Weathering Information

It is a foreign consciousness

That doesn’t want us to think.

We are only informed to willow us out.

I remember telling I was going to play the computer 

When I was 50

I told a lot of things.

We had an argument over whether the computer was an instrument or not.

Autochords

You have to know the chords to be able to fool around with them.

I don’t think there is a product on the market,

That hasn’t involved reverse engineering 

Somewhere in its development.

I miss the old 8 bit computers you bought at toys r us.

It is an ongoing research project.

We don’t need the power we have

To do the things we do.

I do have a tendency to play everything too fast.

Artifacts seem to happen when I slow stuff down.

Thank you for giving me placement.

Watermarks or artifacts?

I guess they don’t want folks massaging stuff and reselling it.

People liked Polaroid 

Because you didn’t have to worry

About getting it developed 

I am miles further than you give me credit for.

You mistake me for someone I am not.

I don’t want to be sucked into the Facebook wormhole.

I understand the “no surprises” deal,

But I am pro uncertainty.

There is a difference 

Between writing a paragraph 

And writing a book

It is impossible.

You will blow your mind out kid.

I guess it is a little late to begin skateboarding.

I don’t know.

You either believe in someone or you don’t.

Should you wait for them to prove themselves to you?

A high sense to what you are entitled to.

It is over my head.

I thought if you had the right sequence,

You could send information on EPR.

Latency just seems to matter to Apple.

If you want your candy crush and your angry birds,

Get an android 

If you want to do real things 

Get an iPad

Android does 90% of what iOS can do

At substantially lower costs

But for me

GarageBand is worth it

There is no Android equivalent 

Because Android simply can’t do it.

Ribbons did not cost 40 bucks,

And the printer lasted longer.

If you don’t use or excercise your inkjet printer,

It messes up like an ink pen.

The thrift stores are loaded with them.

We need inkjet technology I guess.

I would not want people to formulate a religion,

Based on what I said in this blog.

Limbic Justifications

Maybe it should take two or three people to buy a gun.

I don’t care what it sounds like.

It makes me feel better.

A lot of people think mental illness is a character issue.

That there is something the individual can do about it.

I feel like I have robbed a bank.

The whole thing is just wide open.

I have been listening to Shania Twain

And Lindsey Sterling 

Artists have been taken of for advantage for centuries.

Mental health is treated like heartburn.

It is not.

People think you can take a pill,

And the whole problem goes away.

It doesn’t.

Google hardly gives me anything at all.

If it doesn’t push me to myself,

What is it pushing to other people?

Bing pushes me to myself.

Other people are going to take the idea and run with it.

No one is going to know where it came from.

Wouldn’t be the first time.

I would probably flip out anyway.

I probably have a reputation for flipping out.

I thought the test was about Earth.

I thought the test was about America.

I didn’t know the test was about me.

I am starting to get a feel for playing the keyboard with two hands,

But I have not tried it yet.

I don’t know what the hell she is doing,

But it is just making it harder on me.

They don’t want us to be a first planet.

It would govern what they could do,

And what they couldn’t.

Satan doesn’t care if the damn thing breaks.

I was right.

If things were going to get done,

95 was the time to do it.

Turn the volume down,

Turn on the captions 

Plug into some music

And jam

I think Marconi would cry.

Jesus ain’t had me make all these ringtones for nothing.

There are people that know what to do with them.

I loved pookie.

I am sorry if I blew his mind out.

I like looking at their heads.

You could go half way there, every day forever.

There are ways to do things,

That you don’t have to give up all your information,

To some centralized authority.

The birdhouse was not the objective.

Building it was.

This is not an academic pursuit.

This is free association.

I have myself on the couch.

I don’t know why I delve  into the subjects I do.

I apologize, and you should call me out.

If you can’t,

That’s a whole different story isn’t it?

I feel like I am being stoned to be happy.

It needs to stop.

They want people to be limbic junkies.

Social Butterflies

I am fairly confident,

We will never encounter,

Another Newtonian civilization.

Hopefully we won’t lose it,

Before we realize how valuable it is.

If you are immune,

And everyone else has a disease,

You are the one being difficult.

You are supposed to be sad,

The world is sad,

How can you be happy when the world is so sad?

You minus well be a fruit fly.

I have it,

I need to find a place to put it.

New York Social Security Numbers.  

Social Security Numbers issued to New York 

fall between 050-xx-xxxx and 134-xx-xxxx.

It was in the apple loop that way.

I had the idea that people would mark it up and pass it around,

But I guess they felt it would make the net unnavigable.

It is the fold that matters.

16 is not folded in 3.

It shows up when it is represented in a different way.

I expect people to just accept things.

It splits into two groups of three fours.

Three different types of symmetry.

They must have had Nostradamus on the guy,

And they messed up.

