Buried Sentiments

Why can’t people learn to film in landscape?

How do male calicos happen?

Somebody needs to stand up.

Customs and Border Protection is not a relief agency.

Time is going to blame all of us.

Many Americans feel,

How they vote,

Is the sole determinant,

Of what side of history they will be on.

We need to start cooperating now.

Am I being too partisan?

I don’t want to be in the situation,

That many more die,

Because we won’t cooperate.

 I doubt you are going to hear it from anyone else.

All we needed was one more push,

And we would have been over the edge.

I am holding no great wisdom.

You should be proud of your performance,

It was very good.

I don’t know what makes people consider preposterous things.

It seems to come with age.

Would you have believed it when the world made sense?

Why do you believe it now?

How does it pertain to other people?

Do they need it?

What is more likely?

Quantum bubbles

Or old age.

It is out there.

You can believe it if you want to.

They see an unpopular president as an opportunity to go left.

I don’t blame them.

I would too.

I am not trying to deny anything,

I just think it doesn’t do any good.

I can understand chemistry 

Give me something I can understand 

I cannot deny I have attachment issues 

But I don’t fully understand 

People want things to be pretty.

Life is not like that.

People act like they themselves have been hurt by my parents.

It just simply is not the case.

I witnessed at least three families that practiced  corporal punishment.

I never considered approaching my parents with it.

Is it pathological that I couldn’t talk to my parents?

I have some attachment pathology.

Americans have elevated fears in general 

You try to get help,

And the first thing that happens is your life falls apart.

What are the odds of successfully navigating getting help?

I had a breakdown because I felt safe to have one?

I remember switching from Ritalin to Wellbutrin 

looking at the chart

And thinking 

This would be an opportune time

Please don’t make me the poster child for misogyny 

Somehow

I thought if I lived in France 

My perps hurt a lot of children 

I am the only one that ever reported anything.

look what happened to me.

I am a convenient, easy target.

What children did I hurt?

Who benefits?

Beauty means something in China.

Schwartzman notes that the expected form from usual Latin phrasing would be sexadecimal, 

but computer hackers would be tempted to shorten that word to sex.^[27] 

I have read a few books

The Chronicles of Narina

Jaws

The Amityville Horror

Endless Love

Some Arthur C Clark

Some Isaac Asimov

The Stand

The Long Walk

Some Michael Crichton 

The Good News Bible

Books on UFOs and aliens

A Brief History of Time

Communion

On The Road

Wuthering Heights

Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy

I don’t know why I stopped reading.

You really have to trust the author.

Who am I going to be when I wake up?

I come from nowhere?

I make myself exist?

There is no original.

Is that just settling an argument?

Where does beauty come from?

What makes something beautiful?

Are origins humanistic?

Not like this.

I have accomplished too much to go back now.

Narcissism is an ugly name,

That provides little incentive,

For people to have empathy.

She is very aware of her image.

The number of frames depends upon the angle.

If we were worried about what works and what doesn’t,

I don’t think America would have gotten done.

Apparently iOS thinks it is a phone number.

I forgot the argument.

Taking a list and marking it up,

Should be a simple thing to do.

It sounds like I know what I am doing.

I can’t, with good conscience, continue to support president Trump.

It was offensive.

I am not lock step.

I am not going to take heat for him.

He needs to come to my community and say that shit.

This was not meant to be a political blog.

I am sorry I have strayed from what I originally intended.

The De Facto Zone

There is a border there.

Just like there is a border with Mexico.

It is not bizarro superstition.

We have been given a gift.

People need to decide if they accept it or not.

There is a plethora of bizarro superstitions out there.

What I have been through is not illegitimate.

It was released.

It is like lithium.

It is old.

People get angry when you challenge what they justify themselves with.

The medication just establishes a new normal.

It doesn’t fix anything.

A cut and paste virtuoso 

I apologize 

For me it is about who is doing it right

And who is doing it wrong 

It is a blowout 

It is not a hierarchical thing

I thought the computer would be attached to my brain

And I would be able to play anything I heard in my head 

But this is ok

They are going to beg this president to go to war

Before it’s all over with.

Who cares if they shoot down drones.

Let China pay for it.

War would split the coalition against them

War is in their interest 

Not ours

If sanctions are going to work,

We are going to take in on the chin a couple times.

I have always been treated with dignity and respect.

I have never voted republican.

I am torn.

The people I am agreeing with

Have not always been kind to me

I have been called derogatory names too

But that doesn’t mean I need to be socialist

They are playing solid politics.

They are not going to give the president a success on anything.

Is there one candidate that supports USMCA?

You shouldn’t hate your country.

It is like hating your mother.

It doesn’t do any good. 

The election is the thing.

Nothing matters but the election.

A humanitarian crisis 

Requires a humanitarian response 

It doesn’t help anyone to argue who’s fault it is.

AIG played the odds too.

Politics has become entertainment.

It sells car insurance.

Frank Zappa said something similar

I can’t come up with anything original.

At least I bothered to look.

It is not the exact same thing.

I wouldn’t google myself so much

If I was getting accurate statistics 

Let the person calling decide what the ringtone is.

I see you everywhere.

Am I supposed to make eye contact with everyone I think is you?

It is a defense mechanism that keeps me sane.

I have approached people and been wrong.

Not that I thought was you.

I am not always willing to do that.

This anger energy I get from you,

Doesn’t make it any easier.

We are in a mathematical space,

That depends on causality loops?

I may have had previous obligations.

I can’t keep pace.

I burn out.

We are coming from a time,

Where you had to sell your soul just to be heard.

Choosing Barabbas

I like Kennedy.

She could tell me to vote for hermit the frog.

Atypical men get a lot of hassle.

Men ain’t supposed to be atypical.

It is ugly.

Men are men, you know?

We are all the same.

