously about civil war in the United States.
I care about these people,
but there may come a time where I have to leave them behind.

That is the thing
it aint got nothing to do with QED or Relativity
its all information theory.

Uncertainty is here to stay.

We have had a rouge wave.
The economy is never going to be the same again.

It is silly to even try.
We need to emulate the bible.
We need to set a forgiveness date and move on.

The rich cant keep getting rich forever.
It doesn't work that way.
Obviously.

As the interest rates vary with the forgiveness date,
it would encourage a predictable cycle of saving and spending.

The way things have been,
people double their equity in ten years anyway.

This king of the mountain shit is for the birds.
We don't need to be king of the mountain.
There already is one.

Set a forgiveness date
jack the interest to 11 or 12%
and be done with it.

Uncertainty is here to stay.
We need to modify the economy.
We need predictable patterns.

If we don't move to a cyclic economy,
the only thing that will get us out of this
is war, pestilence or famine.

If socialism or communism can nationalize whole industries,
we can move to a cyclic economy.

everybody's darling

smoke and stare at the flag
smoke and stare at the president
smoke and stare at aunt jemima

Love your President.
Wish good to him.

If I could do the math,
I'd be big.

I am a clown.
Nobody takes me serious.

I know it sounds crazy,
but that is how I got original developments.

If she wanted me to be warm,
I wish she would just knit some socks.

Women can move on and forget about people.
I wish I could do that.

Its better.
I couldn't have jumped 9 cars if I were still backward.

We are not in my matrix.
I use it, along with other things, to point the arrow of time.

I don't like regular people.
I think they are sex obsessed, materialistic, and shallow.

There is so much pressure
to give up what you believe in around here.

You can't jump 9 cars backwards,
that would be a feat.

It was over when we went to Williamsburg.

We were under time reversal,
and everyone was dumb to it but me and Pookie.

This has been the longest 6 months of my entire life.

I am never going to be anything.
They are not going to let me.
They think I have enough.
They think I am the Antichrist.

That's why I encourage piracy.
It is the only way I am ever going to get out there.

I remember when it took 30 minutes
to download a dirty picture.

We don't have to go all the way back anymore.
It stops with me.

I am a loose cannon.
Nobody knows what I am going to do if things get bad.

Usually
someone gets in this position
they are responsible to somebody.

Thats why I need to be in some kind of order or something.

Its what happened to my sister that is pissing me off.
I aint doing nothing for Satan.
My whole life revolves around that shit,
and I was never meant to know about it.

I was always thinking about the past.
I wasn't thinking ahead.
That is why I looked like a automaton.

It just gets me.
I am not happy about it.
I can't believe i was supposed to make music,
and I would have never known about what happened to her.

I could do a 15 and I don't think Jesus would care.
He is not happy.
He said what is tolerated on earth will be tolerated in heaven.

I told the JW's to go dimensional
and it helped thousands of people.

I want something real.
I want something tangible.
Songs on the radio aint going to work anymore.

I am not special.
I just know how to use a computer.

I guess a headache is tangible enough.

I wish you would make me something.
I feel like I have wasted my whole life.

I know you don't.
I got that message already.
Its something I did or started.

People are angry
they are jumping cars
they are having jump parties

It can be like that.
Nobody knows who started it.
I called it that because of Radiohead.
I don't know where they got it from.

That is just it.
Sometimes nobody knows where the idea came from.

That shit happens on the bang.
I don't know how much more we are in for.

I don't know how else to explain it.
Causality does weird shit sometimes.

Satan tried to murder me.
He got me all turned backwards,
and put me through that Turing shit.
I was lucky to do a 6.

I seemed like an automaton,
because I was friggen backwards.
I am lucky to be alive.

I could buy that argument,
If it wasn't for what happened to my sister.

Cause that started the whole thing rolling,
long before I even met them.

I can't get help for my family cause I don't have a key.
It is sick and I am not happy about it.

A third of heaven fell over this shit.
They say I shouldn't blame Satan
for every little thing that goes wrong in people's lives.
What do you think?

I get messed up with the wrong women.
I mean I appreciate it,
but it aint what I had in mind.

I was stupid.
I had it good and I had to go fuck it up.
I wish 84 had never friggen happened.

All the girls loved me.
I was everybody's darling.
and that wasn't enough for me.

I wanted a love everyone would be envious of.
I don't know I was sick in the head.

we are on the other side...

We are on the other side of two 9's.
We shouldn't have to worry about anything for a while.

It was an interpretation error.
I thought I belonged to the order of Melchisedec.
We got a little taste of heaven.

I am just going to worry about the floor.
That burning shit is yall's business.
I am cold, and I am going to stay cold.

I fall for the floor.
I believe in the floor.

There is another Bible here for somebody.

It is the phrasing of the Good News Bible.
I took it personally.

I fought the voices who told me I was Jesus,
but when the Bible said that I just accepted it.

I don't know I can't find it.
the Bible said
"You are a priest of the order Melchisedec,
and I am not taking no for an answer."

I wasn't thrilled.
I am not bragging.
I didn't even know what it was.
I just took it personally.

You would think if you wanted to change the Bible,
You would have to go back to where it was written.
But God can change anyone's Bible at anytime.
And Yours doesn't have to agree with mine.

I wouldn't be Jesus.
I wouldn't be a Saint.
I wouldn't be divine.
I didn't have any problems with being a priest.

He has that kind of power people.
I know you don't believe it, but he does.

You should love God.
Melchisedec is not something to aspire to.

The worse thing that can happen to you is responsibility.

I would be in serious trouble if I were lying to you.

Relax
Watch television.

Radio does this shit to me.
I feel like I have to talk to it.

I am not going to lie to you.
It is scary.

It is when Jesus comes to you
and says as far as he is concerned you are him.

You will know Jesus
He is unlike any spirit you might ever meet
He is like a drill sergeant from Beta Zed.

He will give you a complement,
then while you feel proud of yourself,
He will lay it on you.

He scares me to death.
I don't say peep.
You can tell his presence is real.

What is going on with me is emblematic of a lot of people.
I don't think he is too happy with psychiatry.

I am doing it for the other schizophrenics,
who can't articulate or find their say in all of this.

I would settle for a mix tape

If you are giving people trouble,
sleep on the floor.

If you have jumped 9 cars,
you need to sleep on the floor.

On the ground or as close as you can get to it.

I can't talk this shit to the psychiatrist.
She just totally writes this shit off.
All I can tell her is I am being risky and impulsive.
She doesn't understand this jumping cars business.

They call it OCD.
They give it no validity at all.

People are slamming doors and screaming
and I don't know what to do.
All I can do is sleep on the floor.

They don't know what to do with someone whose magic works.

Weird shit happens on the sofa.

They are living in worlds out of psychology,
and they don't work.
They are lemons.

I am supposed to make a leap of faith to California.
Isn't that sick?

It is sad and pathetic.
I am not going to California.

I know where my bread is buttered.

It means I am rediscovering Shinto.

It is as if I were with a team of virgins
reverse engineering Shinto.

Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

Ami is a bios that was reverse engineered from IBM's bios.

It is a little chip in the computer that makes it boot.

I don't think they mind.
Together we plant a forest every day.

They for give us.
We for give them.

Radiohead for gives me.
I for give Radiohead.

It means you make something for somebody,
and they make something for you.

Damn I mean, I'd settle for a mix tape at the moment.

I don't understand why there are so many wars over this.

I got it all in one wallop
dangerous spirits preyed on me.

Dangerous spirits named Satan and Anu preyed on me.
They get off on that shit.
I don't.
I am not supposed to.

Because it fucks up my math damnit.

I don't do math for that crap.
That is your business.

Creator was there too.
but I don't think he did this.

Creator was just concerned we were making fun of creation.

I can't do what I need to do and feel that way.
It isn't good.

I would be just another dangerous spirit preying on people.

Ok I took it personally.
I thought God was speaking to me.

The adult world is messed up.
You try to be an honest good person,
and this is what happens to you?
I was ready willing and able.

Yall are messed up
friggen couch people.

You use the tools at your disposal
to solve the problems you need to solve.
I don't care if it is Japanese.

I know
Even me and Henry get in arguments about this shit.
God took it from me cause I asked him to.
I don't really want it back.
Yalls world is messed up.

Henry thinks
it is the most awful evil thing
that could ever happen to somebody.
I don't.
I feel blessed.
We get in arguments about it all the time.

The adult world is messed up.
They think sex holds the world together.
They think the world is in a woman's heart.
They think men created the stars to entertain themselves.
For Christ's sake sleep on the floor.

Floor people and couch people do not get along.

They cause trouble for us.
We cause trouble for them.
I don't know when it is going to stop.

You couch people are going to end up marked by Satan.

I am sorry about the neighbors.
They have been pressuring me for years
to show what this thing can do.

It is better to emulate Shinto and jump cars
than to be marked by Satan.

People may get caught in an emergency and not know what to do.

Disgruntled Democrat

What am I Adolf Mallory?
I guess I should have gone into the church.

Blame psychiatry.
I couldn't do this shit without the medicine.

You don't know.
You weren't there.
In my experience it isn't a good thing.

I was preyed on by dangerous spirits who get off on the shit.

Don't you want me?
There are nations on this earth
that would give their left nut for someone like me.

Is the glass half empty?
Or is the glass half full?

I know.
It is like blaming the father for child birth.

I know.
You want to go through it quickly and painlessly.

Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

This shit was set in motion in 1781 people.

Eventually someone was going to end up in control who wasn't elected.
The whole thing was set up that way.
Blame them.

It was set up to be the best Government on earth
until the Kingdom of Heaven came.

I am trying to be non political.
but yall need a history lesson.

How did Washington put it?
"The best Government we could have
until angels come to rule among men."
Something like that.

Do you want me to be Republican?
I took it on myself
because I was worried someone else might do it.

I don't know.
They could deal with it if I were partisan.
They can't deal with this unelected crap.
I can't really deal with it either,
but I saw it coming,
and I took it on myself.

I know it is difficult.
I don't answer to anybody.
I don't like it either.

I am a bully.
I am fucking up foreign policy.

If you saw that would you leave it to somebody else?
What can I say?
The Democrats aint on board with this.

I want to be a Democrat but I believe in God,
I believe in my country.

Yes
I am a disgruntled Democrat.

I just cant bring myself to vote Republican.
I am heart broken.

I mean I loved Carter.
The whole world tried to drive us into World War Three,
and he didn't let it happen.

You can't run the government
with a business card and a box of index cards anymore.

You think this shit is because I started jerking off too soon?
Jesus Christ don't you have any values?

I could take joy for myself,
and I may miss that opportunity.

The Geodon is making me do evil shit
Just like the Zyprexa did.

God forbid there be something wrong with psychiatry.

What can I say?
My brain wants to turn things around.
I held it off as long as I could.

I just naturally fight time reversal.
And the Geodon is like steroids to me.

I can hold back on clozaril.
I can't hold back on geodon.
Jesus I built a ramp and jumped 9 cars twice.

If she wanted to come back into my life,
I would listen to her.

David Lee Roth doesn't struggle with it

It is all dark.
Some people struggle with it,
and others don't.

Nirvana struggles with it,
Metallica doesn't.
John struggles with it,
Paul not as much.
You know when you hear it.

The Who struggles with it,
Led Zepplin and Pink Floyd don't.

The Psychedelic Furs struggle with it,
The Sex Pistols don't.

David Lee Roth doesn't struggle with it.

Eric Clapton struggles with it.
Ted Nugent Doesn't.

You either struggle with it or you don't,
and it pretty much stays that way.

It is hard to name an actor who struggles with it.

Playwrights and poets struggle with it,
but I can't think of a single actor who struggles with it.
It just isn't their job.

It is hard to make the act more than it is.

NASA debated for years on who they should send into space,
before they settled on test pilots.

I can jump 9 cars anytime I want to.
If that's not real, I don't know what is.

I know it causes trouble,
but it is a good thing.
It means we are going forward instead of backwards.

It is better to be fictional and forward,
then real and backwards.

It is like playing piano backwards.
It ends up in a loop no matter what you try to do with it.

If you do a 6 and you are having nightmares something is wrong.
It is a natural reaction to time reversal.

The Dow doesn't like it apparently.

I tell you we are dumber than roaches.

This was supposed to be a decade or two off,
but you know how that goes.

I told Art Bell this shit was going to happen.
It laid there dormant for ten years.
It took me that long to figure out what to do with it.

No wonder people didn't have a future.
Everybody was living backwards.

Was it a nuclear umbrella?
Was it meant to stabilize the financial market?
Were aliens up to it?
We will probably never know.

God is going to take people if it happens again.

Once he can write off.
He aint going to write it off twice.

Let me put it another way.
People are going to get left behind next time.

You want this world to be about forgiveness?
It can be about forgiveness right now.

Madonna loves me.
She watches over me like an angel.

I am out of the arena now.
I am just going to point the arrow of time.
Yall decide what to do with it.

You don't want me.
You want David Lee Roth.
I am never going to be David Lee Roth.

I was never supposed to know.
That is what gets me.

You want it backwards again?
I can turn it backwards.

I care about people.
I am pointing towards the future.
I didn't mean to be in anybody's way.

I want to have a blog.
I don't want to stop.
I have been bullied my whole life,
and I am angry and frustrated.

many world dilemma

I have been through 25 years of absolute hell.
I am ok now.
I have turned around.

You have to turn around.
You have to forget about it.

In the end you have done it to yourself.
You have to let go of the past.
It does no good to ruminate.

I guess I needed a major thing to happen in my life.

Wow, I didn't know the world could be like this.

I don't know.
It is just different.
Something major has happened.

I was stuck in my own mind.

People are having terrible nightmares.
They need to know how to turn around.

It is a math prescription.
It was a natural reaction to time reversal.

I am having a think explosion.

It works on the principle of the "many world dilemma".

People need not be David Mallory anymore.

Strawberries should be a math prescription controlled by the FDA.