We might have to go south someday.

I wouldn’t download a ringtone from somebody’s blog.

I would be grateful if I could get help with my consumer debt.

People would treat each other better if there was guaranteed income.

I would have been more motivated to quit my job and get help.

People need help,

And instead they are being harassed until they quit,

And they don’t want to quit because there is no safety net,

And there is no guarantee if they do quit,

That they are going to find stability in life,

The way things are is not working.

There are a lot of people with an independent spirit,

Who are not getting the assistance that might help them.

Things are not setup for transactions less than a dollar.

What should a ringtone cost?

A whole song is a dollar.

Having the skills to make one might be valuable.

What do they expect people to make with GarageBand anyway?

If you did not know what you were looking for,

Could you have found it?

Would you know what to do with it?

How much is their time worth?

If they can find it let them have it.

People are going to hide their shit

And force people to find it

It is going to be a dark web thing.

If it is not already.

The people who make money,

Will be the people who find shit.

I love the name my parents gave me.

I just wish there weren’t so many people with it.

We need a cryptocurrency for peer to peer transactions less than a dollar or two.

They call it jewelry and masturbation.

You can only brew the tea they want you to.

If you are worried if it is going to render right

You have to get it from me.

my mind is blown
its not getting any better

How am I going to be known

And work with other people 

If I can’t even post the best thing I have made so far.

When you don’t know what you are doing,

You do stuff you aren’t supposed to do.

Why should I struggle to play what everyone else does?

If it sounds harsh,

You are playing it too loud.

Buried Sentiments

Why can’t people learn to film in landscape?

How do male calicos happen?

Somebody needs to stand up.

Customs and Border Protection is not a relief agency.

Time is going to blame all of us.

Many Americans feel,

How they vote,

Is the sole determinant,

Of what side of history they will be on.

We need to start cooperating now.

Am I being too partisan?

I don’t want to be in the situation,

That many more die,

Because we won’t cooperate.

 I doubt you are going to hear it from anyone else.

All we needed was one more push,

And we would have been over the edge.

I am holding no great wisdom.

You should be proud of your performance,

It was very good.

I don’t know what makes people consider preposterous things.

It seems to come with age.

Would you have believed it when the world made sense?

Why do you believe it now?

How does it pertain to other people?

Do they need it?

What is more likely?

Quantum bubbles

Or old age.

It is out there.

You can believe it if you want to.

They see an unpopular president as an opportunity to go left.

I don’t blame them.

I would too.

I am not trying to deny anything,

I just think it doesn’t do any good.

I can understand chemistry 

Give me something I can understand 

I cannot deny I have attachment issues 

But I don’t fully understand 

People want things to be pretty.

Life is not like that.

People act like they themselves have been hurt by my parents.

It just simply is not the case.

I witnessed at least three families that practiced  corporal punishment.

I never considered approaching my parents with it.

Is it pathological that I couldn’t talk to my parents?

I have some attachment pathology.

Americans have elevated fears in general 

You try to get help,

And the first thing that happens is your life falls apart.

What are the odds of successfully navigating getting help?

I had a breakdown because I felt safe to have one?

I remember switching from Ritalin to Wellbutrin 

looking at the chart

And thinking 

This would be an opportune time

Please don’t make me the poster child for misogyny 

Somehow

I thought if I lived in France 

My perps hurt a lot of children 

I am the only one that ever reported anything.

look what happened to me.

I am a convenient, easy target.

What children did I hurt?

Who benefits?

Beauty means something in China.

Schwartzman notes that the expected form from usual Latin phrasing would be sexadecimal, 

but computer hackers would be tempted to shorten that word to sex.^[27] 

I have read a few books

The Chronicles of Narina

Jaws

The Amityville Horror

Endless Love

Some Arthur C Clark

Some Isaac Asimov

The Stand

The Long Walk

Some Michael Crichton 

The Good News Bible

Books on UFOs and aliens

A Brief History of Time

Communion

On The Road

Wuthering Heights

Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy

I don’t know why I stopped reading.

You really have to trust the author.

Who am I going to be when I wake up?

I come from nowhere?

I make myself exist?

There is no original.

Is that just settling an argument?

Where does beauty come from?

What makes something beautiful?

Are origins humanistic?

Not like this.

I have accomplished too much to go back now.

Narcissism is an ugly name,

That provides little incentive,

For people to have empathy.

She is very aware of her image.

The number of frames depends upon the angle.

If we were worried about what works and what doesn’t,

I don’t think America would have gotten done.

Apparently iOS thinks it is a phone number.

I forgot the argument.

Taking a list and marking it up,

Should be a simple thing to do.

It sounds like I know what I am doing.

I can’t, with good conscience, continue to support president Trump.

It was offensive.

