Evaluated Twice

You should use it for poetry and song.

She is so sold

She is sold on everything 

It has been supplanted 

You can use a computer for computational space

Or use it for what Asimov called “twisting”

I think “cowbirding” is viable.

I think it can be mutually beneficial,

And I think the computational space thing

Is being done already 

Either God is giving me gifts 

Or I am a sorcerer.

I don’t pretend to know which one.

If it is threatening,

Why did they develop the internet,

And personal devices to begin with?

My mom and dad raised me,

That no one really knows until judgement day.

And that it’s the ones that think they know,

That you have to watch out for.

People get their head stuck in a book,

And they forget how to love each other.

The love of Jesus doesn’t require a book.

Apparently God’s anger doesn’t either.

“We are always at war.  Peace is a bourgeois illusion.”

If you are upset about it,

You don’t understand the way things are.

We don’t control the information we think we do.

I knew I was in the past

I knew I would forget

erectile dysfunction is the least of my worries

I can’t take care of myself 

I don’t know what is going to happen to me

Maybe those are not the right words

Suspected is better.

There is less preconception of what an ehru should sound like.

Satanists think stupidity should be painful.

They feel smug and laugh at people.

If you find yourself in a situation with a shooter,

Get in their face, holler at them “fall down, fall down.”

9 times out if 10 they have voices

Use that to your advantage 

If I could be in a room by myself 

Making widgets all day I would be fine.

People want a reaction,

But all I am feeling is confusion.

It just isn’t there.

Evaluated twice.

Didn’t need to get a lawyer.

My disability went through on the first try.

I would have no stability in my life,

And I would end up homeless.

My biggest problems 

Are social interactions 

And severe paranoia 

It is frustrating 

I understand, but I cannot do anything about it.

Lord knows I have tried.

People solve things their own way,

Using whatever tools they have on hand,

And sometimes they don’t even know they are doing it,

Or it wasn’t meant to be solved.

I don’t want to hurt people.

Every time I go out I hurt people.

The Tea Transformation

A brainwashed R2-D2

I pre think stuff all the time,

Does that mean I am the originator?

I am not going to have surgery 

So I can cross my knees

Information only comes from legitimate sources?

I know it’s not palatable 

But to deny it happens is false

It is scary

You believe what you are told

Information from the ether is unacceptable 

Adding 2+2 was my doing,

I make my own inference 

Forbid 

Reverse phraseology is not real,

Individuals don’t receive information from it,

To believe otherwise is delusional.

Some Catholic Jew boy with the name Mallory was unacceptable?

Leave it alone.

Let it settle out.

How do I know pointing at her,

Wasn’t the reason she was mean at me to begin with.

“Clozaril has kept me in a game, I would be more than willing to lose.”

People make an industry 

Of us pointing fingers at each other

Two times

Applied together

Cut the time in half

What is parallel time?

I mean no disrespect 

But apparently it is akin to Native American music.

It is how Jesus feels about me,

Not how I feel about him


ethics tea

There are a lot of people 

Who are concerned God will be angry at them personally 

If they support a pro choice candidate 

You can have all the stem technology you want to

But it’s useless without creative professionals 

You shouldn’t avoid things that seem difficult 

At the highest level 

Everything is difficult

Here With Me

full 16 take 2

It is difficult to make it perfect at 16 bars.

The through length is too long

No one has had the tools to do it easily before 

Satan has big yellow teeth 

The paper had shadowy bugs in it

The phrase  “reverse speech” is copy written.
That is a big joke if you understand anything.

No silly, elementary school.

Why is something environmental the last thing on the list?

No wonder paranoid people get so frustrated.

take 9 2

sixth best

They know they are out there

But they don’t know what they are

Mostly in the past 

They can’t do anything about it

All they can do is treat the symptoms 

And hope for the best

Which wouldn’t sound reassuring from a doctor

Or to an insurance company 

I have respect for anybody who can play golf.

America is going to die in litigation.

I am happy brewing tea.

It isn’t pop music

And you have to put it together yourself 

The tools are there for an explosion.

But I don’t think it is going to happen in America.

They are trying to say

Television belongs in a tavern.

The Manchurian Receptacle

Some people have opinions about stuff that can’t be shaken.

They are terriers.

They won’t let go till the rats dead.

It is masochistic to even be interested in these people.

People have no respect for asexuals 

Most don’t even consider it possible 

Some of the strongest opinions people have

Is about sexuality 

It is difficult 

You don’t understand what it means to be sexual.

There are many who would gladly be asexual 

It is a gift.

What I can interpret 

I can not live that way.

I just shoved my hand in the rack and pulled her out

Trump is going to “win”

And this is the way things are going to be done from now on.

By what standard is anyone going to win?

It will be the Donald Trump playbook from now on.

I considered Venezuela to be part of mesoamerica

People have been watching this for years,

Waiting for someone to do something 

I thought Mesosmerica was different than Central America 

In that it included Columbia and Venezuela 

Nobody asked me about it.

Why would we have two names for the same thing?

Clearly our troubles in the region include Venezuela.

Would they have allowed me to say Venezuela?

Jesus is not going to play word games with you.

It is dysfunctional 

I know what it is to support abortion

Because you wish you had never been born.

I have shared a bucket of chicken with a Cohen.

Both of us caught the flu

Do an autopsy 

It is a big deal

Whether things are independent or not

I just wanted to be an average joe.

I guess we are never going to Disney World.

Do you want to reveal to the people,

The whole nature of our reality?

Who is going to look bad?

Reverse phraseology is ubiquitous in America,

And no one is going to look good.

I can almost guarantee,

The truth is going to hurt both sides.

It has been out there.

I didn’t hide anything.

I have schizophrenia.

Who am I supposed to tell?

I call it “method voting”

I don’t know if it’s real or not.