Atypical men get it from everyone.

I thought if I was in a relationship,

The harassment would stop.

It doesn’t.

It doesn’t really matter what you are atypical about.

And it snowballs into other things.

Critical teraflops are being wasted on you.

This is government in America.

It has been like this for decades.

People are separated by what, or who, they choose to ignore.

This was 1995

I don’t know what led me to believe America was under attack

I am sorry

It is an Easter egg effect.

People like the idea that they have found something 

I was self important.

I needed somebody’s attention.

I am flattered that I have anything in the wayback machine

But it would be nice if it was something I wrote 

If your candidacy was going to end up

Getting someone undesirable elected,

Would you withdraw?

Men don’t have a monopoly on creepiness.

Are illegal aliens above the law?

It is self defining circular logic.

I can’t prove that I am not a narcissist,

But would I even consider it?

The more you insist you aren’t 

The more you are

Why does it have to be a psychiatric condition?

I am being rational and considerate.

I am not right about everything.

I began with the wrong attitude.

Being rational and considerate screwed everything up.

There was no room to be rational and considerate.

There never has been.

I am not going to have a mental crisis 

Because I contradicted myself.

I am clearly not in love with myself.

The democrats have their tickets 

And they don’t care

They were having estate sales 

It was over

It is sad.

I am getting evp

Because they have cut off my supply 

I could walk to the corner,

And it would be said I got away with it.

I may not be getting the adoration I need,

But if I was in China or Saudi Arabia,

I would be dead or in prison by now.

Magic is real in Saudi Arabia.

You go to prison for it.

There are conventions about where you get your adoration from.

There are no original facts.

You need to be extemporaneous to find original questions.

If I worried about what The Simpsons said first

I wouldn’t be able to write anything 

And did they really say it first anyway?

Be safe.

Live longer.

Christianity is our reality.

There would be no secular world without Jesus.

If there are people deep in the pentagon who feel that way,

I say good they should.

Anyone who has gone to tango,

Knows

Some only follow the rules when they are hiding.

I remember there being ads in my ufology magazines.

I tried to wrap my mind around something that was too big,

And it was like a rubber band 

It snapped

Who would you trust to be focused on?

We are still choosing Barabbas.

Evaluated Twice

You should use it for poetry and song.

She is so sold

She is sold on everything 

It has been supplanted 

You can use a computer for computational space

Or use it for what Asimov called “twisting”

I think “cowbirding” is viable.

I think it can be mutually beneficial,

And I think the computational space thing

Is being done already 

Either God is giving me gifts 

Or I am a sorcerer.

I don’t pretend to know which one.

If it is threatening,

Why did they develop the internet,

And personal devices to begin with?

My mom and dad raised me,

That no one really knows until judgement day.

And that it’s the ones that think they know,

That you have to watch out for.

People get their head stuck in a book,

And they forget how to love each other.

The love of Jesus doesn’t require a book.

Apparently God’s anger doesn’t either.

“We are always at war.  Peace is a bourgeois illusion.”

If you are upset about it,

You don’t understand the way things are.

We don’t control the information we think we do.

I knew I was in the past

I knew I would forget

erectile dysfunction is the least of my worries

I can’t take care of myself 

I don’t know what is going to happen to me

Maybe those are not the right words

Suspected is better.

There is less preconception of what an ehru should sound like.

Satanists think stupidity should be painful.

They feel smug and laugh at people.

If you find yourself in a situation with a shooter,

Get in their face, holler at them “fall down, fall down.”

9 times out if 10 they have voices

Use that to your advantage 

If I could be in a room by myself 

Making widgets all day I would be fine.

People want a reaction,

But all I am feeling is confusion.

It just isn’t there.

Evaluated twice.

Didn’t need to get a lawyer.

My disability went through on the first try.

I would have no stability in my life,

And I would end up homeless.

My biggest problems 

Are social interactions 

And severe paranoia 

It is frustrating 

I understand, but I cannot do anything about it.

Lord knows I have tried.

People solve things their own way,

Using whatever tools they have on hand,

And sometimes they don’t even know they are doing it,

Or it wasn’t meant to be solved.

I don’t want to hurt people.

Every time I go out I hurt people.

The Tea Transformation

A brainwashed R2-D2

I pre think stuff all the time,

Does that mean I am the originator?

I am not going to have surgery 

So I can cross my knees

Information only comes from legitimate sources?

I know it’s not palatable 

But to deny it happens is false

It is scary

You believe what you are told

Information from the ether is unacceptable 

Adding 2+2 was my doing,

I make my own inference 

Forbid 

Reverse phraseology is not real,

Individuals don’t receive information from it,

To believe otherwise is delusional.

Some Catholic Jew boy with the name Mallory was unacceptable?

Leave it alone.

Let it settle out.

How do I know pointing at her,

Wasn’t the reason she was mean at me to begin with.

“Clozaril has kept me in a game, I would be more than willing to lose.”

People make an industry 

Of us pointing fingers at each other

Two times

Applied together

Cut the time in half

What is parallel time?

I mean no disrespect 

But apparently it is akin to Native American music.

It is how Jesus feels about me,

Not how I feel about him


ethics tea

There are a lot of people 

Who are concerned God will be angry at them personally 

If they support a pro choice candidate 

You can have all the stem technology you want to

But it’s useless without creative professionals 

You shouldn’t avoid things that seem difficult 

At the highest level 

Everything is difficult

Here With Me

full 16 take 2

It is difficult to make it perfect at 16 bars.

The through length is too long

No one has had the tools to do it easily before 

Satan has big yellow teeth 

The paper had shadowy bugs in it

The phrase  “reverse speech” is copy written.
That is a big joke if you understand anything.

No silly, elementary school.

Why is something environmental the last thing on the list?