I am not lock step.

I am not going to take heat for him.

He needs to come to my community and say that shit.

This was not meant to be a political blog.

I am sorry I have strayed from what I originally intended.

The De Facto Zone

There is a border there.

Just like there is a border with Mexico.

It is not bizarro superstition.

We have been given a gift.

People need to decide if they accept it or not.

There is a plethora of bizarro superstitions out there.

What I have been through is not illegitimate.

It was released.

It is like lithium.

It is old.

People get angry when you challenge what they justify themselves with.

The medication just establishes a new normal.

It doesn’t fix anything.

A cut and paste virtuoso 

I apologize 

For me it is about who is doing it right

And who is doing it wrong 

It is a blowout 

It is not a hierarchical thing

I thought the computer would be attached to my brain

And I would be able to play anything I heard in my head 

But this is ok

They are going to beg this president to go to war

Before it’s all over with.

Who cares if they shoot down drones.

Let China pay for it.

War would split the coalition against them

War is in their interest 

Not ours

If sanctions are going to work,

We are going to take in on the chin a couple times.

I have always been treated with dignity and respect.

I have never voted republican.

I am torn.

The people I am agreeing with

Have not always been kind to me

I have been called derogatory names too

But that doesn’t mean I need to be socialist

They are playing solid politics.

They are not going to give the president a success on anything.

Is there one candidate that supports USMCA?

You shouldn’t hate your country.

It is like hating your mother.

It doesn’t do any good. 

The election is the thing.

Nothing matters but the election.

A humanitarian crisis 

Requires a humanitarian response 

It doesn’t help anyone to argue who’s fault it is.

AIG played the odds too.

Politics has become entertainment.

It sells car insurance.

Frank Zappa said something similar

I can’t come up with anything original.

At least I bothered to look.

It is not the exact same thing.

I wouldn’t google myself so much

If I was getting accurate statistics 

Let the person calling decide what the ringtone is.

I see you everywhere.

Am I supposed to make eye contact with everyone I think is you?

It is a defense mechanism that keeps me sane.

I have approached people and been wrong.

Not that I thought was you.

I am not always willing to do that.

This anger energy I get from you,

Doesn’t make it any easier.

We are in a mathematical space,

That depends on causality loops?

I may have had previous obligations.

I can’t keep pace.

I burn out.

We are coming from a time,

Where you had to sell your soul just to be heard.

Choosing Barabbas

I like Kennedy.

She could tell me to vote for hermit the frog.

Atypical men get a lot of hassle.

Men ain’t supposed to be atypical.

It is ugly.

Men are men, you know?

We are all the same.

Atypical men get it from everyone.

I thought if I was in a relationship,

The harassment would stop.

It doesn’t.

It doesn’t really matter what you are atypical about.

And it snowballs into other things.

Critical teraflops are being wasted on you.

This is government in America.

It has been like this for decades.

People are separated by what, or who, they choose to ignore.

This was 1995

I don’t know what led me to believe America was under attack

I am sorry

It is an Easter egg effect.

People like the idea that they have found something 

I was self important.

I needed somebody’s attention.

I am flattered that I have anything in the wayback machine

But it would be nice if it was something I wrote 

If your candidacy was going to end up

Getting someone undesirable elected,

Would you withdraw?

Men don’t have a monopoly on creepiness.

Are illegal aliens above the law?

It is self defining circular logic.

I can’t prove that I am not a narcissist,

But would I even consider it?

The more you insist you aren’t 

The more you are

Why does it have to be a psychiatric condition?

I am being rational and considerate.

I am not right about everything.

I began with the wrong attitude.

Being rational and considerate screwed everything up.

There was no room to be rational and considerate.

There never has been.

I am not going to have a mental crisis 

Because I contradicted myself.

I am clearly not in love with myself.

The democrats have their tickets 

And they don’t care

They were having estate sales 

It was over

It is sad.

I am getting evp

Because they have cut off my supply 

I could walk to the corner,

And it would be said I got away with it.

I may not be getting the adoration I need,

But if I was in China or Saudi Arabia,

I would be dead or in prison by now.

Magic is real in Saudi Arabia.

You go to prison for it.

There are conventions about where you get your adoration from.

There are no original facts.

You need to be extemporaneous to find original questions.

If I worried about what The Simpsons said first

I wouldn’t be able to write anything 

And did they really say it first anyway?

Be safe.

Live longer.

Christianity is our reality.

There would be no secular world without Jesus.

If there are people deep in the pentagon who feel that way,

I say good they should.

Anyone who has gone to tango,

Knows

Some only follow the rules when they are hiding.

I remember there being ads in my ufology magazines.

I tried to wrap my mind around something that was too big,

And it was like a rubber band 

It snapped

Who would you trust to be focused on?