Very simply it would be voters

Who vote against the incumbent party

Regardless 

And especially the incumbent party has already had two terms

Madison Avenue Puppets

People are going to drive themselves 

And brew their own tea

I starting to believe I can brew tea

It is turning into a whole tea ceremony 

The can was kicked 

That is all I am going to say about it

Why is it so important?

You win another day.

We are getting a sideshow.

I need to be quiet about it.

They can’t even get adequate housing,

And we are worried about whether they can vote?

Everyone is nimby about where these people live,

And we are worried about their voting rights?

Do they have an opinion?

Or do they live and die statistics?

If you lie or don’t participate in polls or encourage others not to,

Are you attacking our democracy?

 

Would you have people in jail?

You can’t have an opinion without a dissertation.

We tell you what your opinions are.

Do you hide behind issues you don’t really care about,

Just because you want to win?

What is winning?

Who benefits if you win?

We might determine who is right and who is not,

But I don’t think anyone is going to win.

It is nobody’s fault,

It is my own stubbornness that got me here 

I have been a loser my whole life.

Winning is not my motivation.

I don’t think lawyers are used to compromising.

If you say well the constitution says this,

Or the constitution says that,

Then it may be an issue for the Supreme Court.

That is probably why they don’t mention it.

It is not my call.

Are other people jamming?

Or is it just me.

Reduce your exposure to reverse phraseology.

Just another Madison Avenue puppet.

It certainly felt that way.

I guess reading would help.

I just plow through and I don’t retain anything.

They had a horse in the race?

You would not be able to silence your enemies by killing them.

I am going to stop apologizing for my music

It does what I want it to do.

The candidates that have won for the democrats

Have not been establishment candidates.

I guess I am more popular with the dead.

This is more than pareidolia

People are on George Noory for stuff that is barely audible 

If it wasn’t for evp 

I wouldn’t have the motivation to do anything 

The “bends” is a not so polite term for being politely asexual.

It would not be the first time something was not intended.

Strange Opinions

Yeah and it ain’t her either

They tried to put the president in a paranoid tail spin.

They thought they could jet wash the president.

It was the Spanish Armada 

It was millennial hysteria 

Move on

Get over it

Clearly something did not go her way

He had problems keeping his composure 

They are terriers

It is clearly a political thing now

Go fry an egg

I think Attorney General Barr is trying to heal the country 

There is no good to be had in pursuing impeachment 

Media outlets have vested their sacred honor to bring down this president 

I fear the roads we are headed down 

They can’t do a u-turn

It just ain’t going to happen

A great deal of political capital has been spent 

It is not just going to go away

The president does not have to prove he is innocent.

If they are going to charge him, they need to go ahead and do it.

Wasn’t there something about a speedy jury?

Why does the president have less protection than I do?

You don’t get to be president by picking cherries.

Everyone knows that

The president deserves a speedy indictment 

Why do they have a Grand Jury if they can’t indict someone?

Isn’t that the purpose of a Grand Jury?

This needs to come to a head,

Or it’s not going to be good for any of us.

This whole thing is leaving me confused and angry

If he isn’t there to exonerate,

And he cannot idict 

Then it isn’t justice

Apparently congress isn’t allowing the president to be exonerated.

Apart from the Attorney General,

Who has the right to exonerate in this country?

Once a report is released,

There needs to be a shot clock

An impeachment needs to be more timely than five years

How can criminal charges against the president occur?

The president has been exonerated by the chief law enforcement officer of the United States!

If you don’t take action now,

The more political it is going to look.

Even if you indict him 5 years from now,

The first witness will be Barr

It will be more difficult to prosecute after what Barr did

Does a statute of limitations

Mean you can sit on something for 5 years?

I feel the president deserves a fair and speedy trial

If they are not going to impeach him, and soon

I feel that should be the end of it

There are people who have opinions on this matter 

Who don’t even know who Andrew Johnson is?

He tried to rush reconstruction 

And the congress refused to seat the delegates he supported 

And he ended up getting censured

Impeached, excuse me.

Andrew Jackson was the president who was censured 

I am not familiar with that

I know indigenous peoples in America do not like Andrew Jackson

He was responsible for the “trail of tears”.

Does it go through the AG or not?

What would yo do if you were a juror 

And the chief prosecutor made a statement like that?

I think the best that would happen was a mistrial.

The DOJ is at war with itself,

This is going to be ugly,

I feel for America.

Barr’s authority?

If the Titanic had hit the iceberg head on,

It has been said it wouldn’t have sunk.

Would Barr have been able to announce the president guilty?

If he had used language that the president was culpable 

Would that be fair to the president?

The whole idea of an independent council

That can’t bring charges is dysfunctional.

How could you go into a trial 

Where you have already be declared guilty?

Is it a policy?

Or is it a law?

I think AG Barr was a jury of one

I don’t think he had a choice 

Hoo Wah Hoo

Nowadays it isn’t enough to protest once or twice.

You need to live a life of protest.

And even then the line is long waiting for you to drop out,

And take your place.

Fall afoul and see what your opinion is.

Their own arrogance that it was never going to happen,

Is what brought it about.

I think they doubled down on a perjury trap that didn’t materialize.

It is more than equation that can not be solved 

It implies all of our equations are humanistic.

Tone tone semitone tone tone tone semitone 

I like the idea that it is local and fresh,

But I can’t drink Budweiser 

Gives me a headache.

Is it just me,

Or does it go through the hoop faster than it used to

Would you want to work with someone like me?

People expect me to turn green.

 

I need to be careful 

I have severe paranoia

I need to draw lines

I don’t want to be the Bjork creep

thank you for life

Telling me to wake up

hoo wah

It’s not supposed to be about inflating ticket prices to launder money

It is supposed to be about encouraging people an making them feel connected 

I didn’t take a lot of time on it

My battery was almost dead

I felt the need to create something 

I just threw something together 

I knew it was going to say something 

But I had no control over what it said

Has it gotten to the point

That if it’s not four on the floor

It’s not music?