No wonder paranoid people get so frustrated.

take 9 2

sixth best

They know they are out there

But they don’t know what they are

Mostly in the past 

They can’t do anything about it

All they can do is treat the symptoms 

And hope for the best

Which wouldn’t sound reassuring from a doctor

Or to an insurance company 

I have respect for anybody who can play golf.

America is going to die in litigation.

I am happy brewing tea.

It isn’t pop music

And you have to put it together yourself 

The tools are there for an explosion.

But I don’t think it is going to happen in America.

They are trying to say

Television belongs in a tavern.

The Manchurian Receptacle

Some people have opinions about stuff that can’t be shaken.

They are terriers.

They won’t let go till the rats dead.

It is masochistic to even be interested in these people.

People have no respect for asexuals 

Most don’t even consider it possible 

Some of the strongest opinions people have

Is about sexuality 

It is difficult 

You don’t understand what it means to be sexual.

There are many who would gladly be asexual 

It is a gift.

What I can interpret 

I can not live that way.

I just shoved my hand in the rack and pulled her out

Trump is going to “win”

And this is the way things are going to be done from now on.

By what standard is anyone going to win?

It will be the Donald Trump playbook from now on.

I considered Venezuela to be part of mesoamerica

People have been watching this for years,

Waiting for someone to do something 

I thought Mesosmerica was different than Central America 

In that it included Columbia and Venezuela 

Nobody asked me about it.

Why would we have two names for the same thing?

Clearly our troubles in the region include Venezuela.

Would they have allowed me to say Venezuela?

Jesus is not going to play word games with you.

It is dysfunctional 

I know what it is to support abortion

Because you wish you had never been born.

I have shared a bucket of chicken with a Cohen.

Both of us caught the flu

Do an autopsy 

It is a big deal

Whether things are independent or not

I just wanted to be an average joe.

I guess we are never going to Disney World.

Do you want to reveal to the people,

The whole nature of our reality?

Who is going to look bad?

Reverse phraseology is ubiquitous in America,

And no one is going to look good.

I can almost guarantee,

The truth is going to hurt both sides.

It has been out there.

I didn’t hide anything.

I have schizophrenia.

Who am I supposed to tell?

I call it “method voting”

I don’t know if it’s real or not.

Very simply it would be voters

Who vote against the incumbent party

Regardless 

And especially the incumbent party has already had two terms

Madison Avenue Puppets

People are going to drive themselves 

And brew their own tea

I starting to believe I can brew tea

It is turning into a whole tea ceremony 

The can was kicked 

That is all I am going to say about it

Why is it so important?

You win another day.

We are getting a sideshow.

I need to be quiet about it.

They can’t even get adequate housing,

And we are worried about whether they can vote?

Everyone is nimby about where these people live,

And we are worried about their voting rights?

Do they have an opinion?

Or do they live and die statistics?

If you lie or don’t participate in polls or encourage others not to,

Are you attacking our democracy?

 

Would you have people in jail?

You can’t have an opinion without a dissertation.

We tell you what your opinions are.

Do you hide behind issues you don’t really care about,

Just because you want to win?

What is winning?

Who benefits if you win?

We might determine who is right and who is not,

But I don’t think anyone is going to win.

It is nobody’s fault,

It is my own stubbornness that got me here 

I have been a loser my whole life.

Winning is not my motivation.

I don’t think lawyers are used to compromising.

If you say well the constitution says this,

Or the constitution says that,

Then it may be an issue for the Supreme Court.

That is probably why they don’t mention it.

It is not my call.

Are other people jamming?

Or is it just me.

Reduce your exposure to reverse phraseology.

Just another Madison Avenue puppet.

It certainly felt that way.

I guess reading would help.

I just plow through and I don’t retain anything.

They had a horse in the race?

You would not be able to silence your enemies by killing them.

I am going to stop apologizing for my music

It does what I want it to do.

The candidates that have won for the democrats

Have not been establishment candidates.

I guess I am more popular with the dead.

This is more than pareidolia

People are on George Noory for stuff that is barely audible 

If it wasn’t for evp 

I wouldn’t have the motivation to do anything 

The “bends” is a not so polite term for being politely asexual.

It would not be the first time something was not intended.

Strange Opinions

Yeah and it ain’t her either

They tried to put the president in a paranoid tail spin.

They thought they could jet wash the president.

It was the Spanish Armada 

It was millennial hysteria 

Move on

Get over it

Clearly something did not go her way

He had problems keeping his composure 

They are terriers

It is clearly a political thing now

Go fry an egg

I think Attorney General Barr is trying to heal the country 

There is no good to be had in pursuing impeachment 

Media outlets have vested their sacred honor to bring down this president 

I fear the roads we are headed down 

They can’t do a u-turn

It just ain’t going to happen

A great deal of political capital has been spent 

It is not just going to go away

The president does not have to prove he is innocent.

If they are going to charge him, they need to go ahead and do it.

Wasn’t there something about a speedy jury?

Why does the president have less protection than I do?

You don’t get to be president by picking cherries.

Everyone knows that

The president deserves a speedy indictment 

Why do they have a Grand Jury if they can’t indict someone?

Isn’t that the purpose of a Grand Jury?

This needs to come to a head,

Or it’s not going to be good for any of us.

This whole thing is leaving me confused and angry

If he isn’t there to exonerate,

And he cannot idict 

Then it isn’t justice

Apparently congress isn’t allowing the president to be exonerated.

Apart from the Attorney General,

Who has the right to exonerate in this country?

Once a report is released,

There needs to be a shot clock

An impeachment needs to be more timely than five years

How can criminal charges against the president occur?

The president has been exonerated by the chief law enforcement officer of the United States!

If you don’t take action now,

The more political it is going to look.