We are still choosing Barabbas.

Evaluated Twice

You should use it for poetry and song.

She is so sold

She is sold on everything 

It has been supplanted 

You can use a computer for computational space

Or use it for what Asimov called “twisting”

I think “cowbirding” is viable.

I think it can be mutually beneficial,

And I think the computational space thing

Is being done already 

Either God is giving me gifts 

Or I am a sorcerer.

I don’t pretend to know which one.

If it is threatening,

Why did they develop the internet,

And personal devices to begin with?

My mom and dad raised me,

That no one really knows until judgement day.

And that it’s the ones that think they know,

That you have to watch out for.

People get their head stuck in a book,

And they forget how to love each other.

The love of Jesus doesn’t require a book.

Apparently God’s anger doesn’t either.

“We are always at war.  Peace is a bourgeois illusion.”

If you are upset about it,

You don’t understand the way things are.

We don’t control the information we think we do.

I knew I was in the past

I knew I would forget

erectile dysfunction is the least of my worries

I can’t take care of myself 

I don’t know what is going to happen to me

Maybe those are not the right words

Suspected is better.

There is less preconception of what an ehru should sound like.

Satanists think stupidity should be painful.

They feel smug and laugh at people.

If you find yourself in a situation with a shooter,

Get in their face, holler at them “fall down, fall down.”

9 times out if 10 they have voices

Use that to your advantage 

If I could be in a room by myself 

Making widgets all day I would be fine.

People want a reaction,

But all I am feeling is confusion.

It just isn’t there.

Evaluated twice.

Didn’t need to get a lawyer.

My disability went through on the first try.

I would have no stability in my life,

And I would end up homeless.

My biggest problems 

Are social interactions 

And severe paranoia 

It is frustrating 

I understand, but I cannot do anything about it.

Lord knows I have tried.

People solve things their own way,

Using whatever tools they have on hand,

And sometimes they don’t even know they are doing it,

Or it wasn’t meant to be solved.

I don’t want to hurt people.

Every time I go out I hurt people.

The Tea Transformation

A brainwashed R2-D2

I pre think stuff all the time,

Does that mean I am the originator?

I am not going to have surgery 

So I can cross my knees

Information only comes from legitimate sources?

I know it’s not palatable 

But to deny it happens is false

It is scary

You believe what you are told

Information from the ether is unacceptable 

Adding 2+2 was my doing,

I make my own inference 

Forbid 

Reverse phraseology is not real,

Individuals don’t receive information from it,

To believe otherwise is delusional.

Some Catholic Jew boy with the name Mallory was unacceptable?

Leave it alone.

Let it settle out.

How do I know pointing at her,

Wasn’t the reason she was mean at me to begin with.

“Clozaril has kept me in a game, I would be more than willing to lose.”

People make an industry 

Of us pointing fingers at each other

Two times

Applied together

Cut the time in half

What is parallel time?

I mean no disrespect 

But apparently it is akin to Native American music.

It is how Jesus feels about me,

Not how I feel about him


ethics tea

There are a lot of people 

Who are concerned God will be angry at them personally 

If they support a pro choice candidate 

You can have all the stem technology you want to

But it’s useless without creative professionals 

You shouldn’t avoid things that seem difficult 

At the highest level 

Everything is difficult

Here With Me

full 16 take 2

It is difficult to make it perfect at 16 bars.

The through length is too long

No one has had the tools to do it easily before 

Satan has big yellow teeth 

The paper had shadowy bugs in it

The phrase  “reverse speech” is copy written.
That is a big joke if you understand anything.

No silly, elementary school.

Why is something environmental the last thing on the list?

No wonder paranoid people get so frustrated.

take 9 2

sixth best

They know they are out there

But they don’t know what they are

Mostly in the past 

They can’t do anything about it

All they can do is treat the symptoms 

And hope for the best

Which wouldn’t sound reassuring from a doctor

Or to an insurance company 

I have respect for anybody who can play golf.

America is going to die in litigation.

I am happy brewing tea.

It isn’t pop music

And you have to put it together yourself 

The tools are there for an explosion.

But I don’t think it is going to happen in America.

They are trying to say

Television belongs in a tavern.

The Manchurian Receptacle

Some people have opinions about stuff that can’t be shaken.

They are terriers.

They won’t let go till the rats dead.

It is masochistic to even be interested in these people.

People have no respect for asexuals 

Most don’t even consider it possible 

Some of the strongest opinions people have

Is about sexuality 

It is difficult 

You don’t understand what it means to be sexual.

There are many who would gladly be asexual 

It is a gift.

What I can interpret 

I can not live that way.

I just shoved my hand in the rack and pulled her out

Trump is going to “win”

And this is the way things are going to be done from now on.