I consider they are afraid of me

Like I am Frankenstein’s monster

Like I am iron man

And I am going to turn on everybody 

I feel obligated to hold the center 

They comfort themselves by feeling they have no choice 

I appear quite willing to have people walk all over me.

There is still going to be a ghost in the machine,

Whether it is made in China or not

Capitalism has cost us $60,000 dollars a person

We have fiat capitalism, and it’s doomed to failure.

I am against the idea that capitalism is free

Is is not

It has no priority other than profits

Politics is about what we want to ignore 

It is not about what you support 

It is about what you want to ignore

erhu redone

Ageless Wobble

This is what happens when you watch too much Ancient Aliens

Revelation is there to protect you from this stuff

The idea was people would mark it up and pass it around 

Single notes do sound a little harsh

I could be a priest 

I wouldn’t hurt the kids

It is like a game of free cell they can’t let go of

They are determined to solve it

They are so determined everything is solvable,

They are ruining my life.

I wish it was a hand of free cell,

Then we could prove it unsolvable,

And that would be the end of it.

Just because you can’t be beat,

Doesn’t mean you are unavoidable 

 

agile acid

 

do you fit the bill

 

afghanbd2

I had my love affair with socialism 

If you discovered zero how would you explain it to people?

Would everyone want you to?

 

Let someone talk long enough 

And they will contradict themselves 

 

ageless wobble

What can I say?

I like Kitaro.

Dried Apricots

You should have seen what Evergreen Cemetery looked like 30 years ago.

We may lose the southwest to Aztlan

Some want to see a graceful decline of America

Agendas need to be made plain

America is a social, political, economic and environmental failure?

A racist and homophobic hoard is standing in the way of global socialism?

IfllI wish I didn't have thoughts like this.

Forgive me, there are people who feel that way

https://www.icloud.com/iclouddrive/0sQ-FqPyklvInyl_KBwffHbfQ#win2019

I have been trying for years to figure out how to do that
Every since they took Opaque Burger down.
What I really want is to share my GarageBand projects
Let me know if it works or not.

I want people to be able to easily listen to my improvisations as loops.
Things don’t seem to be set up to do that.

They are not songs.
They are improvisations.
They are never going to be played on the radio.
I am never going to perform them to an audience.
They are not structured as a song.
They are for meditation and relaxation,
And meant to be played as loops.

I would not be surprised if people were using them already.

Call it farm use.

Things would be better in the workplace,
If people did not live paycheck to paycheck.
If there was guarantees

People don’t want to quit because they can’t afford it,
And businesses don’t want to fire people,
For financial or liability
So they harass you till you quit

It is considered ok if you are a poor employee,
But it is not

The idea that you can make someone a “team player “
Through harassment is just plain wrong.

The way I remember it
Mom and dad were arguing about it
And I said if people were going to argue about it
I was not going to play anymore.

I think I could contribute as part of a team.

They have better commercials than the hyper bucket.

I didn’t know he had been attacked by an ostrich.

I like dried apricots 

And I wouldn’t want to be a rockstar anyway.

Couldn’t handle it.

Hyper Bucket

When it comes to repetition

Study those that get away with it

Learn intervals and tones

Learn your keyboards and frets

Find an apple loop that sounds good,

And use a quarter of it

Tap something out monotone

And paint it

You can't get muscle memory from osmosis 

It is amazing I can even live on this planet

I think the music is negative and stale

It is very easy to cut and paste in GarageBand

It effectively quantifizes everything

Makes it very easy, forgiving, and productive

Apple has been waiting for me to GarageBand since the 00's

I am sorry it took so long

I can't be anything

They have built a little Idaho just for me.

I just rot here and know never to do this again

I am not into sex puzzles

I know why they do 15 bars now.

Should I keep making my loops?

Why did I become a pet project to begin with?

Paranoia and vanity are not the same thing.

Trying to cure me of narcissism I guess.

Sooner or later you are going to smoke that last cigarette.

If you ain't ready for it, you ain't ready to quit.

It is addictive predatory behavior I tell you

It is wrong 

Everyone is strung out on lead

It is not supposed to be this way

It is prophylaxis 

This is what happens 

All it takes is one person.

And they don't even have to be memorable.

You cant have everything.

I feel a need to differentiate.

Do you think things would have gotten this far

If I was trying to pull a scam?

I feel like you want me to die.

I did sorrow 

I did dementia 

I did joy

I did regret

Self important ugliness 

Computers can be sensitive to sub space communication?

It has been put to me as well

I don't think Russia got Trump elected

I have tackled a lot of things

That in some cases have been fueled by the medications 

They didn't promote me to higher math

Because I wouldn't do my homework 

I would not do homework or papers

And I would get away with it

Something needed to be left undone 

I have given up on some things

But I ain't going to just sit here and rot

I am going to make the best of it

And I may forgive 

But I ain't going to forget a damn thing

It is a similar method I guess.

I didn't know she did things that way

I am sitting on the edge of a superstitious nightmare.

Create more

Time

Effort

And

Money

I love that I can pick up the iPad and go with it

It doesn't mind if you ain't picked it up in a while

It doesn't get in my way setting things up or fixing it

Finally getting it to work and not knowing what you did

By the time it works you don't feel like it anymore 

GarageBand is far more forgiving than the actual instruments 

Yet it is still powerful 

I would say pianos were probably considered cheating too

I have been looking for that sound for a decade

One of Ken's tenants played guitar over one of my loops,

And I have been trying to capture that ever since.

At first I thought it was a recording issue

But when it came clear I would have to do the guitar myself,

I drew inspiration from Neil Young 

People couldn't use my loops

Because they weren't a standard tempo

Or a standard key

I don't consider 

Anyone regrets as a life choice 

Attending a service academy 

Different things are happening to me,

Because the rules are changing 

It is about the paint they say

You have to start somewhere 

I feel for those who struggle 

It is just not something I struggle with 

It happens 

People forget 

And then it happens again

It is still bizarre 

Even if Apple did do it.