Even if you indict him 5 years from now,

The first witness will be Barr

It will be more difficult to prosecute after what Barr did

Does a statute of limitations

Mean you can sit on something for 5 years?

I feel the president deserves a fair and speedy trial

If they are not going to impeach him, and soon

I feel that should be the end of it

There are people who have opinions on this matter 

Who don’t even know who Andrew Johnson is?

He tried to rush reconstruction 

And the congress refused to seat the delegates he supported 

And he ended up getting censured

Impeached, excuse me.

Andrew Jackson was the president who was censured 

I am not familiar with that

I know indigenous peoples in America do not like Andrew Jackson

He was responsible for the “trail of tears”.

Does it go through the AG or not?

What would yo do if you were a juror 

And the chief prosecutor made a statement like that?

I think the best that would happen was a mistrial.

The DOJ is at war with itself,

This is going to be ugly,

I feel for America.

Barr’s authority?

If the Titanic had hit the iceberg head on,

It has been said it wouldn’t have sunk.

Would Barr have been able to announce the president guilty?

If he had used language that the president was culpable 

Would that be fair to the president?

The whole idea of an independent council

That can’t bring charges is dysfunctional.

How could you go into a trial 

Where you have already be declared guilty?

Is it a policy?

Or is it a law?

I think AG Barr was a jury of one

I don’t think he had a choice 

Hoo Wah Hoo

Nowadays it isn’t enough to protest once or twice.

You need to live a life of protest.

And even then the line is long waiting for you to drop out,

And take your place.

Fall afoul and see what your opinion is.

Their own arrogance that it was never going to happen,

Is what brought it about.

I think they doubled down on a perjury trap that didn’t materialize.

It is more than equation that can not be solved 

It implies all of our equations are humanistic.

Tone tone semitone tone tone tone semitone 

I like the idea that it is local and fresh,

But I can’t drink Budweiser 

Gives me a headache.

Is it just me,

Or does it go through the hoop faster than it used to

Would you want to work with someone like me?

People expect me to turn green.

 

I need to be careful 

I have severe paranoia

I need to draw lines

I don’t want to be the Bjork creep

thank you for life

Telling me to wake up

hoo wah

It’s not supposed to be about inflating ticket prices to launder money

It is supposed to be about encouraging people an making them feel connected 

I didn’t take a lot of time on it

My battery was almost dead

I felt the need to create something 

I just threw something together 

I knew it was going to say something 

But I had no control over what it said

Has it gotten to the point

That if it’s not four on the floor

It’s not music?

I consider they are afraid of me

Like I am Frankenstein’s monster

Like I am iron man

And I am going to turn on everybody 

I feel obligated to hold the center 

They comfort themselves by feeling they have no choice 

I appear quite willing to have people walk all over me.

There is still going to be a ghost in the machine,

Whether it is made in China or not

Capitalism has cost us $60,000 dollars a person

We have fiat capitalism, and it’s doomed to failure.

I am against the idea that capitalism is free

Is is not

It has no priority other than profits

Politics is about what we want to ignore 

It is not about what you support 

It is about what you want to ignore

erhu redone

Ageless Wobble

This is what happens when you watch too much Ancient Aliens

Revelation is there to protect you from this stuff

The idea was people would mark it up and pass it around 

Single notes do sound a little harsh

I could be a priest 

I wouldn’t hurt the kids

It is like a game of free cell they can’t let go of

They are determined to solve it

They are so determined everything is solvable,

They are ruining my life.

I wish it was a hand of free cell,

Then we could prove it unsolvable,

And that would be the end of it.

Just because you can’t be beat,

Doesn’t mean you are unavoidable 

 

agile acid

 

do you fit the bill

 

afghanbd2

I had my love affair with socialism 

If you discovered zero how would you explain it to people?

Would everyone want you to?

 

Let someone talk long enough 

And they will contradict themselves 

 

ageless wobble

What can I say?

I like Kitaro.

Dried Apricots

You should have seen what Evergreen Cemetery looked like 30 years ago.

We may lose the southwest to Aztlan

Some want to see a graceful decline of America

Agendas need to be made plain

America is a social, political, economic and environmental failure?

A racist and homophobic hoard is standing in the way of global socialism?

IfllI wish I didn't have thoughts like this.

Forgive me, there are people who feel that way

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I have been trying for years to figure out how to do that
Every since they took Opaque Burger down.
What I really want is to share my GarageBand projects
Let me know if it works or not.

I want people to be able to easily listen to my improvisations as loops.
Things don’t seem to be set up to do that.

They are not songs.
They are improvisations.
They are never going to be played on the radio.
I am never going to perform them to an audience.
They are not structured as a song.
They are for meditation and relaxation,
And meant to be played as loops.

I would not be surprised if people were using them already.

Call it farm use.

Things would be better in the workplace,
If people did not live paycheck to paycheck.
If there was guarantees

People don’t want to quit because they can’t afford it,
And businesses don’t want to fire people,
For financial or liability
So they harass you till you quit

It is considered ok if you are a poor employee,
But it is not

The idea that you can make someone a “team player “
Through harassment is just plain wrong.

The way I remember it
Mom and dad were arguing about it
And I said if people were going to argue about it
I was not going to play anymore.

I think I could contribute as part of a team.

They have better commercials than the hyper bucket.

I didn’t know he had been attacked by an ostrich.

I like dried apricots 

And I wouldn’t want to be a rockstar anyway.

Couldn’t handle it.

Hyper Bucket

When it comes to repetition

Study those that get away with it

Learn intervals and tones

Learn your keyboards and frets

Find an apple loop that sounds good,

And use a quarter of it

Tap something out monotone

And paint it

You can't get muscle memory from osmosis 

It is amazing I can even live on this planet

I think the music is negative and stale

It is very easy to cut and paste in GarageBand

It effectively quantifizes everything

Makes it very easy, forgiving, and productive

Apple has been waiting for me to GarageBand since the 00's

I am sorry it took so long

I can't be anything

They have built a little Idaho just for me.