By what standard is anyone going to win?

It will be the Donald Trump playbook from now on.

I considered Venezuela to be part of mesoamerica

People have been watching this for years,

Waiting for someone to do something 

I thought Mesosmerica was different than Central America 

In that it included Columbia and Venezuela 

Nobody asked me about it.

Why would we have two names for the same thing?

Clearly our troubles in the region include Venezuela.

Would they have allowed me to say Venezuela?

Jesus is not going to play word games with you.

It is dysfunctional 

I know what it is to support abortion

Because you wish you had never been born.

I have shared a bucket of chicken with a Cohen.

Both of us caught the flu

Do an autopsy 

It is a big deal

Whether things are independent or not

I just wanted to be an average joe.

I guess we are never going to Disney World.

Do you want to reveal to the people,

The whole nature of our reality?

Who is going to look bad?

Reverse phraseology is ubiquitous in America,

And no one is going to look good.

I can almost guarantee,

The truth is going to hurt both sides.

It has been out there.

I didn’t hide anything.

I have schizophrenia.

Who am I supposed to tell?

I call it “method voting”

I don’t know if it’s real or not.

Very simply it would be voters

Who vote against the incumbent party

Regardless 

And especially the incumbent party has already had two terms

Madison Avenue Puppets

People are going to drive themselves 

And brew their own tea

I starting to believe I can brew tea

It is turning into a whole tea ceremony 

The can was kicked 

That is all I am going to say about it

Why is it so important?

You win another day.

We are getting a sideshow.

I need to be quiet about it.

They can’t even get adequate housing,

And we are worried about whether they can vote?

Everyone is nimby about where these people live,

And we are worried about their voting rights?

Do they have an opinion?

Or do they live and die statistics?

If you lie or don’t participate in polls or encourage others not to,

Are you attacking our democracy?

 

Would you have people in jail?

You can’t have an opinion without a dissertation.

We tell you what your opinions are.

Do you hide behind issues you don’t really care about,

Just because you want to win?

What is winning?

Who benefits if you win?

We might determine who is right and who is not,

But I don’t think anyone is going to win.

It is nobody’s fault,

It is my own stubbornness that got me here 

I have been a loser my whole life.

Winning is not my motivation.

I don’t think lawyers are used to compromising.

If you say well the constitution says this,

Or the constitution says that,

Then it may be an issue for the Supreme Court.

That is probably why they don’t mention it.

It is not my call.

Are other people jamming?

Or is it just me.

Reduce your exposure to reverse phraseology.

Just another Madison Avenue puppet.

It certainly felt that way.

I guess reading would help.

I just plow through and I don’t retain anything.

They had a horse in the race?

You would not be able to silence your enemies by killing them.

I am going to stop apologizing for my music

It does what I want it to do.

The candidates that have won for the democrats

Have not been establishment candidates.

I guess I am more popular with the dead.

This is more than pareidolia

People are on George Noory for stuff that is barely audible 

If it wasn’t for evp 

I wouldn’t have the motivation to do anything 

The “bends” is a not so polite term for being politely asexual.

It would not be the first time something was not intended.

Strange Opinions

Yeah and it ain’t her either

They tried to put the president in a paranoid tail spin.

They thought they could jet wash the president.

It was the Spanish Armada 

It was millennial hysteria 

Move on

Get over it

Clearly something did not go her way

He had problems keeping his composure 

They are terriers

It is clearly a political thing now

Go fry an egg

I think Attorney General Barr is trying to heal the country 

There is no good to be had in pursuing impeachment 

Media outlets have vested their sacred honor to bring down this president 

I fear the roads we are headed down 

They can’t do a u-turn

It just ain’t going to happen

A great deal of political capital has been spent 

It is not just going to go away

The president does not have to prove he is innocent.

If they are going to charge him, they need to go ahead and do it.

Wasn’t there something about a speedy jury?

Why does the president have less protection than I do?

You don’t get to be president by picking cherries.

Everyone knows that

The president deserves a speedy indictment 

Why do they have a Grand Jury if they can’t indict someone?

Isn’t that the purpose of a Grand Jury?

This needs to come to a head,

Or it’s not going to be good for any of us.

This whole thing is leaving me confused and angry

If he isn’t there to exonerate,

And he cannot idict 

Then it isn’t justice

Apparently congress isn’t allowing the president to be exonerated.

Apart from the Attorney General,

Who has the right to exonerate in this country?

Once a report is released,

There needs to be a shot clock

An impeachment needs to be more timely than five years

How can criminal charges against the president occur?

The president has been exonerated by the chief law enforcement officer of the United States!

If you don’t take action now,

The more political it is going to look.

Even if you indict him 5 years from now,

The first witness will be Barr

It will be more difficult to prosecute after what Barr did

Does a statute of limitations

Mean you can sit on something for 5 years?

