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There is a border there. Just like there is a border with Mexico. It is not bizarro superstition. We have been given a gift. People need to decide if they accept it or not. There is a plethora of bizarro superstitions out there. What I have been through is not illegitimate. It was released. It is like lithium. It is old. People get angry when you challenge what they justify themselves with. The medication just establishes a new normal. It doesn’t fix anything. A cut and paste virtuoso  I apologize  For me it is about who is doing it right And who is doing it wrong  It is a blowout  It is not a hierarchical thing I thought the computer would be attached to my brain And I would be able to play anything I heard in my head  But this is ok They are going to beg this president to go to war Before it’s all over with. Who cares if they shoot down drones. Let China pay for it. War would split the coalition against them War is in their interest  Not ours If sanctions...

I like Kennedy. She could tell me to vote for hermit the frog. Atypical men get a lot of hassle. Men ain’t supposed to be atypical. It is ugly. Men are men, you know? We are all the same. Atypical men get it from everyone. I thought if I was in a relationship, The harassment would stop. It doesn’t. It doesn’t really matter what you are atypical about. And it snowballs into other things. Critical teraflops are being wasted on you. This is government in America. It has been like this for decades. People are separated by what, or who, they choose to ignore. This was 1995 I don’t know what led me to believe America was under attack I am sorry It is an Easter egg effect. People like the idea that they have found something  I was self important. I needed somebody’s attention. I am flattered that I have anything in the wayback machine But it would be nice if it was something I wrote  If your candidacy was going to end up Getting someone undesirable elected, Would you withdraw? Men do...

You should use it for poetry and song. She is so sold She is sold on everything  It has been supplanted  You can use a computer for computational space Or use it for what Asimov called “twisting” I think “cowbirding” is viable. I think it can be mutually beneficial, And I think the computational space thing Is being done already  Either God is giving me gifts  Or I am a sorcerer. I don’t pretend to know which one. If it is threatening, Why did they develop the internet, And personal devices to begin with? My mom and dad raised me, That no one really knows until judgement day. And that it’s the ones that think they know, That you have to watch out for. People get their head stuck in a book, And they forget how to love each other. The love of Jesus doesn’t require a book. Apparently God’s anger doesn’t either. “We are always at war.  Peace is a bourgeois illusion.” If you are upset about it, You don’t understand the way things are. We don’t control the information...

A brainwashed R2-D2 I pre think stuff all the time, Does that mean I am the originator? I am not going to have surgery  So I can cross my knees Information only comes from legitimate sources? I know it’s not palatable  But to deny it happens is false It is scary You believe what you are told Information from the ether is unacceptable  Adding 2+2 was my doing, I make my own inference  Forbid  Reverse phraseology is not real, Individuals don’t receive information from it, To believe otherwise is delusional. Some Catholic Jew boy with the name Mallory was unacceptable? Leave it alone. Let it settle out. How do I know pointing at her, Wasn’t the reason she was mean at me to begin with. “Clozaril has kept me in a game, I would be more than willing to lose.” People make an industry  Of us pointing fingers at each other Two times Applied together Cut the time in half What is paral...

Some people have opinions about stuff that can’t be shaken. They are terriers. They won’t let go till the rats dead. It is masochistic to even be interested in these people. People have no respect for asexuals  Most don’t even consider it possible  Some of the strongest opinions people have Is about sexuality  It is difficult  You don’t understand what it means to be sexual. There are many who would gladly be asexual  It is a gift. What I can interpret  I can not live that way. I just shoved my hand in the rack and pulled her out Trump is going to “win” And this is the way things are going to be done from now on. By what standard is anyone going to win? It will be the Donald Trump playbook from now on. I considered Venezuela to be part of mesoamerica People have been watching this for years, Waiting for someone to do something  I thought Mesosmerica was different than Central America...

People are going to drive themselves  And brew their own tea I starting to believe I can brew tea It is turning into a whole tea ceremony  The can was kicked  That is all I am going to say about it Why is it so important? You win another day. We are getting a sideshow. I need to be quiet about it. They can’t even get adequate housing, And we are worried about whether they can vote? Everyone is nimby about where these people live, And we are worried about their voting rights? Do they have an opinion? Or do they live and die statistics? If you lie or don’t participate in polls or encourage others not to, Are you attacking our democracy?   Would you have people in jail? You can’t have an opinion without a dissertation. We tell you what your opinions are. Do you hide behind issues you don’t really care about, Just because you want to win? What is winning? Who benefits if you win? We might determine who is right and who is not, But I don’t think anyone is going to win. It...

Yeah and it ain’t her either They tried to put the president in a paranoid tail spin. They thought they could jet wash the president. It was the Spanish Armada  It was millennial hysteria  Move on Get over it Clearly something did not go her way He had problems keeping his composure  They are terriers It is clearly a political thing now Go fry an egg I think Attorney General Barr is trying to heal the country  There is no good to be had in pursuing impeachment  Media outlets have vested their sacred honor to bring down this president  I fear the roads we are headed down  They can’t do a u-turn It just ain’t going to happen A great deal of political capital has been spent  It is not just going to go away The president does not have to prove he is innocent. If they are going to charge him, they need to go ahead and do it. Wasn’t there something about a speedy jury? Why does the president have less protection than I do? You don’t get to be president ...