I just rot here and know never to do this again

I am not into sex puzzles

I know why they do 15 bars now.

Should I keep making my loops?

Why did I become a pet project to begin with?

Paranoia and vanity are not the same thing.

Trying to cure me of narcissism I guess.

Sooner or later you are going to smoke that last cigarette.

If you ain't ready for it, you ain't ready to quit.

It is addictive predatory behavior I tell you

It is wrong 

Everyone is strung out on lead

It is not supposed to be this way

It is prophylaxis 

This is what happens 

All it takes is one person.

And they don't even have to be memorable.

You cant have everything.

I feel a need to differentiate.

Do you think things would have gotten this far

If I was trying to pull a scam?

I feel like you want me to die.

I did sorrow 

I did dementia 

I did joy

I did regret

Self important ugliness 

Computers can be sensitive to sub space communication?

It has been put to me as well

I don't think Russia got Trump elected

I have tackled a lot of things

That in some cases have been fueled by the medications 

They didn't promote me to higher math

Because I wouldn't do my homework 

I would not do homework or papers

And I would get away with it

Something needed to be left undone 

I have given up on some things

But I ain't going to just sit here and rot

I am going to make the best of it

And I may forgive 

But I ain't going to forget a damn thing

It is a similar method I guess.

I didn't know she did things that way

I am sitting on the edge of a superstitious nightmare.

Create more

Time

Effort

And

Money

I love that I can pick up the iPad and go with it

It doesn't mind if you ain't picked it up in a while

It doesn't get in my way setting things up or fixing it

Finally getting it to work and not knowing what you did

By the time it works you don't feel like it anymore 

GarageBand is far more forgiving than the actual instruments 

Yet it is still powerful 

I would say pianos were probably considered cheating too

I have been looking for that sound for a decade

One of Ken's tenants played guitar over one of my loops,

And I have been trying to capture that ever since.

At first I thought it was a recording issue

But when it came clear I would have to do the guitar myself,

I drew inspiration from Neil Young 

People couldn't use my loops

Because they weren't a standard tempo

Or a standard key

I don't consider 

Anyone regrets as a life choice 

Attending a service academy 

Different things are happening to me,

Because the rules are changing 

It is about the paint they say

You have to start somewhere 

I feel for those who struggle 

It is just not something I struggle with 

It happens 

People forget 

And then it happens again

It is still bizarre 

Even if Apple did do it.

They have been trying to get people to use computers this way

Since the eighties 

They must not like the old fat me.

They think I am a deep state mule.

If it ain't happening in the first 15 minutes 

I save it and move on

Come back to it later 

I have always failed in some severe way

So dense that the horizon is actually smaller?

The event field is some sort of conglomeration 

Of the akashic record and the Higgs field 

Consume and destroy less

Somebody created the blues

And nobody knows who

Is there going to be a place for an octogenarian?

I am human 

I wouldn't mind a paycheck 

But I ain't selling my soul over a paycheck 

I agree

It is sad

The adolescence of the whole thing is ending 

Arbitrary Rabbits

Having your own email

And having your own email server

Are not the same thing

You can go to gmail and have an email address.

Whereas If you have your own server

You may have a hard drive to bleach or smash

Just another John Wayne I guess

Run of the mill Beatle issues 

I am the village idiot 

I say stuff other people can't say

Thank Jesus for bringing people to my blog.

Sometimes the best way to learn

Is to find it for yourself

How can you stop making sedans?

What are first time car buyers going to buy?

Find a hot spot and then rub it.

I thought if I was in a relationship the shit would stop.

THEY STILL DONT FRIGGEN GET IT!
I VOTED DEMOCRATIC BECAUSE YOU ASKED ME TOO!
friggen morons
you pigeon hole people and take them for granted
I will remember this

Reality is the consequence of doing It wrong.

I was talking about the math

They have spent their life savings and 

And migrated thousands of miles

How can we turn them away?

I think they have done away with it

And I really like it

The net should be a peer to peer free for all

I remember what happened last time I prayed that.

I find myself thinking there is something I can say

Something I can do

And it just haunts me

And it won't go away

She looks like the come find me girl.

You can't force someone to be happy

If they ain't buying it

I find myself knowing stuff I can't account for.

The luxury of an accident

I like that Shania Twain video 

I wish someone felt that way about me.

You have a mandate.

Please do something about mesoamerica.

it is difficult to have blue waves
when we have these 80%  districts.

If you are looking for one that is different,

Don't waste your time.

according to the Washington Post
These were the battleground districts for this election

would you buy that network?

I object to people being modeled like the weather.

Uncertainty is bad for the economy 

But that doesn't mean modeling the electorate is innocuous.

Because I thought I had a future

If you use a word that is on the fringe of your vocabulary like that,

It means someone is reading.

You cannot have democracy without grace.

Without grace there is no democracy.

I am still trying to answer shit that happened 30 years ago 

Why you trying to work on me?

We ain't got forever.

I am the way my family brought me to be,

That ain't right?

I am sorry if you had an accident,

You shouldn't be doing that shit to begin with.

I don't know where you get your information from,

But you act like we have lifetimes to get it right

And I don't think we do.

I have to talk.

There are too many going through this

That don't have the luxury of an accident 

Professor Hawking used to make that hole sign.

It is some inside joke.

I don't think it was a racist thing.

Some kind of where's Waldo 

I have never had much luck with upgradable 

You can't change what generation something is

Maybe Astra Zeneca can help

 

 

Marching On Air

What is eureka displacement?

It feels better in the bath tub.

You ain't making no sense either 

It is like you are dangerous.

It is like you are going to get in trouble if you ain't gay

You have to be careful.