It is going to take decades
before this type of medicine is fully appreciated.
be responsible with it.

If you have to do an extraction, do an extraction.
It makes no sense to just take care of one or two things.

I don't know.
He must have had a manual on giving people hangups.
The deck was stacked against me from the start.

I might have followed Satan had he not done this to me.
I don't know why he does this to me.
He thinks it is going to break somewhere.
They all do.

He knew what he was doing.
That shit don't just come to somebody.

I am creating borders for myself which are impossible to cross.

I don't want to collapse the record industry,
but damn this shit needs to stop.

One strawberry can rule the world right now.
Satan is waiting for me to break,
and I am waiting for him to break.
It is a Mexican standoff.

I am going to do a 15 if he doesn't friggen quit it.

God taught me how to do this shit.
I am not kidding around.

You got me all twisted backwards and did word verification on my ass.
I am not stupid.
That shit aint going to work no more.

We have no love loss for each other.

Somebody needs to stop this antediluvian crap.
It is over with.

I know what that antediluvian shit is about.
I have seen it.
It is not good.

You get caught in a paradox
and you repeat over and over until something breaks.
It is not a good thing.

Bruce is one of the good guys.
You can just tell.

The good people struggle with it.
The bad ones don't.

Chasing Lemons

They live in a whatever can go wrong will go wrong world.
They will never create anything bullet proof that way.

They don't understand Creation.
They think they can just write some software and turn it on.
You cannot.

I mean maybe you can but it would not be worth living in.
That is where I come in.
I make sure the absolute worse happens every time,
Cause I don't want people living with lemons.

I know you think you are entitled.
I know you think you have the right,
but you cant just through some GUT in there and turn the damn thing on.
It doesn't work that way.

I am telling you they are friggen roach traps.
They don't work.
We don't understand Creation,
and I don't know when if ever we will understand it.

It is a type of world.
It involves information.
Setting up bottlenecks.

I don't know.
They freak out when people start talking about Creation.

The best way I can describe it,
is a world that comes out of information theory.

Every day we stay here is my fault.

All you have to do is chase lemons.

You don't need GUT.
They have already done it.
All you have to do is chase lemons.

There are lemons lemons everywhere.
Go chase the lemons!

I have reeled it out.
That is what is going to happen.
They are going to chase lemons.

Tuesday has done all the hard work.
All Monday has to do is chase lemons.

What is Monday good for?
What should Monday do?
You should ask yourself these questions.

Sunday is something you survive.

I defined him as an atheist.
Someone who hides behind the word "proof".

That is a big word with the head game people.

I don't have to,
and I know I don't have to,
So watch out.

God asked me if I could beat you long before you ever did anything.

He doesn't like that prove crap either.

Cause he knows a strawberry when he sees it damn it.

He taught me what to do with the damn thing,
and for that I am eternally grateful.

What can I say?
They want better for me.
They know I am the only reason we are friggen here.

The military people are not happy about this.

They say I took it for my country 5 times.
That every advancement physics has made
in the last 15 years is because of me.
And I am living alone in a slum apartment.

Be responsible with it.
They just ain't ready for strawberry's

Their whole paradigm revolves around that shit.
I don't think they will ever give it up.

It would be ok if it were just a sensation,
but it is not.

Dangerous spirits prey on people.

You need to make a decision.

I don't want to start a war over this crap,
but we need to make a decision.

I am not doing it again.
We need to make a decision.

Y2K, 911, Turing shit, seventh guest, dollar bill crap.
I took care of all of it.

I made it fictional an hour before the crap.

The Marines know how to do this crap now.
I don't have to worry about it anymore.

I am a 611 course in universities all over the world.

It is difficult.
I don't want to wake up as someone else.

If I wake up as someone else,
I will always love him.

I am going to be in serious denial,
if I wake up as someone else.

We all took it on 9-11

People who stay this long are going to be really messed up.

Friends and family beyond this point.

Lord I hope I don't end up on a cot in the church basement.

I don't have to hold any copyrights.

I can do a 9 anytime I want to.

I know I said I would wait ten years,
but they were going to steal my shit,
and I was going to end up on a cot.

The Gravity Thing

Planting a tree helps you think.

A little Nobunaga,
A little Solitaire,
A little info set.

I don't tell you right off
cause I think it helps to figure it out for yourself.

I have turned around.
I am fighting the gravity thing.

It is Satan's code.
He gets off on the gravity shit.

If it is fiction,
you can take what you learn here and apply it somewhere else.

He calls it love,
but it is not,
It is the damn gravity thing.

You fight that gravity shit by planting trees.

Satan's code is all backwards and messed up.
He gets off on the gravity shit.
He calls it love.
You plant a tree in your mind.
You talk.

I don't give you everything at first.
If you have read the Bible you already know.
It is better if you come to it by yourself.

You have to fight the gravity shit.
God knows how to do it.

Dave knows how to do it too.

The gravity thing is the idea that
there may be a plethora of world out there
where the only thing different is what is going on in your mind.
Satan gets off on it.
He calls it love.

Some think the whole damn thing is in their head.
That is dangerous.
It leads to a big head game.
That happened before the flood.

It is called the gravity thing cause it acts like gravity.
That is the way the physicists understand it.

The Bible can deal with that shit.
It is a problem with the many world interpretation.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
Dreamers need to stay away.
Stick to planting trees.

Many worlds is ok.
Many world isn't.

Satan's code would be ok if it worked,
but it doesn't.
You need to learn how to have one without the other.
You can't rush into it.

I know.
Nobody has placed the Bible in this kind of context before.
It takes time to learn how to have one without the other.
You aren't going to come to it right away.

Thinking
Talking is the fourth thing.

Yeah, it is not safe for the kids.

I know.
I am building a barrier.
I am making decisions for the sake of making decisions.
I think it is the right thing to do.

Well it is not really a barrier,
I am branching out.

Plant a tree in your mind and branch out.

They are right to be scared.
Many world is scary.

It is very likely for that shit to happen with Satan's code.
Somebody has to through a wrench in it.

Branch out between yourself and your other selves.

Don't let it well.
It is not a good thing.

I am not letting it well.
Don't let it well.
Shut them out.

Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
We will drift apart.
Don't worry about it.

It is the shut out that is the hardest.

Luckily some listened to me years before it got awful.

A little game, a little conflict is unavoidable.
Choose a game that has values.
Nobunaga's Ambition is the best one I have found.
Take it easy.
One season a day.

One season with Nobunaga's Ambition.
Deal solitaire 9 times.
Do the shut out with the info set.

I have been doing this for over a week now.
Without Grace it is just superstition.
I know some people don't understand something Japanese,
but i know excellence when I see it.

You have to find Grace first.

You want to know why I have never died.
Why I am out here in 2009 and nothing but 9-11 has happened.
I am trying to tell you.

People who listened to me,
were dug in long before 9-11 ever happened.

They hide behind the moon.
I don't.

They had this power and lost it,
and hid behind the moon and used it anyway.

They want to control who is God.
They don't like it that God can take his Grace
and give it to whoever he wants to.
They think we are loony.
They think they have to keep the loonies on the path.