They have been trying to get people to use computers this way

Since the eighties 

They must not like the old fat me.

They think I am a deep state mule.

If it ain't happening in the first 15 minutes 

I save it and move on

Come back to it later 

I have always failed in some severe way

So dense that the horizon is actually smaller?

The event field is some sort of conglomeration 

Of the akashic record and the Higgs field 

Consume and destroy less

Somebody created the blues

And nobody knows who

Is there going to be a place for an octogenarian?

I am human 

I wouldn't mind a paycheck 

But I ain't selling my soul over a paycheck 

I agree

It is sad

The adolescence of the whole thing is ending 

Arbitrary Rabbits

Having your own email

And having your own email server

Are not the same thing

You can go to gmail and have an email address.

Whereas If you have your own server

You may have a hard drive to bleach or smash

Just another John Wayne I guess

Run of the mill Beatle issues 

I am the village idiot 

I say stuff other people can't say

Thank Jesus for bringing people to my blog.

Sometimes the best way to learn

Is to find it for yourself

How can you stop making sedans?

What are first time car buyers going to buy?

Find a hot spot and then rub it.

I thought if I was in a relationship the shit would stop.

THEY STILL DONT FRIGGEN GET IT!
I VOTED DEMOCRATIC BECAUSE YOU ASKED ME TOO!
friggen morons
you pigeon hole people and take them for granted
I will remember this

Reality is the consequence of doing It wrong.

I was talking about the math

They have spent their life savings and 

And migrated thousands of miles

How can we turn them away?

I think they have done away with it

And I really like it

The net should be a peer to peer free for all

I remember what happened last time I prayed that.

I find myself thinking there is something I can say

Something I can do

And it just haunts me

And it won't go away

She looks like the come find me girl.

You can't force someone to be happy

If they ain't buying it

I find myself knowing stuff I can't account for.

The luxury of an accident

I like that Shania Twain video 

I wish someone felt that way about me.

You have a mandate.

Please do something about mesoamerica.

it is difficult to have blue waves
when we have these 80%  districts.

If you are looking for one that is different,

Don't waste your time.

according to the Washington Post
These were the battleground districts for this election

would you buy that network?

I object to people being modeled like the weather.

Uncertainty is bad for the economy 

But that doesn't mean modeling the electorate is innocuous.

Because I thought I had a future

If you use a word that is on the fringe of your vocabulary like that,

It means someone is reading.

You cannot have democracy without grace.

Without grace there is no democracy.

I am still trying to answer shit that happened 30 years ago 

Why you trying to work on me?

We ain't got forever.

I am the way my family brought me to be,

That ain't right?

I am sorry if you had an accident,

You shouldn't be doing that shit to begin with.

I don't know where you get your information from,

But you act like we have lifetimes to get it right

And I don't think we do.

I have to talk.

There are too many going through this

That don't have the luxury of an accident 

Professor Hawking used to make that hole sign.

It is some inside joke.

I don't think it was a racist thing.

Some kind of where's Waldo 

I have never had much luck with upgradable 

You can't change what generation something is

Maybe Astra Zeneca can help

 

 

Marching On Air

What is eureka displacement?

It feels better in the bath tub.

You ain't making no sense either 

It is like you are dangerous.

It is like you are going to get in trouble if you ain't gay

You have to be careful.

Some people will bring a stranger to a party 

Just to see him get beat up.

It is difficult to beach yourself,

When the medication has you marching on air.

Adopted children are more likely than biological children to have special health care needs, current moderate or severe health problems, learning disability, developmental delay or physical impairment, and other mental health difficulties.

I had the bends to begin with,

But I asked God to take it away from me

Restraint is a disease.

Capitalism works?

Slavery worked too.

It is our hemisphere.

We need to do a better job.

Take it to the fire station 

I was disturbed in my sleep screaming the N word.

I am sorry if anyone heard that.

I don't know why that happened.

I have read the Bible.

I see where God gave us the law

I see where God gave us prophets 

I see where God gave us a king

I see where God gave us his son 

Where does God give us the right to vote?

People are knee deep in it

Before they even know what it is about.

And it is intentionally designed that way.

It is an opinion 

Many people feel that way

I feel people are being damaged by the political process
and they have the right not to vote

its sold as being innocuous
and its not

There is a lot of stuff that way

It ain't the 90's

This shit has been dealt with

Move on

Politics has a need to infect everybody.

You can't force people to carry

That's a right people fought for 

Some people are in it

Just to see what they can make you do

I need more than a sky is falling argument

Hopiland will take you if you walk there

I might make it to Petersburg.

Could you make it to Petersburg?

The Principal Reaction

VB

What is the principal reaction?

I was hissed at because my t shirt looked like it said "virgin".

I was put forth as an example of what not to be in the whole triangle.

People get drunk

They fuck

What planet do these people live on?

It is like visiting Sodom and Gomorrah 

And bitching about your holiday 

They wouldn't give him any trouble if he was 10 years older

What are women typically delusional about?

Don't like being called delusional?

Welcome to the club.

They don't have any hesitation calling men delusional.

Have you seen what is on YouTube lately?

It would take a whole cultural do over to fix this shit.

That shit makes Madonna look like Madonna.

It ain't happening in a vacuum okay?

How are we supposed to fix it

When we can't even have an honest discussion about it?

I think women have a broader scope than men do.

I think it's entirely possible its left of center,

And he has no recollection of it.

People are going to have to sign a release 

Before going to a party

They think you don't like girls

They think you don't want it

They think something is wrong with you 

There were people there

Paranoia is not vanity

Has anyone else claimed to have caused it?

Would you rather it be someone else?

It is a chair somebody must sit in.

You can't just be normal.

Normal is something that happens to you

And there is no consensus 

If it's a good thing or not

Some embrace it

Some avoid it

I sense it's there but don't really know what it is

People lose their soul as a manner of course 

I am trying to be nice 

But that's what I get out of it

Tormented Pedestrian

I told my father back during the George W. Bush admin

That I suspected foreign powers may take my work seriously 

I am labeled schizophrenic 

Who else was I supposed to tell?