I feel the president deserves a fair and speedy trial

If they are not going to impeach him, and soon

I feel that should be the end of it

There are people who have opinions on this matter 

Who don’t even know who Andrew Johnson is?

He tried to rush reconstruction 

And the congress refused to seat the delegates he supported 

And he ended up getting censured

Impeached, excuse me.

Andrew Jackson was the president who was censured 

I am not familiar with that

I know indigenous peoples in America do not like Andrew Jackson

He was responsible for the “trail of tears”.

Does it go through the AG or not?

What would yo do if you were a juror 

And the chief prosecutor made a statement like that?

I think the best that would happen was a mistrial.

The DOJ is at war with itself,

This is going to be ugly,

I feel for America.

Barr’s authority?

If the Titanic had hit the iceberg head on,

It has been said it wouldn’t have sunk.

Would Barr have been able to announce the president guilty?

If he had used language that the president was culpable 

Would that be fair to the president?

The whole idea of an independent council

That can’t bring charges is dysfunctional.

How could you go into a trial 

Where you have already be declared guilty?

Is it a policy?

Or is it a law?

I think AG Barr was a jury of one

I don’t think he had a choice 

Hoo Wah Hoo

Nowadays it isn’t enough to protest once or twice.

You need to live a life of protest.

And even then the line is long waiting for you to drop out,

And take your place.

Fall afoul and see what your opinion is.

Their own arrogance that it was never going to happen,

Is what brought it about.

I think they doubled down on a perjury trap that didn’t materialize.

It is more than equation that can not be solved 

It implies all of our equations are humanistic.

Tone tone semitone tone tone tone semitone 

I like the idea that it is local and fresh,

But I can’t drink Budweiser 

Gives me a headache.

Is it just me,

Or does it go through the hoop faster than it used to

Would you want to work with someone like me?

People expect me to turn green.

 

I need to be careful 

I have severe paranoia

I need to draw lines

I don’t want to be the Bjork creep

thank you for life

Telling me to wake up

hoo wah

It’s not supposed to be about inflating ticket prices to launder money

It is supposed to be about encouraging people an making them feel connected 

I didn’t take a lot of time on it

My battery was almost dead

I felt the need to create something 

I just threw something together 

I knew it was going to say something 

But I had no control over what it said

Has it gotten to the point

That if it’s not four on the floor

It’s not music?

I consider they are afraid of me

Like I am Frankenstein’s monster

Like I am iron man

And I am going to turn on everybody 

I feel obligated to hold the center 

They comfort themselves by feeling they have no choice 

I appear quite willing to have people walk all over me.

There is still going to be a ghost in the machine,

Whether it is made in China or not

Capitalism has cost us $60,000 dollars a person

We have fiat capitalism, and it’s doomed to failure.

I am against the idea that capitalism is free

Is is not

It has no priority other than profits

Politics is about what we want to ignore 

It is not about what you support 

It is about what you want to ignore

erhu redone

Ageless Wobble

This is what happens when you watch too much Ancient Aliens

Revelation is there to protect you from this stuff

The idea was people would mark it up and pass it around 

Single notes do sound a little harsh

I could be a priest 

I wouldn’t hurt the kids

It is like a game of free cell they can’t let go of

They are determined to solve it

They are so determined everything is solvable,

They are ruining my life.

I wish it was a hand of free cell,

Then we could prove it unsolvable,

And that would be the end of it.

Just because you can’t be beat,

Doesn’t mean you are unavoidable 

 

agile acid

 

do you fit the bill

 

afghanbd2

I had my love affair with socialism 

If you discovered zero how would you explain it to people?

Would everyone want you to?

 

Let someone talk long enough 

And they will contradict themselves 

 

ageless wobble

What can I say?

I like Kitaro.

Dried Apricots

You should have seen what Evergreen Cemetery looked like 30 years ago.

We may lose the southwest to Aztlan

Some want to see a graceful decline of America

Agendas need to be made plain

America is a social, political, economic and environmental failure?

A racist and homophobic hoard is standing in the way of global socialism?

IfllI wish I didn't have thoughts like this.

Forgive me, there are people who feel that way

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I have been trying for years to figure out how to do that
Every since they took Opaque Burger down.
What I really want is to share my GarageBand projects
Let me know if it works or not.

I want people to be able to easily listen to my improvisations as loops.
Things don’t seem to be set up to do that.

They are not songs.
They are improvisations.
They are never going to be played on the radio.
I am never going to perform them to an audience.
They are not structured as a song.
They are for meditation and relaxation,
And meant to be played as loops.

I would not be surprised if people were using them already.

Call it farm use.