They know schizophrenia when they see it,
How can they not know Grace?
Do you think God needs to create a game to find somebody?
God already knows who that person is.
They just want me out of the way.
That is why I am not responsible for it.

Well its in context now damnit.

They want my God.
They don't want yours.

My life has been totally screwed
and you are worried about copyrights?

Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

They want me out of the way.
and you know what I am in the way of.
Do you think that Satan shit is love?
If you do then go the other way.
We don't need you.

Living with lemons

Wait, don't panic, be responsible, read, and plant a tree.

There are advantages to being fictional.

Cause I feel for people that are living with lemons,
and I am in a position to do something about it.

It is not easy to close a chapter of history.

I am fighting a war with every physicist on the planet.

I don't know.
Whenever you talk about God or Grace they go into crisis mode.

I know you see it as love or the world,
I don't see it that way.

I am Spock in the radiation room.

Why do you torture me so?
I am doing the right thing.

People are living with lemons,
and I am in the position to do something about it.

I don't care if it is going to turn over everyone's reality,
It needs to be turned over.

I know.
You are playing straight.
You still want to know who this is.

I talk to dead people.
I am a walking twilight zone.
Thank modern psychiatry.

I know.
You think too often I am the problem,
but we will all be the better for it.
If not me it is just going to be somebody else.
I am not letting people live with lemons anymore.

I am telling you.
It is not me.
It was the crazy mathematical space we were living in.

I am not living in a world where that 7th guest shit works without grace
I am sorry.

Without God's permission.
Why would he need to do that shit anyway?
All you have to do is plant a tree and talk.

Yes I want it more Newtonian.
and I am going to get it too.

We can't have access to that shit without Miss Utility.
It would be a horrific mess.
Plant a tree and talk.

This plant a tree thing works,
and it works for everybody.
Anyone with an IQ of 60 can plant a tree and talk.
I don't care if it came from Japan.

I am the last person out in the wilderness hollering at you to turn back.

What you write on a blackboard is code.
You get what you ask for.
Ask and you shall receive.

You would see it that way too if you were me.

Dreamers need to stay away from that crap.
Dreamers need to stick to planting trees.

Do you understand the concept
that there is stress on the reality
because it is not dimensional enough?

If you wanted to prove or disprove,
how would you demonstrate it?

I wish I could lead, follow, or get out of the way.
All I can do is throw a wrench in it and hope for the best.

It is Satan's code.
It isn't God's.

God's code doesn't work that way.

I threw a wrench in Satan's code.

People get the bends when they press too many records,
and he calls it love.

I thought about doing it as an experiment,
and they made it work
because they thought if it didn't I would get mad.
I realized it wasn't a good thing so I threw a wrench in it.

I need to stick to planting trees.

They thought I was asking for it,
but I realized it wasn't a good thing.
I know what to do with it now.

I am sorry things went a little bananas.
Everybody thinks "How can I make money with this?" at the start.
It took me ten years to figure out what to do with it.

Everything changed when I decided to read the Bible.

He wanted me to read the thing the whole time.
I was stupid.
I should have just read it.

This is as big as 85.
My world has forever changed.

They want physics,
and they think I am in the way.

If I speak for America,
America is not going to do it that way.

Were not in a headlong rush like you are.
We know what we can do.

Read the Bible and wait ten years.

The only physicist I ever knew,
Would watch The Wall and weep.

W

Somebody hid me under a pitcher of lemonade

I knew you thought it didn't make sense.
They think we can't tell natural from plastic.

I told you I got stuck in the darn thing,
and I used my reality to twist into a more natural world.

You are pensive.

I thought it meant hesitant.

I don't know
does it mean I am a computer
if I use a word I don't know the definition of?
"To err is human."

God I must be an awful person for them to be so afraid of me.
I am still taking a Turing test.

I don't know.
Do you want me to be mistaken?

I don't like the world divine when it applies to me.
I could care less whether it is fictional or not.

I have been so many different people
you want to know who this is.
I can deal with that.

I am talking with the dead.
I know this must be difficult for you.

I have had an information burn.
You are right I am not fully human.

If it were physical I would look like Darth Vader.

I guess we know what it is for now huh?

I got stuck in one of the rooms and I freaked out.

Why did you do that?
God sees everything.
Doesn't he know?
I don't think you know him as well as you think you do.

Somebody hid me under a pitcher of lemonade.

You are still making this about me.
It isn't about me.
It is about Grace.

Grace makes it work what can I say?
It would be a nightmare if it didn't take Grace to work.

I see it.
I understand it.
I am right.
You are wrong.
It shouldn't work at all anyway.

It is Satan's God Damn code assholes.
Let him deal with it.

He stops talking to you cause it is Satan's damn code,
You friggen idiots.

I don't care if he takes it away,
it shouldn't work anyway.

It takes Grace to work
and they don't like it.
Well I am sorry
fiddling around with me aint gonna help either.

I don't know.
They cant leave well enough alone.

It isnt me.
I aint where its at.
you friggen moron.
I have been down that road.
You should know.
You took me there asshole.

They are so hungup it is pathetic.

Apparently they feel God gave them his grace then took it away.
I am sorry, but I can't help with that.

You hit God,
you have to deal with God.
I am sorry.
That is the way it goes.

I understand it takes grace to work don't you?
Jesus what is wrong with them.

It has its place.
They don't understand that.

Now they are calling me a junked up moron.

I told you
I see joy

as a reflection on my new high definition television.

That is where the whole idea for the joy directory came from.
Jesus don't you know?
Pookie takes care of it.

Two worlds collided and they don't have the same rules.
They think I can turn and I can't.

I know what to do when this happens.
You don't.

I have been trying to tell you and you won't friggen listen.

You should thank God for me,
Jesus please help the poor bastards.

You get all the information you can
and you do what you need to.

You can't that is just it,
everything goes out the window at that point.
The way God does it is not conducive to Easter egg hunts.

Yall are on Satan's Easter egg hunt.
These people are not.

They want to control who God is.

They know they are supposed to back off and they won't do it.

When you are coming from the future,
and you see someone coming from the opposite direction,
you are supposed to yield
they know that.

There is only one.
They can't get it into their thick heads.
There is only one that comes from the past,
and earth is his.
They need to back off.
They knew this might happen one day.

You find the one that comes from the past,
and he offers you a job,
I would be an idiot not to take it.

Don't be mistaken people
there is only one
and I know it happens
and he knows it happens

They play the odds.
They play the odds every single time.
They know what they are doing.

I stepped out to get a pack of cigarettes,
did I miss something?

They refuse to believe we have met who we have met.

I see it.
You see it.
Everybody sees it.
Satan has blinders on their ass.

Look at it
It is all around you.

It would be like you worked for half ass software company
and Bill Gates offered you a job.

I am sorry if I am their lead programmer,
that is just the way the cookie crumbles.
People would laugh at me for all eternity
if I declined this job.

I guess I need someone to holler at.