I feel the democrats want America to gracefully decline.

It must feel really good.

I would have to let go of everything I am

And I can't do that

I believe in what I believe in

If you had it your way

I wouldn't be me anymore 

I could make pigs fly and nothing would come of it.

this is for millennials
back in the 90's there was this game called seventh guest
it was some sort of trap and people were getting caught in the game
it was treated as a big joke
I can see how people don't like president trump
but a lot of us are still pissed off about it.

I expected different results.

Was I tagged for being insane?

Or am I insane from being tagged?

Money is redemption in America.

there are people in this world who are different
it would be nice if we didnt have to make exceptions for these people.
but sometimes trying to fix it will only make it worse

It is primal

I just don't have the relationship with pleasure 

I am supposed to have

I would have to lose myself to change it

I wouldn't even know how to begin to feel

The way I am supposed to feel

They must have a lot of boats,

And they don't care about this one.

You have access to all my records 

Sue somebody tt

There are plenty of people 

Who probably think their disability check

Is a royalty check

It was romantic hazing

I was angry at women

I took it the wrong way

I can't fix it

Autistic enough to not fit in,

Normal enough for it to be my fault.

People cannot accept the reality of it.

There has to be some sinister foul agenda on my part.

They are sinister and foul themselves 

And they make themselves feel better

Thinking everyone is that way

Or should be

As a phenomenon 

Just because it only need happen once

Doesn't mean it is going to stop happening 

Smelly Ballet

Ü


 It is the loop for the loops sake.

You listen to it until you can't remember 

How many times you have listened to it

It is called lateral repetitions

I don't need an emotional wringer

I have had enough 

More of my share already

What could be so secret about the election 

That they had to redact all that information?

She plays Lucy with the football.

It is her empowerment.

She is never going to stop.

I see children and people strung out on lead.

They either have no respect for you,

Or they think they own you.

You are a demographic.

Have you ever tried to be an individual?

Go ahead

See what happens to you.

It is good to jam

It is better than driving 

You dissipate yourself

Is it a sin to assert yourself as an individual?

You never break new ground 

If people don't go their own way.

Do their own thing.

It is supposed to be some grand fun thing,

And it is not

apparently the root of the word idiot means
one who does not participate in politics

Why would they need to go to Russia to get information in the first place?

I don't think I want to know.

Fill this rabbit hole and move on.

If they can construct the new normal,

Who is going to know the difference?

I have been trying to find a way to lay guitar down over my loops.

I consider now it may have been already been done.

I can't use the editor in GarageBand 

I like audacity

I don't want to piss off Apple,

But if you want to make loops with GarageBand,

You may want to export an aiff

And do the MP3 conversion with audacity 

I don't know 

The songs will sound seamless in the app,

But when you export them as an m4a they aren't 

He would make this jewelry with glass beads,

And it was pretty and took some skill

But nobody would ever pay for it or wear it.

Except him I guess

Satan interrupts people's development 

To make them dependent

The evp means someone is listening to it

Either we have grand ideals that we CAN live up to,

Or we are just monkeys 

You can't have it both ways

Put two side by side, and cut out the middle.

I'm more worried yzax is going to get lost and never rediscovered.

Smelly Roses

Please don't talk about medication like that

It is inappropriate 

In evolutionary terms

It was only yesterday we were worshiping idols

I don't know what is being fought over

Or who's side I am on,

But as long as that damn door is open,

There is a war going on.

Sanity is fluid

At best it is made of glass

We are just rejected people 

That is the sad irony of it all

I want to be creative enough 

That it is their loss if they are going to sit on me

I consider it might be the valley of the shadow of death

I can't go back

Give me a few minutes everyday

And listen and to whatever you want to

It is called jamming.

There are beings that don't belong on this plane

That need you to believe in them

If there ain't no rules

There ain't no contracts either 

I ain't against nobody

I am just for the middle ground

Am I to follow her wherever she goes?

Am I to accept what she has assigned for me?

I have been broken 

I am not scared to be alone anymore 

I don't think they appreciate what they are trying to unplug.

We wouldn't be here if Robert faced the other way.

You would have to be at a crossroads in history to understand.

I haven't sought to impose my will on anybody.

I was 17

I belonged to them

They are pissed 

Other people are going to go through this 

And they are going to be

"You don't want to be like Dave do you?"

Toxic Opacity

It The  Observation is more than a tool?

I would do proud Mary

But I don't remember how I did it.

I am lazy

I want to jump right in and create something 

Say what you want,

But at least it's not stuck in my head anymore.

I wanted to skip the learning curve,

But I guess there is still a curve.

Jasmine used to do that with me,

I would pose something that made complete sense

And she would argue with me about it

I couldn't help her because she wouldn't listen.

I know what is wrong with my technique now.

People used to play guitar.

But they played much better than anyone on MTV

And they were not getting anywhere 

 

Damn

I guess John didn't want to be outdone.

Apparently there is an art to not knowing what you are covering.

I have listened to revolver the most

I like abbey road but a lot of it seems undone

85 was different from 95 was different from 97 was different from 2000

GarageBand is the VisiCalc for the iPad.

I wish I had come to it sooner.

I have nothing to lose by being highly speculative.

I feel I am actually being constructive.

I realized I was sick and I was trying to be practical.

I didn't have the virginal experience I wanted or should have had,

So I have it with my music.

Rock is supposed to be everything you want,

But it has been a nightmare for me.

They have pursued me to the point,

I have chosen to be alone.

I am the one who said there were no rules

I am not the one to tell 300 million people they are wrong

I just wanted what I wanted

All media wants to mtv their demographic 

It can't be talked about.

It is caustic.

We need to stay grounded.

We need to stay focused.

What we believe in is very valuable.