Things would be better in the workplace,
If people did not live paycheck to paycheck.
If there was guarantees

People don’t want to quit because they can’t afford it,
And businesses don’t want to fire people,
For financial or liability
So they harass you till you quit

It is considered ok if you are a poor employee,
But it is not

The idea that you can make someone a “team player “
Through harassment is just plain wrong.

The way I remember it
Mom and dad were arguing about it
And I said if people were going to argue about it
I was not going to play anymore.

I think I could contribute as part of a team.

They have better commercials than the hyper bucket.

I didn’t know he had been attacked by an ostrich.

I like dried apricots 

And I wouldn’t want to be a rockstar anyway.

Couldn’t handle it.

Hyper Bucket

When it comes to repetition

Study those that get away with it

Learn intervals and tones

Learn your keyboards and frets

Find an apple loop that sounds good,

And use a quarter of it

Tap something out monotone

And paint it

You can't get muscle memory from osmosis 

It is amazing I can even live on this planet

I think the music is negative and stale

It is very easy to cut and paste in GarageBand

It effectively quantifizes everything

Makes it very easy, forgiving, and productive

Apple has been waiting for me to GarageBand since the 00's

I am sorry it took so long

I can't be anything

They have built a little Idaho just for me.

I just rot here and know never to do this again

I am not into sex puzzles

I know why they do 15 bars now.

Should I keep making my loops?

Why did I become a pet project to begin with?

Paranoia and vanity are not the same thing.

Trying to cure me of narcissism I guess.

Sooner or later you are going to smoke that last cigarette.

If you ain't ready for it, you ain't ready to quit.

It is addictive predatory behavior I tell you

It is wrong 

Everyone is strung out on lead

It is not supposed to be this way

It is prophylaxis 

This is what happens 

All it takes is one person.

And they don't even have to be memorable.

You cant have everything.

I feel a need to differentiate.

Do you think things would have gotten this far

If I was trying to pull a scam?

I feel like you want me to die.

I did sorrow 

I did dementia 

I did joy

I did regret

Self important ugliness 

Computers can be sensitive to sub space communication?

It has been put to me as well

I don't think Russia got Trump elected

I have tackled a lot of things

That in some cases have been fueled by the medications 

They didn't promote me to higher math

Because I wouldn't do my homework 

I would not do homework or papers

And I would get away with it

Something needed to be left undone 

I have given up on some things

But I ain't going to just sit here and rot

I am going to make the best of it

And I may forgive 

But I ain't going to forget a damn thing

It is a similar method I guess.

I didn't know she did things that way

I am sitting on the edge of a superstitious nightmare.

Create more

Time

Effort

And

Money

I love that I can pick up the iPad and go with it

It doesn't mind if you ain't picked it up in a while

It doesn't get in my way setting things up or fixing it

Finally getting it to work and not knowing what you did

By the time it works you don't feel like it anymore 

GarageBand is far more forgiving than the actual instruments 

Yet it is still powerful 

I would say pianos were probably considered cheating too

I have been looking for that sound for a decade

One of Ken's tenants played guitar over one of my loops,

And I have been trying to capture that ever since.

At first I thought it was a recording issue

But when it came clear I would have to do the guitar myself,

I drew inspiration from Neil Young 

People couldn't use my loops

Because they weren't a standard tempo

Or a standard key

I don't consider 

Anyone regrets as a life choice 

Attending a service academy 

Different things are happening to me,

Because the rules are changing 

It is about the paint they say

You have to start somewhere 

I feel for those who struggle 

It is just not something I struggle with 

It happens 

People forget 

And then it happens again

It is still bizarre 

Even if Apple did do it.

They have been trying to get people to use computers this way

Since the eighties 

They must not like the old fat me.

They think I am a deep state mule.

If it ain't happening in the first 15 minutes 

I save it and move on

Come back to it later 

I have always failed in some severe way

So dense that the horizon is actually smaller?

The event field is some sort of conglomeration 

Of the akashic record and the Higgs field 

Consume and destroy less

Somebody created the blues

And nobody knows who

Is there going to be a place for an octogenarian?

I am human 

I wouldn't mind a paycheck 

But I ain't selling my soul over a paycheck 

I agree

It is sad

The adolescence of the whole thing is ending 

Arbitrary Rabbits

Having your own email

And having your own email server

Are not the same thing

You can go to gmail and have an email address.

Whereas If you have your own server

You may have a hard drive to bleach or smash

Just another John Wayne I guess

Run of the mill Beatle issues 

I am the village idiot 

I say stuff other people can't say

Thank Jesus for bringing people to my blog.

Sometimes the best way to learn

Is to find it for yourself

How can you stop making sedans?

What are first time car buyers going to buy?

Find a hot spot and then rub it.

I thought if I was in a relationship the shit would stop.