People have lived with lemons too long.
We need to get our act together.
This is the 21st century for Christ's sake.
We don't need to bicker about this anymore.
Magic has its place.
It happens when it happens.

I feel.
I feel for the people that are living with lemons.
I don't care about Ginger anymore.
We need to grow up.

I would say it should only be used to plant trees.

That is all I use it for.
God does the rest.

I understand why they keep pushing me,
but it is giving me a headache.

If God wants people to jump from tree to tree,
that is his decision.

Planting trees is a perfectly good purpose.

There I got it out of the realm of the divine.
Are you happy now?

There is a big argument over who has the right to use it,
where it comes from etc. etc.
Planting trees is a perfectly good purpose to use magic.
That is the end of it.
I will stick to planting trees.

I know I seek you out in my dreams Kimberly.
I am sorry.
I will try not to do it anymore.

I lay there for hours debating whether I have met her or not.
I am sorry.

Right now,
I may be the only one who knows how to do it.
So don't mess up.

It is just like the Turing test,
I pass it after I fail it.
I keep doing that.

People wish their Government would say shit like this.

There is a wish fulfillment thing going on.
People have lived with lemons too long.

I can neither confirm or deny.
I just don't have that information.

It is wish fulfillment.
People want their Government to do something.

I have the pulse of the people,
does that mean it is Government black ops?
I don't know.
I have no recollection.

If I was Government
and it was this easy
don't you think it would have happened already?

All you have to do is plant a tree and talk.
Jesus why does that have to be black ops?

To scare the living crap out of your ass that's why.
Now stop pushing buttons
I have had enough.

All you have to do is plant a tree and talk.
It isn't rocket science.
Anyone with an IQ of 60 can do that.

The Transatlantic Jump

There is a bible here waiting for you.

Maybe this is what happens when you keep turning it off.

I guess this is the way Androids think about it.

To me,
How do I know?
They are both doing the same thing.

It is messed up.
It is like they feed off our decisions.
I don't think Jesus would do that.

Damn psychiatry must think that shit is natural.
People it doesn't happen to are sick.
That is messed up.

That is messed up.
That is the major accomplishment?
They are sick in the head.

Don't slack a military education.

I don't mean to be hateful towards Native Americans,
but damn that shit needs to stop.

I like the idea that if it is number one it is over with.

Christianity needed a little Shinto.

Don't forget.
Grace makes it work.
Now please stop playing cruel jokes on people.

Without Grace it is superstition.

If you feel the need to use a superlative,
use "blessed" or "graced".

It is like carrots and salt.
They just go together.

Together we plant a forest every day.

The internet is Star Wars.
Nuclear war will not work anymore.
Together we plant a forest every day.

It works on the principle we are not all on the same page,
that we can jump from tree to tree.
The essential ingredient is Grace.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

Cause Divine doesn't make it work,
Grace makes it work.

The question now is whether we are going to overdo it or not.

If the gravity thing happens,
let me wrestle with it.

The sick jokes need to stop.
You never thought in a million years
it would come back to bite you in the ass,
but it did.

Because he is crooked.
He teaches people that they can hide from God.

They don't believe in Grace.
They want to believe it is my genetics or my math.
I am telling you if they put me somewhere else
it will be a disaster.

You might be able to come up with one or two,
but you need three,
and they need to be in the right order.

I benefit because my natural tendency
is to do everything backwards.
All I have to do is turn it around.

Before I told you to rest and be Tokugawa.

I got the message.
God has been telling me to turn around.

Roots, tree, fruit.

Together we plant a forest every day.
We can jump from tree to tree.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
This is the transatlantic jump.

All I have to do,
when I think I have it all sussed out,
is to turn it around.

It wouldn't be the first time.
The Bible is full of words we don't really understand.

What is sin?
What is evil?
What is forgiveness?
We think we know but we don't.

They need to shape up before their magic is dead.
They are not being responsible with it.

They can't see where I am going.
All they get is a bleak picture.

Shinto works.
I can deal with Shinto.

America has been bought and paid for,
deal with it.

They think stupidity should be painful,
and cruel jokes are the only way to get people to stop.

They are Satanists.
They might not know it, but they are.
Satan does that crap.

I screw things up to see what happens.
I make decisions for the sake of making decisions.
All they get is a bleak picture.

I do verifications.
I make sure their software is up to snuff.

Have Lark
I like my new job and that is where I am going to stay.

Don't push it.
I am not happy with him right now.

It is his code!
If he doesn't want it to happen,
then change the damn shit!

I am going to make sure the absolute worse happens every time.
That is my job.
Because I got stuck in the damn thing.

Somebody has to do it.
I am not letting that shit happen to somebody else.

Do you understand me now?
Gosh darn it.

This is a job someone has to do,
and I am in a position to do it,
so damn it just let me do it.

You people are hung up on where you are.
Uncertainty is still there.
History is still there.
Roots, tree, fruit.
I know how to do it.
So just let me do it.

It happens anyway,
It happens with radio and television too.
God finds somebody.

Use your reality to twist into a natural world.
Every day we stay here is my fault.

Wait, don't panic, be responsible and read.

It isn't code.
It has some history behind it.

Once you have it down you can melt right through that shit.

It matters in Andromeda

The heck with the Hopi,
I don't care what they say.
They play cruel jokes on people.

They know who Satan is.
They know who I am.
They are not stupid.

God can wipe their prophecy rock clean,
and start it all over anytime he wants to.
Christians can jump from tree to tree if need be.

I will show them who received the light first.
Friggen dickheads.

Millions of people,
can jump from tree to tree.
I am not kidding around.

They play cruel jokes on people,
an it is going to friggen stop.

I was an idiot.
I was a fool.
Don't listen to them.

The prophecy rock has changed,
and it can change,
and it will change.

Please stop playing hideous jokes on each other.

The Christians love me,
Cause I plant trees,
and I don't play hideous jokes on people.

Together we plant a forest every day.

Money doesn't grow on trees.
Their paradigm has ended and they don't like it.

The Satanists should just take the zip unzip job
and be happy with it.

They told you this was going to happen,
and you didn't listen.
All I have to do is talk.

Admitting publicly that Satan exists,
That would be a good start.

You can announce to the whole world there is no God.

Yes you did fuckup.

You had it all in your hands,
and you fucked up.

Bob Dylan did it,
why can't anybody else?

I don't know.
I am in a black and white suit or something.
They think I am trying to collapse the industry.
They want the music to stay evil.

I think they suffer from a lack of honesty.

Go home.
It's over.
It does no good to strangle the referee.

Go home.
It's over.
You made it all the way to the Super Bowl and lost.
Try next season.
If there is one.

Face it.
It didn't go down the way you wanted it to.
It is over.
Go home.

I designated myself as an impartial observer
and I say you can't do that.

Face it.
It didn't go down the way you wanted it to.
It is over.
Go home.

You should be glad I stepped in
instead of letting him take care of it.

They know his ruse.
They know what he is about.
And it is going to stay that way.

I am telling you.
You are going to get the zip unzip job.
Now take it.

It doesn't matter if I am actually giving it to you or not.
I have reeled it out
and that is what is going to happen.