Nowadays it isn’t enough to protest once or twice. You need to live a life of protest. And even then the line is long waiting for you to drop out, And take your place. Fall afoul and see what your opinion is. Their own arrogance that it was never going to happen, Is what brought it about. I think they doubled down on a perjury trap that didn’t materialize. It is more than equation that can not be solved  It implies all of our equations are humanistic. Tone tone semitone tone tone tone semitone  I like the idea that it is local and fresh, But I can’t drink Budweiser  Gives me a headache. Is it just me, Or does it go through the hoop faster than it used to Would you want to work with someone like me? People expect me to turn green.   I need to be careful  I have severe paranoia I need to draw lines I don’t want to be the Bjork creep thank you for life Telling me to wake up hoo wah It’s not...

This is what happens when you watch too much Ancient Aliens Revelation is there to protect you from this stuff The idea was people would mark it up and pass it around  Single notes do sound a little harsh I could be a priest  I wouldn’t hurt the kids It is like a game of free cell they can’t let go of They are determined to solve it They are so determined everything is solvable, They are ruining my life. I wish it was a hand of free cell, Then we could prove it unsolvable, And that would be the end of it. Just because you can’t be beat, Doesn’t mean you are unavoidable    agile acid   do you fit the bill   afghanbd2 I had my love affair with socialism  If you discovered zero how would you explain it to people? Would everyone want you to?   Let someone talk long enough  And they will contradict themselves    ageless wobble What can I say? I like Kitaro....

You should have seen what Evergreen Cemetery looked like 30 years ago. We may lose the southwest to Aztlan Some want to see a graceful decline of America Agendas need to be made plain America is a social, political, economic and environmental failure? A racist and homophobic hoard is standing in the way of global socialism? IfllI wish I didn't have thoughts like this. Forgive me, there are people who feel that way https://www.icloud.com/iclouddrive/0sQ-FqPyklvInyl_KBwffHbfQ#win2019 I have been trying for years to figure out how to do that Every since they took Opaque Burger down. What I really want is to share my GarageBand projects Let me know if it works or not. I want people to be able to easily listen to my improvisations as loops. Things don’t seem to be set up to do that. They are not songs. They are improvisations. They are never going to be played on the radio. I am never going to perform them to an audience. They are not structured ...

When it comes to repetition Study those that get away with it Learn intervals and tones Learn your keyboards and frets Find an apple loop that sounds good, And use a quarter of it Tap something out monotone And paint it You can't get muscle memory from osmosis  It is amazing I can even live on this planet I think the music is negative and stale It is very easy to cut and paste in GarageBand It effectively quantifizes everything Makes it very easy, forgiving, and productive Apple has been waiting for me to GarageBand since the 00's I am sorry it took so long I can't be anything They have built a little Idaho just for me. I just rot here and know never to do this again I am not into sex puzzles I know why they do 15 bars now. Should I keep making my loops? Why did I become a pet project to begin with? Paranoia and vanity are not the same thing. Trying to cure me of narcissism I guess. ...

Time Effort And Money I love that I can pick up the iPad and go with it It doesn't mind if you ain't picked it up in a while It doesn't get in my way setting things up or fixing it Finally getting it to work and not knowing what you did By the time it works you don't feel like it anymore  GarageBand is far more forgiving than the actual instruments  Yet it is still powerful  I would say pianos were probably considered cheating too I have been looking for that sound for a decade One of Ken's tenants played guitar over one of my loops, And I have been trying to capture that ever since. At first I thought it was a recording issue But when it came clear I would have to do the guitar myself, I drew inspiration from Neil Young  People couldn't use my loops Because they weren't a standard tempo Or a standard key I don't consider  Anyone regrets as a life choice  Attending a service academy  Different things are happening to me, Because the rules are changing...

Having your own email And having your own email server Are not the same thing You can go to gmail and have an email address. Whereas If you have your own server You may have a hard drive to bleach or smash Just another John Wayne I guess Run of the mill Beatle issues  I am the village idiot  I say stuff other people can't say Thank Jesus for bringing people to my blog. Sometimes the best way to learn Is to find it for yourself How can you stop making sedans? What are first time car buyers going to buy? Find a hot spot and then rub it. I thought if I was in a relationship the shit would stop. THEY STILL DONT FRIGGEN GET IT! I VOTED DEMOCRATIC BECAUSE YOU ASKED ME TOO! friggen morons you pigeon hole people and take them for granted I will remember this Reality is the consequence of doing It wrong. I was talking about the math They have spent their life savings and  And migrated thousands of miles How can we turn th...