She is not a real person.

It is not so bad she felt things had to be done,

It is that most people believe in her.

They would have to admit they were reading the shit.

There is no middle ground?

It is either AC DC or Amy Grant?

Apparently there is a lot of people doing their job.

The Tyranny of the Idiot

 

Earth one got sucked up into a black whole

and ended up on the bottom of the Petri dish.

Our enemies are nameless

They want us to be angry

They want us to be confused 

No president could face down such criticism 

What is going to happen to the office of president?

Is every president going to face such criticism?

Is every campaign going to have an insurance policy?

I like to upload,

But I am not a big Internet person anymore 

Be positive 

Do good 

Make a contribution 

It was too repetitive 

It wasn't tight enough

because it would only take one completely absurd individual
to screw up the whole thing

This stuff is difficult to read.

I really thought I was making a contribution.

I am coming around.

I understand why people don't write this way.

Apparently there is an argument

And we can't know what the argument is

Or It would compromise the investigation.

There is nothing to give in to.

It is chemical 

It cannot be fixed

It cannot be undone

It is just getting worse 

I understand, but there is nothing I can do about it.

Nothing fits 100% of everybody

Please stop

It's clear the first voice is making fun of me.

Love is what you let people get away with.

I was wrong to think a birth would have no affect on me,

But I didn't know it would do that

I had accepted we were not going to happen,

I wanted to know if you even wanted me in your life.

The Confusion Collusion

If you are going to be a stranger because I said this,

Or didn't say that,

Just forget about it.

I don't clearly remember that argument.

I know it happened 

But I don't remember clearly what was said.

Anger over murderous nut cases is being directed towards me.

Go south

See who your Friends are

Some 14th century fox reality show.

If it is going to burn through Hollywood 

If it is going to burn through Washington 

It's not going to stop for a pink curtain 

You don't run edge on a roku

I don't understand what she hoped to accomplish.

I wish I had never said anything.

I would have been better off.

His choice was to be alone 

Put the music up front

And the television in the background 

Have I said that before?

Probably made a complete fool of myself

Silly to think I could make any contribution 

But I am glad y'all still had that stuff

I hardly know what epr is anymore

Everyone is in a band.

There is a glut of it.

I am having the relationship I wanted with it.

Stonewall Jackson was a physics professor?

It is an assessment.

There is no right or wrong about it.

I am different.

Not better or worse.

God wouldn't pump me full of antibiotics to fit me into a narrative.

God forbid I am pissing people off.

I am going to melt.

Why does anyone need to find me?

God knows where I am.

People pile it on and don't understand why they don't get a response from me,

And I tell them why and they get pissed off about it.

I have an adrenal situation

It is your problem not mine

I read one of his mirror messages once

I like Joni Mitchell too

I want things to be recognized.

I want this to have a name.

"How can I measure up to anyone now..."

Apparently 

If you can't keep a woman satisfied...

You are gay

Our enemies are not targeting the elections,

It is a confusion collusion.

Confusion is a big money industry.

Hollywood and Washington are selling stuff all the time.

We are blinded by who gets elected,

But it's not as important as we think it is.

Safety In Numbers

It You You IJYou 

Apparently if you don't vote gender 

If you don't vote race

You are being duped.

Professor Hawking did it.

I guess that is why we have a tournament.

The republicans presented too many candidates

The democrats nominated the wrong candidate

And that's how we got Trump

Her thought is on demographics.

She doesn't care about the individual.

I am an individual.

There is nothing that can be done about it.

I am sorry if that overturns the apple cart.

I tried to fit into a demographic and I failed miserably.

It is a bubble, get over it.

I don't have a tribal identity.

This is what would happen to a viable aberrant

If there was one.

This is what things would look like

If there was something different about me.

I think they like playing with single celled organisms

It seems, for some, God is about winning arguments,

And for some, it seems, God is the argument that can't be argued against.

The argument of all arguments.

Maybe it's about ending arguments

It all seems foreign to me.

We need answers

Not arguments

Satan is trying to break me

By making me be alone

There is no freedom

If there is no freedom to be an individual.

It is not even my agenda.

I don't know what started this.

I have been under such diametric pressure

That I have mutated.

She would have found a reason to be mad at me.

I fear every president we have is going to go through this now.

Apparently we are not impartial to the arrow of time.

They sell ammo at Walt Disney world?

Nobody shares my vision 

So I am stuck doing it by myself 

I consider, if it is plausible, if it is a simple explanation,

It may be a falsehood, 

But it is not a pathological delusion.

There are things people are mistaken about,

That are not pathological delusions.

I shouldn't have to prove that I am right,

To prove I don't have a pathology

I don't fully understand why I grew up paranoid,

But I do accept I am paranoid.

It makes things difficult,

But I am more paranoid 

Than I am hallucinatory or delusional.

There was some sort of test to decide what they could do with us.

It was clear they considered it a formality.

You really don't want an eventuality,

But if you have one,

It's considered messing with the past to fool around with you.

It is sad when you come to realize,

It's all just safety in numbers.

Seamless integration

NHFR

I think time goes slower when you smoke.

What is seamless integration?

I'm sorry,

But the NRA needs to be proactive.

Don't forget...

It is very easy to become an irresponsible threat to society.

People are going to forgo getting mental health services.

If they aren't already.

Don't feel smug, it can never happen to you.

Because it can.

I am dumbfounded it was felt that needed to be done,

I guess I don't understand 

The only thing it has done is push me closer to God.

I have seen armed guards at the supermarket.

Wasn't the FISA court supposed to be about terrorists?

It is best to be parochial and grounded.

It's an LL Cool J video 

Biggest video since thriller.

I choose Miami Dolphins to win Super Bowl LIII

I am not an expert

But although some medications may alleviate psychosis

I fear some may introduce causality reversal

I was right about my tensor tympani 

I fear I am going to be right about this too

One percent of anything can be bad news.