Don't you want it?
I would bless my stars if I could take Christ off the cross.

Cause I am worried about the children.
I don't know what is going to happen to them.

It has already happened.
Every day we stay here is my fault.

He can't unzip me.
I am not letting him make my decisions.

Apparently it matters in Andromeda.

A little uncertain Monday

I go from wanting a quiet revolution
to wanting to be the most popular thing on the net.

I am making decisions for the sake of making decisions.

I don't like it,
but I am supposed to be Monday.

We need a little uncertain Monday.

Uncertainty is wild.
It isn't an easy flame to catch.

A little uncertain Monday goes a long way.

I want to believe there will be others,
that I am not the only one.

Recourse is making decisions for the sake of making decisions.
Enough so it doesn't make absolute bedlam for Tuesday.
Just enough to be there.

See both sides and make some comment about it.
Reel it out in your mind, and make some comment about it.
Don't worry about making an argument.
That isn't what its about.
Let Tuesday deal with arguments.
That is their job.
People understand it is recourse.
People understand the concept we are not all on the same page.

Let Tuesday deal with the arguments people.
If you don't like to argue, be a little uncertain Monday.
The concept we are all not on the same page is the key to it,
any many who know already agree with that.

Don't be so focused on framing arguments,
that you can't do the uncertain Monday thing.

People who are out on Tuesday are there for a reason.
I do a little uncertain Monday, as recourse for Tuesday decisions.

I don't like to argue or make arguments,
so I am a little uncertain Monday.

I am trying to see if I am the only one who can do this or not.

We are all so focused on making an argument,
and we don't make arguments anyway.

Satan has made an argument.
Satan says I am the only one who can do this.

If I am the only one I can deal with it,
but I don't want to believe I am the only one.

Because they are going to fight over ME,
and its not about that.
This was Grace people.
Don't you understand that?
Satan wants you to think it is genetic.
That he can pull me out of here and put me somewhere else,
and it is going to work.
It is not.

I don't know,
he is stupid,
he is hungup.

Grace isn't genetic people,
Jesus Christ!

It is just going to be some other moron bastard.

I already said you had the power to do that.
What more do you want?
You have the power to zip and unzip for Christ's sake.
Let me be.

You know me.
I am the one that makes decisions
for the sake of making decisions.

Yes,
I think the prophecy rock has changed.
Now let the Christians do their job.

You know Satan,
he is the one who gets you to make decisions
that are his decision.

I am the one that makes decisions,
for the sake of making decisions.

Because he is hung up
he can't help it.
He has a game mentality.
I learned a long time ago that it wasn't a game.

He doesn't have any decisions to make,
It is all laid out for him,
and he doesn't even know it.

Finding a job that you are good at,
that is the thing.

Somebody like that,
they get the zip unzip job.

I know it is all laid out for me too.

Lord I have gotten myself into some serious shit.

Just don't let the argument make you people.

I want people to have decisions.

I go from,,,

I go from wanting a quiet revolution
to wanting to be the most popular thing on the net.

play straight

I have one thing to do in an extreme emergency.
and I don't know what is going to happen when I do it.
So be careful.

Ok now we have two.

They are prepared.
They know what to do.
I am not alone.

I saw it as a weakness
and I needed advice.

It is not a small hand.
The problem is it is too big.

You can't go nil with the big joker.

It is excellent to tie knots with.

Someone needs to play straight.

If you are going to tie knots together,
someone needs to play straight.

That is just the way spades is played.

Thank you for your Grace dear God.

Live into Grace

You don't always get the big picture,
and the piece you are missing
is always the most important one.

this is the joy// directory

Cause it is dangerous
to mess around with the main directory
when we only have one.

This is recourse
for the wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read agenda.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

If it hadn't been put on the net in 85,
we wouldn't have been able to do anything about it.
That is what recourse is about.

The warning, the indication, or the solution has to be there.
If it isn't there is nothing you can do about it.

Recourse is a tool.
It is not meant to be anything more than that.

I am a little child.
I feel tormented by sexuality.

Something was supposed to happen around 17 or 18,
that just didn't quite happen.
I am ok with it.

I know you don't understand recourse.
You want to debate about it.
It isn't meant to be debated about.
It is there to be a warning or indication.
It doesn't matter if it is Watergate or not.
Just the idea that there could be problems
between voting machines and elementary schools is important.

This is different.
This is recourse.
Should it be necessary to change course.

For whatever reason,
I get valuable information.
That makes me different.

They pump me for information.
I am a well that works.

Don't worry.
It is not like flying a 757.
You can't train to do this.
This is Grace.

Grace makes the pump work.
It is a major achievement.

I have made a major achievement in my life.
It is difficult to achieve Grace.

He loves me.
Cause I knew I was forsaken,
and I read it anyway.

This is a commie loving, pinko fag telling you this.
I am a fuckup ask anybody.

You wanted me to make a major achievement,
I have made a major achievement.

You wanted me to make a major achievement,
Can't you recognize one when you see it.

Do you want me or not?

You pumped me full of Clorox
so I could make a major achievement.
Well damnit,
I made one.

I am not laughing.
I know it isn't funny.

I am not leading anyone.
It is just like that post in 85.
If it hadn't been there,
nothing could have been done.

Everyone has equal access to it.
All I ask is it be respected and reserved.

It is not going to be a wildfire.
The average psycho can't do this.
This is Grace.
It is given from God.
You know Grace when you see it.

This is just recourse.
I am not a miracle worker.

If you can know schizophrenia when you see it,
You can know Grace when you see it.

It is something you live into,
You can't be born with it or trained.

Live into Grace.
Live into Joy.

Cause it is so sad and messed up
they don't want to talk about it.
Do you want it to stay that way?
I am doing a job.
I don't want it to stay that way.
I want a new day for America.

I am getting it out there.
I am putting it out there so we can move on.
So people know what the issues are.
These are deep philosophical issues.
We have tough choices to make.

The bottlenecks are set up people.
They know the profile of the individual,
generations before he is even born.

That is Creation.
That is the way Creation works.

He decides what he wants the solution to be,
and he lets nature do the rest.

We are a work of Creation people.
Don't let anyone tell you different.

He knows me.
He knows me to my very core.
He knows what my motivations are.
He knows what my values are.
He knows in any given situation,
what I will do.
and he knew it generations before I was even born.

This is a commie loving pinko fag telling you this.

He knows I have my genius moments,
and he loves me for it.

I am just an intern.
The Power, The Kingdom and the Glory are his.
Even Adam is greater than I am.

Because he is the crown of God's creation.
Satan doesn't understand that.

Pete Best was a better drummer,
but Ringo Starr was a better Beatle.

I am just another bottleneck.
This stuff started long before I came around.

I don't know why Satan does this to us.
It breaks God's heart.

Because Adam is the culmination,
Satan doesn't understand that.
I don't understand why Satan does this to us.

It is Satan's decision.
I am his bottleneck.

It is Satan's decision woman,
not mine.

Satan can unzip this whole thing if he wants too.