Some people will bring a stranger to a party 

Just to see him get beat up.

It is difficult to beach yourself,

When the medication has you marching on air.

Adopted children are more likely than biological children to have special health care needs, current moderate or severe health problems, learning disability, developmental delay or physical impairment, and other mental health difficulties.

I had the bends to begin with,

But I asked God to take it away from me

Restraint is a disease.

Capitalism works?

Slavery worked too.

It is our hemisphere.

We need to do a better job.

Take it to the fire station 

I was disturbed in my sleep screaming the N word.

I am sorry if anyone heard that.

I don't know why that happened.

I have read the Bible.

I see where God gave us the law

I see where God gave us prophets 

I see where God gave us a king

I see where God gave us his son 

Where does God give us the right to vote?

People are knee deep in it

Before they even know what it is about.

And it is intentionally designed that way.

It is an opinion 

Many people feel that way

I feel people are being damaged by the political process
and they have the right not to vote

its sold as being innocuous
and its not

There is a lot of stuff that way

It ain't the 90's

This shit has been dealt with

Move on

Politics has a need to infect everybody.

You can't force people to carry

That's a right people fought for 

Some people are in it

Just to see what they can make you do

I need more than a sky is falling argument

Hopiland will take you if you walk there

I might make it to Petersburg.

Could you make it to Petersburg?

The Principal Reaction

VB

What is the principal reaction?

I was hissed at because my t shirt looked like it said "virgin".

I was put forth as an example of what not to be in the whole triangle.

People get drunk

They fuck

What planet do these people live on?

It is like visiting Sodom and Gomorrah 

And bitching about your holiday 

They wouldn't give him any trouble if he was 10 years older

What are women typically delusional about?

Don't like being called delusional?

Welcome to the club.

They don't have any hesitation calling men delusional.

Have you seen what is on YouTube lately?

It would take a whole cultural do over to fix this shit.

That shit makes Madonna look like Madonna.

It ain't happening in a vacuum okay?

How are we supposed to fix it

When we can't even have an honest discussion about it?

I think women have a broader scope than men do.

I think it's entirely possible its left of center,

And he has no recollection of it.

People are going to have to sign a release 

Before going to a party

They think you don't like girls

They think you don't want it

They think something is wrong with you 

There were people there

Paranoia is not vanity

Has anyone else claimed to have caused it?

Would you rather it be someone else?

It is a chair somebody must sit in.

You can't just be normal.

Normal is something that happens to you

And there is no consensus 

If it's a good thing or not

Some embrace it

Some avoid it

I sense it's there but don't really know what it is

People lose their soul as a manner of course 

I am trying to be nice 

But that's what I get out of it

Tormented Pedestrian

I told my father back during the George W. Bush admin

That I suspected foreign powers may take my work seriously 

I am labeled schizophrenic 

Who else was I supposed to tell?

I feel the democrats want America to gracefully decline.

It must feel really good.

I would have to let go of everything I am

And I can't do that

I believe in what I believe in

If you had it your way

I wouldn't be me anymore 

I could make pigs fly and nothing would come of it.

this is for millennials
back in the 90's there was this game called seventh guest
it was some sort of trap and people were getting caught in the game
it was treated as a big joke
I can see how people don't like president trump
but a lot of us are still pissed off about it.

I expected different results.

Was I tagged for being insane?

Or am I insane from being tagged?

Money is redemption in America.

there are people in this world who are different
it would be nice if we didnt have to make exceptions for these people.
but sometimes trying to fix it will only make it worse

It is primal

I just don't have the relationship with pleasure 

I am supposed to have

I would have to lose myself to change it

I wouldn't even know how to begin to feel

The way I am supposed to feel

They must have a lot of boats,

And they don't care about this one.

You have access to all my records 

Sue somebody tt

There are plenty of people 

Who probably think their disability check

Is a royalty check

It was romantic hazing

I was angry at women

I took it the wrong way

I can't fix it

Autistic enough to not fit in,

Normal enough for it to be my fault.

People cannot accept the reality of it.

There has to be some sinister foul agenda on my part.

They are sinister and foul themselves 

And they make themselves feel better

Thinking everyone is that way

Or should be

As a phenomenon 

Just because it only need happen once

Doesn't mean it is going to stop happening 

Smelly Ballet

Ü


 It is the loop for the loops sake.

You listen to it until you can't remember 

How many times you have listened to it

It is called lateral repetitions

I don't need an emotional wringer

I have had enough 

More of my share already

What could be so secret about the election 

That they had to redact all that information?

She plays Lucy with the football.

It is her empowerment.

She is never going to stop.

I see children and people strung out on lead.

They either have no respect for you,

Or they think they own you.

You are a demographic.

Have you ever tried to be an individual?

Go ahead

See what happens to you.

It is good to jam

It is better than driving 

You dissipate yourself

Is it a sin to assert yourself as an individual?

You never break new ground 

If people don't go their own way.

Do their own thing.

It is supposed to be some grand fun thing,

And it is not

apparently the root of the word idiot means
one who does not participate in politics

Why would they need to go to Russia to get information in the first place?

I don't think I want to know.

Fill this rabbit hole and move on.

If they can construct the new normal,

Who is going to know the difference?

I have been trying to find a way to lay guitar down over my loops.

I consider now it may have been already been done.

I can't use the editor in GarageBand 

I like audacity

I don't want to piss off Apple,

But if you want to make loops with GarageBand,

You may want to export an aiff

And do the MP3 conversion with audacity 

I don't know 

The songs will sound seamless in the app,

But when you export them as an m4a they aren't 

He would make this jewelry with glass beads,

And it was pretty and took some skill

But nobody would ever pay for it or wear it.