I like that Shania Twain video  I wish someone felt that way about me. You have a mandate. Please do something about mesoamerica. it is difficult to have blue waves when we have these 80%  districts. If you are looking for one that is different, Don't waste your time. according to the Washington Post These were the battleground districts for this election would you buy that network? I object to people being modeled like the weather. Uncertainty is bad for the economy  But that doesn't mean modeling the electorate is innocuous. Because I thought I had a future If you use a word that is on the fringe of your vocabulary like that, It means someone is reading. You cannot have democracy without grace. Without grace there is no democracy. I am still trying to answer shit that happened 30 years ago   Why you trying to work on me? We ain't got forever. I am the way my family brought me to be, That ain't right? I am sorry if you had an acciden...

What is eureka displacement? It feels better in the bath tub. You ain't making no sense either  It is like you are dangerous. It is like you are going to get in trouble if you ain't gay You have to be careful. Some people will bring a stranger to a party  Just to see him get beat up. It is difficult to beach yourself, When the medication has you marching on air. Adopted children are more likely than biological children to have special health care needs, current moderate or severe health problems, learning disability, developmental delay or physical impairment, and other mental health difficulties. I had the bends to begin with, But I asked God to take it away from me Restraint is a disease. Capitalism works? Slavery worked too. It is our hemisphere. We need to do a better job. Take it to the fire station  I was disturbed in my sleep screaming the N word. I am sorry if anyone heard that. I don't kno...

VB What is the principal reaction? I was hissed at because my t shirt looked like it said "virgin". I was put forth as an example of what not to be in the whole triangle. People get drunk They fuck What planet do these people live on? It is like visiting Sodom and Gomorrah  And bitching about your holiday  They wouldn't give him any trouble if he was 10 years older What are women typically delusional about? Don't like being called delusional? Welcome to the club. They don't have any hesitation calling men delusional. Have you seen what is on YouTube lately? It would take a whole cultural do over to fix this shit. That shit makes Madonna look like Madonna. It ain't happening in a vacuum okay? How are we supposed to fix it When we can't even have an honest discussion about it? I think women have a broader scope than men do. I think it's entirely possible its left of center, And he has no recollection of it. People are going to have to sign a release  Be...

I  told my father back during the George W. Bush admin That I suspected foreign powers may take my work seriously  I am labeled schizophrenic  Who else was I supposed to tell? I feel the democrats want America to gracefully decline. It must feel really good. I would have to let go of everything I am And I can't do that I believe in what I believe in If you had it your way I wouldn't be me anymore  I could make pigs fly and nothing would come of it. this is for millennials back in the 90's there was this game called seventh guest it was some sort of trap and people were getting caught in the game it was treated as a big joke I can see how people don't like president trump but a lot of us are still pissed off about it. I expected different results. Was I tagged for being insane? Or am I insane from being tagged? Money is redemption in America. there are people in this world who are different it would be nic...

Ü  It is the loop for the loops sake. You listen to it until you can't remember  How many times you have listened to it It is called lateral repetitions I don't need an emotional wringer I have had enough  More of my share already What could be so secret about the election  That they had to redact all that information? She plays Lucy with the football. It is her empowerment. She is never going to stop. I see children and people strung out on lead. They either have no respect for you, Or they think they own you. You are a demographic. Have you ever tried to be an individual? Go ahead See what happens to you. It is good to jam It is better than driving  You dissipate yourself Is it a sin to assert yourself as an individual? You never break new ground  If people don't go their own way. Do their own thing. It is supposed to be some grand fun thing, And it is not apparently the root o...

Please don't talk about medication like that It is inappropriate  In evolutionary terms It was only yesterday we were worshiping idols I don't know what is being fought over Or who's side I am on, But as long as that damn door is open, There is a war going on. Sanity is fluid At best it is made of glass We are just rejected people  That is the sad irony of it all I want to be creative enough  That it is their loss if they are going to sit on me I consider it might be the valley of the shadow of death I can't go back Give me a few minutes everyday And listen and to whatever you want to It is called jamming. There are beings that don't belong on this plane That need you to believe in them If there ain't no rules There ain't no contracts either  I ain't against nobody I am just for the middle ground Am I to follow her wherever she goes? Am I to accept what she has assigned for me? I have been broken  I am not scared to be alone anymore  I don't think th...

It The  Observation is more than a tool? I would do proud Mary But I don't remember how I did it. I am lazy I want to jump right in and create something  Say what you want, But at least it's not stuck in my head anymore. I wanted to skip the learning curve, But I guess there is still a curve. Jasmine used to do that with me, I would pose something that made complete sense And she would argue with me about it I couldn't help her because she wouldn't listen. I know what is wrong with my technique now. People used to play guitar. But they played much better than anyone on MTV And they were not getting anywhere    Damn I guess John didn't want to be outdone. Apparently there is an art to not knowing what you are covering. I have listened to revolver the most I like abbey road but a lot of it seems undone 85 was different from 95 was different from 97 was different from 2000 GarageBand is the VisiCalc for the iPad. I wish I had come to it sooner. I have nothing to lose b...