This shit was set in motion
generations before I was even born woman.

He can go all the way back
to the Garden of Eden if he wants too.
He can stop the crucifixion of Christ if he wants too.
He suffers from a game mentality.

I am giving him a choice.
Right now.
Right here and now.

He has a damn game mentality.
He needs to quit it with this shit.

This far but no further,
Do you understand me?
Your game paradigm is over.

He thought if he couldn't win,
he would dick us over,
leave us with a mess,
Then blame the shit on me.
Yall know better than that shit.

How can he set up everything and not be responsible for it?
Friggen dickhead.

Now he has two assholes to answer to.

It was his friggen decision,
and he was trying to make it mine.
I am not stupid.

It was his decision Ginger,
it always was,
give him another asshole to answer to.

He gets people to make decisions that are his friggen decision.
He is a dickhead.
He doesn't care about us.
He suffers from a game mentality.

He is a dickhead.
He doesn't care about us.
How much more do I have to tell you.

Just stick up to the dickhead.
Give him another asshole to answer to.
You know him when you see him.
He is the one that gets you to make decisions that are his decision.

I don't know why he does it,
He is screwed up in the head.
He is a friggen moron that needs to get a life.

You have to be an asshole with him.
It is the only thing he understands.

This go back to high school
and be with your sweetheart
is a dupe.
Don't fall for it.

He knows he is the one that has the power to do that,
and he sets you up.

Grace is the only way to do it.
This is Grace people.

I forgive him.
He thinks I am the only one who can do it.

I don't want you thinking I am super special.
Grace is there for everyone.

you have to unzip slowly
unless it gets hung up

There is no war the Joy dirctory.

and the children shall lead them

does the bible say that?
I know I have heard it before.

I know it said that, but I can't find it.

Psychiatry has gone a little too far,
don't you think?

A lighter is a wonderful thing.
Ten thousand years ago,
you could have ruled the world with it.

There is a quiet Shinto revolution going on.
There is an all out war over dish detergent.

They don't want to live under Islamic law.
They think the Bible is archaic and outmoded.
They think they are fighting for Democracy,
and the American way of life.
They don't want to answer to anyone anymore.
They think it is necessary to weed out the psychopaths.
Don't frame it.
Just say it.

Our world is changing.
You need to get with the program.

They don't know how to find God.
Poor bastards.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

Anybody can find Satan and settle with it.
It is a struggle to know God.

Damn a sticker can put a ghost in the machine.

I told you they were way ahead of me.

What are the rules to this madness.
What have we unleashed.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

That is when the computer hangs up and puts out something stupid.

Welcome to the library.
This is the Joy directory.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

Joy/Lisa
Joy/David
Joy/Kennedy
Joy/Bush
Joy/you
Joy/me
Joy/earth
Joy/heaven
Joy/England
Joy/Japan

This is the Joy Directory.
Don't mess it up.
It is the only one we have.

I have booted and installed the Joy Directory.
Don't mess with it please.
You want hell.
You want war.
Make your own directory.
This one should be reserved and respected.
It is for everyone.

It is Joy/whoever or whatever you want it to be.
Please do not make war in the Joy Directory.
If you want war,
make your own directory.
This includes actors and psychiatrists,
and anyone who is tying knots.
We only get one shot at the Joy Directory.
Don't mess it up.

There is no war in the Joy Directory.
You hear me?
I aint saying it again.
There is plenty Joy for everyone.

Joy/peace
Joy/love

Now we need to wait and see if they fight over it.
War is over if you want it.

I tied a Joy knot,
I don't know if it is going to work.
Lets hope for the best.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
Rest and be Tokugawa.
Joy/peace
Joy/love
I see Joy.
I am staring at it.

You can't train for this people.
It is not like flying a jumbo jet.
This is grace.

They don't understand grace.
It is all method to them.
They don't understand it is only one letter away.

I am like that.
I have an explosion of words.
People wish I would shut up.

They are worried I will flip out.
literally.
They are trying to bring me down,
to a place where I can handle it.
I understand what is going on.

Lord I have had a hard life.
I am the walking Watergate.

If I hadn't served my country I might feel different about it,
but I don't want to see
a knock down drag out war over dish detergent.
At least not in this directory.

I run through everything,
my childhood monsters did that shit.

No one can guarantee a woman's love.

I could create a directory for myself,
but I have decided not to do that right now.

What the hell is going on?
The world is not supposed to work this way.

Maybe I am a dream to her,
but what about my nephews?
What about the children?
I can't just leave.
What is going to happen to them?
I don't understand.

What am I going to leave them with?
Some shell?
I don't understand.

That is crazy.
I can't live like that.

I will do my best.
If it happens it happens.

I feel they have hacked my brain,
cause they don't want to live under Islamic Law.
I don't want to live under it either.
What am I supposed to do?

We don't think theirs is any better than ours.
We are all grace.
They are all method.

I can't make the dream life happen.
If it happens it happens.
I know that it happens,
but there is nothing I can do about it.

I wouldn't mind a dream life,
If that's what you are trying to put across,
but I don't believe life is a fantasy,
yet I cannot deny this is some fantastical nightmare.

All I want is a regular life too,
but I am too important,
I can't have a regular life.

It was like Spock in the radiation room.
I knew what I was doing.

They need to call Miss Utility before they dig.

It is method and grace people.
This whole conflict is between method and grace.

Here in America,
We walk a thin line between grace and the grave.
That is the way we want it.
We call it freedom.
We call it Liberty.

No it is not an easy line to walk.
It was never meant to be easy.

Nobody can do it alone.
That is why the Constitution says, "We the People".

They think grace is magic.
They don't understand grace.
They think we are foolish messing around with the grave,
Waiting for magic to save us.

Grace- the freely given, unmerited favor and love of God.
from dictionary.com

They weep for justice.
They weep for judgment.
We weep for grace.
and we know it when we see it.

I have seen them on television weeping for it.
These are not bad people.
They just don't understand us.

I know people get on their knees.
I know people weep.

Around here,
it is just not something people talk about.

Around here millions could weep for one individual,
and he would never even know about it.

I know it drives me crazy too.

I am a very open person.
It just drives me nuts.

I don't understand it.
I am a fish out of water.

It just drives me nuts.
I am never going to understand it.

I am Cro-Magnon or something,
I just don't get it.

Rest and be Tokugawa

I can't believe they would do that over me.

Rest and be Tokugawa.

There is afterjoy.
prepare for it.

A war is a giant friggen knot.
You can wan a war by losing.

There are a million ways to lose,
and only one way to win.
The loser is on the right side of the knot.

What is the matter?
"Nobody wins" shouldn't be new to you by now.
Rest and be Tokugawa.

It means the loser can make it difficult for you,
long after the conflict is over.

This is the rest and be Tokugawa instruction.

If you rest as Tokugawa,
it is hard to survive that first year.
Extract yourself and deal with it.

Information goes back and forth over the event history,
and we don't like it so we tie knots.

It just flies straight in the face of everything we think we know as Americans.