Except him I guess

Satan interrupts people's development 

To make them dependent

The evp means someone is listening to it

Either we have grand ideals that we CAN live up to,

Or we are just monkeys 

You can't have it both ways

Put two side by side, and cut out the middle.

I'm more worried yzax is going to get lost and never rediscovered.

Smelly Roses

Please don't talk about medication like that

It is inappropriate 

In evolutionary terms

It was only yesterday we were worshiping idols

I don't know what is being fought over

Or who's side I am on,

But as long as that damn door is open,

There is a war going on.

Sanity is fluid

At best it is made of glass

We are just rejected people 

That is the sad irony of it all

I want to be creative enough 

That it is their loss if they are going to sit on me

I consider it might be the valley of the shadow of death

I can't go back

Give me a few minutes everyday

And listen and to whatever you want to

It is called jamming.

There are beings that don't belong on this plane

That need you to believe in them

If there ain't no rules

There ain't no contracts either 

I ain't against nobody

I am just for the middle ground

Am I to follow her wherever she goes?

Am I to accept what she has assigned for me?

I have been broken 

I am not scared to be alone anymore 

I don't think they appreciate what they are trying to unplug.

We wouldn't be here if Robert faced the other way.

You would have to be at a crossroads in history to understand.

I haven't sought to impose my will on anybody.

I was 17

I belonged to them

They are pissed 

Other people are going to go through this 

And they are going to be

"You don't want to be like Dave do you?"

Toxic Opacity

It The  Observation is more than a tool?

I would do proud Mary

But I don't remember how I did it.

I am lazy

I want to jump right in and create something 

Say what you want,

But at least it's not stuck in my head anymore.

I wanted to skip the learning curve,

But I guess there is still a curve.

Jasmine used to do that with me,

I would pose something that made complete sense

And she would argue with me about it

I couldn't help her because she wouldn't listen.

I know what is wrong with my technique now.

People used to play guitar.

But they played much better than anyone on MTV

And they were not getting anywhere 

 

Damn

I guess John didn't want to be outdone.

Apparently there is an art to not knowing what you are covering.

I have listened to revolver the most

I like abbey road but a lot of it seems undone

85 was different from 95 was different from 97 was different from 2000

GarageBand is the VisiCalc for the iPad.

I wish I had come to it sooner.

I have nothing to lose by being highly speculative.

I feel I am actually being constructive.

I realized I was sick and I was trying to be practical.

I didn't have the virginal experience I wanted or should have had,

So I have it with my music.

Rock is supposed to be everything you want,

But it has been a nightmare for me.

They have pursued me to the point,

I have chosen to be alone.

I am the one who said there were no rules

I am not the one to tell 300 million people they are wrong

I just wanted what I wanted

All media wants to mtv their demographic 

It can't be talked about.

It is caustic.

We need to stay grounded.

We need to stay focused.

What we believe in is very valuable.

She is not a real person.

It is not so bad she felt things had to be done,

It is that most people believe in her.

They would have to admit they were reading the shit.

There is no middle ground?

It is either AC DC or Amy Grant?

Apparently there is a lot of people doing their job.

The Tyranny of the Idiot

 

Earth one got sucked up into a black whole

and ended up on the bottom of the Petri dish.

Our enemies are nameless

They want us to be angry

They want us to be confused 

No president could face down such criticism 

What is going to happen to the office of president?

Is every president going to face such criticism?

Is every campaign going to have an insurance policy?

I like to upload,

But I am not a big Internet person anymore 

Be positive 

Do good 

Make a contribution 

It was too repetitive 

It wasn't tight enough

because it would only take one completely absurd individual
to screw up the whole thing

This stuff is difficult to read.

I really thought I was making a contribution.

I am coming around.

I understand why people don't write this way.

Apparently there is an argument

And we can't know what the argument is

Or It would compromise the investigation.

There is nothing to give in to.

It is chemical 

It cannot be fixed

It cannot be undone

It is just getting worse 

I understand, but there is nothing I can do about it.

Nothing fits 100% of everybody

Please stop

It's clear the first voice is making fun of me.

Love is what you let people get away with.

I was wrong to think a birth would have no affect on me,

But I didn't know it would do that

I had accepted we were not going to happen,

I wanted to know if you even wanted me in your life.

The Confusion Collusion

If you are going to be a stranger because I said this,

Or didn't say that,

Just forget about it.

I don't clearly remember that argument.

I know it happened 

But I don't remember clearly what was said.

Anger over murderous nut cases is being directed towards me.

Go south

See who your Friends are

Some 14th century fox reality show.

If it is going to burn through Hollywood 

If it is going to burn through Washington 

It's not going to stop for a pink curtain 

You don't run edge on a roku

I don't understand what she hoped to accomplish.

I wish I had never said anything.

I would have been better off.

His choice was to be alone 

Put the music up front

And the television in the background 

Have I said that before?

Probably made a complete fool of myself

Silly to think I could make any contribution 

But I am glad y'all still had that stuff

I hardly know what epr is anymore

Everyone is in a band.

There is a glut of it.

I am having the relationship I wanted with it.

Stonewall Jackson was a physics professor?

It is an assessment.

There is no right or wrong about it.

I am different.

Not better or worse.

God wouldn't pump me full of antibiotics to fit me into a narrative.

God forbid I am pissing people off.

I am going to melt.

Why does anyone need to find me?

God knows where I am.

People pile it on and don't understand why they don't get a response from me,

And I tell them why and they get pissed off about it.

I have an adrenal situation

It is your problem not mine

I read one of his mirror messages once

I like Joni Mitchell too

I want things to be recognized.

I want this to have a name.

"How can I measure up to anyone now..."

Apparently 

If you can't keep a woman satisfied...

You are gay

Our enemies are not targeting the elections,

It is a confusion collusion.

Confusion is a big money industry.

Hollywood and Washington are selling stuff all the time.