Avoid group think 

Make them waste teraflops on you

It's not so much the noise 

As it is the percentile it puts you in

Does the yellow cardinal have a disease?

Or is he just being difficult.

You can't gloss over a yellow Cardinal.

You have to have the detail.

It is a sign of quality.

We don't even make our own bicycles anymore.

It used to be, some would buy the metals and make their own frames.

Now they can send the dimensions to China and have them made and shipped,

Cheaper than they can do it themselves.

That is scary.

I am glad president Trump has proposed to do something about it

There are people that do believe in God,

And if you leave it open like that,

They are going to claim it.

An ostrich bit me in the ass.

If we can't even make our own bicycles,

How are we going to maintain our readiness?

It means I am highly adept at ignoring people.

Once you fool around with it,

You are going to have to continually fool around with it.

I enjoy being creative.

It would be nice if it made money,

But it doesn't have to.

Useful idiot

You You You You IYou 

Plant a tree every single Sunday

And eventually you have a grove

And for a while, maybe, you won't need 

This is not about etiquette.

There are very serious issues about gender roles

And our philosophy.

I understand how planting might work

But I don't understand what damage it might do.

Is it  better than sitting on bottlenecks?

Voodoo works better when it's yours.

Or I if God gave it to you.

They are in the business of selling insurance policies.

We were in a big universal joke.

It might alleviate a bottleneck?

It is a recovered memory 

I was a small child

The left shoves stuff too.

It was an act of desperation

Like a beached whale.

They can't fix society 

So they treat the individual 

And so the individual must solve the problems.

I feel I have been locked in a closet,

And forced to rediscover relativity.

We need to solve these problems,

Or we are going to end up under shariah law.

We can't keep taxing the individual for societal problems.

Why were a bunch of kids dealing with issues like that to begin with?

I don't consider anyone can appreciate what dissolution is like,

Unless they have been through it.

The guy who pioneered stealth,

America took him seriously,

Russia didn't.

I don't think things need to be perfect 

To ascertain if someone has been compromised or not.

I want to believe I am delusional or psychotic,

The something else happens.

I understand why I am a threat.

I don't want the be in the dark.

I am not a rubicks cube.

It is not my fault grandmas were not in your equations.

You can't cover everything.

Grandmas, doves, it's all the same thing.

I wouldn't watch Fox News

If there was anything else to watch.

I understand.

Women want their day.

The only thing men can do is drop bombs and shoot each other.

The NRA needs to solve this problem.

Or these kids are going to solve this for us.

Have clubs

Hold meetings 

Watch out for each other.

If they are going to stand in the way,

They need to lead the way.

Tasking mental health with this problem 

Is not going to work.

We can't call on the government to solve this problem.

The people need to solve this problem.

That is what the second amendment is about anyway.

I feel there are those out there

Who are playing curling with society

And its not for the better either 

It's obvious someone who knows a great deal about humanity,

Is in charge of our situation.

What grandmas are for

IUIt You You ,I

I was willing to accept I was schizophrenic in 1985.

There are a lot of cousin Kevins out there who think it's funny.

I don't know what else I could have done.

Don't play with me like that.

It is a cousin Kevin

It's not doing any good.

Because I think, that's why.

I am sorry if that is a problem for you.

I was already in salvage mode.

It wasn't the phone call I planned to make.

You insist you can't do anything,

But it's your book,

You wrote it.

The whole future David Mallory thing is yours.

Ignore what you think you know

Treat it as the first time and it will be

It would be contrived 

It would be fake for me to respond in that manner.

Channel the anger.

Make the anger work for me.

People go through years of therapy to learn how to solve things without their fists.

If you are this way

They are going to want you that way

If you are that way

This way

In the end it's all about control

You can't win.

It's reductionist 

I don't buy it.

I know I am being difficult.

The way things are is not going to last.

Good people need to be rewarded.

I am trying to be more polite.

It doesn't help to blame somebody.

I don't think grandma likes what you are doing.

She must have had a reason.

what do I know?

Y'all are the ones having a tug of war.

I am just the rope.

And y'all are complaining about men.

It's checkmate

She has Sunday

There is nothing I can do.

Just because I don't have a black eye,

Doesn't mean I am not battered.

Caught between 2 terriers.

I need a good girl, like sunshine

We are being forcefully separated.

I was pushed full of this crap

When you knew nothing was wrong with me.

It's all being held together with bubble gum and voodoo.

I can't do anything.

She can kill me.

You just sift and find the nuggets.

I don't know where I get my information from.

Dreams conjecture 2+2=4

I want to know how can we live in the same world.

The world is fractured.

I don't understand what makes it work.

She said any woman could make me feel that way,

And if I wanted to feel that way,

She could provide

Dave the axe murderer

IYou You You IYou You I BY

It's like drinking the ocean

There is never more than a couple hours 

Before the stones start falling 

I've been down Broad St once.

It goes on forever.

When they start talking about me on CNN

That is the beginning of the end

Let's hope that never happens.

I feel like one of Harry Mudd's Robots 

She wants me to blow a circuit

I just want my sanity.

It wasn't what she wanted.

She would have found a reason to end it.

Why do I need you?

I caused the Big Bang.

You are always going to be expecting something.

It is never going to be enough with you.

If you don't want the same things

You let go, you move on

But you won't let me

You think you are saving the world from an axe murderer or something.

Time travel is always a desperate act.

So is listening to the radio.

It just feels foreign to me,

And it is.

You are into heavy metals.

I am not.

I don't see how they can diagnose people,

When they don't even know what normal is.

I'm just a GUY in this world

Cause that's all lead will let me be.

They know

They are so scared an undescended testicle will cause wwiii

That they don't care.

I admire Trump

He is so rich he doesn't have to put up with this shit.

That is the phenomenon,

That is why he is who he is.

They won't let people be Ghandi anymore.

You have no reason to be upset.

You are just being difficult.

It is some adolescent fantasy,

But he is the president 

Congratulations 

When you stop rewarding good people

That is what happens.