There is a quiet Shinto revolution going on.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

The children are using their games to tie knots.
It is a natural reaction to time reversal.
We are pests.
We muck things up for them.
There can be no symbiotic relationship.
We are dumber than cockroaches to them.
They have no respect for us.
We buy our own traps.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
This is a pinko, commie, fag telling you this.

Maybe if we were aphids it would be alright,
but we are not.
We are pests to them.
They swat us like flies.
They just want us out of the way.
We are not aphids.
We are an annoyance.

It is not "The Matrix"
We have no use to them.
They lie to us and say it is symbiotic,
but it is not.
Enmity and dust people.
The Bible says it, and it means it.
This is a commie, pinko, fag telling you this.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
The salvation is for us,
not them.

They think it is boring.
They get bored and go on an Easter Egg hunt.

There is no broad based, sweeping conspiracy.
It was the nature of the mathematical space we were living in.

If they wished to believe we were aphids,
I wouldn't have a problem with it,
but we are not.
A little uncertainty and a little history can screw them up royally.

Don't get hung up on where you are.
Uncertainty is still there.
History is still there.
and it doesn't take much to muck it up for them.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
You don't have to be woke up to fight.

They tell us we are aphids to placate us,
They just want us to be a known quantity.

They think they can solve us and move on.
They don't care what the solution is.
They are trying to play out every possible ending,
so we can be known and they can move on.
Don't be mistaken,
we are not aphids.

I am a weak flame,
but as long as I burn,
I am difficult for them.
And the difficulty will live on.

I want to be difficult cause I think I am fighting with aliens.
I told you that UFO crap was dangerous.
I am like the last remaining immunity or something.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible and read.

Why do you want everything to be known?
I don't understand.
Does it stabilize the economy or something?
What is up with that?
This sounds sick to me.

If I think I am fighting aliens,
you just go with the alien thing.
If I think I am in "The Matrix",
you just go with that.
What is the need to define me?
My making knots is a natural reaction to this.

What is the need to quantify me?
Is it some international agreement you made?
I am David.
I don't care what agreements you have made.
Tell them to wait, don't panic, be responsible and read.
Let them have a problem with that.

I am a warrior.
I fight wars for God.
You would be better off to let it be.

David is David.
David is a warrior.
David fights wars for God.
Name me something else if you can't deal with it.

I know you are trying to define me.
The aliens are just a prop.

I am somebody.
Deal with it.

David is difficult.
David is not going to stop being difficult.
Love me for who I am.
If not get lost.

If you want to get lost, get lost.
I am tired of being the little Sheppard boy for people who don't listen.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

No sweetheart.
No.

I don't want to go back damnit.
That shit is over with.

They are right.
God isn't going to allow nuclear annihilation to happen.
You people are stupid for even believing it did.
Wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.

Because you have to work here,
Because you have to go to school,
Because you don't want to wait, don't panic, be responsible, and read.
It is stupid people.
We are dumber than cockroaches.

I don't know.
They fed me gunpowder or something.

They are forsaken,
They need to pray about it,
They announced to the world that God didn't exist.
He is deeply hurt.

I took that as my que.

I know I am making everybody crazy.
They should be crazy.
They are crazy.
Market stability and Nuclear Annihilation,
What kind of messed up place were yall living in.
You need some West Virginia.

Because they have the oldest mountains
and the oldest rivers on Earth.

I feel sorry for them,
but they went somewhere they knew they were not supposed to go.

David isn't a man of God.
He is a little Sheppard boy that killed Goliath.

You read it.
You know what they think.

They think I can be stolen,
Traded like a commodity.
They don't know who they are dealing with.
You can't steal this people.
Forget about it maybe,
but it will never be stolen.

He lets them forget.
He wants to know if they are sincere or not.

Let that be a warning to you.
God will let you forget to know if you are sincere or not.

They know how to love,
I give them that much.

Somebody had to put it to rest.
It was a mess.

This is recourse.
Not discourse.
This is recourse for the wait, don't panic, be responsible and read agenda.
Should it be necessary to change course.

You know me.
I have always been against discourse.

I want words that bring people together,
not tear them apart.

I never knew words that brought people together could be so dangerous.
I guess it is the Mallory in me.

I know recourse is something you don't understand.
Even I don't understand it.
It is just the words I wished for.

I wished for these words.
I waited my whole life for these words.
God knows.
He sees us.
He sees everything.

I wish for Joy.
I wish Joy for everyone.
I am sorry if I am losing it.

The Sun is going down.
The J is a little weak.

I know you want to give the world to a little boy who doesn't deserve it.

Elementary schools and voting booths don't go together.

This is Watergate.
I know.
You know.
everybody knows.

Poor Nixon,
he was trying to find out who I was.

I was Three Mile Island in 1972.

Some kind of psychiatric chronomaly.
They are trying to map me out and I don't like it.
It is a natural reaction to time reversal.

It is only going to get worse.
These kids now are tying knots in the third grade.

They know you need them not to know.
it is only going to get worse.
It is a natural reaction to time reversal.
It is a natural reaction to being mapped.

You can't map people.
They are going to tie knots,

They are tying knots in the third grade.
It is going to bring down reality as we know it.
wait, don't panic, be responsible and read.
and it is going to get chaotic.
It is a natural reaction to being mapped.
I know you think you need to,
but I am telling you its the wrong road that leads to trouble.

The children are tying knots in the third grade.
It is going to lead to complete chaos.
A complete breakdown of reality as we know it.
It is a natural reaction to being mapped.
There is a war over dish detergent,
and the children are on the front line.
Wait, don't panic. be responsible, and read.

There is a rebellion against dish detergent.
People don't want it for their kids,
and one kid tells other kids,
There is going to be an all out war against dish detergent.
It is already brewing.
There is a quiet Shinto rebellion going on.
It is a natural reaction to being mapped.

You think it is just me and it is not.
People are hiding in plain sight.
There is going to be an all out war over dish detergent.
You are going to lose.
I am mapping it out for you.

I gave them the head start.
They are years ahead of you.
You are not going to win.

I know.
You can't believe you can grab 98% of everybody and lose.
But you will.
It is just a matter of time.

They are going to be hellions.
They are really going to rock the boat.
Don't say I didn't warn you.
This is what happens when you put children on the front line.

That is why you want time to run out,
but it is not going to.

I am telling you it is a natural reaction.
You started it by mapping people.
They don't think mapped people are people anymore.

I know it is crazy.
I know it needs to stop.
I don't know what to tell you.
These are the facts.
That's the way it is.
Dish detergent is going to lose every time.
They are going to kill psychiatry as we know it.
They think you are murdering people.

They consider what has happened to me as murder.
They feel you have murdered me.

Damn even I am getting a headache.

They consider mapping holistic and offensive.

I know.
You want to think it takes smarts.
but someone with an IQ of 60 can tie knots.

Can't you treat people without mapping them?
I don't understand why you have to map 98% of everybody.
It is indiscreet and wrong.

I understand.
I was caustic.
I was hurting people.
but you can't put e=mc2 back in the box.
it is out there now.
You should have used it with discretion.
When you saw me tying knots you should have stopped.