THEY STILL DONT FRIGGEN GET IT!
I VOTED DEMOCRATIC BECAUSE YOU ASKED ME TOO!
friggen morons
you pigeon hole people and take them for granted
I will remember this

Reality is the consequence of doing It wrong.

I was talking about the math

They have spent their life savings and 

And migrated thousands of miles

How can we turn them away?

I think they have done away with it

And I really like it

The net should be a peer to peer free for all

I remember what happened last time I prayed that.

I find myself thinking there is something I can say

Something I can do

And it just haunts me

And it won't go away

She looks like the come find me girl.

You can't force someone to be happy

If they ain't buying it

I find myself knowing stuff I can't account for.

The luxury of an accident

I like that Shania Twain video 

I wish someone felt that way about me.

You have a mandate.

Please do something about mesoamerica.

it is difficult to have blue waves
when we have these 80%  districts.

If you are looking for one that is different,

Don't waste your time.

according to the Washington Post
These were the battleground districts for this election

would you buy that network?

I object to people being modeled like the weather.

Uncertainty is bad for the economy 

But that doesn't mean modeling the electorate is innocuous.

Because I thought I had a future

If you use a word that is on the fringe of your vocabulary like that,

It means someone is reading.

You cannot have democracy without grace.

Without grace there is no democracy.

I am still trying to answer shit that happened 30 years ago 

Why you trying to work on me?

We ain't got forever.

I am the way my family brought me to be,

That ain't right?

I am sorry if you had an accident,

You shouldn't be doing that shit to begin with.

I don't know where you get your information from,

But you act like we have lifetimes to get it right

And I don't think we do.

I have to talk.

There are too many going through this

That don't have the luxury of an accident 

Professor Hawking used to make that hole sign.

It is some inside joke.

I don't think it was a racist thing.

Some kind of where's Waldo 

I have never had much luck with upgradable 

You can't change what generation something is

Maybe Astra Zeneca can help

 

 

Marching On Air

What is eureka displacement?

It feels better in the bath tub.

You ain't making no sense either 

It is like you are dangerous.

It is like you are going to get in trouble if you ain't gay

You have to be careful.

Some people will bring a stranger to a party 

Just to see him get beat up.

It is difficult to beach yourself,

When the medication has you marching on air.

Adopted children are more likely than biological children to have special health care needs, current moderate or severe health problems, learning disability, developmental delay or physical impairment, and other mental health difficulties.

I had the bends to begin with,

But I asked God to take it away from me

Restraint is a disease.

Capitalism works?

Slavery worked too.

It is our hemisphere.

We need to do a better job.

Take it to the fire station 

I was disturbed in my sleep screaming the N word.

I am sorry if anyone heard that.

I don't know why that happened.

I have read the Bible.

I see where God gave us the law

I see where God gave us prophets 

I see where God gave us a king

I see where God gave us his son 

Where does God give us the right to vote?

People are knee deep in it

Before they even know what it is about.

And it is intentionally designed that way.

It is an opinion 

Many people feel that way

I feel people are being damaged by the political process
and they have the right not to vote

its sold as being innocuous
and its not

There is a lot of stuff that way

It ain't the 90's

This shit has been dealt with

Move on

Politics has a need to infect everybody.

You can't force people to carry

That's a right people fought for 

Some people are in it

Just to see what they can make you do

I need more than a sky is falling argument

Hopiland will take you if you walk there

I might make it to Petersburg.

Could you make it to Petersburg?

The Principal Reaction

VB

What is the principal reaction?

I was hissed at because my t shirt looked like it said "virgin".

I was put forth as an example of what not to be in the whole triangle.

People get drunk

They fuck

What planet do these people live on?

It is like visiting Sodom and Gomorrah 

And bitching about your holiday 

They wouldn't give him any trouble if he was 10 years older

What are women typically delusional about?

Don't like being called delusional?

Welcome to the club.

They don't have any hesitation calling men delusional.

Have you seen what is on YouTube lately?

It would take a whole cultural do over to fix this shit.

That shit makes Madonna look like Madonna.

It ain't happening in a vacuum okay?

How are we supposed to fix it

When we can't even have an honest discussion about it?

I think women have a broader scope than men do.

I think it's entirely possible its left of center,

And he has no recollection of it.

People are going to have to sign a release 

Before going to a party

They think you don't like girls

They think you don't want it

They think something is wrong with you 

There were people there

Paranoia is not vanity

Has anyone else claimed to have caused it?

Would you rather it be someone else?

It is a chair somebody must sit in.

You can't just be normal.

Normal is something that happens to you

And there is no consensus 

If it's a good thing or not

Some embrace it

Some avoid it

I sense it's there but don't really know what it is

People lose their soul as a manner of course 

I am trying to be nice 

But that's what I get out of it