I thought you would be there

I really did.

Me me me me me

Ok I get it

I guess there were times when I should have been there too.

Voting for Dukakis

This I'm Don't 

Imagine the universe was a video game

And if you wanted to save your place

The system would give you a number.

How big would that number have to be 

To save everything?

I don't need proof to entertain something.

Just because I entertain something,

Doesn't mean I believe it.

Sometimes my understanding is like a jigsaw puzzle.

It's all important if it fits or not.

Baptize yourselves.

Don't fight over who is real and who is not.

I am always at the bottom,

And it's always my fault

Men suffer too.

Am I alone in my own skin?

I think they like my self deprecating personality.

I don't think they like people who are looking for a Nobel prize over this.

How much longer are things going to remain polite?

I expected something 

This was far beyond what I expected.

Actually Henrico county is at the forefront of community treatment.

You guys are reading this because we are out in the community.

There have always been people who are more paranoid than delusional.

They are good people 

This medicine is causing shit

But who is ever going to believe me?

Unfortunately 

The world is full of lofty ideals that don't work.

You get harassed till you quit

Because your boss doesn't want to pay unemployment insurance 

Nobody strives to be a bad employee.

I might vote

And I would probably vote democratic 

But I am still upset about seventh guest 

It was considered a joke 

And some sort of trap is not a joke to me.

Faith in an objective reality is like everything else.

I have written this too close to home.

I should have developed a character and a plot.

Men are never going to change.

It's like asking dogs not to alphafy.

Are we the parrots,

Or are they?

How did my genome survive this madness?

I consider people were tired of voting for the less of two evils.

Polling and voting is seen now as more of a form of societal control,

I consider Americans don't like that

I consider a lot of people who would have never imagined it,

Did not vote.

There are

Don't want a God

Don't need a God

Don't deserve a God people,

But there is no such thing as an atheist.

This is a pinko fag telling you this.

They say they are atheists 

Then they turn around and do something like seventh guest

I am sorry but I am still upset about it.

There are those that hide behind the word "proof",

And do nasty things to people.

I hated Reagan 

I voted for Dukakis 

Treat each other right

This wasn't right.

I was big headed and they took it to me.

I feel they must consider the medication can aggravate  the condition they are trying to treat.

Fanciful Tangents

It It II I T

It was a long time ago a long time ago.

She sees the world a certain way, and I can't get her to stop.

If it wasn't for the grace of God,

I would have died from broken heart syndrome a long time ago.

I remember years of going to Wendy's by myself,

It was good to finally have someone to go to Wendy's with.

But it was never going to be more than that.

I don't know why yzax affects my sexuality,

It just does.

Revelation is like the telomerase.

I guess we see what the market is going to do 

Are they in the position to hold the government hostage?

Why should she rely on what I remember anyway?

She is going through it too.

I have resentment towards women

I have serious memory problems

And I am socially inept

What is whackanomics?

It would imply circular logic is real,

And people have serious problems with that.

I am self absorbed and self important

It seems to me to suggest,

The arrow of time might be anthropic

Everybody is strung out on lead,

That is what I think.

That is my issue

And undescended testicles caused wwii

It has just been a perfect storm

Bottlenecks happen

You can't stop them

And you can't fix them

I have to pace myself.

I could burn right through this clozaril if I wanted to.

It was bland.

I didn't get anything out of It.

I am afraid it is only going to get worse.

I have lived my life wrong.

This is not going to end well.

I am sorry

It just helps me forget

People think I am a damn robot or something 

And I am not

You should give because you want to

Not because you feel obligated 

I fail to see what weight scales have to do with it,

But jumping and voting are the same thing.

Get lost

Sit on it

Go !!!! Yourself 

I don't think the public is ready

To learn the bizarro overlords

We're shooting doves.

Only buzzards claim to own history

Because I don't know what is going to happen in April.

I don't think the world is ready for this conversation.

I couldn't be a scientist.

I go off on fanciful tangents.

340,282,366,920,938,463,463,374,607,431,768,211,456

It never occurred to me.

It just was not an option.

I thought I had the freedom to be who I wanted to be.

God games are bad for your health.

God games don't have to be played on a computer.

I am guilty.

A lot of schizophrenics are playing God games with themselves.

It is difficult to stop a god game

When the doors are open

That means war is going on?

It looks like we are going to have to take it on the chin,

Before China is going to do anything.

I don't see the future.

The future sees me.

http://blackboxvoting.org/fraction-magic-1/

Is it better to be in denial about it?

Am I to be an unknowing fool?

What is willful ignorance?

The information itself decides who can be read in

And who cannot.

Does pertinence matter?

https://soundcloud.com/meglodave/my-song-6

My 8.1 story

This past Monday I bought a used computer at a thrift store. I went to Walmart to buy a patch cord to connect my vga monitor to the dvi outputs but they did not have one. So I went to OfficeMax and they did, but it cost more than the computer did. But I bought it anyway. I got it home was locked out at a password prompt. I thought about it, and I read up on it. I tried to run an installation disc, but I couldn't get the system to boot from the DVD drive. I did not have a keyboard that had the right connector, so I went to target to get that. When I got back home, I was playing hell trying to get the system to go into cmos. Struggling with that, I discovered you could get into it by holding the shift key while clicking restart. Having discovered that I found I could also revert to previous versions of Windows that way too.  So I tried it and it worked. The system booted into windows 8. Of course I had to update it before I could install 8.1 and, after a little hacking, I got the 600 some updates installed, and after the whole day, 8.1 itself.

And hey, I discovered I actually like 8.1

Romantic Hazing

Hazing is wrong too.

I wish they could do something about that.

Why does the eclipse go west to east?

None of us needs a lecture 

On nineteenth century politics.

It is easy to be romantic 

When it is not your freedom involved 

I feel for all those who fell

But it is not romantic anymore

I don't think an open sore is a good idea