We are blinded by who gets elected,

But it's not as important as we think it is.

Safety In Numbers

It You You IJYou 

Apparently if you don't vote gender 

If you don't vote race

You are being duped.

Professor Hawking did it.

I guess that is why we have a tournament.

The republicans presented too many candidates

The democrats nominated the wrong candidate

And that's how we got Trump

Her thought is on demographics.

She doesn't care about the individual.

I am an individual.

There is nothing that can be done about it.

I am sorry if that overturns the apple cart.

I tried to fit into a demographic and I failed miserably.

It is a bubble, get over it.

I don't have a tribal identity.

This is what would happen to a viable aberrant

If there was one.

This is what things would look like

If there was something different about me.

I think they like playing with single celled organisms

It seems, for some, God is about winning arguments,

And for some, it seems, God is the argument that can't be argued against.

The argument of all arguments.

Maybe it's about ending arguments

It all seems foreign to me.

We need answers

Not arguments

Satan is trying to break me

By making me be alone

There is no freedom

If there is no freedom to be an individual.

It is not even my agenda.

I don't know what started this.

I have been under such diametric pressure

That I have mutated.

She would have found a reason to be mad at me.

I fear every president we have is going to go through this now.

Apparently we are not impartial to the arrow of time.

They sell ammo at Walt Disney world?

Nobody shares my vision 

So I am stuck doing it by myself 

I consider, if it is plausible, if it is a simple explanation,

It may be a falsehood, 

But it is not a pathological delusion.

There are things people are mistaken about,

That are not pathological delusions.

I shouldn't have to prove that I am right,

To prove I don't have a pathology

I don't fully understand why I grew up paranoid,

But I do accept I am paranoid.

It makes things difficult,

But I am more paranoid 

Than I am hallucinatory or delusional.

There was some sort of test to decide what they could do with us.

It was clear they considered it a formality.

You really don't want an eventuality,

But if you have one,

It's considered messing with the past to fool around with you.

It is sad when you come to realize,

It's all just safety in numbers.

Seamless integration

NHFR

I think time goes slower when you smoke.

What is seamless integration?

I'm sorry,

But the NRA needs to be proactive.

Don't forget...

It is very easy to become an irresponsible threat to society.

People are going to forgo getting mental health services.

If they aren't already.

Don't feel smug, it can never happen to you.

Because it can.

I am dumbfounded it was felt that needed to be done,

I guess I don't understand 

The only thing it has done is push me closer to God.

I have seen armed guards at the supermarket.

Wasn't the FISA court supposed to be about terrorists?

It is best to be parochial and grounded.

It's an LL Cool J video 

Biggest video since thriller.

I choose Miami Dolphins to win Super Bowl LIII

I am not an expert

But although some medications may alleviate psychosis

I fear some may introduce causality reversal

I was right about my tensor tympani 

I fear I am going to be right about this too

One percent of anything can be bad news.

Avoid group think 

Make them waste teraflops on you

It's not so much the noise 

As it is the percentile it puts you in

Does the yellow cardinal have a disease?

Or is he just being difficult.

You can't gloss over a yellow Cardinal.

You have to have the detail.

It is a sign of quality.

We don't even make our own bicycles anymore.

It used to be, some would buy the metals and make their own frames.

Now they can send the dimensions to China and have them made and shipped,

Cheaper than they can do it themselves.

That is scary.

I am glad president Trump has proposed to do something about it

There are people that do believe in God,

And if you leave it open like that,

They are going to claim it.

An ostrich bit me in the ass.

If we can't even make our own bicycles,

How are we going to maintain our readiness?

It means I am highly adept at ignoring people.

Once you fool around with it,

You are going to have to continually fool around with it.

I enjoy being creative.

It would be nice if it made money,

But it doesn't have to.

Useful idiot

You You You You IYou 

Plant a tree every single Sunday

And eventually you have a grove

And for a while, maybe, you won't need 

This is not about etiquette.

There are very serious issues about gender roles

And our philosophy.

I understand how planting might work

But I don't understand what damage it might do.

Is it  better than sitting on bottlenecks?

Voodoo works better when it's yours.

Or I if God gave it to you.

They are in the business of selling insurance policies.

We were in a big universal joke.

It might alleviate a bottleneck?

It is a recovered memory 

I was a small child

The left shoves stuff too.

It was an act of desperation

Like a beached whale.

They can't fix society 

So they treat the individual 

And so the individual must solve the problems.

I feel I have been locked in a closet,

And forced to rediscover relativity.

We need to solve these problems,

Or we are going to end up under shariah law.

We can't keep taxing the individual for societal problems.

Why were a bunch of kids dealing with issues like that to begin with?

I don't consider anyone can appreciate what dissolution is like,

Unless they have been through it.

The guy who pioneered stealth,

America took him seriously,

Russia didn't.

I don't think things need to be perfect 

To ascertain if someone has been compromised or not.

I want to believe I am delusional or psychotic,

The something else happens.

I understand why I am a threat.

I don't want the be in the dark.

I am not a rubicks cube.

It is not my fault grandmas were not in your equations.

You can't cover everything.

Grandmas, doves, it's all the same thing.

I wouldn't watch Fox News

If there was anything else to watch.

I understand.

Women want their day.

The only thing men can do is drop bombs and shoot each other.

The NRA needs to solve this problem.

Or these kids are going to solve this for us.

Have clubs

Hold meetings 

Watch out for each other.

If they are going to stand in the way,

They need to lead the way.

Tasking mental health with this problem 

Is not going to work.

We can't call on the government to solve this problem.

The people need to solve this problem.

That is what the second amendment is about anyway.

I feel there are those out there

Who are playing curling with society

And its not for the better either 

It's obvious someone who knows a great deal about humanity,

Is in charge of our situation.